Chapter Twenty Two - Wrong

I was in a room with white walls and a bright light shining into my eyes. The room looked slightly familiar, but I couldn't place it....
"Here, Renesmee," Mom said from above me. She handed me a baby, one with beautiful russet colored skin and round, dark brown eyes. My eyes.
"What's going on?" I asked in confusion. What I really wanted to say was 'whose baby is this?'.

"He needs a name, darling," she said in her sing song voice.

"Why are you telling me??"

"Renesmee?" a familiar husky voice said.

"Yeah?"

"Nessie, wake up."

"Huh?"

"Wake up, sweetie," Jacob said as I opened my eyes up to his room. I was speechless for a long moment. "Were you having another nightmare??" he asked almost angrily.

"Noo....... it wasn't a nightmare," I told him hesitantly. I did not want him to see that dream.

"Will you show me??" he smiled eagerly. Oh crap. I placed my hand to his face and showed him a different dream that I remembered instead, being careful to hide my deception.

"I like that one," he said when it was over. "What do you want for breakfast?" he asked as my stomach growled impatiently.

"I'll make you breakfast today. I'm getting much better at this cooking thing," I told him as I stood up and picked through my bag of clothes. I found some jeans, a light blue tank top and a black sweater and threw them on.

"You look beautiful today," Jacob said.

"I've been getting that alot lately....." Did I actually look any different? I walked down to the bathroom and looked at my face in the mirror. I did look different somehow...... there was something subtle that I just could not place. I quickly brushed my hair and teeth and splashed hot water on my face.

I went to the kitchen and started sniffing around, trying to find something appealing. My nose stopped me in front of a cabinet on some sort of flour type smell, and I pulled the door open. Pancakes? That's weird. I sniffed the box closely...... yep, that's what I wanted.

I read the directions on the box as Jacob walked into the kitchen.

"Pancakes, Ness? I thought you didn't like that type of stuff," he asked me.

"The nose chose it," I winked. He froze and then blinked his eyes as if he were dazed. "Are you okay?" I asked him seriously.

"You did something to me....." he said almost drowsily. "You dazzled me or something....."

"What? I can't do that to you. I can't even completely do it at all, but humans are so easy." I said as I mixed the pancake batter until it was smooth. Jacob heated up a griddle and helped me make all of them. I ate five.

"You've been so hungry lately," Jacob pointed out. "You seem to be getting really used to regular food."

"Yeah, I can't really hunt right now anyways," I said. I didn't even want to hunt though - I wanted regular food. Some of it, at least.

We raced eachother to the school playfully. Jacob let me stay in the lead right up until the end where he shot past me like a rocket, so I tackled his furry butt to the ground. I had to be very careful not to ruin my outfit, though. We kissed goodbye and I headed off for another horrible day at Forks' High School.

I walked into a half-full Government and was greeted by people staring at me. It felt like my first day all over again for a few moments.

"Hey, Renesmee," a boy named Cody said to me.

"Um, hey," I smiled shyly. He looked like he'd just stared at the sun for too long...... What was going on today?

"Hey!!" Brittany squealed from her seat. I walked over and quickly sat down. I felt so self- conscience today.

"Hey Brit! How's it going?" I asked her. Her smile faded and her eyes went slightly blank.

"What were we talking about?" she asked me.

"Umm..... I asked how it was going...?" I was starting to get very confused.

"You look beautiful today, Renesmee," she said casually.

"Thanks??" She spun back around as the bell rang.

All day long, people stared at me like I was...... I don't even know how to explain it. Like they were moths and I was a flame maybe. People that had never spoken to me before would randomly say hello or ask me how I was doing or something. It was totally creeping me out.

I walked into the lunchroom with a swarm of people all packed tightly around me. I quickly bought myself a brownie and sat down at my usual spot.

"Hey, Renesmee!" Anthony said excitedly. So predictable.

"Hey," I smiled. He got the same blank expression Brittany had had earlier for a moment. Then he blinked hard and raised his eyebrows slowly. He smiled down at me.

"Can I ask you a question?" he asked, still slightly dazed looking.

"I guess so," I hesitated. He could ask, but that didn't mean I would answer.

"Why do you love Jacob?"

"What kind of a question is that??" A weird one, that's what kind it was.

"I'm just curious. You're all about him, and he seems so.... Over bearing." he said smugly.

"He's not over bearing. He's very...... protective. And I love him because...... it's so hard to explain....... he's like the sunshine to me. He's like the air, or music, or all those things combined." I tried to answer as best as I could.

"But how do you know that he's the only person that could be all of those things for you? Have you ever been in love with anybody else?" he asked seriously, pulling his face closer to mine and looking straight into my eyes. I looked down from his gaze and noticed his hands were holding my shoulders.

"I know what I want. Don't we all? I don't need to be in love with anybody else to know that I am meant for Jacob."

"I know what I want too, Renesmee," he whispered as his fingers dug lightly into my skin. I quickly took his hands off of my shoulders and placed them neatly in his lap. I didn't need another kissing fiasco on my hands.

"Sometimes people don't get what they want. They always find something else at some point that they want just as much, though," I said softly. I did not want to hurt his feelings, but I needed him to lay off. He could not be with me the way he wanted, and he just had to accept that and go find some other girl.

One of his hands left the place where I'd sat it down. He lifted it up and stroked the length of my cheekbone with his fingertips. He sighed heavily, then turned away and stared at the wall.

Anthony seemed to avoid looking at me in class after that. I was trying to avoid everyone else's stares, so I stayed as quiet as possible. He was waiting on me after gym let out, and I walked extremely slow so that everyone would leave before I had to go back and meet Jacob in the were almost to the parking lot when Anthony spun around to face me. His eyes were burning with some unknown desire as he grabbed my shoulders once again. I was stunned momentarily as his eyes smoldered into mine.

"Renesmee....." he whispered so softly he probably thought I didn't even hear him. "I think I'm in love with you......."

"Anthony.... you are not in love with me. You barely know me," I said almost sternly. "You're just infatuated with me." I removed his hands from my shoulders but they quickly wrapped around my waist.

"No, no, it's so much more than that. You're all I can ever think about anymore...." he said very slowly. He leaned forward towards my face. No, not this again!

I pushed lightly against his chest to keep his mouth from connecting to mine, then took a step back. "Stop it, Anthony. I do not love you! I love Jacob!" I half yelled. A few people still left in the parking lot stopped to stare at us. Anthony did not seem to notice.

"Renesmee, I need you. I could be better than him, I would give you anything you wanted in the world. I'd find a way if you were mine....."

"You are WRONG!!! No one could be better than him! He is perfect! He's my soulmate!" I yelled loudly. I was so sick of everyone saying that Jacob was not good enough for me. "You don't know anything about me! You don't know anything about my relationship!!" I stormed off back towards the school just a little bit too quickly and disappeared through the trees. I took off from there, searching out where Jacob was waiting for me. He was his human self, and he looked extremely angry and a bit sad in a way.

He paced in front of me, muttering profanities and shaking his head in frustration. I waited for him to calm down before I said anything.

"Are you okay?" He asked me, his onyx eyes gleaming with real concern.

I giggled at him. "Of course I am. I'm way stronger than he is." Jacob's expression went blank. "What the hell is that??!!" I finally boiled over. Why did everyone keep looking at me so strangely??

He smiled at me blissfully. "What were we talking about?" he asked serenely.

"I am seriously confused...." I mumbled back. Something very odd was going on.

Jacob took two long steps towards me and crushed his lips against mine. My hands went straight around his back, one of them winding it's fingers into his short hair as his arms pulled my body tightly against his. His lips were eager as they circled all around my face and neck before landing back to my lips. I noticed that someone was approaching quickly, but waited a moment to look up.

I moved my face away from Jacob's to see who was here..... the wind blew Anthony's scent to me as Jacob placed his lips to the skin of my throat again and again.

"Renesmee....?" he asked from too far a distance to have seen us standing here yet.

"Go.... away....." Jake muttered into the hollow of my throat. Anthony took a few more steps towards us. I tried to pry myself free from Jacob so that I could get him to leave, but Jake locked his arms around me and would not release.

He turned his head slightly towards Anthony's direction. "Go away," he said barely loud enough for him to even have heard. Jacob turned his head back and quickly continued his kissing me.

"Renesmee? Was that you?" Anthony asked taking a few more steps. I tried again to pry Jacob off of me, still to no avail.

"Jake..... let me go," I said, pushing at his chest once more.

"Hmmm....?" was all he said in return. His lips met mine again, almost desperately yet slowly and sweetly. He was acting really weird.....

"There you! Are?" was how Anthony's greeting came out. I pulled my face away from Jacob's to look at Anthony's confused one. Jacob nuzzled his face into my neck again and inhaled deeply a few times before he began kissing it some more.

He pulled his face away from me for a moment. He glared harshly at Anthony. "Go away. We're busy," he said before turning back to me and inhaling again, straight along my jawline. I felt way too confused to say anything to either of them..... this day had turned out to be the strangest one I'd ever lived. As far as I could remember, at least.

Anthony turned around slowly and walked back out the way he'd came. He was probably about as baffled as I was right now. I realized too late that maybe Jacob should have hidden while I told him I was fine and he could leave.

"Let's go home," I said to Jacob. He finally released me and handed me his shorts quickly. I admired his beauty before his wolf form burst forth from his skin. He lowered himself down to the ground like he wanted me to climb aboard.

"You want me to ride on your back?" I asked speculatively. He nodded twice and lowered his head down once more. I lifted myself on top of him and secured my hands around large chunks of his fur. He flew off like a rocket, so fast that I had to lean my body down against him like I was riding a motorcycle.

We were just outside of La Push in only four minutes or so. Jacob streaked across the highway when it was clear and ran us straight into his house. I flopped off of him and onto the couch as he phased back.

I threw his shorts to him, but he threw them across the room. He picked me up and carried me off to the bed room. I was still completely thrown off by his behavior..... not that I wasn't still enjoying it. He usually did not initiate this specific act.

He laid me down lightly and pulled my sweater over my head. I started to sit up and his lips crushed against mine yet again. He pushed me back down gently as he removed my tank top. He kissed me softly down the center of my body, from my chin to the line of my pants. He removed those next, and then my socks as his warm lips pressed themselves all over my bare skin.

I still did not understand, but I was not able to care anymore. Jacob was every breath I gasped for as he moved his body over top of mine. He pushed his arm underneath my back and lifted me up to him.

"Renesmee...." he whispered as his teeth grazed my earlobe. "I need you...."

A tiny part of my brain acknowledged that he was not the first person to have said this to me today. The rest of my mind was much too preoccupied to care.

Jacob made love to me so softly, keeping my front molded to his the entire time. He seemed almost like he really did need me in this way right now, like if he didn't have me now he would never again be satisfied. I needed him as well, but that was the usual for me.

I looked at the sky as we laid in silence, tracing our fingers slowly across eachother's skin. It was getting later..... My stomach growled furiously, something it seemed to be doing a lot of lately.

"What do you want to eat?" Jacob asked softly as he pulled himself up on his hands. He kissed my neck gently before standing all the way to put his shorts on.

"I don't know. What do you want?"

"Doesn't matter to me," he said quietly. He ran his fingers slowly through my hair and then across my face as I stood up to dress myself as well. I blushed slightly; he was being even more sweet than usual.

We walked down the short hall to the kitchen and began to rummage. I followed my nose again, and this time it led me to the refrigerator. I opened the door and located what smelled good - it was a plateful of turkey. I took it out and tried a peice skeptically, but it was so delicious it made my mouth water.

"Turkey, too?" Jacob asked as I scarfed huge chunks of it down, still standing at the refrigerator. I looked up long enough to nod before stuffing my face some more. "You're appetite's been really weird here lately."

That was definitely not the only thing that was becoming weird.