OH! I LOVE YOU GUYS!! You are the best fan-base I could ever ask for! So here's a new chapter…for all the people that I love so much…if I was a Caesar salad you guys would be my chicken! Teehee! I thought that last bit was funny. Enjoy my favorite people on the whole planet!
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING AFFILIATED WITH THE TWILIGHT SAGA OR STEPHENIE MEYER!!
Edward POV:
I needed to see Carlisle. If there was a father figure somewhere on this planet capable of telling me what to do, helping me not feel helpless, telling me how to help my girls, it was Carlisle. I left around 1:00 am. I left Bella note explaining where I was if she woke up for some unexpected reason before I got back.
When I pulled up to the front of the house Alice was sitting in front of the door. "Alice, I'm here to see Carlisle. I don't have time for whatever you're planning. And no. Bella is way too stressed out for another one of your shopping trips."
"Edward, please? We can take the girls? And you can come, too-,"
"I'd rather be burned alive."
"Fine. I see how important I am," she gave a puppy dog face.
"Only works with Jasper," with that I ran around the house and through the back door.
I was about to knock on Carlisle's office door when, "Come in, Edward." I opened the door. He was sitting behind his desk, hands folded on top with a book to his left. "Sit," he commanded. I sat there fidgeting, not quite sure how to say this.
"Ed-,"
"What am I supposed to do!" I shot out of my chair, now I was pacing the hardwood floor.
"Well, first stop wearing a hole in the floor," I stopped and faced him. "Now sit down and explain," I obliged.
"Carlisle? How do I do this? How do I help them when I can't even help myself? Damn it! I've never felt so…so…useless!" I put my head in my hands and tried to hold back tears I knew couldn't come. I felt a hand on my shoulder, I looked up into the face of the man I'd come to know as a father.
"Edward, I love you like a son, and I've tried to be the best father I could be to you. I've tried to provide the resources for you to grow as a person. Now you're a father, and you have a love. They're you're family just as much as we are, maybe more so. You need to be there for them in whatever way they need you to be. Those girls needed a father, you gave them that. Bella needed to someone to lean on, someone to help her with the responsibility of taking care of a sick child, someone to love in another way then her friends or her family, you gave her that. And you need to continue being there for them Edward. You've done a wonderful job and I've never been more proud of you."
"Carlisle, I feel so helpless, I feel so useless, I'm not even helping them!"
"Edward, you've helped them more than you could ever know. Those girls have never had a father, a father that really loved them, anyway, Bella hasn't had anyone to help her through all this, she's been alone, bearing the responsibility of her sick baby by herself. Edward, they need you."
"I need them."
"I know, I know son."
"I love them so, so much. Bella, oh god, Bella, she's so wonderful, smart, funny, beautiful, loving, sweet. And the girls, my girls, Rora's so adorable, she's amazing, smart, funny, sweet. And Antoinette is going to be just like Bella, she looks exactly like her as a baby, and she's got the same personality, it sounds like she's going to talk in her sleep, too. I love them like my own. They're my daughters, Carlisle. And one day, I swear on my pile of ashes, Bella is going to be wearing my mother's ring. And not even the word wife seems to cover how much I love her," I looked up at him, he was smiling.
"So then what are you doing here? You should be home with your future wife and your baby girls don't you think?" I smiled and nodded. I was walking out the door, "Edward?"
"Yeah?"
"I know this is a bad time. But you haven't been to work in almost a month and it's starting to look suspicious. I can only pass it off as personal problems for so long," Damn! Work!
"Uhh…,"
"I'll give you a few more days but you do need to show up every once in a while. You can work the night shift so you're with them during the day, and you can change your hours so you can be there while they sleep every once in while," he smiled apologetically.
"Okay. I should be going. Thanks dad, for the advice," I closed the office door and I swear I heard him say "it was all you".
When I got back home I could hear someone downstairs. I walked into find Bella and a crying Antoinette in the kitchen. "Oh, baby, shhh, mommy's here, go back to sleep," she sounded groggy. Bella was trying to give Antoinette a bottle but she kept pushing it away, "Baby, mommy doesn't have any more gel for your teeth, I'm so, so sorry."
"We're put of teething medication?"
"Gah! Oh Edward! Don't scare me like that!" I stroked her cheek.
"Sorry, love. So we're out?"
"Yeah. I forgot to get some at the store the other day."
"Let me run to the store real quick."
"Edward, it's 2:00 in the morning!"
"That's why they invented 24 hour pharmacies, love."
"No, she can make it through one night."
"Bella, it's no-,"
"How many times do I have to over the fact that when it comes to baby products you can't win? First baby food and now teething medication."
"I don't have a problem running to the store real quick," she looked down at our angel.
"Okay," she said reluctantly, "but be quick about it," I nodded and kissed her.
When I got back with the teething medication Antoinette was still wailing. "Here, love, let me have her," Bella handed her to me and took out the gel. She rubbed it on Antoinette's gums. "Shhh, it's okay. Go back to sleep angel," I rocked her back and forth across the living room, and this time while I was pacing it wasn't because I felt useless, it was because I felt I was actually doing something.
A/N: I KNOW IT'S SHORT!! I won't have access to a computer tomorrow at all and wanted you to know that the creative juices are flowing again and another author's not would be just lame. So here is half a chapter, you'll get the other half as soon as I get my hands on a computer again. : ) : ) : )