Kagome can't remember what happened that cold winter's night when she was attacked? Nor can she remember who her attacker was. Her only clue is the baby she now carries within her womb. Inuyasha has a sneaky suspicion, and Kagome now wonders if her baby is even human.
'Baby of Mine'
The winds had died down, the sun set high in the western sky. The warmth from the sun was inviting and delightful. Winter would be over soon. He could already see the buds in the trees, and the new grass growing across the fields. Spring was always welcomed. A start of a new life cycle. From the clutches of winter, spring would bring life to his weeping lands again.
Sesshoumaru sat perched high in a oak tree, his body relaxed against the limbs. The sun's warm rays warmed his body and he closed his eyes pushing all thoughts from his mind. Or, at least he tried to. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't get the smell out of his nose and mind. No matter how close or far he went, it was still there, tourmenting him. Taking in a deep breath he opened his eyes gazing out to the west river, that was neatly settled in his domain. He wondered how much longer he would be forced to hide out in his own lands before he was welcomed back into his home.
"My Lord Sesshoumaru?"
His ears flickered slightly, hearing the small pitter patter of feet below him. Tilting his head slightly to the left he watched a young fawn make her way to the bottom of the tree. Resting her hands against it, she stopped at it's base, trying to catch her breath. She was the newst addition to his servants. He had come across her about a month ago, trying to flee from a Bear Yokai. She had been cornered and would have surely perished. He hadn't been truly interested and would have left her had Rin not have protested. She had begged him to save the young fawn. And finally, to achieve silence, he found himself slaying the bear, and Rin recruiting the young fawn onto his staff.
"Lord Sesshoumaru?" she called up to him her large brown eyes scanning the tree limbs to try and spot him.
"What is it?" he said softly, knowing fully well she could hear him from his perch.
"My Lord, the Mistress has awakened!" she called up to him. "She had asked for an audience with My Lord!"
"Audience?" he thought turning away from the fawn. Why on earth would he do that?
"My Lord?"
"Tell the wench I'm not a subject to her requests," he answered crossing his arms over his chest. "If the wench wishes to speak to this Sesshoumaru, she can wait at my own convenience."
The fawn's eyes widened at his response, but said nothing more bowing to him and taking off towards the manor quickly.
Had he been too hard? No. He wasn't going to let the little bitch gain any power over him. The last time he had checked, he had been the Master; not her. Stiffaling a yawn, he stood. The sun would set in a few hours. When it did, then he would venture to speak with the little human. Until then, he had time to kill and he wasn't going to watse it thinking of her. Jumping from his perch he landed on the ground gracefully, he made his way back to the manor. He was exhausted... He needed to sleep.
His response didn't surprise her, nor did it upset her in the least. She wanted to talk with him, but at the same moment she wanted to be alone as well. Moving out of her chambers she found herself wandering, lost completley in her own thoughts. She needed to think. She needed to find answers. She needed to understand what was going on with her anymore. She was Kagome of course, but she didn't feel like Kagome anymore. She felt like she was living in a stranger's body and mind. Subject to act upon bestail desires and carnal lust. And no matter how hard she fought herself and gain control, she felt the other side quickly overpower her, squashing out her exsistance. Was she going to dissappear? And if she did, who would be left in her place? Perhaps, something not human?
Rounding to another corridor she stopped quickly. This hall... She didn't know this place. Brow raising in interest she examined the walls on either side. Large portraits hung of demons she didn't reconginze. She didn't know who they were, but she could tell by the white hair and amber eyes, they were from the Inu clan. She would count on it. Lord Inutaisho, Sesshoumaru, Inuyasha, and now her son, all had those piercing amber eyes. Glancing down the hallway she realized she could see no end to it, as hallway down it was cast into complete darkness. Dare she? Biting her lower lip and giving into curiousty she made her way down the hall forgetting all recent thoughts. It was eerie, the lamps seeminly unlit for many years. Did Sesshoumaru even know about this place? Duh! It was his home after all. Resuming her attention to the pictures on the wall she found herself lost in each one, utterly fasinated by each and every member. Each portait resembled another, however, each one was stragely different. Whether is was wardrobe, hair style, face shape, height, they were all different. And before she knew it she found herself gazing upon two large cherry wood doors. They were plain, dusty and old. The air here was stale, unmoving sending shivers down her spine. Kagome didn't know whether to move forward or go back. Yet, she had come this far, adn now she wanted to know what lay hidden beyond these doors. Reaching her hand to the wood she felt it pulse beneath her hand.
Gasping she pulled away taking a few steps back. Turning to her hand she eyed it oddly. It felt warm... Swallowing the lump in her throat she reached out both hands placing them against the doors, warmth radating through her body. Pushing against the doors she heard them creak and open slowly. They were heavy, but she was compelled bow to finish what she had started. Making an opening large enough for her, she slipped through the crack into the dark room.
The air was pungent, old. It smelt of old spices and burnt incense. The sun was setting, but it lit the roomn just enough for her view. The room seemed untouched, like the lamps in the hall outside. A heavy layer of dust collecting upon everything. Why was this room in such a state? The manor itself seemed incredibly clean and tidy. The attendants here kept it very neat for their Master. Yet, why hadn't they done the same for this room? Kagome, summoning her courage moved into the room and to a large desk. At one time, it probably had shined in the light of the sun. Now, it merely looked old and dull as dust and time ate away at it. Scattered across the desk were parchments and old ink pens, dried up from lack of use. Finding her way behind the desk she retrieved a parchment trying to make out the old print; yet to no avail. What was this place? She didn't know whether it had been a trick of the eye or merely the sun reflecting off of the glass but her attention was quickly diverted. There, laying face down she eyed a small porcelyn frame. She reached for it, hesitating at first. This wasn't any of her business... yet... yet she wanted to know. What had happened that this room had been neglected? And more importantly, who had lived here?
Grabbing the small frame she brought it up to inspect using her sleeve to wipe away the dust that seemed almost caked on. Squinting her eyes she came face to face with three pairs of golden eyes staring right back at her. Dropping the photo she watched the glass crack. Was that? She had only seen him once before... But was it really? Inuyasha's and Sesshoumaru's father? His long white hair was pulled back in a long ponytail atop his head smiling kindly her way. Beside him was a beautiful woman, her hair just as white and long. On her forhead hovered a small and dainty blue crescent moon. Could she be? She followed the woman's eyes to the small child that sat on her lap. His golden eyes were bright, smiling almost. On his forehead, like the woman who held him, was a dark and very visible crcsent moon. Stepping back from the desk she turned to face the room. This place was... But that would mean...
Walking quickly to the fireplace and the picture above it, her eyes widened. A map? A map of what looked like the western lands. But then... Glancing about the room, she found what she was looking for. She was beginning to grow even more anxious. She came to another door and with little effort pushed the door open to find a large bed. It was unmade. Probably since the day the proper owner did not return home. However, for some reason, this room was unlike the other she had just been in. It was neat and tidy. Dusted and polished. She couldn't understand, but then again, she was too excited to worry or care. "This is..." she breathed unable to contain herself..."This is Lord Inutaisho's chambers!"
WHAM!
She barely had time to turn around before she found herself launched into the air and onto the large bed. She gasped for breath feeling as if she had the wind knocked from her. He was above her, his face enraged.
"S-Sesshoumaru..." she whimpered. She didn't know what to say. This time, she was truly at fault. She had tresspassed, crossing lines that weren't meant to be crossed.
"Why have you come here?! What business do you have here?! Give me one good reason why I shouldn't rip your throat out right here and now?!" he snarled. She said nothing, but merely laid there beneath him fearful. He was breathing heavily, his chest heaving. It was in that moment she took notice of the loose top of his kimono, exposing his pale chest to her. His armor was gone and for the first time she realized his once long and tidy hair was askew. He looked like he had been... Like he had... Had he been here sleeping? "Answer me wench!" he huffed and his tone though still looming was also laced with what she had missed earlier; drowsiness.
"You...Y-You were sleeping..." she said eyes widening with this realization. "I surprised you, didn't I..?"
He grew still his eyes focused on her face. He seemed to be studying her unblinking.
She had been right. He had awakened to her entering the room and it had startled him. He had hid quickly in the shadows and in the next moment he had pounced.
"What are you doing here?" he repeated his tone commanding, demanding an answer from her.
"I-I was curious," she admitted. "I came upon a part of the manor I hadn't seen before. And I couldn't help myself. I'm very sorry... I know I shouldn't have tresspassed..."
She felt him begin to calm, though he still remained above her, pinning her arms above her head. She would be lying if she said she wasn't afraid. But then, for some reason she knew he wasn't going to hurt her either. And at that thought he moved off her merely moving to sit on the bed beside her. Sitting up, Kagome moved off the bed giving him his Space. She knew what Inuyasha was like when he was jogged out of sleep and she wouldn't doubt Sesshoumaru was any different.
"Why are you here?" Kagome asked, the question leaving her lips before she could stop it.
He gave her a long hard glare before answering. "I live here. I can do as I please."
"But this is, was, your Father's chambers," she contorted.
"And?" he asked eye twitching slightly.
"I, I just don't understand," she admitted looking down to her bare feet.
"This makes one more thing to add to the explanation list" he cursed.
"Excuse me?" His comment had been rude. She honestly wanted to talk with him and he was being an arrogant jack ass!
"What did you want to talk with me about before hand?" he asked quickly, his eyes heavy with exhaustion. Kagome had never seen Lord Sesshoumaru so exposed and dare she say it... normal?
"I wanted to talk about last... about last night," she answered crossing her arms over her chest. "I need answers, and I know you have them. I know you know what is going on. I know you know why I am not who I used to be. It's important to me. I need to know before I become someone I'm not."
The room grew silent and he realized she was waiting for his reply. "To answer this question I must go back farther than you and I," he declared using a hand to push his hair back behind his ear. "Years ago, demons were not as picky about choosing their mates as they are now. Humans, or simply other demons it didn't matter. Full bloodied demon males would capture and mate with human woman. However, a problem began to occur because of this. Human woman unable to support such a powerful seed began to die before or during childbirth. Youkai babes are ten times stronger than a full grown mortal male. And to carry one is dangerous. Not all Youkai children are born the same way. Gargoyles tear through the uterus and the stomach to be born. Lizards, and crocodilans are the same way. It was gruesome, and not only did the mother's die, but the infants died as well. So, to prevent this from happening, Youkai began to infuse large doses or their power and energy into the human woman. By doing so, the woman grew stronger and were able to give birth without dying. However, that is when Hanyous or half bloods began to appear. Because they blood of a demon is potent and can corrupt the blood of a human. In most cases it will merely work its way out of the human's system after some time and they will be normal again. Then again, it can also stay within the blood and cause the human to become a Hanyou. Or, it can be taken even farther than that."
"So... So you are telling me that the night you found me, you gave me..."
"A boost," he said coldly. He didn't seem to like the idea anymore than she did. "However I wasn't fully aware of what had happened until recently. I had never heard of such a thing till I watched you change by moonlight. So I had to know the truth and I went looking for answers. And this is what I found."
"You mean I'm a Han-Hanyou?" Kagome asked eyes wide with shock and surprise.
He watched her as she began to examine herself. Hands, hair, ears... She hadn't liked what she heard. "No," he said bluntly.
Her eyes sought his. "No?"
"No. You are not a hanyou," he stated simply. "Yet... You are not human anymore either. The reason I know this, is because your scent. It is too strong for Hanyou. And to make matters worse you are in..." He took a deep breath to test it and cringed. Damnit! She was still in heat... She seemed normal a few moment ago! She had masked it well somehow... He hadn't even sensed it up till now. He knew by telling her the truth, it had upset her a great deal. But honestly? Had her hormones gone that haywire in just a matter of minutes?
"Are in what?" Kagome coaxed him, picking him for answers. "Tell me."
"You must leave," he grunted leaping quickly from his spot and grabbing her by the shoulders, and escorting her to the exit.
"What? Why?" She implored trying to fight his pushing and shoving. She wasn't satified with just thos answers! She had more to ask! She wasn't done yet.
Kagome quickly grabbed his sleeve holding on tightly.
"Remove yourself from this Sesshoumaru!" he demanded grabbing the top of her kimono and ripping her from him, tearing his sleeve completely off.
Growling in frustration he threw her to the floor, the top of her kimono falling slightly open revealing the top of her breats to his view. He sucked in breath averting his eyes from the newly exposed flesh. However it appeared the wench hadn't even noticed her own exposure. Instead she sat there glaring at the piece of silk before carelessly tossing it to the ground next to her. He could smell it, the slight arousal in her scent beginning to heighten. He knew she wasn't there in mind, but her body was well on it's way. She made a move to stand, her pale legs slipping from her kimono. Her skin looked soft... Like it had been that day... Like it had been the night before... No! He couldn't! He couldn't do it again!
"DAMN IT! LEAVE ME ALONE!" he roared using a clawed hand and smacking her square in the face. His eyes were now a deep shade of red turning to her fully, his face full of fury. "DO YOU WISH TO BE PUPPED AGAIN? IS THAT IT?! IF YOU VALUE YOUR LIFE LEAVE NOW!"
She sat there on the floor staring up at him in horror holding her red cheek in one hand. But she couldn't move. At the instant his body met contact with hers, she felt her whole body begin to surge. She felt that heavy fog coming for her and she couldn't stop it as it clouded her mind taking her prisoner.
"I won't do it!"
"Won't do what? He wants you, you know... He wants only you... Give in... You know you want to..."
"I can't," she thought unable to break eye contact with the Taiyoukai. "He is giving me a chance to go, I must take it!"
"Ha! He is merely provoking you... He wants the real you... He wants you to want him..."
"I... just... I can-"
"You just can't? When will you realize you can do anything you want..? You feel how our body responds to his... We need him... You need him..."
"If I give in now... Whose to say I won't be able to stop this from happening again? I-I can't... I wont!"
The voice hissed into her ear darkly. "If you won't... I will... The only way to end it, is to give in... Your body is craving his contact... He is your mate as you are his..! And if you won't do anything about it... I will, by endind this endless suffering you are putting me through!"
She felt her body pulse, power surging through her veins. She didn't want this! She didn't want this! No! But she felt her conciouness slip into the dark as a new wave washed through her being. Hissing she felt her nails lengthen, fangs sharping, hair lightening, her body growing and tightening in places she didn't even know she had. Eyes becoming large pools of molten gold she smiled darkly up at the TaiYoukai before her.
He snarled at her, snapping his fangs at the demoness dangerously. Yet her smile only grew wider. Her scent had completely changed. She wasn't the miko anymore. No, she was something completely different then before. A side of her he had only seen twice before.
"My Lord and Master Sesshoumaru..." she whispered bowing lowly.
"Who are you?" he snapped pointing a clawed finger at the woman.
"I am the piece of this woman who until now slept within," she said softly. "I am her, but she is not me. We are one but we are two halves." She chuckled lightly. "I am the one you created that night you took her as your mate. By your power, I was created to protect this woman and watch over her until she was ready to give herself over to you once more. I am the courage she lacks, the passion she fears, the lust she forbids, and the love she will not give." Standing up straight she folded her arms lightly over her chest, moving inches from the Sesshoumaru her breath and scent assualting his senses driving him wild. "And... I am... yours."
He felt something in him snap, all sense of reason and will power gone into the night.
And here I must stop for the night. Haha! I know I'm mean but... *yawns* It is now 2:15am and time to turn in. So Stay tuned for the next chapter coming soon!