Chapter 7
Bella:
I was so stupid! And everything seemed so clear now.
His face when I saw him come downstairs. The shock, hurt and anger in his green eyes.
And then the stratification when he looked me in the eyes.
It was all so obvious now!
How could I have been so stupid? So blind?!
I hated myself for trusting him.
I hated him for doing this to me.
For using me.
But I refused to cry any more over him.
I'd move past it and go on with life.
And so would he. He didn't even like me. He'd fuck someone in no time.
And that just restarted my anger even more.
I splashed cold water on my face and wiped it off and took a deep breath before leaving the girl's bathroom.
Edward:
I was so stupid! How could I have used Bella like that?
How could I have even wanted Lauren back?
Why did I say those things?
Why did I kiss her?
Why, why, why?
The list could go on for hours.
Jasper was right I was playing with fire. And I did get burned.
I was so, so, so stupid! And I deserved all I got and more.
But I wanted Bella.
I never even liked Lauren this much.
And I screwed it up.
I threw it all away for nothing!
I walked numbly back inside.
"Hey what's wrong?" I looked up and of course saw Jasper. Great.
"Bella found out." There was no point in lying.
"Ah. And I take it it didn't go well?"
I glared at him.
And he shrugged I told you were paying a dangerous game Edward don't go blaming this on me or anyone else."
"I know. This is my entire fault." I whispered.
"Damn right. You hurt her. And now you're faced to live with the consequences of it."
I said nothing. I knew he was right.
He sighed and put a hand on my shoulder. "I don't know what to tell you Edward. You made a mistake and sometimes we can fix them but sometimes there's no going back. Sometimes there's no forgiveness."
"I know."
"I'll see you later."
And with that he left leaving me in my own thoughts of regret and pain.
Bella:
I refused to talk or even look at Edward even though he made many attempts to 'explain' but what was left to explain? He used me to get another girl. He never cared about me. There was nothing to explain I heard enough.
At the end of English I was the last to leave so I thought.
"Bella please! Please let me explain!" he blocked my way from the door and I glared at him.
"Move."
"Bella-"
"No! I don't want to hear it. You made it perfectly clear before Edward." I said bitterly.
"I made a mistake! Please Bella. I'm sorry!" he begged
"And how do I know you're not lying now? I can't trust you Edward. You lost my trust and I don't think you'll ever earn it back." And with that I went around him and left the classroom without a second glance.
Edward:
She was right. I blew it. I lost all her trust. I lost her.
I walked out of the classroom in a daze.
"Adrian!" was that Bella's voice?
I looked over to see her hugging a tall boy with dark brown hair. I couldn't see his face but I could see hers.
And my already broken heart broke even more.
Her face had pure happiness on it as she and the boy hugged.
When they finally pulled apart he draped his arm over her shoulders and pulled her in close.
I was locked where I was. I couldn't move. Couldn't turn away.
"I've missed you so much." He said
"I've missed you too! I can't believe you're here!"
He smiled and my world dropped.
"How could I possibly stay away from someone as beautiful as you?"
She blushed. And then they both walked away not noticing me at all.
And I couldn't imagine any pain worse than this.
And once again Jasper's words rung in my head:
"I don't know what to tell you Edward. You made a mistake and sometimes we can fix them but sometimes there's no going back. Sometimes there's no forgiveness."
There was no forgiveness for me.
I made a mistake I couldn't fix.
A mistake I would forever live with.
So sorry for the late update! I've been very busy. And so sorry it's short! But I was out today with my friend and then I had a lot of homework and it's getting late and I still have some things to do. So I really didn't have much time to put too much in this chapter. But a lot is yet to come. Everyone who reviews is the reason each chapter is up. So please keep reviewing! More reviewssooner update. Love you all. And thanks for reading!
Random Fact: I was listening to Knife Called Lust by Hollywood Undead while writing this chapter.
A/N: Many questioned if Jacob would be in this story. I thought about it but sorry Jacob haters I love him. Not as much as Edward of course. But I feel sorry for him and I do love him too. And I couldn't bear breaking his hear too. So no, Jacob will not be in this story.