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Chapter 4 – Decisions

Alice, Emmett and Jasper arrived first. I was overjoyed to see them and gave each a hug. Jasper looked surprised, but I soon fixed that.

"Don't" I said fiercely, "don't be upset at what happened. It doesn't matter." Jasper just looked at me wide-eyed and softly hugged me back.

"It's so great you're back Bella! I can't believe I didn't see you!"Alice screeched, while bouncing around the room, looking much like the pixie she was. Suddenly she stopped and looked me over.

She sighed and started muttering under her breath about shopping trips. I winced. I should have expected this.

"So...What you been up to?" I asked them.

"Not much," Emmett grimaced, "Edward has been... bad. He's not good Bella."

"What are you going to do?" Jasper asked. "He'd welcome you back with open arms. I know it."

"I can't see you" Alice suddenly spoke up, looking at me with worried eyes.

"What?" Rosalie whispered. "Does it mean she's going to die?"

They looked at me with worried eyes. I had been expecting this to happen.

Flashback

"We're different to vampires, yet so much the same. Some of us have gifts. Usually though, some gifts, like what you're friend Alice had, won't work on us. It's the same both ways. This is because we're something the other has never been before."

If it wasn't from my shielding ability strengthening, it was because I was different. Sasha said that sometimes vampire's don't really work on people like us because we are something they never were. Abilities worked on humans because they once were human and vampires because they are vampires, but we were something entirely foreign to them. Either of the possibilities seem likely to me.

Alice stared at me hard. "No, she's not, but I can't see her." Her brow furrowed in confusion.

"Bella?" my head snapped up. Rosalie was onto it. She knew there was something terribly wrong with me. My hands trembled with anticipation and the monster begged for its release. "You said something happened to you? You don't seem all that surprised that Alice can't see you."

I got up, needing to do something with myself. My hands were shaking now. The monster deep within me was so close to gain control. I hurried around the kitchen quickly and made myself another sandwich to satiate the monster.

They were looking confused as they watched me stuff my face. I finished in record time and looked at expectantly at them. If our positions were reversed I would have been bursting with questions before now.

"You will soon know what's wrong with me, but Edward needs to know first." They seemed satisfied with my answer.

Sasha then decided to make her appearance.

"Hey, I'm Sasha" she was quick to introduce herself as she walked through the door, before she recognised what had happened.

Her gaze flickered between us and she spoke quickly in a lost Ancient language we used for code. It was actually her first dialect, but that was thousands of years ago. Almost no one knows it now, which is why she taught it to me.

"What happened?"

"They're onto me. I think they almost know what's wrong with me. I- I almost lost control" I said, shamefaced.

She was by my side in an instant and had pulled me into a hug. "You'll be okay, Bella. You hear me? You won't lose control!"

"Thanks" I sniffed. They were all very curious now as to my little outburst. I could not keep my secret much longer. It was time to see Edward.

"I gotta go see Edward. I promised myself that he would be the first to know my secret." She stared at me long and hard.

"Are sure this is wise? You're damaged enough as it is."

"What are you guys talking about? Bella? We can't understand you" Emmett interrupted.

"Please be quiet Muscle Man?" Sasha was quick to ask him as she raised a figure to her lips. "All will be revealed in due time. Patience."

Very quickly I relayed what they had told me. She sighed and ran a hand through her long dark hair.

"Good luck. Let's hope it won't go all...well yeah, you know what I mean."

I turned to face the Cullen's. They still looked as confused as hell.

"Sasha and I have decided to go see Edward. Might as well get this over and done with" I sighed.

They immediately brightened at this and were quick to jump in Emmett's jeep. I was amused to find he still had it after two years. It was a little squishy with six people in it but we fit. As we drove down the road, Rosalie was quick to introduce herself to Sasha.

"So, Sasha, Bella said you had experience with vampires?" Rosalie dropped casually.

Sasha didn't look fazed by this, but I could only imagine what nightmares and horrors were replaying in her head. "Yes" she said curtly.

Jasper tightly shut his eyes. I could only imagine what he was feeling from us. We were both a mess.

"What did they do to you? The emotions you are feeling... not good. It must have been horrible" he rasped.

Sasha just looked sad. "They murdered my family in front of me." She said simply. Only I knew it was much, much worse than she let on. Horror was etched on each of their faces. If only they knew the full story. I tightly gripped Sasha's hand in my own, comforting the best I could. After that we rode in silence. Every single person seemed to sense just how much of messed up couple we were. The only thing holding us together was each other. And then we pulled to a stop in front of a big three story mansion, very like the one that they owned back in Forks.

We were there. Time to face just one of my many fears.

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