After hours Rosalie and Alice agreed on a vintage that was a dark plum sleeveless v cut bodice with a skirt that had several short layers reaching to her mid calf. The best part was it was pre-boob job so it fit Robin perfectly. In truth it was the dress that had inspired Robin's love for the color purple and she had always dreamed about wearing it but she would never admit it to them.
Once they had left Robin let the dogs in and turned the radio on in the kitchen. Then she started to take things out of the fridge determined to cook something for herself. She started to sing and dance as she began to season a chicken breast with rose mary while her pan got hot. She then tossed the chicken in the frying pan with orange juice to sear it while she danced around singing.
"He said one and one and one make three… gotta be good looking' he just so hard to see ! Come together right now-ah!" she turned around from the stove as she sung into the fork she was using to cook. Edward was standing there his brow raised grinning at her. "Oh damn!" Robin yelled in surprise. "How long have you been standing there?" she asked turning the oven on to roast the chicken to fully cook it through since she had only pan seared it.
"Oh since about that cute little shimmy on shoots coca cola." he chuckled sitting down at the kitchen table. "Go ahead, continue. I'll just watch." he mused. Robin sighed and moved the cast iron pan into the oven to cook. "I'll pass thank you. I mean how embarrassing for you right? I live here I am allowed to act like a moron when I would like." she sat down at the table and sighed. "I mean just barging in like that..." she said sucking in air audibly. "Is it barging when you have a key?" Edward asked making a face. Robin laughed and shrugged. "I don't know."
"Well, if I was barging I am happy I caught you letting your hair down like that. I had no idea you liked classic rock." Edward smiled like he had found a hidden treasure. "Well I have." he laughed. Robin shook her head and made a face. "Old habits you know? My parents, would always listen to classic rock, while they cooked. It was the rule: the rock had to be older then me. You know even on mornings when we would have breakfast, I would wake up to Journey and know it was waffles. Or come home to the Stones and weird Martha Stewart stuff. Like when my parents entertained and she would be online looking at recipes for stuff like jalapeno stuffed apricots wrapped in pershuto." she laughed.
"My Dad did all the cooking. Like the real stuff like tacos and pork chops with mushroom soup gravy. 'Someone has got to do the cooking around here.'" she said doing an impression of her dad. Suddenly Robin sighed and looked the other way. It was hard remembering when she was shiny and happy with her lot in life. "It could be like that for you again. You have so may possibilities." Edward's voice sounded strained and Robin looked at him.
He looked like he was in pain. Robin leaned across the table and cupped her hand around his hard smooth jaw. "Hmmm, right now I only see one possibility." Quicker then her eyes could follow Edward's chair was moved and he was no where to be seen. The dogs started howling in protest hackles raised. "Wow, apparently that was the wrong thing to say." she sighed and stood up.
Chewing on her lip she looked at the skewed chair. It wasn't fair he couldn't end it just like that. "Right fuck this." She snapped the oven off and went to the front door grabbing her shoes shoving them on roughly. She wasn't the type to just lay there and take stuff.
She grabbed the keys to the Astin Martin and paused. She made a face and went to her parents room, after Alice and Rosalie had been so nice to her she didn't want to show up their empty handed. Not to mention they were her best avenue at this point. She went to her mother's jewelry box and started looking for what she wanted.
A ring of her MeMa's. It was white gold and had four bands of diamonds that cris crossed in an orbital setting and at the intersections set natural emeralds. The stones weren't big but they were beautiful. Her MeMa said that she had prophetic dreams and that emeralds were said to given visions clarity. It was much to small for her but it would be perfect for the pixie Alice.
Then she went back the key rack and changed the keys of her preferred car for that of the Lotus. She climbed into the car and adjusted the seat and turned the car on. She made the short drive and pulled all the way up to the house. Rosalie was immediately out of the house standing there. "It's so beautiful." she said in awe. "I hate the color, and I don't ever drive it…. So you know…" Robin stammered turning the engine off.
"No I don't know." Rosalie said looking horror filled at her statement of non adoration. Robin tossed the keys which Rosalie caught. "I can't part with it. Not yet, but I was hoping that until I can get up the courage to sell it to you… you would treat her well?" Robin asked. Instantly Rosalie was grinning at her. "Are you for real?" she asked. Robin nodded. "Yeah, I owe you guys a lot, you have been really kind to me. Me to you not so much."
"Trust me this makes up for whatever you think you have done. Can I tune her up?" Rosalie asked. "If you know how to, I don't know the first thing about that car to tell you what to do." Robin snorted. "Oh… I love you." Rosalie purred. Robin made a face, it was such an odd thing to say, but then Robin chuckled realizing she was talking to the Lotus. "Can I go in?" Robin asked.
Rosalie said nothing merely opened the garage with the key pad on the door. "I guess I'll see myself in." Robin said lowly and moved into the garage. Her mouth fell open at the cars that the garage contained. "Are you fucking me?" Each of the cars were as nice as her own, there was even a new Aston Martin though Robin preferred her own classic.
She opened the door into the house and was met by Alice. "Hey there Alice." Robin said making a face. "You are giving Rose the Lotus?" she asked almost jealous. "Yeah, do you all have a thing for fast expensive cars or what?" Robin laughed. "It is a past time." Alice shrugged. "Well then you are going to hate my gift to you because it isn't the loan of an amazing car." Robin said biting her lip. The paltry ring was almost embarrassing in her pocket now.
"Oh no, no backing out now, you said you come baring a gift for me." Alice laughed. Robin reached into her pocket and closed her fingers around the ring. "It is to small for me, and well something I heard a long time ago made me think of you." She extended her hand and opened it the ring resting on her palm. "It is gorgeous! The emerald's are real not lab grown." Alice gushed and took the ring sliding it on her middle finger.
"Did you know that pagan cultures believe that emerald give clarity to divination?" Alice asked inspecting the ring. "Well my MeMa believed that, she said she had prophetic dreams. That the ring had helped them become more clear." Robin shrugged. "I don't know about what my MeMa had seen but I know you have visions so… I know it is kind of lame but…" Robin stammered and Alice laughed. "Not lame in the slightest, it is a gift from your heart." Alice hugged her.
"Well, sort of. I wanted to give you guys something. I don't really know about Emmett or Jasper. Or really Carlisle and Esme, so they have to wait and Edward is furious with me." Robin sighed. "Oh what happened?" Alice asked leading her to the living room. Emmett and Jasper sat at a huge table eight chess boards adjoined playing a complex game.
"What happened?" Alice repeated drawing Robin's attention back to her. "Oh… um we were sitting in my kitchen talking. And he said something about my possibilities for the future. He looked really upset you know? Well I just told him that right now I only saw one possibility. He was like out of there. I am guessing that he isn't here." Robin asked. Alice looked impossibly ashen and shook her head.
"I just meant being with him, I mean today, tomorrow. I don't know where I am going, and it would be nice although naïve to think that I could keep him, and you guys with me as long as I can." Alice got that far off look on her face and Robin bit her lip. What was she seeing? She snapped out of it and her delicate face darkened.
"Alice?" Robin asked as the smaller girl stood and left the room with a blink of her eye. Robin bit her lower lip starting to panic. "Hey, want to play?" Emmett asked from across the room. "What?" Robin asked her vice sounding high and pitchy with panic to her own ears. Instantly she felt herself calm down and cast her glance to Jasper. "Please stop." she said calmly going the table.
"I don't like feeling what it not my feelings." she said pulling a chair from the table sitting. Jasper nodded and Robin began to feel more life herself. "Thank you, and while I am at it. Sorry about last night. It was bad form and in poor taste. I knew that it would effect you most and I did it anyway to satisfy my own selfish and childishness. I know that forgiveness is to much to ask for but I wanted you to know that I am sorry." Robin said the words hard for her to say, she was prideful.
"I know how much it cost you to say that. And I do owe you an apology for manipulating you like I did." Jasper said a disgusted look on his face. "He is just upset he deliberately went against something Alice asked of him." Emmett laughed. "Well if I was Jasper that is totally how I would have rocked it. So no harm no foul. Right?" Robin shrugged. Jasper's face lightened and after a few seconds he laughed.
"What?" Robin asked. "You are just so caviler about what I did but you are all down on yourself for your actions." he explained and Emmett joined him in laughing. "Well it is how I would have played it. I can understand what he did so no big deal." she shrugged. "My own actions were rash and hard to reason away." she nodded. "Well then I guess no harm no foul." Jasper nodded.
"Ok so you offered me to play, but I don't know the rules set out for eight boards." Robin sighed. Emmett pulled on board free and started to set it up. "This is totally for my benefit so I don't freak over what Alice saw right?" Robin asked. Jasper grinned widely at her showing his white teeth to much. "Right." "Well let the distraction commence." she laughed.
"So I get Emmett to help me right?" Robin asked looking at Jasper across the board. "I mean if you two play such a complex game I am going to need the help." "If you want it, but I think you can hold your own well, but if you can't…" Jasper trailed off. "Oh that is it your going down." Robin snorted. Of course they would know she was to cocky to let a challenge like that stand.
"Excellent." Emmett laughed. "Hey, why don't you make yourself useful and get me something to drink." Robin laughed. Emmett disappeared and then reappeared with a can of coke. "Wow, did you get that from my house or does Esme just already know my pop preference?" "The world may never know." Emmett laughed. "Awesome." Robin said and started to play.
Two hours later and the game was still raging in a little war. "Wow, you are good." Emmett laughed. Robin nodded sipping her coke waiting for Jasper to make a move. "I am sure he is holding back." Robin growled. "No he really isn't." Rosalie said entering the room wiping her hands on a towel. "He doesn't have it in him." Jasper moved and smiled. "Check!" Emmett held his breath but Robin saw it instantly. She only had four possible moves, two resulted in her losing, one would prolong the game, the last would be mate against him. Robin grinned and moved her queen and wiggled her brows. "And that kid is known as MATE!" She laughed.
"I can't believe you saw that…" Jasper said looking shocked. "Why? It wasn't the obvious thing to do but…" she shrugged smiling. She looked at her phone and made a face. She knew time had passed but two solid hours. "Wow you guys are good." she commented about her complete lack of noticing Alice's absence. "No you were good." Jasper laughed. "Well you haven't seen anything until I rock it on Guitar Hero or Halo." she laughed.
"There is no way." Emmett grinned. True they were faster at the controls then she could ever dream of being but she had a brilliant mind. "Set it up big boy." Robin laughed. "I just am going to step outside for a second." she nodding standing up. She moved to the front door and stepped outside.
She pulled out her phone and dialed Edward. Straight to voice mail. "Hey, I don't know what made you so upset, but call me back, or come home I am sort of chilling here with your family. I just kicked Jasper's ass at chess…. Love you Edward." She hung up the phone and sighed. She went back into the house and Esme and Alice were standing in the living room talking to the others.
As soon as they saw her the talking stopped and Robin sighed. "What's going on guys?" she asked swallowing down her tears that had sprung up. No one moved to open their mouths. It was that bad.
"He isn't coming back is he?" she asked blinking several times. Esme's face fell and she shook her head. "Ok." Robin nodded and turned on her heel marching out the front door. She heard someone calling after her but it didn't matter. Nothing really mattered. Edward was deserting her.
Robin stomped to her house and opened the garage door and then entered the house. "FUCK!" she screamed sending the dogs running from her. She kicked wall and turned sliding down it weeping uncontrollable black tears until she had cried all of her mascara away.
Robin's head lulled to the side and she blinked. "Robin?" Alice asked. "Go away." Robin said flatly. "No, not this time." Rosalie said briskly pushing the door open from the garage. "Have you moved at all?" Alice asked concern painting her face. "Go away." Robin replied her voice cracking from thirst. She let her head lull back to looking forward.
"It has been a week, he left last Thursday and it is Friday…" Alice said worriedly. "I wasn't aware." Robin shrugged her narrow shoulders. "You look like hell." Rosalie sighed bending picking up one of her emaciated arms. Robin's head was swimming, but after sitting against the wall for a day she had started to get a little light headed. From there she slipped in and out of consciousness. "Go get Carlisle. She is in a bad way." Rosalie ordered. Robin sighed her eyes fluttering. "I am fine…" Robin tried to protest.
Robin heard something to the side of her but she could no longer manage to lull her head to the side. "What is that smell?" Emmett asked from somewhere. "The dogs. They haven't been let out in a week I think." Alice said moving further into the house. "Oh my god…" she said. Robin tried to open her mouth to explain but once again she was failing.
She couldn't move or speak, everything was slow motion around her. She felt like a prisoner in her own body. Carlisle filled her vision his face set. "Can you tell me your name?" he asked shining a light into her eyes. Robin just blinked and tried to answer. "Emmett, get her in the car." Carlisle ordered. She felt how limp her body was as Emmett lifted her. It was so strange seeing the world like that. All disconnected and blurry.
A light shone into Robin's eyes and she jumped. "It is alright. You are Saint Luke's." Carlisle voice said as he moved back. "Robin Elaine Gann." she swallowed dryly. "What?" Carlisle asked offering her a large plastic Saint Luke's cup filled with ice water. "You just asked me my name."
Carlisle sighed. "That was three days ago." he said as he started to check her vitals. "I don't understand." Robin said shaking her head. "Alice and Rosalie came to check on you. You hadn't been to school in a week and they were going to take you to the dance to try and lift your spirits. You were propped up against the wall. You hadn't eaten or drank anything. You were barely hanging on. You slipped into a coma on the ride over." Carlisle explained.
"I was in a coma?" Robin asked rubbing the arm with the iv in it. "Yes, we have been giving you nutrients through the iv. You came very close." Carlisle said sternly. "Yeah well.." Robin started wanting to say something smart assed to him and shook her head. "You're right and I can't defend what I did. I am sorry." She nodded. "Luckily you have a living will dictating you are to remain on life support as long as your chances or good or my hands would have been tied as you have no executor."
"Carlisle?" Robin asked. "Yes?" Carlisle asked his face looking almost sad. He must have been thinking she was going to ask about Edward. "You think I could get some food while you lecture me?" she asked. "Of course." he nodded and opened the door. "She is awake." he said into the hall wall. Esme entered the room carrying several Tupperware bowls. Robin looked away feeling instantly guilty. "How are you feeling?" Esme asked as she started to open the containers sitting them on the moveable tray. "Like a selfish bitch who almost broke your heart." Robin said sighing.
Esme sighed and patted Robin's hand. "Let's not talk about that. I brought you some green bean casserole, a steak medium rare, a baked potato, and a slice of carrot cake." Esme smiled warmly at her. "Thanks, wow.." Robin said looking at the food, there was so much of it. But she realized she would eat it all and probably want seconds.
"Thank you Esme." Robin nodded. "Nonsense, you need the fuel." she smiled. Robin grinned and looked at Carlisle who was scratching notes in her chart. "Is it ok if Esme stays?" Robin asked. "Well seeing as you have the say so it is up to you." He nodded. "Well then she stays." Robin said adjusting her bed so she met the tray.
"Well, your vitals are strong. You are a fighter I must say." Carlisle sighed. "Is that your medical prognosis?" Robin asked through a mouthful of steak that was still warm. She glanced at Esme her brow raised. "Alice." and Robin nodded. "Well I am going to keep you here for a couple of days, see how you do but if you keep on in this manner I suspect you will be fine." Carlisle said. "I always am." Robin said through more food despite how disgusting she knew it was.
"You almost weren't." Carlisle reproached. Robin swallowed and nodded. "Do you need anything?" Carlisle asked. Robin shook her head. "Then I will go finish my rounds and be back to check up on you. If you need anything call a nurse." he motioned to the button on the side of her bed. "Esme?" Robin asked looking over at the kind woman. "Of course dear." she said nodding.
Robin ate in silence her body ravenously consuming the food Esme had brought. Once she was done she started to put the lids back on with Esme's assistance. "Thank you Esme." Robin said softly. "Oh it was nothing." Esme smiled gently. "No, it means the world to me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart." Robin nodded. Esme patted her hand and tucked Robin's hair behind her ear.
"So, what has everyone been up to the past couple days?" Robin asked after a few moments when she was sure she could speak again. "Well we have just been taking shifts in case anything changes from what Alice predicted. Of course if we hadn't it would have looked suspicious." Esme nodded. Robin looked over to check thy were alone.
They were in a single room. "Do you want to change into something else? Carlisle will allow it." Esme nodded. "I don't want you guys to have to go to the trouble." Robin shook her head, she already had been a burden to them. "No, I packed a bag for you, in fact." Esme reached over her and pulled from her side Doodle. "Oh Esme." Robin said hugging the bear close to her chest.
"Also, I cleaned your house…" Esme said uneasily. "Oh…" Robin blushed vaguely remembering the state of the house. "I …" She bit her lip unsure of what to say. "It is ok, it gave me something to do besides worry. Besides, I enjoyed parts of it. Like seeing the art upstairs. I understand they are yours?" she asked. Robin nodded still blushing. "They are quite good." Esme offered. "Thanks, you know if you really like them I could do something for you, as a thank you." Robin stammered.
"I would like that." Esme smiled. "So totally embarrassing, but could you help change me?" Robin asked fidgeting. "Of course." Esme helped Robin carefully out of bed and steadied her. Slowly but surely Esme guided Robin into some boxer shorts but could do nothing about her top because of her iv.
Once Esme had helped her back into bed Robin snuggled under the blankets. She cuddled her bear to her as if shielding herself from the world. "Have you heard from him?" Robin asked quietly. Esme looked at her eyes soft and Robin knew she was trying to break it to her that they hadn't. "It's ok. He isn't coming back…" Robin said her voice hoarse.
"Well, not exactly…" Esme sighed reaching out to Robin's water then bringing it to her lips. Robin shook her head and smiled weakly. "I am feeling pretty tired." Robin rolled to her side careful of her iv tucking it close to her body along with the bear. Robin heard the door click softly behind her and closed her eyes.
Edward had told her he had loved her from the moment he saw her. She hasn't been sure how she felt until he left, when he had shattered her heart she had tried to protect so fiercely. She sighed and kicked off the blankets, without him there it was simply to hot under the covers. She brought her bare to her nose filling it with Edward's clean smell.
Smelling him so close brought her body to racking sobs. Her body shaking so hard it felt like it was going to break until finally her body couldn't take it any more and she passed out.
"Ok are you ready?" Carlisle asked looking at Robin square in the eye. "Yeah." She gritted her teeth and closed her eyes. The next thing she knew the smell of liquid stitch right before she felt Carlisle paint it on. "Hold the phone you pulled it out?" Robin asked her eyes snapping open looking for the tube that had been attached to her since she woke up in the hospital.
Carlisle merely smiled at her kindly. "Oh points for the smooth removal and brownie points for the bed side manner Doc." Robin laughed. "I see getting out has improved your mood considerably." Carlisle smiled as he started to help Robin remove the varied monitoring devices.
In truth what had put her in a better mood was online shopping with Alice. Hearing Rosalie gush over the modifications she had done to the Lotus. Esme's home cooked meals four times a day. Watching football games with Emmett making outrageous wagers. Playing chess with Jasper over the phone for hours at a time. "You could say that." Robin smiled. Carlisle patted her hand and moved away to sign some papers. "So I am free to go?" she asked her brow raised. "Well I suggest a check up in a week or so, but other then that you are fine." he nodded.
He hadn't pressured her to see a therapist, or tried to prescribe anything to regulate her moods. "So, about how I am getting home?" Robin asked. "There is a cab waiting downstairs. I will give you a moment to get dressed then I can wheel you down if you like." Carlisle offered. "No it's ok I don't want to keep you from your patients." Robin said hoping she didn't sound to disappointed.
"I am done for the day actually." he said softly. "And I am taking a cab home?" Robin asked her face filled with shock. "I was merely joking." he shook his head. "Ok well then get out so I can get out of this crazy backless gown." Robin laughed hoping off the bed feeling stronger then she had since waking up. Robin felt a little silly being wheeled to the doors but it was standard procedure. "Wow, it has gotten really chilly outside." Robin commented. She stood and waited as Carlisle pulled the car around.
"SURPRISE!" Robin was assaulted as soon as she walked through the door. Her dogs ran over to her strangely calm despite the vampires standing in the house. "They got used to us." Alice laughed. "I guess, you do it isn't my birthday right?" Robin asked pointing at the Birthday banner that hung from the ceiling. "Of course but you have been seventeen a full month now. And you didn't get a birthday so…" Alice motioned with her hand to the room.
Robin stopped to take everything in. On the table there was a mound of wrapped gifts and a cupcake with seventeen impossibly small candles. "You guys didn't have to do this." Robin blushed. "We wanted to." Rosalie smiled. "Well thanks." Robin sighed and bent down kissing the dog's head. "Ok come on fatsos." Emmett smiled shooing the dogs from her. "I be taking the keys to that little classic car in the garage if you don't mind." he extended his hand. "As if I won that back in the Longhorns versus the Jayhawks fool." she laughed.
"Ok let's do presents!" Rosalie beamed holding up a package. "Do one of mine first." she cooed handling the box over. Robin blushed and went to the table and started to gingerly open the golden paper. "Just rip it open." Jasper cheered. Robin rolled her eyes and ripped the paper from the package. There was a little model of the Aston Martin in the garage. "I don't get it…" Robin made a face. "I tuned your car up, and made some improvements." Rosalie sighed wistfully. "They don't make them like that anymore." "Ok." Robin shook her head. She pulled another package to herself from Jasper. Inside a beautiful antique chess board. "Aww Jazz I can't wait to kick your ass on this thing."
She had opened pretty much all of the presents surrounded by gifts and paper. A trip from Carlisle and Esme anywhere in the world for herself and one other person. A new laptop loaded with photoshop CS4 from Alice. A new television for her room from Emmett. More clothes then she new what to do with from everyone but she knew Rosalie and Alice had picked them out. Art supplies and canvas out the wazoo.
"There is one more." Robin said pulling a large box from the wreckage and she started to tear the paper off of it. Inside was a Burberry purple plaid rain coat and the matching scarf. "Which…" she started to look through the paper for the gift label. There was none. Carefully she brought the scarf to her nose and then pushed it away against the coat. "Send it back." she said swallowing the lump in her throat that tasted like clean linen.
"Robin…" Esme started. "No! Send it back." The laughter and happy sounds had faded from the room. "If he wants to give me a present he can come home to do it." she said shaking her head. "Now, who wants to have cake?" she smiled raising her hand. She was bound and determined to not let Edward ruin the moment.
Carlisle lit the candles on the cup cake and ever started to sing to her. Once they were finished she closed her eyes took a deep breath. I want Edward to come back. She wished silently in her head before blowing out the candles. Everyone clapped and she started to remove the candles before eating her cup cake. "Thanks you guys." Robin smiled after she was done eating the mini cake.
She started to rise to clean but Esme smiled. "Don't tax yourself you were just in the hospital. Enjoy your party." Jasper and Emmett went to hang the television on the wall and set it up in her room while Alice and Rosalie gathered the clothes to help arrange them in the closet.
Robin slipped out the back deck after grabbing a stash of her cigarettes and lit one up sitting on a chair that was kept dry by an overhang. She took in a deep breath and let the smoke fill her lung until her head started to buzz before letting it go.
"You shouldn't smoke, it isn't healthy." Carlisle said softly sitting beside her. "Yeah, well Da..oc I plan to live forever, cancer sticks or no." She blushed at almost calling him Dad. "Robin…" he said sadly. "You don't mean that." "I don't know this doesn't seem to bad." she chuckled and threw the cigarette on the ground stamping it out. "You can't even comprehend what it is like." Carlisle said gently yet stern at the same time.
"I know, but it has to be better then this. Then maybe Edward wouldn't be so afraid." she sighed. "Your wrong, this conversation is why he is so afraid." Carlisle said softly. "Well, then that makes this a grand ole cluster fuck huh? I mean I feel like I belong, like you all care about me." Carlisle sighed. "Carlisle?" Robin asked looking at him. "Yes?" "If I had of been unable to pull through, would you have done it?" Robin asked gazing at his topaz eyes. He didn't say anything but looked away. "Who was against it?" she asked slipping a strand behind her ear.
"Rosalie, she regrets not living, not having a baby. Her choice would not have been this." Carlisle said softly. "Well, you are an amazing doctor. If something that I couldn't pull out of, something you couldn't save me from. That is what I want. I can draft that into my living will if you want." Robin said lightly. "Noted." Carlisle nodded. " Then, who knows I could be the cooler older Cullen sister." she joked.
"Is he coming back?" she asked softly looking not at Carlisle but at the woods now. "I can only say that he is very unsure about it, what happens changes every time Alice looks ahead." "Do you think he loves me?" Robin asked turning slightly to watch Carlisle from the corner of her vision. "You doubt that he does?" Carlisle asked. "No, but that makes it all the more painful." Robin sighed. "I know…"
"Well I am going to leave you with one parting thought Robin. That is that we all care for you a great deal, each in our own way. It is ok that you care for us. Your heart isn't broken. I think you are to strong for that. You continue to preserver, you refused to die subconsciously even when you thought you had given up. Remember that." Carlisle said rising to go back inside.