Rating: G
Episode: 3x09 Finding Judas
Summary: For so long, he has always wanted to give her what she needs. But he's not sure that he is what she wants...
Pairing(s): Wilson/Cuddy with House/Cuddy undertones
Song: Coldplay - Fix You

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

You've never seen her like this. Tears have never been becoming of Lisa Cuddy. And yet it does not surprise you. She wants to be a mother. She simply wants to exercise her right as a woman. But nature has always been one to throw a curve.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

She's hurt and insecure, and you wonder why she is not angry. She never gets angry with him. Not in the way she should. You fight the urge to feel jealous. She told him before she told you. How long had House known? And neither of them had felt the need to tell you. He had tried to make you feel guilty when you and Cuddy had hidden something from him, and you are beginning to understand just how much the pain is worth.

And Cuddy, what was she left with? She had trusted you both, and now she was caught in between. You wonder what exactly she feels for House, but you're far too uneasy to venture there.

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

You give her a small smile, and she weakly smiles back. You feel partly responsible for the destruction he caused. But then again, the more you consider it, the more you realize that the three of you have been causing each other pain for years. And yet you always come back for more.

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

She doesn't realize what she's worth. She doesn't understand that she has always deserved better. Any child would be blessed to have her as a mother. Anyone should be grateful to call her a friend.

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

You can see clearly now what you need to do. What you should have done all along. You need to break the cycle, once and for all. Maybe if you hurt him just enough, he won't push back...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you