Fear is The Enemy
By: .Cute
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
Disclaimer: Wow. Chapter Thirteen is here. Never thought I could get this far. Huh. Anywho, I've been getting lots of reviews and I feel so loved. You guys totally rock! ^_^ But now, it's time for Chapter Thirteen. OOCness, hints of Yaoi and language!!! (gasp) Bad words!!!!!! I hope you like it! Enjoy! ^_^
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But Misa's last words fell on deaf ears. Light's cell phone had been turned off while he and L went to the hospital. Besides, if the Investigation Team needed L, they could call him on his cell phone. "Raito-kun has been very quite since we've left the hospital." Light looked up from the restaurant's floor in mild surprise and gave L a small smile. "Yeah, I guess I have been quite huh?" L took a bite out of his strawberry shortcake, staring at Light with his onyx eyes. The handcuffs had been taken off during the doctor's appointment and L had yet to put them back on so there was nothing holding Light to the detective.
"Is there a reason for Raito-kun's sudden mood change? He was certainly quite emotional in the doctor's office." Light sighed, a small frown beginning to mar his features. "That doctor had no idea what he was talking about." The frown deepened and Light's voice began to raise slightly in anger. "I mean, he could hear you screaming and when I told him I had to go in and help you, he told me not to go in. What kind of doctor does that? I mean, if you're screaming my name and you need me, you know that I'm going to be there. Only someone completely heartless would just sit and listen to someone's cries to terror." L watched Light silently and took another bite out of his cake.
A strange feeling was spreading through his body, one that made L shift his his chair uncomfortably. It wasn't fear or panic. It was a new feeling and L, afraid that this feeling might be something unwanted, quickly stored it away, locking it up tight so it could be examined later. Light noticed L's uneasy shift and turned to face him directly. "Hey? You okay?" L looked away from Light and turned his gaze to his slice of cake. Words were waiting on the tip of his tongue and L wanted to say them right. "Raito-kun...is angry." Light nodded but then quickly said, "Not at you Ryuzaki. I'm just mad at the doctor, that's all." L nodded as well. "I know Raito-kun's not angry with me. He's upset at the doctor for upsetting me." Light raise an eyebrow. "Well, yeah. Why wouldn't I be upset?" Light crossed his arms over the table. Where was L going with this?
L didn't answer the question. He just continued to speak. "Raito-kun cares about my well being." Light frowned slightly. "Ryuzaki, what's this all about?" Again, L didn't answer him and Light felt his usual anger start to build up within him. L wasn't answering him and Light wanted answers and he wanted them now. But he had to swallow down his anger, for L's sake. He didn't want the detective to have another panic attack. So Light took in a deep breath and closed his eyes, trying to calm himself down. L felt that unknown feeling starting to spread again, almost like a virus, and L found that he was having a hard time keeping it locked away. 'He's trying,' he thought suddenly. 'He's trying help me. He cares.'
Light opened his eyes to see L staring straight at him, his unemotional gaze set on Light and only Light. Light shift slightly in his seat, starting to feel like a piece of evidence. "What?" L's gaze didn't falter. His cake momentarily forgotten, L answered Light softly. "Raito-kun cares for my well being. He's angry at someone who caused me mental anguish." Light's eyes grew wide as he heard L's words. "I've never had someone, besides Watari, who cared." A faint blush graced L's features and, obliviously embarrassed, L finally tore his gaze away from Light and re-focused it to his cake. "It's nice, having someone who cares." Light could feel his stomach start to do flips again, like it did when he was in the hospital comforting L. But it wasn't a bad feeling. It was actually kinda nice.
Light smiled suddenly and let out a small chuckle. L's head shot up, panic filling him as his body tensed. He didn't open up like that to just anyone and he didn't want Light judging him or making fun of his normally covered up feeling. Maybe he'd made a mistake in trusting Light. Light didn't seem to notice L's reaction and kept his smile in place. "Of course I care Ryuzaki. I wouldn't be here if I didn't care." L's panic slowly started to ebb away as he listened to Light. Light went on. "I wouldn't have gone to that crazy doctor with you if I didn't care. And on that subject, I don't think you should see that man anymore. He's weird." Light rested his head in his hand. "We're going to have to find you a different psychologist." "Raito-kun?" Light looked back at L. "Hmm?"
L stared at Light for a moment before shocking the younger man with a small smile. "Your concern is very much appreciated Raito-kun." It took Light a few seconds before he smiled back. "No problem Ryuzaki." It was even more of a surprise to Light went L pushed away the remains of his cake. "It would be best if we returned to Headquarters. I'm afraid that we've been gone for an half an hour too long." "Really?" Light pushed back his sleeve and checked his watch. It was almost one. They were suppose to only be gone until twelve. "Crap. You're right. We'd better get going." "I know I'm right." L got up from the table and started for the exit, Light by his side. "Hopefully, Mr. Yagami and the rest of the Team won't be too upset by our absences."
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L couldn't have been more wrong. After L had re-cuffed Light to him, they entered the investigation room to find a very angry looking Aizawa and Soichiro and a very confused looking Matsuda. L only hesitated for a split second before he tried to act like nothing was wrong. "I'm sorry for our tardiness everyone. Raito-kun's date with Misa lasted longer than was expected." Light was silent as he took in the expressions around him. 'Something's up.' Matsuda scratched the back of his head nervously. "Umm...Ryuzaki?"
L waited until he and Light were seated before he answered the man. "Yes Matsuda-san?" Matsuda seemed reluctant to answer so Aizawa took over. "We know you weren't with Misa Ryuzaki." Light's eyes widen with surprise and L tensed up at the harsh tones in Aizawa's voice. "And what makes you say that, Aizawa-san?" Aizawa glared at L harshly and held up the bundle Misa had left them in his hand. "She came by today while you and Light were gone. She wanted to give you this." L glanced behind his shoulder to look at Misa's gift and then he was back to the computer. "I see." Soichiro decided to speak up. "Ryuzaki. We can't work with you if you continue to lie to us."
Light shot a glare at Aizawa and his father. They were going to cause L to have another attack and the detective couldn't handle that much stress in one day. L's grip on his knees suddenly grew tighter and he lowered his head so his eyes were hidden by his black hair. Unable to recognize the signs of L's stress, Aizawa went on yelling. "How can you expect us to work with you when you're gonna lie to us?!" L couldn't stop the small tremble that ran through his body at Aizawa's harsh tones and Light had to stop himself from telling Aizawa to shut up. So instead, he just reached out and placed a comforting hand on L's shoulder, which L accepted gratefully. 'Keep it together, lock it inside.'
L's thoughts were rushed through his mind at a hundred miles per second. He couldn't let the Team know of his phobias or else they'd kick him off the case. He couldn't let that happen or else he'd never find Kira and prove Light's innocents. He had to keep his fear in check. He had to! "Aizawa-san," L interrupted, his voice shaking only slightly. "I will not deny lying to you and the rest of the Team. As it turned out, there was an important matter that needed to be taken care of that does not concern you or Yagami-san or Matsuda-san." Light smirked at Aizawa's expression. 'Priceless.' L went on. "If the matter becomes something in need of your concern, I dare say I will inform you of it a soon as possible. Never the less, it doesn't concern you now so I see no need to inform you on it. And if it's all the same with you, I would like your attention to be not focused on mine or Raito-kun's actions, but on the Kira Case." L finally looked up and stared at everyone in the room. "Does anyone have a problem with that?"
Silence. L nodded curtly. "I thought not. Now, if we could get back to the Kira Case." Slowly, the Team all went back to their work, only casting the occasional glare or confused glance at L and Light. But even though L seemed like the same L as before, Light could see that L was having a hard time dealing with his fear. And Aizawa wasn't helping him out at all. Light glared at his computer screen and typed at his keyboard a little too harshly. 'Aizawa can be such an damn pain. Yelling at my L, causing an attack.' Light shook his head, sighing softly. 'Bastard.' Light slowed his typing down a bit and a frown reached his face.
'Wait. Did I just address L as mine?!' He stopped typing and pretended to go over some papers as he replayed his previous thoughts. L wasn't his! And Light was pretty sure that he didn't want L. Light glanced at L through the corner of his eye. The detective was still curled up in his chair but when he noticed Light looking at him, he started to relax and even offered Light a very small smile. Light suddenly felt his heart give off a sudden jerk. A blush spread across his face, along with that funny, fuzzy feeling and he quickly returned the smile and then turned back to his work. Light's heart was pounding in his chest and he could stop his stomach from fluttering.
Light's eyes were wide a he placed a hand on his chest, his mind racing. 'No! It's impossible. He's trying to prove that I'm a mass murder! He's a guy! I can't love him! No way!' Light felt his face heat up even more at the thought of L. Light took in a deep breath and looked at L again. This time the man seemed to be his old self again, lost in his work, typing away at his computer, face glowing from the light of the computer. Light felt his heart skip another beat and he couldn't stop that feeling from spreading through out his entire body. Light stared down at his keyboard, his heart still beating quite strongly in his chest. 'Could I really be in love with L?'
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A/N: (gasp) A cliff hanger?! It can't be! No really, it's 3:08 am in the morning, my sister's best friend is in my bed so I'm forced to sleep on the couch and I think my parent is getting a little to interested in my writing. (sighs) Yay me. But I had to update! I just love getting all the reviews and I love writing and I love Light and L so I was all like, "Suck it up and write!" So I did. I hoped you guys liked it! Chapter Fourteen coming soon!! Review please!!