Bella's POV

"Maybe you should stay home today Bella." Edward suggested as he allowed me to lean on him while I rinsed my mouth out.

A few weeks had gone by since the first day of our senior year. The dizziness and nausea didn't stop. They were only getting worse.

Edward fussed over me trying to get me to go see a doctor, but I was having none of that. I kept saying that it was nothing and that I eventually would get better.

Luckily during the school day I was normal, besides not eating lunch. Just the site of food made me feel queasy.

I was tired all the time too. No matter how many hours of sleep I always needed more.

"I'll be fine Edward." I groaned pushing myself away from him.

Every morning he suggested I stay home from school, and every morning I said no. It was getting annoying now.

I grabbed my jacket and backpack and walked out the door to Edward's car. He followed behind me, except going to the driver's side and started the car up. We drove to school in silence.

Alice and Jasper were already there waiting for us, worried looks on their faces. They too had noticed the sudden changes in me, though they weren't as persistent as Edward was in asking if I was alright.

We talked quietly avoiding the obvious fact as to why Edward and I were cutting it close once again.

I leaned against Edward and fought hard to keep my eyes open. I tried to pay attention to what my friends were saying hoping that it would keep me awake.

"Bella…Bella…" It sounded like a voice far off in the distance muddled by fog.

I blinked a few times and saw Edward's worried face. It had been too long since I had seen him without that look on.

"Yeah." I said suppressing a yawn.

"It's time to go to class."

Edward gently grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the class room.

Classes kept me from falling asleep during the day. I tried hard to pay attention and write down every little detail so I wouldn't fall asleep.

At lunch Edward tried to get me to eat, but nothing looked appetizing. The site of all the different types of food that was on his, Alice, and Jasper's trays were making me feel sick. I stuck to a bottle of water, like I did most days.

Finally the day came to an end and I found myself in Alice's car. She decided that we needed some quality girl time, no boys allowed.

Normally it would be hard for me to leave Edward's side, even if it was only for the afternoon. But he had been getting on my nerves lately with all the questions and hovering.

Going over from Alice's would be a nice little break before I did something drastic. I still loved Edward with all of my heart, and I wouldn't be able to keep going if he wasn't by my side. I didn't want my bad mood and his attempt to care for me to get in between us.

Alice and I headed straight up to her room when we got to her house.

"So what do you want to do first?" Alice asked throwing her bag on the floor.

"Sleep." I answered honestly flopping down onto her bed.

"That's no fun." Alice laughed and jumped onto the bed.

"For me it is."

I must have moved too quickly or it may have been Alice's jumping because the familiar tug in the pit of my stomach was back. I shot up from the bed and made it to the bathroom just in time.

Alice followed in behind me and held my hair while I emptied the meager contents from my stomach.

She flushed the toilet for me when I was done and I headed to the sink to rinse my mouth of the horrid taste. Together we walked slowly back into the bedroom and to lie down on the bed.

"You better?" Alice asked.

"A little."

"What do you think is wrong with you?"

"I don't know some sort of bug that won't go away. Or it could be a parasite."

"Well at least you're not pregnant."

I felt my eyes grow wide as I digested what Alice just said.

Pregnant? No I couldn't be. Edward and I were always so careful.

"Yeah that is a good thing." I laughed nervously hoping that Alice wouldn't catch on to my uneasiness.

"Why don't we watch a movie?"

"Good idea."

I settled into the pillows as Alice picked out a movie for us to watch and got things set up. We ended up watching Madagascar , though my mind was far from the movie. Alice's words kept playing in my head.

Could I really be pregnant? All the symptoms were there. Nausea, dizziness, tiredness, and when I thought about it I hadn't gotten my period and it was rarely late.

But I was on the pill and we always used a condom. So how could I have gotten pregnant?

"I'm sorry Alice, but I have to go. I just remembered that we have no food in the house and I still have to make dinner." I apologized getting up from the bed. "Plus I need to avoid as many fights as I can."

"Go ahead, I'll see you sometime this weekend."

I left Alice's house and walked back home. She only lived a few streets down from me so it wasn't that long before I arrived home.

It wasn't a lie when I said I needed to buy food. My mom often forgot to go shopping leaving me with the responsibility.

I never told me parents about my secret shopping trips; it would only end in a fight. But if I didn't go shopping they would fight as well. Pretty much anything now a days set them off.

I never understood why they were still together. Surely a divorce would make us all happier. But no they stuck through it, probably for my benefit. But they didn't know the pain I suffer from their constant fighting.

At least they found a temporary solution, never be in the house together at the same time. It wasn't that hard for them to do either since both had full time jobs and my dad almost always worked the late shift while my mom went off and did who knows what.

I was never sure what my mother was up to when she wasn't at home or working. It pretty much changed from day to day and I didn't care enough to keep track of everything.

I was left home by myself a lot, not that it bothered me. I also tried my hardest not to be around the house. Most days I ended up at Alice's or Edward's.

I ran inside my house and grabbed whatever money was in the food jar plus my car keys.

I decided to go to the grocery store in Portland. It was farther away, but I knew I was less likely to be spotted there by someone I knew or that knew my family.

Once I arrived I grabbed a cart and started to grab everything I needed. The bare necessities would work for now and I could do a more thorough shopping trip another day.

I stood in the last aisle in shock. There were so many different kinds of pregnancy tests. I didn't know which one to chose.

I ended up grabbing a basic plus or minus sign one before heading towards check out lane.

Once I paid I hid the test in my backpack. I didn't need anyone to see that purchase I made.

I drove back home and was glad to see that neither of my parents were around.

I grabbed the groceries and put them all away in the rightful places before I started dinner.

That was the one responsibility that fell on me and neither of my parents fought over.

My dad couldn't cook to save his life and my mom liked to make eccentric meals that often were inedible.

So I took over dinner making once I was old enough. Most nights I ended up eating alone and put the rest in the fridge for my parents to eat when they got home.

I assumed that it would be like that tonight giving me time to take the test. But I didn't seem to have that luck tonight.

"Hey Bells." I heard my dad call out as he entered the house.

"Hi dad." I called back paying attention to the food so I wouldn't get upset.

"What are you making?"

"Lasagna. It will be a little bit longer before it's done. I got a late start. I was over at Alice's for most of the afternoon and lost track of time." I stretched the truth out a tiny bit, but he would never know.

"That's fine. The games on tonight anyways."

After I placed the lasagna in the oven I decided to do some homework. I made sure that my bag that held the test was hidden in my backpack as I pulled out my math worksheet. That would keep me occupied until dinner was done and wouldn't let my mind wander to other things.

Then I heard the door open again and my mom call out. My mind definitely would not be doing any wandering tonight.

"Dinners ready." I called out when I saw my mom come back downstairs.

I wanted to put off any possible fights for as long as possible and the lasagna was cooked well enough.

I took a small piece for myself since I wasn't hungry and poured myself a glass of water.

My parents and I sat down at the table together and started to eat. The only sounds made were those of the utensils hitting the plate.

I took a few small bits, but mostly pushed the food around on my plate to make it look like I ate something.

Once I saw that my parents were finished I got up and started to clear the table when my dad spoke.

"You've done enough tonight Bella, don't worry about the dishes."

"It's okay dad, I don't mind." I said as I continued to clean up.

"Nonsense you baby your mother and I too much. You go on upstairs."

"And who do you except will do the dishes?" My mom asked speaking up.

"Maybe you could for a change. It's not like you do much around the house anyways."

"I do plenty around the house."

"Name one thing."

It was time for me to make an exit. I put whatever dishes I had in my hands in the sink and picked up my bag. As quietly and quickly as I could I made it past the table and up to my room.

There definitely would be no time for me to take the test tonight. I threw my backpack in the corner of my room after I made sure it was closed.

I grabbed my CD player and put the only CD in there that calmed me when I was in a bad mood. It was a recording of Edward playing the lullaby he wrote for me years ago.

He would always hum it to me to help me fall asleep at night or whenever we were having a peaceful moment. He recorded the lullaby for me so I would always be able to listen to it.

I didn't bother to look out my window when I heard the front door slam. My mother was always the one who left after a fight. I don't know where she went, but it didn't matter to me as long as she came back home in one piece.

When I heard the TV going I decided to make a dash for it and get ready for bed now. I didn't bother with a shower since that would take too long.

Once I was safely in my bedroom and I lied down on my bed and put the CD on full blast. I needed to calm down so I could get to sleep and drown out any thoughts of what I was going to learn tomorrow.

I didn't realize I had fallen asleep until I heard my alarm go off. In my rush to forget I had forgotten to turn it off.

I didn't bother to try and go back to sleep, I was going to learn the truth today.

I looked out the window and was glad to see that both my parents' cars were gone. I didn't have to wait any longer to find out the truth.

I walked over to the corner where I had thrown my bag last night and pulled out the test. I silently walked to the bathroom and followed the instructions.

After I placed the stick in the seal I walked back into my bedroom and placed it on my desk. I sat down on my bed and watched it and the clock.

When five minutes had passed I finally got up the courage to look at the test. It was now or never.

I took a big breath in and opened my eyes staring at my results before I threw the stick to the ground.

I quickly picked up the phone and dialed Edward's number.

"Hello?" he answered sleepily after the fourth ring. I felt bad for waking him, but I needed him right now.

"Hello? Bella is that you?"

"Yeah it's me." I said quietly. I guess I had spaced for a moment.

"What's the matter? Do you not feel well again?"

"No…I mean yes…I mean…can you just come over."

"Sure I'll be there in a few." And he hung up his phone.

I hung up as well and placed the phone on my desk. In the process I made the mistake of looking down at the ground where the test laid. I kicked it under the bed so I wouldn't have to see it.

When I heard the doorbell ring and I quickly ran to the door. I feel into Edward's arms as soon as I opened it.

"Bella, what's wrong, are you okay?" Edward asked holding me close

"No."

"Tell me what's wrong."

"You better come upstairs." Edward picked me up and walked us to my room placing me gently on the bed.

"What is it?" he asked

I took a deep breath in, "I'm late."

"What?"

"I'm late." I said putting emphasis on those two words.

"What does that mean you're late?"

"Do you not remember anything from sixth grade health?"

"I try not to remember anything from sixth grade health."

"Edward do not make this any harder for me."

"What am I doing, and what is this?"

I had gone under my bed and picked up the stick placing it in Edward's hands.

"A pregnancy test?! You're not, are you?"

I nodded my head yes, I could feel the tears begin to form.

"Hey its, okay don't cry." Edward pulled me close and kissed the top of my head/

"What are we going to do?" I asked breaking the moment.

"Well most tests are only 99% accurate."

"Well that's comforting."

"Still, there could be the off chance. The hospital has a free clinic we could go there. We can go after school on Monday."

I just nodded my head in Edward's chest.

"I better do my homework." I said getting off the bed and going to my desk.

"Are you gonna be okay, do you want me to stay?" Edward asked

"No, I'll be fine." It came out sounding cold, and I instantly regretted it.

"Okay then see you tomorrow." Edward kissed my forehead again. "Bella…"

"Yeah?" I turned around to look at him.

"We'll figure something out, don't worry."

I nodded my head and pulled his face to mine so I could properly kiss him.

"Try and get some rest, I love you." Edward said giving me another peck on the lips.

"I love you too." I said before he left the room.