Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's meant for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we're been livin' with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken, broken

Chapter 10: Meant to live

(For: A.M.D. You were meant to live for so much more.

You won't be forgotten. R.I.P.)

Edward:

"YOU'RE SUCH A FUCKING HYPOCRITE!" Rose yelled.

"DON'T FUCKING CALL ME THAT!" Emmett yelled back.

"DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO FUCKING DO! OH THAT'S RIGHT NO ONE CAN CAN THEY?!" Rose yelled.

Suddenly Bella came running in.

"What the hell?!" She asked me when she reached the table.

My heart raced. She said something to me…

"I don't know I just got here not too long ago."

"HOW CAN YOU TAKE HIS SIDE?!" Alice yelled.

"I'M NOT!" Jasper yelled back.

"YES YOU ARE!"

"I'm leaving. You want to fuck up your life then go a head. I'm done trying to help." Rose said to Emmett and then stormed out.

"Fucking nice job to both of you." Alice said bitterly and then she too left soon followed by Bella.

"What the hell?!" I said to Emmett and Jasper when they all left.

The whole lunch room was looking at us with shacked and confused expressions it was deadly silent.

Jasper sighed. "It's a long story."

"I got time."

"CAN YOU ALL GO BACK TO WHAT YOU WERE FUCKING DOING?!" Emmett yelled.

Everyone immediately turned around and started talking and it was no long silent.

Then Emmett took a deep breath and began telling me what happened.

THREE HOURS EARLIER:

Edward:

I had a bad feeling about today. Today was Friday and there was just a feeling.

A sense that something bad would happen. Maybe more than just one thing……

"Come on Eddie!" Emmett called from downstairs.

Yes today was already starting out bad…

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We arrived at school shortly after.

And like always I watched Bella get out of her car and head inside.

I sighed. I really screwed things up.

"Come on Edward." Jasper put a hand on my shoulder and gave me a sad smile.

I sadly smiled back and followed everyone inside.

"You talk to that kid and you feel like your brain is melting."

Emmett was telling Jasper.

"What are you guys talking about?" I asked.

"Kyle Evans. He said to me the other day and I quote:

'"Don't you think my bike is beautiful? If my bike had a vagina I'd fuck it.'"

"Oh my God are you serious?" Alice asked laughing.

Emmett laughed too. "As a heart attack. And then I told him uh sure…"

And then he said:

"Man, don't you wish that your bike had a vagina so you could fuck it?"

"Not really…." I said.

Then he pointed towards a random place in the sky and said: "Monkey!"

And then he says: "I love the angles of my bike…."

We all started crying with laughter.

"I swear that kid is on something. Look at his eyes next time you see him."

And as if called there came walking down the hall-Kyle Evans.

"Hey Emmett." He called out.

"Fuck," Emmett whispered

"Let's walk away and act like we didn't hear him I don't want my brain to melt just before I get into first period." Jasper whispered.

We contained our laughs until we quickly rounded the corner where we all then burst out laughing. Maybe today wouldn't be so bad after all…

Bella:

The day was dull. And I couldn't wait till lunch.

But it was now only second period. Only one more to go.

When the bell finally rang I went to third period which was a class I shared with Rose.

When I came in I saw her staring a blank piece of paper a tear falling from her blue eyes.

"What's wrong?" I asked when I sat next to her. She quickly wiped away the tar and gave me a fake smile.

"Nothing," She lied.

"Will you tell me later?" He smiled turned sad. And she nodded.

"Ok." I said quietly.

Third period seemed to fly by after that. And it was finally time for lunch.

"I gotta go to my locker." I told her.

"Ok." And then we both departed our own ways.

Edward:

Finally lunch. I wanted nothing more than to listen to my Ipod and not have to deal with anyone.

I quickly walked into the lunch room and heard it was deadly silent besides the fact of my brothers and sisters screaming.

I quickly rushed over there and stood silent as I watched them yell back and forth.

"YOU'RE SUCH A FUCKING HYPOCRITE!" Rose yelled.

"DON'T FUCKING CALL ME THAT!" Emmett yelled back.

"DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO FUCKING DO! OH THAT'S RIGHT NO ONE CAN CAN THEY?!" Rose yelled.

Suddenly Bella came running in.

"What the hell?!" She asked me when she reached the table.

My heart raced. She said something to me…

"I don't know I just got here not too long ago."

"HOW CAN YOU TAKE HIS SIDE?!" Alice yelled.

"I'M NOT!" Jasper yelled back.

"YES YOU ARE!"

"I'm leaving. You want to fuck up your life then go a head. I'm done trying to help." Rose said to Emmett and then stormed out.

"Fucking nice job to both of you." Alice said bitterly and then she too left soon followed by Bella.

"What the hell?!" I said to Emmett and Jasper when they all left.

The whole lunch room was looking at us with shacked and confused expressions it was deadly silent.

Jasper sighed. "It's a long story."

"I got time."

"CAN YOU ALL GO BACK TO WHAT YOU WERE FUCKING DOING?!" Emmett yelled.

Everyone immediately turned around and started talking and it was no long silent.

Then Emmett took a deep breath and began telling me what happened.

Bella:

Alice and I both ran into the girl's bathroom where we saw Rose run off to.

"Rose." We both called out when we got in.

We gasped as we saw her on the floor hysterically crying.

"Oh Rose." Alice whispered as she sat next to her on her left and I on her right.

The silence was maddening. Her eyes were filled with tears and the continued to stream down her face like waterfalls.

We both looked at her with worry in our eyes.

"What's wrong?" We finally asked.

And if possible-more tears streamed down her face.

"I...I think I'm pregnant."

Edward:

"So that's the whole story that we know of." Jasper said when they finally finished.

"What the hell is wrong with you Emmett?! More drugs? Have you completely fried your brain?!"

"I know, I know ok?!"

"No you don't! Can't you see how much this is hurting Rose? All of us?!"

"I know." He said quietly.

I sighed. "You need to stop this."

"I know. I will. I am. This is it. No more. If I do anything again then send me to rehab. I'm not kidding. I think I can stop this on my own but If I slip up then no matter what I say send me to rehab. Got it?"

We nodded. All of silent processing his words.

"But something else is wrong with Rose. But I don't know why. Do you guys?" He finally asked. We both shook our heads.

"I really fucked up again didn't I?"

"You sure did." I muttered.

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After that fun time at lunch I went to my next class.

A class I had with Bella.

When I walked in I saw she was already seated in the back.

I sighed and sat down next to her.

She looked up at me and glared.

But all I could do was stare back at her.

"Why?" She whispered.

"What?" I couldn't even believe she was talking to me.

"I said why? Why did you use me?!"

That was unexpected. "I was stupid. I was hurt and mad that night and I thought I wanted Lauren back. And when I saw you I thought I could use you to make her jealous. But I was being stupid and selfish and inconsiderate. I'm so sorry Bella. More than you know. And My feelings changed when we were 'dating' I developed real feelings for you. I broke of the kiss with Lauren that day cause that kiss wasn't yours. That wasn't you. And I don't want anyone else but you."

She looked at me for a long moment.

And I started to panic.

"Maybe what you're saying is true but that still doesn't mean I can trust you. You hurt me Edward. More than anyone ever has. I don't think I can just forgive you so soon like it was nothing."

"Do you think you can ever forgive me?" I asked quietly.

It was a question I had asked my self everyday. But was too afraid to ask her.

"I don't know." She said in a chocked whisper.

My eyes saddened and before I could say anything more the teacher came in and class began.

Bella:

School passed by extremely fast.

My mind wandered back to Edward.

His eyes held nothing but truth and love.

But I still wasn't sure if I could trust him.

After school was over Alice and Rose came to my house.

Rose took a pregnancy test and not long after she came out of the bathroom looking shaken.

"Rose?" Alice asked worried.

"Rose?! We both said.

"I'm…"I'm….Pregnant…."

"Oh my God." We said in union.

"And…"

"And?!" Alice questioned, "there's more?!"

Rose looked at us with sad eyes. Tears streaming down her face.

"I don't know who the father is."

As you all saw on the bottom of the chapter title, Thursday someone I know died. I found out Friday afternoon. And that is the main reason why you have not gotten an update. But anyways I hope you all enjoyed this chapter. Lots of drama I know. The idea just came to me. And I can't promise when you'll get another update. Monday-Wednesday I will be in Washington D.C. on a school trip. And I won't be back till late Wednesday night. So you might get an update Thursday. No promises. But I want to say once again thank you so much for all the reviews. It means a lot to me. And I'm glad you all enjoy the story. Thanks for reading. Please review. And turn my depressing week slightly less depressing.

Random Fact: The song didn't have really anything to do with this chapter. It was more for him (the person who died) And it was one of the songs I listened to when I found out. Also the whole Bike vagina thing actually happened. Long story.