Loss of Faith

Chapter 14: Choosing Sides

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That would be Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, etc….

Xander's POV –

Shannon came back out of the office a little while later and had a smug look on her face. She went over to sit down next to Willow and was sort of just staring off into space. Giles cleared his throat and asked her, "Is everything alright Shannon?"

She slowly looked up at him and said, "Yes Mr. Giles. Everything is fine." Then she went back to ignoring us all.

Giles was clearly getting irritated and asked, "Did the Council have any insight on our problem with the rouge vampire?"

"No, not really. They just suggested we continue to investigate and they agree with you that the vampire should be found and terminated," she said.

"Yes, well then I suggest we get started," Giles replied. "Xander, if you would please contact Faith and ask her to focus her patrolling on the west side of town, Shannon will concentrate on the east side." Giles then continued, "Has Faith moved into her new house yet? I'm sure she could stay with Joyce again if she wanted. It would provide a chance for Shannon to better get to know her."

"As my Watcher, I will obey your request Mr. Giles, however, I do not need her help, nor do I wish to 'get to know her better'," Shannon says finally losing the smug look and I could see she was so not a happy camper.

"She's in but still getting settled," I say to him. "I'll let her know about the patrol plans when I see her." I'm guessing that they were talking about Faith's 'inheritance' so Shannon probably already knew where Faith would be staying. That could be a problem, even though I'm sure Faith would love the chance to teach Shannon about personal boundaries. And that thought makes me a happy camper. I was still watching Shannon and didn't like the look in her eyes. She knew something and wasn't sharing. I just hoped she wouldn't do something stupid.

I'm starting to really not like Shannon. I don't like the fact that she is dead set against giving Faith a chance and it reminds me a little too much of the way we all treated Faith when she first came to Sunnydale. I also would like to know more about the conversation she had with 'Uncle Travers', but can't think of a way to call her on it. Maybe she'll confide in Willow once I leave, then I can find out more from Wills. At least that's the best plan I can come up with right now.

"I'm going to go find Faith, Giles," I say. "Bye girls, I'll talk to you later Willow?"

"Sure, Xand. See you," Will tells me and gives a little wave.

I leave the library and head to the computer lab. I want to get a hold of Faith, but that last part of Shannon's talk with Travers has me nervous so I'm going to do some checking on the net first. What was it she said? ………Infecting Morris? ……In fact Marty? ……..Interfector Mortis? I guess I'll have to try them all.

(Interfector Mortis is Latin for Killer of the Dead)

Faith's POV-

I wake up slowly to the feel of a body draped over mine. A very familiar, tiny, female body, that I'm sharing my warmth with. I keep my eyes closed and pull her closer, enjoying the sensation of her silky skin pressed firmly up against me. She has one leg thrown over mine with her knee pressed up tight against me. Those tingles I get whenever Buffy is near are racing through my body, from low in my belly, travelin up my spine and then out to my hands and feet. Then it starts all over again. My whole body feels like a tuning fork vibratin just for her. God, I wanna wake up like this every day. Keepin my eyes closed I let the memory of last night flow through my mind.

We moved from the livin room to the bedroom after makin out on the couch. B was leadin me through the house while keepin me distracted with lots of kisses and nuzzling along my jaw line. She kept hittin that spot right below my ear that turns my legs to jelly and was pretty much carryin me the last few feet to the bed. Once there she laid me back on it and slowly stood up. Starin in my eyes the whole time, she pulled her tank top over her head and threw it in a corner. Still watching me, she reached behind her and I could hear the zipper on her mini-skirt as she pulled it down. The next moment it fell away leaving her in just her lace bra and panties.

I'm not one for the poetic shit, but as I watched her standin there watching me, all I could think of was words like, majestic, magnificent. She looked better than the most beautiful sunset imaginable. A part of some poem popped into my head, 'she walks in beauty like the night'……That's really all I could remember, I just knew that she was fucking hot. And the way she was watching me was makin me hotter by the minute.

B slowly ran her tongue out and licked her lips as she finally started toward the bed. She crawled onto the bottom of the bed and oh so slowly made her way up to me. All the while she kept lookin me right in the eyes and not sayin a word. She let the look on her face say everything that needed to be said. As she climbed up over me, B slid her body along mine. Her breasts first grazin over my legs, then up along my stomach and finally stopping against my own when we were face to face, a bare breath separating our lips. Straddlin my hips she reached behind my shoulders and leaned back pullin me up with her. As she lifted me, she pulled my shirt off over my head and threw it to join her own in the corner.

As she lowered my shoulders back down I felt the clasp on my bra give way and that too was tossed to the side. Sitting on top of me, B started a slow circular grind with her hips that made my breath catch in my throat. Every time her hips moved backward, she would press down, pushing against me, causing white hot electric shocks to echo through me, joining the vibrations from our connection. The sensations were almost too much for me to take and I tried to reach up and touch her. She arched her back, pressing herself into my hands with a low moan.

Leaning forward again, she ran kisses up my jaw and whispered in my ear, "Faith, I missed you so much." Then she started sucking on my pulse point. Man, if I thought I was hot for her before, my wanting her just tripled.

I reached around and unhooked her bra and she let it slide down her arms as she pulled back up from me. I threw it blindly to the side since I couldn't take my eyes off her. B was still doin that slow grind and my whole body was wet for her. She gave me a small smile and started to slide back down my body, while slowly dragging her hands down my chest as she moved. She was lightly scraping along my skin with her nails, across my breasts, makin small circles on my stomach, until finally unhooking my jeans and pulling them off to join our other clothes.

Movin back up, she started kissing the insides of my legs, first the left, than the right. Lightly runnin her tongue along the inside of my thighs until I was squirming around so hard she had to use one hand to hold me in place. By this point I was beyond words, all I could do was moan out her name and make little squeaking noises. She had worked her way back up to the innermost spot on my thigh and started sucking there. The moment I felt that, my body jerked up almost flying off the bed. I reached down and grabbed her hair to try and hold on for all I was worth. Jesus, I didn't ever want her to stop.

I don't know why but I suddenly remembered what it was like when she bit me the first time we were together. I wanted that feeling again. I needed that feeling again. The feeling that I was becoming a part of her and would always be a part of her. In a way it was the truest form of giving myself to her. Pulling on her hair a little to get her to look up at me I say, "B,…..B,…."

She looks up and mumbles against my skin, "Yes, Faith?" Holy Christ, the vibrations from her voice ran right through my skin and seemed to hit every nerve in my body.

"Ugggghhhhh, Holy shit B," I pant out. "B, I want you to bite me……..like you did before."

"Faith, are you sure?" She asked. She has her head tilted and is lookin at me to make sure I knew what I was sayin.

"Yea baby, I am so sure. I never been surer about anything. Please, B." Okay so she has me beggin for it, bet you would be too.

She gives me a big shit eatin grin and says, "Oh yea, my pleasure lover." Then she puts her head back down and starts lickin and suckin on the other side. I'm just about to ask her again when I feel it. A slight sharp pain for only a second and then my world explodes in pleasure.

We spent the rest of the night with B showin me just how much she missed me. The only thing that woulda made it more perfect woulda been if she let me touch her the way she was touchin me. Every time I would reach for her or she would feel herself losin control, she would gently, but firmly, push my hands away. We hafta find a way around that whole 'get a happy, lose your soul' crap. I mean, what kinda curse is it for a vamp if you're givin a conscience, then if ya have a moment of perfect happiness ya lose it? After ya lost your conscience what would ya care? And after the way B treated me last night, all I can think about is returnin the favor. Over and over and over.

Damn, even the memory of that has me ready to go again. Without even thinkin about it I squeeze my legs together pressing her knee even closer against me. I open my eyes slowly and just watch B as she sleeps layin on top of me. I reach up and slowly run my fingers through her hair. All of sudden I feel like I want to cry. How the hell did I ever even think of trying to kill her? How stupid could I of been to try and rid the world of the one person that could ever make me feel like this. I knew right then in that moment that if anything ever happened to Buffy, that would be it for me. I would find the biggest, most vicious nest of demons I could and just wade in. Suicide by demons, there are worse ways to go.

I'm dragged out of these thoughts when I notice B has woken up and is just lookin at me. I give her my biggest smile, the one with full dimples like I know she likes and say, "Mornin beautiful."

"More like afternoon," she says. Watcha thinkin about?"

"Nothin much," I answer her. "Why?"

"I don't know," she tells me. "You just had the saddest look on your face I've ever seen. You…you don't regret last night do you?"

"Oh hell no, B," I tell her quickly. "Seriously? My only regret was that I tried to kill you that day. I would give anything to take that back. I was just thinkin that I could never keep goin without you."

She reaches up to caress my cheek and says, "Faith, I thought we put that behind us. You didn't have a choice then. I wouldn't have wanted to keep living like that. It wouldn't of really been me anyway, just some demon wearing a Buffy suit. Please baby, try not to think about it anymore. Okay?"

I lean down and give her a kiss, once again thankin whatever powers there are that we can finally be together and say, "Okay Buffy. I'll try and let it go."

She smiles at me and starts to get up, "Come on sleepy head, time to get up. I have to go get something to eat. I'm starved."

"Well if you're really interested in eatin….,"I tell her with a smirk. I look down at my body then back up to her and wiggle my eyebrows.

She laughs at me and throws a pillow at my head. "Later for that. I would have thought you had enough last night."

"I could never get enough of you," I say seriously.

She comes over and gives me a kiss and says, "Me too."

Before this can go any further my phone starts ringing. Giving a huge sigh I reach over for it and B tells me, "Saved by the bell. I'm going to grab a shower." Then she leaves.

I flip open the phone and growl into it, "Somebody better be dead, or else you're gonna be."

"And a good day to you too Faith," Xander voice says. "You always so pleasant in the afternoon?"

"Hey Xand," I answer. "Nah, ya just got lousy timin that's all. What's up?"

"Well, I stopped in to see Giles today, Shannon was there and she is not a bundle of joy right now," he says.

"Like I care what she is," I say.

"Yeah, I knew you would be all concerned," and I can hear the laugh in his voice. "Anyway, G-man wants you guys to split up the patrolling and you luckily got stuck with me as a partner. Can I come over so we can talk? By the way, how'd the patrol go last night?"

"The patrol was……………interesting. And yea, give me an hour and come on by. There's something's I gotta tell ya anyway," I tell him.

"Alright, I'll see you then. Bye," he tells me then hangs up.

I throw the phone onto the bedside table and get up to go join B in the shower. I figure that's the best place to let her know we're havin a guest.