Chapter Tweny One - Protector

"Bleedin' on your highway, baby!!!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. "Harvest is a comin in the season of dying!!!" I was attempting to get completely lost in some music, but my mind would not let me forget today. Oops, there I go thinking about it again.
"I trace the skull in your face and remember - I kissed a girl with thirteen fingers, kissed a girl with thirteen fingers......" I screamed even louder. Jacob just sat staring at me while I sang, probably wondering what the hell was wrong with me. Singing was my best distraction from life.
"I trace the skull in your face.... and remember..... I kissed a dark eyed girl..... with thirteen fingers," I sang slower. It was too slow - I needed something hard enough to bust out my ear drums. Slow songs would be the death of me today. Kashmir was randomly selected on my mp3, and I quickly changed it.

"What color is death? The shade of an ice pick sinking into flesh...." I sang along again. "Close my eyes and dream of death, Slip away and take a breath, Rivers running dark and cool, How can nothingness be cruel?" I belted out every word. My earphones suddenly popped out of my head and I was back in the real world. "What'd you do that for?" I asked Jacob angrily as he turned off my mp3.
"I don't like all that screaming about death stuff, Ness."
"It's a song, and it's the best distraction I can think of. Well....." A mischevious smile spread across my face, "Second best distraction I can think of."
Jake chuckled at me. "You're such a horn dog Nessie. Some psycho is after you, and all you can think about is getting it on."
"I'm sorry," I said, hanging my head with mock sadness. He was right; that was all I could think about now. Jacob filled every single part of my brain, pushing worry and anger aside. Why concentrate on the bad parts of life when the very best part was sitting right in front of me?
Jacob took my hand and I sent him my last thought. "Me? The best part? Nahh," he joked. "I'm not so great. Now you, on the other hand...."
I sent him pictures of what we were doing this morning before we got interrupted. Then I sent him some pictures of other nights when we had not been interrupted.
"You know, your parents are out there somewhere. Your dad is probably listening to all of that......" he said with his eyes closed. I ripped my hand out of his.
"Fine. Have it your way. I'm going to take a shower," I told him. He looked sad at my mood swing, but I wasn't through yet. I pulled myself out of his large sweats that I'd worn all day and threw them onto his face. They slid off slowly and his eyes couldn't help but run across my body multiple times. He cocked an eyebrow at me.
"What?" I asked innocently. He'd never be able to completely resist me, not when all I wanted was something he loved to do as well. He didn't say anything and just kept staring, so I walked over to the bag of clothes my parents had brought for me earlier this evening. I grabbed some velvety blue shorts and a tiny pink Tinkerbell tank top.
"I could use a shower too......" Jacob said with a tiny hint of menace in his voice. He may be a werewolf with some big problems to take care of, but he was still a man. He couldn't deny his hormones when I made it so difficult for him, and I knew that.
We stayed in our lukewarm shower for much longer than was necessary before we moved it back to the bed room. I kept my hand to his face as we writhed in ecstasy all night, making it all but impossible to take his mind to any place that was not me.

My eyes saw the sunlight of morning breaking through the clouds, but my mind did not acknowledge it. I needed to be in the place where I was, to have nothing but Jacob inside of me.
Too soon, he pulled his body away from mine and laid down beside me as we both gasped for air. The rest of life came flooding back into my brain at the same second, but I felt no tension for it. I forced myself to concentrate only on Jacob, only on the way he made me feel.
"Wow," he said after about ten minutes. He looked over at his little window. "It's day time already."
I rolled over on my side and wrapped my arm across his torso. I should be tired from not sleeping all night, but I felt more alive than I ever had. I made a mental note to spend more nights exactly like this one.

"Are you going to school today, Ness?" Jacob asked. I groaned at the reminder; school was just so unnecessary. I pulled myself up slowly.

"Yeah, might as well," I said as I stretched out my body. I stood up and looked at my bag, then back at Jacob's perfect nude body laying across his bed with his long legs hanging off. My head whipped back and forth a few times as I attempted to concentrate on getting dressed. Jacob laughed lightly at me.

"I'll be there today," he told me. Why would he be at school with me? "Not actually there like with you all day, but I'll be watching from the woods," he added, answering my question.
I smiled hugely. "My protector," I said quietly to myself. He smiled back in response, making me groan again.

His expression shifted to worry. "What?"
"You make it extremely hard to leave you. I'll never go back to school if we keep this up."

He chuckled. "That's the plan," he joked. "I'll just keep you here every day and let you have your way with me."
I joined in on his laughter before picking out my clothes for the day. My stomach rumbled angrily, reminding me that I had not hunted since Thanksgiving.
"I'll make you some eggs," Jacob said as he got to his feet and pulled some shorts on. "How many do you want?"

"A lot. I'm starving," I told him as my stomach growled again. I got ready in his room, dressing and smoothing out my hair before setting off for the bathroom to brush my teeth. I looked at my reflection in the mirror - the girl staring back was me, but slightly different. Her cheeks were pinker, her skin was more dewy, and her eyes seemed wider. Brittany was going to have a lot of fun with me today.

"Do I look different to you?" I asked Jacob as I sat down at his table in front of my plateful of eggs. He kissed me lightly on the top of my head.
"You look beautiful, as always," he answered. Maybe it was something only a girl would notice. I hoped that it was at least something only a girl would recognize; I did not need boys commenting on my sex life at school.

We ran to school through the cover of the forest. Jacob couldn't drive me if he was going to stay, and he said he'd rather have his sense of smell on the way there so he would know if he needed to take me back home.
"I love you," he said as he hugged me goodbye. "I'll be here waiting when you're ready to leave."

I kissed him quickly and told him I loved him too before I walked at a normal pace towards my Government class. Most of the seats were already filled as I strode through the door.

"Wow," someone whispered as I made my way to my desk. "Look at Nessie....." the boy said to another boy in a voice he thought I couldn't hear.

"She looks different......" the second boy answered. "Too bad she dates that older guy. He kind of freaks me out....."

I blocked them out as they went on to talk about me and Jacob. I hated having to pretend I heard none of it, but saying something to them would give me away. A normal human would not have heard a word of their conversation from this distance.

"Hey, Ness!" Brittany said excitedly as she spun around in her chair and looked me over. "Whoa..... looks like you had a good night..." she trailed off suggestively. I felt my cheeks burning red at her words. Some people sitting around us turned to look at me too, having heard her. I ignored them.

"Best night ever," I smiled. Brittany laughed at my straight-forwardness. "I didn't sleep a wink," I laughed with her. A

few people paying attention snickered at our exchange. Let people think what they would - at least now everyone knew not to bother trying to get me from Jacob.

Anthony was waiting outside the door for me when my class ended.

"Hey, Renesmee," he said without looking at me. His cheeks flushed pink, reminding me of the last time I had seen him. No wonder he was embarassed right now; he had seen for himself how close I was with Jake. He finally lifted his head up and looked me over. "Wow, you look great today!" he exclaimed as his cheeks flushed again.

I giggled at his outburst. "Yeah, I've been getting that alot this morning." I heard a low growl coming from the trees so far away. Jacob was probably trying very very hard right now to control himself.

Anthony took a deep breath as if he was readying himself for something. "Are you going to the dance right before Christmas break?" he asked all in the same breath. His question caught me off-guard; I hadn't noticed anything telling me about this dance. The growling from the forest got slightly louder.

"Probably not. I hate dancing...." I quickly amended before an unexplained giant wolf decided to blow his cover.

"Oh," he said, looking at the ground again. He walked me to second period in silence, and said nothing else to me for the rest of the day. Every classroom I walked into, people stared at me with a look of wonder and whispered about my appearance amongst eachother. The only thing that confused me was why everyone noticed today when they had never noticed anything before. Except for Brittany, of course. She saw straight through me.