Chapter Twenty Nine - Names

I walked down the stairs and into the big livingroom. Alice, Jasper, and Esme were the only people in the room.

"Where are they?" I asked, anger still apparent in my voice. A wave of calm spread through me, but I pushed it away. "Not now Jasper," I said with my head down. "It'll come right back the second I'm away from you. I might as well just stay pissed off."

"They went outside to... discuss some things," Jasper said slowly.

"You mean to discuss me?" I shot back. I was in no mood for this. I stalked to the door and almost ripped it off of it's hinges in my haste. I caught a final glimpse of the surprised faces behind me before I took off, searching out the scents of my parents and Jacob.

"I don't know what to do!" I heard Jacob yell as I got closer. "How can I make her happy again?"

"Why don't you ask her, she'll be here in just a moment," Dad said as I flew towards them. "Yes, she is. She just wants you to treat her normally," he said, my guess is to whatever Jacob was thinking.

I found the spot they were all sitting in and stopped, fuming when I looked at Jacob's sad face. "Carlisle wants to give me an ultrasound. I thought you'd like to see it," I said quickly. Jake's eyes lit up as he jumped to his feet. I spun around on my heels and ran back towards the house.

"Wait, Renesmee," Jacob said from a few feet behind me as I reached to open the door. I paused to let him catch up. "Look, I'm sorry for acting so weird, I just don't know how to be right now. I don't want to touch you again and have you think for even an instant that it was him..... I don't know what I should do to make things better for you," he said sincerely.

The anger faded from me at his words. I jumped into his arms and pushed my lips to his roughly. He was still hesitant, making me kiss him even harder. He finally gave in and really kissed me back, something I'd been waiting for since he'd come to rescue me. My arms went around his neck as I pulled his face down closer to mine and grabbed at his hair. He pulled my body back into an upright position, holding me up off the ground as he let go completely of his fears and just gave me what we both wanted.

"Don't hold back," I whispered roughly into his ear. My teeth touched his earlobe as my mouth went to his neck. I kissed him softly, and he closed his eyes and tilted his head up to let me. He brought his face back down and lifted me up, moving my lips with his as they met once more. I could finally feel his passion for me again as he bit lightly onto my bottom lip.

He lifted me higher as he kissed me again and again, and then spun us both around a few times. He was so happy that even I could feel it. I had my Jacob back, comfortable in my arms once again. He pulled my body back into a cradle position as he lifted me all the way to his height. He put his cheek down softly on my stomach, then pulled back to kiss it gently.

"So we get to see it now??" he asked excitedly. I nodded a yes, too ecstatic to actually speak yet. He smiled my favorite smile as he brought his lips to meet mine once more. I placed my hand to his face so he could see my happiness, and told him thank you.

"I'd do anything in the world to make you happy, Ness. I love you so much," he said as he dug his face into my throat. I had a huge smile plastered to my face, one that would probably stay where it was for a very long time. Everyone looked even more surprised now as we walked in than when I'd left.

Alice was standing at the opposite wall fiddling with a stereo. She moved aside from it and familiar music began filling the room around me.

"Ladybug, ladybug, ladybug....Kisses the bones pushing through..." Dax Riggs sang to us. I froze like a block of ice at the reminder of my time in the hotel room.

"Turn it off, Alice," Jasper said as soon as my emotions hit him. Alice looked bewildered as she flew over and turned the stereo off. I untensed my body and pushed the dark memories aside.

"No, play it," I told Alice. The song picked back up where she'd turned it off, and I closed my eyes to feel what I wanted to, what I should feel when I heard something so beautiful. I would not let Jerrick ruin the things that I loved.

"I thought you loved this song....." Alice said, her cute little face scrunched into confusion.

"I do....." was all I could answer. I did not feel like explaining my sudden issue with it.

"It is very beautiful," Alice approved. "Much better than that other stuff you listen to."

I laughed at her assumption. "Alice, Acid Bath and Agents of Oblivion are headed by the same person. You can't like one and not the other."

"Sure I can," she answered, making me laugh again. Jacob cleared his throat, reminding me of the task at hand. I looked up at him to let him know that I was ready.

He ascended the steps one by one, moving quickly in his excitement. We entered Carlisle's office to find an ultrasound machine hooked up beside a small bed that had not been there before.

"Are we ready?" Carlisle smiled. Jacob walked over and laid me down on the bed.

"Yep. Let's do this," I smiled back. Jacob took my hand as Carlisle lifted up my shirt and prepared some kind of goo. He rubbed the goo on my belly, making me extremely uncomfortable. It was so cold, and it smelled like.... I don't even know what it smelled like. Something disgusting. Carlisle pulled some kind of wand thing from the side of the machine and began to run it over my skin.

"There we are," he said. "Do you see that thing that looks like a black hole?"

Jacob and I both looked around on the screen until we saw what he was talking about. It was so tiny..... our tiny little baby. I turned back to him and nodded. He pointed to a specific spot on the screen.

"This would be the head," he told me. He pushed a button on the machine and it began to print something out of the side of it. "Everything looks completely normal," he said with releif. He wiped the goo off of me and listened through his stethoscope.

"Strong heartbeat....." he said, making my own heart jump with delight. I wanted more than anything for my baby to be healthy. "We can wait and do the rest in my office," he said next. "I will have all of the proper equipment there, and a nurse to do the OB GYN exam."

That was good..... it would feel pretty weird to have my own grandfather poking around down there. I giggled at myself.

Jacob squeezed my hand from my happiness, and I looked up into his face. He looked like he was about to cry, but not in the way he had earlier.

"Oh, Jake," I teased lightly. "Don't get all mushy on me now."

He leaned down to kiss my belly in response.

"Are we all done here?" I asked Carlisle. I was ready to go home and get in the bed.

"Yes, everything looks good so far. Go home and get yourself some rest."

"How long will you all be here?" I asked sadly. I did not want them to leave.

"We can't be sure yet, but everyone will be waiting for you when you wake up," he reassured me.

I went down stairs to hug and kiss everyone goodbye, making them all promise that they would stay for at least a few days. I hated that they couldn't always stay, but I understood the reasons. Jacob swept me into his arms again before running us to my own empty house. My parents would probably stay with everyone tonight so they could catch up.

I went straight to the kitchen to find some food with Jacob. We didn't have much of a selection, but I found some peanut butter and grape jelly for a sandwich. I had it all scarfed down and was making another by the time Jacob found himself some cereal to eat.

We stared at eachother for a long time, Jacob only breaking eye contact to raise his spoon to his mouth. I couldn't help but wonder how long it would be before he felt completely normal towards me again, when we could go back to doing things that we were used to doing.....

"Will you take a shower with me?" I blurted out. His eyes went wide for a second, but then his face relaxed.

"If you want me to," he smiled. I smiled back hugely, and his expression blankened for a moment.I had completely forgotten about this; My new effect on him was going to make this much easier.

I pulled his shirt gently over his head and waited for him to do the same to me. He hesitated, then smiled as he lifted it up just as easily. We both removed our own bottoms as he turned the knobs to the shower. I pulled his body against mine and kissed his chest, since it was the part of him that was even with my face. He bent down so I could reach his warm lips as his arms wrapped around me, picking me up and molding my body perfectly to his.

He stepped with me into the shower but I did not pull away for an instant. I had waited much too long for this moment, for this feeling to return to me. I needed him in every way possible. I could not let his mind change to doubtful, or I might have to wait even longer.

He kissed me so softly and sweetly I knew that he wanted me, but he would not make a single move without being sure it was what I wanted. One of his hands moved down to my bottom, then quickly pulled itself back upwards to the small of my back. I quickly contemplated how embarassing my next move would be, and decided to go for it anyways. One of us had to move forward.

I grabbed both of his hands and placed them straight on my butt. I jumped up and wrapped my legs around his waist as water flowed gently over my face and body. He was surprised and excited by my forwardness, and he finally relaxed completely, holding me as close as possible and kissing me more roughly. His warm lips trailed across my throat and then back up to my mouth.

He turned slightly so that my back was against a wall, and I felt the excitement build up and bubble over inside of me. He hesitated, and then decided against what he was about to do. I could feel a little of his earlier tension coming back, and I was having none of that. I would get my way tonight, no matter what I had to do.

"Jacob..." I whispered as I gasped for air. His eyes met mine as he waited for me to say more, but my lips crushed against his again. One of my hands was wrapped into his hair, so I pulled the other away and placed it to his face, allowing him to see how badly I needed him right now.

He gave in with a soft moan, pushing himself inside of me. I threw back my head, surprised at how much better I felt just in that instant alone. I writhed and clutched myself to his body as he entered and withdrew from me again and again.

Our shower was over much too soon for me. My body and mind ached for more of him, screaming that I'd die if I didn't have it. He carried me to my room and laid me down on the bed as he sat up beside me. I pulled myself on top of him, making my intentions clear yet again.

He was much less hesitant this time, allowing me to take most of the control. I kept my hand to his face, practically screaming for him to give me himself over and over. He obliged each time, and even by the time the sun had broken the clouds, I was still not completely satisfied. I wasn't sure if I ever would be.

"I never will be," he gasped into my ear.

We finally seperated our disentangled bodies and cuddled against eachother. I considered going for it once more, but thought better of it. I was actually really tired after my long and wonderful night.

"Go to sleep, Ness. I'll be right here when you wake up," Jacob assured me.

You better be, I thought as I drifted away. I dreamed of Jacob, and of holding our beautiful baby in my arms. It was absolutely perfect.

"....and your mommy and daddy are going to love you more than anything in the whole world," Jacob was saying into my stomach as I woke up. He kissed it softly as he turned to me with a huge smile on his face. He was so sweet....

"What do you want for breakfast?" he asked, hopping up to his feet. "Your parents went out and got you a bunch of new food."

I jumped up too and we flew to the kitchen. I fried us both eggs then sat down to eat.

"Have you thought of any names yet?" he asked me excitedly.

"Hmmm..... well, if it's a girl, maybe Isabelle. And if it's a boy, maybe Jacob."

"But that might get confusing, having two Jacob's running around," he said as we both laughed. "I kind of like the name Jerrick."

I froze completely, except for my eyes which grew wide at the thought of the name. My fork toppled to the ground.

"What Nessie? What did I say?" Jacob asked, staring at me in confusion.

"No. Please don't ever say that name again," I said, my eyes still huge. I would never name my sweet baby after that monster.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know," Jacob said quietly as he bent to pick up my fork. He threw it in the sink and handed me a new one. I finally calmed myself and thawed out my body.

"It's okay. So did you have any other ideas?" I said as I piled more eggs into my mouth. Jacob looked as if he was trying very hard to relax again.

"I don't know...." he trailed off, looking extremely uncomfortable.

"I'm sorry, Jacob," I said to the floor. " I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable."

"No, no it's not that Renesmee. It's me..... I'm so flustered today."

"Why?" I asked looking back up at him.

"Do you want to go for a walk?" he asked suddenly, jumping from his seat.

"Ookaaay??" I answered. I was very confused.

We set off in silence out the front door.