AN -So let's just pretend the dating of Carlisle's change officially puts him practicing Medicine at the time in the aforementioned section alright, I don't know if it does officially and I'm really just too lazy to check that out myself.

2 Days later

EPOV

It had been two days since we had cornered Mike on the roof in an act that I still didn't understand fully. My reaction towards Bella was construed as jealously by my brothers and I was scared by what my so called jealousy would mean for me and my family. It was this feeling that had led me to seek the advice of my father.

"So what can I do for you Edward," my father asked me as he walked into his study for the night. I looked at him searching for a way to begin what would probably be the most awkward conversation of my life or death, I grimaced in anticipation. For a brilliant doctor he could he invariably dense sometimes, it was about Bella obviously, and my growing feeling towards her.

I looked at Carlisle scanning his thoughts waiting for an opening when I could open up to him, I needed his advice specifically, he had to understand, I was suffering in a way that my brothers would not, could not understand.

My brothers, each the definition of man-whores respectively would never understand the intense and deep respect and love I thought that I could feel for a person without even so much as touching them.

"Um," I staggered, well here goes nothing I thought "I wanted to ask you some questions about love," he looked at me and thought, I thought I told you about the birds and the bees

I scowled he knew exactly what I meant, how could we as vampires, animals without a beating heart, without endorphins or anything that physically and chemically made love, love still be able to love.

He looked at me, and sighed mentally before sitting in his leather chair leaning back slightly, what do you want to know he asked me having the decency to have this conversation in my mind alone.

"Well is it even possible to fall in love as a vampire, without, well without a live heart," I sighed, moving my hands to try and emphasise my helplessness in this issue.

He looked at me, well I certainly did, suddenly his mind flashed back to a detailed memory from long ago

CPOV



I was studying medicine techniques in Italy underneath the fore bearer's of modern medicine when the plaque hit Europe. It was that year that I saw her.

The year had been a very trying year for the Dutch, A freak locust outbreak had left many of the population sick and even more broke from failing live stock. The Dutch sent to Italy who sent me as well as other medical men to help with the disease ravaging the country. The Dutch are a group of proud people Edward, and although they were failing inside their borders, they would not let themselves be responsible for the desecration of Europe's livelihoods. There was strict protocol to stop the plaque from leaving the country and everyone leaving had to be cleared by a doctor first.

In was in my small downtown surgery that I saw her first, I remember being exhausted, all the dying around me and I could not help at all, but her smile on that first day brought me back to life,

Edward snorted, I glared at him, and he raised his hands in defence.

She had come to me to be checked out to go on the maiden voyage of the Batavia, one of the last hopes of saving their people for the Dutch. She was sick herself, I could see it in her eyes and hear it in her blood, but she was so desperate to go, to get herself and her three daughters out of there, she was so beautiful, even then.

EPOV

Hang on, my mind buzzed, why did that sound familiar, wait Esme and the girls were on that boat, did he know them from before, I prod his mind and saw the face and immediately knew.

I stared at Carlisle my eyes blank of emotion, this changed everything, I can't believe he knew Esme from before the clearing, millions of questions were running through my mind, why didn't he tell us, why didn't he tell Esme, did she remember. I thought for a moment before speaking.

"Does she remember you?" I asked him, his face fell, his eyes glazed over.

"No," I looked down suddenly filled with the emotion of his heart break all over again, I moved over to him and hesitated unsure whether to grab his shoulder in unheard support, or whether to...

Jasper burst in the room, and walked over to Carlisle before giving him a hug,

"Alice's Idea, said you might need one, I feel your pain Carlisle, right here," he said banging his Chest, I scowled, of course that's why I was feeling heartbroken. Bloody Jasper; keep your emotions under control. I looked at Carlisle again and said

"Well I guess I know, Thank you, I need to talk to Bella," with that I turned around and left. I walked down the hallway passing Alice as I went. I smiled a friendly acknowledgement.

"She's not in there," She taunted as I stuck my tongue out, damn future knowing pixie

"Where is she then," I said looking her directly in the eye, she shrugged

"Out getting beat up by Rose," I paled, well figuratively, she chuckled,

"Don't worry, Bella can hold her own," I smiled, I was happy about that at least

I turned to stare out the window looking at the backyard for some sign of Rose and Bella, I immediately saw Rose completing some sort of breathing exercises in a Tai –Chi fashion, and I looked at her and raised my voice slightly so as to be heard through the glass.

"Where is Bella, Rose," She turned and waved before pointing upwards, I looked at her confused, was she still stretching? she smiled understanding my confusion.

She's on the roof she projected through her thoughts, what the hell is she doing up there, what if somebody saw her I asked myself. I went to the back of the house searching for an easy way onto the roof, in all my time in Forks; I had never had the urge to sit on the roof.

The quickest way up that I could see would be to fling myself up using the back guttering as leverage, it was risky, and if anyone saw they would definitely know that I wasn't human.

I decided to risk it, and rely on the lack of originality that made of most of teen America's mind these days to cover me if anything untoward did happen. I carefully judged the distance and flung myself up into the air, turning mid air as I flipped onto the roof causing a large crash.

I got up and dusted myself off and surveyed the damage, not too bad, just a little dent I noticed. I turned around and saw her lying there, right in the middle of the roof; she looked so peaceful, like an angel sleeping. Her white singlet and shorts accentuating every curve and the sunlight making her skin look like diamonds.

I stood there, surely she had sensed my presence, she can't sleep after all, and it's only polite to wait for her to acknowledge me. I sat there next to her waiting for her to open her eyes or move, but she didn't.

Time passed, and before I knew it the sun was getting lower and lower and was dipping towards the horizon, I began to get worried and decided to shake her gently to rouse her,

No luck

I softly tugged at her arm, but she did not move, I called out her name, and tugged violently but she didn't react, by this time I was getting worried.

I got up and began to pace rapidly, turning to see Alice climbing the lattice

"Would you relax Edward, you're freaking Jasper out," Alice said jumping onto the roof behind me.

"But she's like in a coma or something," Alice laughed, yeah well get used to it she won't let you wake her any time soon. What do you mean wake her, vampires can't sleep, No we can't, but she gets fairly close, She meditates, and when she does she cal ms her body to a state in which she is so deeply disconnected from her body to us it looks like she's sleeping.

I sat there looking at her in amazement, it was so simple, and for years I had yearned to be simply able to drift off into a peaceful sleep, why did I never think of this.

Suddenly Bella stirred, she opened her eyes and blinked rapidly, she pushed herself up into a sitting position, before looking at my curiously, She grabbed Alice's arm and her eyes rolled back.

BPOV

When I decided it was time to bring myself out of my meditation I woke up to see Edward looking at me worriedly, I stared at him, worried that he could see my thoughts while I was meditating and not protecting my mind. I grabbed Alice's arm looking for a vision that would tell me what he was doing here, I finally let go, all her vision had said was that he had been sitting here for a while

"How long have you been sitting there," I asked him, he looked confused

"Um, A few hours I guess, could you really not sense me at all," I smiled of course I couldn't I had locked myself in a faraway place, nowhere near my physical presence; I shook my head in response. I looked at him wearily, I was ready for it, eternal damnation, even within the vampire community I was a freak. I closed my eyes and waited for him to scold me like I was a child. But he didn't speak, I cracked open an eye-lid to see him staring with an amused look in his eye.

"Do you reckon you could teach me how to do that sometime," he said looking at me seriously," I smiled and nodded, sure I thought, why not, I looked at Alice who was grinning wildly at me.

"Anyway Bella, Edward came up to tell you that he would like to have a meeting between the boys and girls to discuss a possible truce of sorts," I scolded

"I'm pretty sure Edward is quite capable of speaking for himself," She smiled, her eyes crinkling in delight as she eyed the prospect of the boys surrendering to her plans of evil domination.

"He wants to get Esme and Carlisle together as well; he has some interesting information to share,"

"Don't you mean that he has given up hope and is now blindly following your plan in hope of avoiding the carnage?"

"Ouch, that hurts Bella," Alice sighed, dramatically raising her hand to her forehead,

"How will you ever recover," I muttered sarcastically.

"I might just leave you two to it then," I heard Edward mutter, but by the time I turned he had gone, I scowled, bloody Alice; she knew my greatest weapon was my sarcasm.

Alright so this chapter was a little bit emotional...sorry...just felt this chapter was necessary, and well I'm not completely satisfied with it (lets just say I don't really have that much faith in my writing ability with serious chapters), but I couldn't put off posting it any longer.