A/N: Hey thanks for the reviews and yeah sorry for the Jake/Jack fluff in the last chapter but it had to happen and also for killing off Billy……but this chapter is very important so pay very close attention…..this what pretty much changes every bodies lives and yeah Bella is this chapter sorry
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Abandoned
Jake stared at the open casket in front of him he just couldn't believe that he was burying his father, he never thought that this could ever happen to him; first it was his mother and baby brother and now it was his father. He looked around everybody was there his fathers friends and close family, Charlie was also there and shockingly Bella was also there. She never knew his father, I mean she did know him but not a lot just from afar.
He had E.J. in his arms, the kid was smiling. He is too little to understand what's going on, its just sad that he wouldn't get to know his grandfather. Life is just isn't fair, life always found a way to make him miserable, I mean almost every good thing in his life has gone.
He just couldn't take it, it was all just too much. He just couldn't take it anymore, he turned to Jack and handed him E.J. "Here take him" he said then took off running ignoring the stares that he was receiving.
He ran, running always calmed him down. It was one of the things that he enjoyed, it always made him feel better.
He didn't know where he was going but he just needed to leave to get away from everybody back there, he almost tripped on a branch that was on the forest floor but caught himself. He looked around his surroundings and frowned where did he go.
The place looked awfully familiar, then it hit him it's the meadow, it's the meadow where he and Edward used to go to. The place that always made him feel better at the end, he shook his head why did he come here? Why did life bring him here now?
He turned around to leave "There you are?" said the too familiar velvet voice. He turned around and found Edward sitting on a rock, "Sorry didn't mean to come here, I was just leaving" he said. He turned to leave again but Edward stood up from the rock "Why do you always do that?" he said. Jake turned around to face him and frowned "Do what?" he said confused.
He scratched his nose, Edward loved that about him he was just too cute when he was confused. "Why do you always push me away?" he said, Jake opened his mouth to say something but Edward beat him "I mean you talk to Jasper, Rosalie, Emmett, Alice, my parents to everyone but me" he said sadly.
Jake looked away "Maybe I'm just scared" he said, Edward frowned "Scared about what?" he said. Jake turned to him with tears in his eyes "Maybe I'm just scared that you'll hurt me again, I lost you once as a lover it'll just hurt if I lost you as a friend" he said brokenly.
(A/N: Ouch the friend card….lol)
Edward looked pained for a moment he nodded "Ah the friend card I see" he said, Jake sighed a few tears escaping his eyes "Edward, I have Jack now, if you can't be friends then maybe we can't see each other" he said. He turned to leave "No, we could be friends I mean I wont like it but I would like to be there for you" he said.
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It's been two days since the funeral. Jake was up in his room its what he has been doing all day just in his room, he couldn't see anyone at the moment it was just all too much and too painful. He just couldn't bare it, he can't go downstairs it would make it more real that his father wasn't coming back.
It would just make it official that his father Billy Black was indeed dead. He was with his mother and baby now.
He stood up from his bed making his way towards his window, he needed to take another un it would numb his pain.
Jack was downstairs with E.J., Leah, Seth, Sam were also there keeping them company. Emily wasn't there due to Leah who didn't want to see her, she was still hurt that Sam was with her. Of all people that he could've imprinted with he had to it with her with her sister.
Jack looked down at the sleeping E.J. who was currently using him as a pillow. He gently took E.J. off him and gently placed him on the couch, he just had a bad feeling. He had the bad feeling ever since Billy died, he went up the stairs wanting to see Jake. He wanted to know that he was ok.
When he entered his room his eyes widened he was gone, his window was open letting the cold wind into the room. He shook his head "Damn he's out on a run again" he said. He had to find him and soon, it jus wasn't healthy on what he was doing. He wasn't letting or showing any emotion since the funeral it was like he completely shut down that day.
He left the room and went back downstairs "Hey Sam please call Jasper and tell them that Jake is gone again ok?" he said then left the Black Home in search for Jake.
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Jake was in the woods running, the clouds started to rear its ugly head but that wasn't going to stop him.
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Jasper and the Cullens were in the woods trying to find Jake, the call from Sam pretty much scared all of them, they knew that Jake had shut down. They knew that it wasn't healthy on what he was doing, not showing any emotion.
"Ok this isn't going no where, we should split up" said Esme, the others nodded then went in separate directions.
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Jack was running in the woods in wolf form trying to find Jake faster, his ears perked up when he heard someone fall or trip onto the floor. Well with the pouring rain it heard more of a splash. He ran towards the noise then turned back into human form, he different from the wolfs around here he didn't need to bring cloths with him in a bag he would have them on already when he would turn back into human form.
There on the floor was Jake, he ran to him kneeling down next to him "Don't touch me" yelled Jake. Jack flinched "Jake baby what's wrong?" he said worriedly. Jake shook his head "It's just all too much" he said his voice breaking. Jack looked worriedly at him "Then let out" he said, Jake shook his head no "All my life I've being stepped on" he said.
Jack pulled him in into a hug "Jake showing any emotion doesn't make you look weak, we all cry and hurt its normal" he said trying to dump some sense into his younger lover. Jake sobbed "It's all too much, I can't take everyone is leaving me" he said.
Jack frowned "No, were all here for you baby" he said his voice breaking as well, it just hurt him to see him in so much pain. Jake cried even harder "But in some way the people that I care about leave me, I mean first my mother, my two sisters, Edward, and now my dad" he said crying even more.
"I will never leave you" he said, Jake looked up at him "You promise?" he said he sounded so broken that it pained him to see him like this, Jack nodded "Yes, I do I love you Jake" he said.
A mysterious gust of wind blew in making them both shiver, Jake gasped "Oh my god" he said, he couldn't believe his eyes. There not too far from them stood his father in the rain drenched as well.
Jack fallowed his gaze and gasped, Jake looked at him "Do you see him?" he said, Jack nodded. Jake stood up getting out of Jack's grasp, he stood up and ran towards his father "Dad, dad wait!" he yelled.
Jack stood up "Jake, Jake!" he yelled.
BANG!
"JAKE!" he yelled, he ran towards where his lover had gone, he just wished that it wasn't on what he thought. Jake stood there his back towards Jack, he stumbled a bit he turned around and faced Jack, Jack looked in horror he saw blood, blood.
Jake stumbled then fell onto Jack's arms "Jake" he said his voice breaking, Jake looked up at him he was in shock. His blinked a few times, tears streaming down his cheeks mixing with the salty rain. Jake opened his mouth to say something but nothing came out, he blinked a few times, Jack cried harder "No! please don't" he said. Jake looked sadly at him then he closed his eyes, his head falling down, Jack cried harder bringing Jake closer to him.
He looked up and saw two hunters with guns they looked in shock, he looked down at Jake again brining his body closer to his "NO!" he yelled.
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OMFG! It can't be please say it isn't so, Jake can't be dead.