Rating: PG (some language)
Episode: 3x09 Finding Judas
Summary: House realizes that some things are just not in your control.
Pairing(s): Gen (though I guess it could be House/Wilson if you stretch it)
Song: The Fray - Over My Head

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth

Were they ever really on your side? Or were the drugs clouding your judgement more than you realized? Why did they choose to wait until your world began to crumble before they accused you? Where are their consciences now?

But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

But you won't let it get to you. You know who you can trust. You know better than anyone else. You can only trust yourself...

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head, over my head

You refuse to hear them when they doubt your steadfast resolve. No corrupt cop in this world could ever outwit you. And if they don't realize that, then you have no choice but to push them out of your way.

With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind, she's on your mind

But you know Wilson. And you know he talked to Cuddy. You know your ass is on the line. And you only have so much patience. You can't sit around and wait.

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along

Dancing around the issues. Pretending to talk when you know nothing would change. You had always expected things to be that way. You would feign the slightest bit of concern when they came to you, and in return, they would allow you to wallow in your apathy. But Tritter - damn him - he ruined the only thing you had left.

But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

And now, Wilson had finally taken the step. You had secretly hoped he would close the gap, and instead he created an even greater chasm. There will be nothing left when the smoke clears.

You saw Wilson leave Tritter's office, and he barely gave you a second glance. But from what you saw, you know that there is no forgiveness in sight. You've pushed him away for good.

Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

But you won't let Tritter be the one to break him. To break you both. Never. If anyone will destroy this, it will be you. You started it, and now you'll end it.

And everyone knows I'm in
Over my head, over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind, she's on your mind
Everyone knows she's on your mind
Everyone knows I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head, I'm over my...

So as you see Chase leave the hospital with Foreman and Cameron questioning him about the bruise on his jaw, and you watch Wilson walk Cuddy to her car, you wonder just why this all comes so easily to you. You can destroy everyone around you in an instant. Yet you cannot help but feel that maybe, for once, you truly aren't in control anymore...