Fear is The Enemy
By: .Cute
CHAPTER ELEVEN
Disclaimer: (plays dramatic music) When we last saw Light and L, Light had been activated by Aziz. What's gonna happen? What will L do? Why am I asking you these questions?! Find out...now! I do not own Death Note or anything else! Enjoy!
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"It was nearly impossible for Dustin to hope when..." Holding the cell phone to his ear, Light responded with, "There wasn't anything to hope for." L glanced at Light from the corner of his eye, licking hot chocolate sauce off his spoon. The younger man seemed to be staring at something on the floor, his entire expression blank and void of emotion, which was a rare thing considering Light was almost always full of emotion. "Light Yagami, Misa tells me you're handcuffed to the detective L. Tell me if this is true." "It's true."
L dropped his spoon in his now empty bowl. He wanted to ask Light who was on the phone but...'He might get upset that I'm prying into his personal life. But Raito-kun is suspected to be Kira. It's in my every right as an investigator to question him.' "So L's with you right now. Well, this is gonna be fun. Light, I want you to turn to L and repeat these words: 'Martie Rhodes.' Then, you'll bring the phone back to your ear. Tell me if you understand." Light cocked his head ever so slightly to the right. "I understand." "Good. Now tell him." L couldn't take it anymore and his curiosity won out over his growing fear. "Raito-kun?" Light turned towards L, his face still expressionless. "Who are you talking to on the phone? Is it Amane-san?" Light didn't answer. He just stared into L's eyes for a moment. L blinked. "Raito-kun?"
"Martie Rhodes." L's entire body froze for a moment before he relaxed, his body now sinking into the leather seat of the limousine. His face mirrored Light exactly, completely unemotional. "I'm listening." Aziz smirked on the other line, begin able to hear both L and Light. " Repeat this Light: The worst lay ahead and Martie...' to L." Light and L faced each other, completely unaware of what was happening. "The worst lay ahead and Martie..." L finished the activation quote. "Was unable to see the most of it." Aziz, Kira, was now in complete control of both Light Yagami and the detective L. "Light, tell L to fall asleep until further instructions." Light did so and as soon as the words left Light's mouth, L was fast asleep in the car, laying slightly to his side. "Tell me if he's sleep." "He is asleep."
Aziz sighed happily from his leather chair. 'Perfect. Life is simple perfect right now.' "Now Light. Listen to me very carefully. You're girlfriend, Misa Amane, has been very helpful to me. Really, I don't know where I'd be without her. But, unfortunately, she's becoming too much of a burden for me. So, I've decided that you're going to be my next puppet." Light didn't answer. He just continued to stare at L. "Tell me where you are Light." "The limousine." "A car? Tell we where you are going." Light opened his mouth, about to tell Aziz the truth, that they were going to go to the doctors to get L checked out. "We're going to get L some cake. He likes cake." But he didn't tell Aziz the truth. "I see. Nothing we can do with that, unfortunately." Aziz bit gently on his bottom lip, deep in thought. He wanted to have some fun with L but it seemed like he'd have to wait. 'Well, at least I still have Misa, if only for a little while longer.'
"Okay Light. When I hang up the phone, you'll tell L that when he wakes up, he'll have no memory of what just happened. He'll only remember asking you who was on the phone. And then, at the same time, you'll wake up from your activation as well, with no memory of what happened between us, and tell L that Misa was on the phone. Tell me if you understand Light." "I understand." "Good-bye Light." "Good-bye." Light hung up the phone and turned to L again. "Wake up L. You will not remember any of this. You will only remember asking me who was on the phone." L's eyes suddenly opened and he turned to Light. "Who are you talking to on the phone? Is it Amane-san?"
Light sighed unhappily and put his cell phone away. "Yeah, it was Misa." L nodded, then turned towards the window. Light hesitated, something nagging at the back of his mind. "L?" "Hmm?" Light hesitated again, not quite understanding where the thought came from, but he had to voice it. "After we're done at the doctor's, can we go get some cake?" L raised an eyebrow and turned to face Light. "Cake? Why would Raito-kun what cake when he's voiced many times before that he didn't enjoy sweets?" Light shook his head. "I don't know. I just...had a feeling that we should go get cake." "Well, if Raito-kun wants to get cake, then I can't really argue. After the doctor's, we'll go get cake."
Light nodded and then turned to face his window, as did L. They didn't speak to each other after that until they got to the hospital but...something was wrong. Like the feeling at the Investigation Headquarters, both L and Light felt something dark looming over their heads, as if some great evil were watching them. Without realizing it, L moved closer to Light slightly. The amber glow of anxiety were slowly growing to full flames of fear and L didn't want to feel that fear again, no matter how illogical it was.
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(Flashforward-Did Light just lie to Aziz? Hmmm. I wonder why. ((evil smirk)) I know why!!! Also, I didn't know if psychiatrist's office is at a hospital. So correct me if I'm wrong.)
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"The psychiatrist will see you now Mr..." L stood up, as did Light. His black hair now had a few tints of blue mixed in and his onyx eyes were now bright blue. Light's hair was still his normal color, but his eyes were now blue as well. "It's Kaori Tanaka." The nurse looked again at the papers in her hands and nodded. "Yes, I'm sorry. If you'll just follow me." L looked at Light who nodded and together, they followed her into a nicely decorated office. Mahogany-paneled, bookshelves neatly dusted, three comfy looking arm chairs in the middle of the room, Light decided that he approved of the decor. The nurse motioned towards the chairs with a smile. "You can sit if you want to. The doctor will be here in a moment." Then she left.
L sat down in one of the arm chairs and raised his thumb to his lips. But Light didn't sit. He remained standing, looking out the single window. "Raito-kun, sit." Light shot a glare at the older man, not liking the orderly tone in his voice but quickly shook it away when L froze in fear. He smiled softly and sat down next to L. "Sure L. I'll sit, no problem." L took in a breath and nodded slightly, trying to control his emotions. Light mentally sighed and turned his vision back to the window. 'Damn this is hard.' Light was normally able to show his anger without restraint but now, he had to keep it under close watch thanks to L and his panic attacks. Light stole a glance at L and noticed the man was chewing on his nail, something he did when he was hiding his feelings.
Sighing, Light turned to L with a smile, trying to lighten the mood. "So how'd you find this guy anyways?" L shrugged and removed his thumb from his lips long enough to say, "He was the closest psychiatrist to Headquarters." Then the thumb was back. Light frowned and was about to say something when the door to the office opened and a thin man with greying hair and glasses walked into the room. Light stood up, as did L. The doctor smiled and shook both of their hands. "Hello, I'm Dr. Hayashi." The three of them sat down and Dr. Hayashi nodded towards L, ignoring the odd way the man sat. "You must be Kaori Tanaka." "Yes." L motioned towards Light. "And this is my dear friend Rai Nakamura." (A/N: All names are randomly pick out of a hat. I'm not kidding. I have it in my hands right now.) "And how is he related to the problem?" Light looked at L, then at the doctor. "I've been trying to help him deal with these panic attacks that he's been having." "I see. And what is the problem, exactly?"
L squared his shoulders back as far as his hunched back would allow him and went into unemotional detective mode, telling Dr. Hayashi his problems as if telling someone the current weather. "It seems that I am showing sighs of a mental condition known as Angrophobia, as well as Autophobia." Dr. Hayashi narrowed his eyes and nodded. "Fear of anger. What condition is your autophobia, there is more than one." Light spoke up at this. "He's afraid to be alone." Dr. Hayashi's eyes went wide, making him look like some creepy doctor bug. "Really..." He was silent for a moment, thinking this fact over before he asked, "Mr. Nakamura, would you mind following me outside for a moment. I need to discuss something with you."
Light blinked, not expecting that and stood up. "Ah, sure." L was about to stand up a well when Dr. Hayashi stopped him. "Not you Mr. Tanaka. I need to speak with Mr. Nakamura." The doctor smiled. "You just stay here. We'll be right back." L's eyes went wide and he looked over to Light, panic starting to take over. Light shrugged. "It's okay Kaori. I'll be right back." Dr. Hayashi started to usher Light out of the room and then, much to L's horror, the door closed and he was alone in the office. Alone. Outside the office, Light kept glancing at the office door, his face printed with worry. "Dr. Hayashi, should we really be leaving Kaori alone in there? He'll have another attack if he's left alone." The doctor nodded. "That's the idea Mr. Nakamura. In order to fully identify Mr. Tanaka's problem, I'll have to see an attack." Light frowned, not agreeing with the doctor but he held his tongue. He turned back to the door, his worry growing fast.
Back in the office, L's wide eyes were growing wider and his grip on his knees growing tighter. He tried calming himself down. 'You're fine! Just because you're alone doesn't mean anything! Stop acting like a fool!' But this didn't work and L found that it was getting harder and harder to breath, as if the room was full of steam. The voice of doubt was back and L tried vainly to ignore it by pressing his face into his knees. 'You're alone L. And now, you're going to die!' L's heart skipped a beat and he dug his nails painfully into knees. 'That's right! You're gonna die! You're gonna die!' 'No!' L suddenly jumped to his feet, the office room spinning. He grabbed the sides of his head and clenched his eyes shut. "I don't want to die," he whispered. "I don't want to die!" 'YOU'RE GOING DIE!!'
L shook his head roughly and, with tears starting to form in his eyes, did the only thing that came to him during this attack: "RAITO-KUN!!!" Light's eyes went wide and he grabbed the door handle, but Dr. Hayashi stopped him. "No, we need for his attack to reach a full time high. And you're name isn't 'Raito-kun'." Light stared at the doctor as if he'd grown a second head. "Wait?! Kaori is screaming and you're telling me to wait?!" Light glared at the man with pure hatred. "He needs me and Raito-kun is just a pet name."
"RAITO-KUN!!! I DON'T WANT TO DIE!!" Light felt a hand on his shoulder. "Just a few more minutes Mr. Nakamura..." Light shook his shoulder away and almost punched the man right there. "Sorry doctor, but you can go fall in a ditch for all I care." Light then grabbed the door handle and flung the door open. "Kaori!" Light was shocked to see L standing in the office shaking uncontrollably and quickly moved over to him. "Kaori...Ryuzaki..." So full of relief and a new fear that he'd be left alone again, L threw his arms around Light's shoulders and buried his face into his neck, sobbing. "I don't want to die Raito-kun, I don't want to die." Light recovered very quickly from his shock and wrapped his arms around L's waist. "It's alright Ryuzaki."
L's next words drove a sharp pain directly into Light's heart. "You promised Raito-kun. You said you wouldn't leave me alone. You promised." Light's face dropped with sadness and he held onto L tighter, bringing him in closer. " I know. I'm sorry Ryuzaki. I'm sorry." Light sighed and closed his eyes, that strange feeling returning yet again. 'What is this feeling? Damn, I don't need this now. L needs me and I can't be distracted with this crazy emotion, whatever it is.' "I swear L I won't ever leave you alone again." L was still shaking but his tears were gone now, now that he wasn't alone anymore. And the voice was gone as well, gone back to the back of L's mind. "Don't leave me alone Raito-kun. I don't want to be alone."
From the door, Dr. Hayashi studied the two carefully. Then he took out a small notebook from his pocket and a pen. "Problem Identified: Patient shows sighs of extreme autophobia. More test will be conducted to prove the latter suspected problem: Angorphobia." Light felt his glare return at the doctor's words. He'd be damned if he let L spend even a little bit more of his time with this freaky doctor. 'Freaky doctor.' L finally pulled back from Light's embrace slightly, his face hidden by his hair. He still had a death grip on Light's shoulders but he wasn't clinging to man anymore.
"Rai." L seemed to have finally remembered Light's fake name. "I want to go." Light nodded, all to happy to get out of the building and away from Dr. Hayashi. "Alright." He turned to the doctor as the two started to exit the room. "We'll call you so don't call us." Dr. Hayashi frowned, made some mumbled comment about young people and closed the door. Light rolled his eyes and held onto L's waist tighter. "He's such a freak." L didn't answer. He just really wanted to leave and get to that cake Light had mentioned earlier. Strawberry cake.
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A/N: Yay! Poor L (sighs) You just want to hug him and tell him everything's okay. But you can't! Ha ha! Anywho, I hoped you liked this chapter and look out for Chapter Twelve, coming soon to a near you! Review please!! ^_^ See ya!