His head moved to look at her. "What? why?"
She just stared into his eyes, the color faded back to the golden color in almost an instant. Had she imagined it? What the hell was going on. "Nothing." Figured it wasn't worth bring up since she couldn't prove it now.
"I guess I should pull myself together and call all these people back." He stopped her when she went for her phone on the floor.
"Why don't we just go to school and worry about it later?" He held her hand and smiled.
She sighed. "Fine."
She left her phone at the house while they were at school. The point of even going right then was to get her mind off everything. School seemed to help with that the most because she knew it was important so it kept her mind from wandering too much.
After almost all of her classes her teachers would pull her aside and let them know they were sorry about her loss. Or make sure she was doing ok, which bringing it up when she wasn't trying to think about it didn't help. Instead of being rude she let them talk and gave them their answers. Edward didn't always wait for her, but she got to class on time and he was there to calm her once again.
Stopped again after her last class Edward gave her a kiss and said he would meet her at the car. She tried to make it quick and pretty much let her teach know she didn't want to talk about it and headed out after him. Apparently he kept her longer than she thought because the parking lot was almost empty.
She didn't see Edward at first because he was bent down beside the car looking at his tire. She only knew he was there when he stood up to get something out of the car and bent back down. He didn't look happy.
Figured it was just a guy thing when it came to cars and kept on her way. She had almost reached him when she saw Mike walking from around the car that had been parked beside them holding some kind of metal pole. She wasn't close enough yet to really make it out. When he started approaching the other side of the car where Edward was she screamed his name.
That made him stand and turn in the direction of her voice. Mike took that advantage and swung the pole as hard as he could hitting Edward in the side of the face with it. He dropped instantly to the ground not even making a sound of pain and she took off running. She was waiting for him to get off the ground and kill Mike, but he never moved.
Mike had completely disappeared by the time she reached him and dropped to her knees staring in horror at the blood on his face.
"No, no, no, Edward." She reached down to touch him and try to get him to get up. The blow had been so forceful she could see traces of blood on the side of his car. She dropped her head down against his body as she cried. Fearing the unthinkable that he was dead even though she knew it couldn't be possible.
"Please get up...." She wanted nothing more than to run after Mike and kill him herself, but she couldn't leave him laying there on the ground.
She reached into her pocket for her phone and cursed when it wasn't there.
"This isn't suppose to happen!" She placed her hands on his face trying to get some kind of reaction of life out of him. Her hands were covered in blood and she could hardly see anything through her tear covered eyes as she pressed her forehead against his.
"Don't leave me." Her voice was choked with sobs and she sat there helplessly with him in her arms. Her life was over in that moment. She felt like he was gone and she had nothing else to live for. She was the one that was suppose to go, not him. Her heart sank the longer she sat there on the ground and he didn't move. Not understanding how any of this was possible. His body was made to withstand stuff like this.
"Edward..." Her voice was a whisper and she kissed his forehead not caring about the blood everywhere.
He suddenly groaned and shifted, shoving her away without really knowing. His hand instantly found its way to the wound on his head and held it there as he moved to try and get up. "Ugh" He had to sit and leaned against his car. He squeezed his eyes shut as his hand moved away from his head and then tried to focus on the imagine in front of him.
Bella didn't take his pushing her away as rejection because she knew he was just in pain. She pulled off her now ruined sweater to give him to place against the wound as she tried to be closer to him and somehow help. She was just thankful he was moving.
He let her press it against him and dropped his head to her lap as he shook. She leaned her head back and shut her eyes as new tears fell. Every memory of him had rushed through her head in her moment of terror. Her body refused to calm down and she leaned forward to kiss his cheek as tears dropped onto his face.
His arm reached up to touch her face and make her tears go away like he always would and she smiled through a sob that escaped.
"It's ok." He spoke softly and finally pulled himself up with a curse. She let him go and stood at his side as he got himself together.
"I was so scared..." She wrapped herself around him carefully, needing his contact.
"I told you I would never leave." He held her and tried to comfort her through his pain. He was thankful he was a Vampire because he could only imagine the damage something like that would of caused a human. Even though he wasn't suppose to be harmed so easily in the first place.
"I think its because of me." She looked up at him. "Every time I'm around you recently your eyes are green and stuff like this is possible. When Emmet was there this morning your eyes were golden like normal. Maybe I'm causing something to happen and don't realize it. Maybe that is why you can't read my mind."
"Slow down." He did not want to process all of that right then. "We can talk about it when we get home."
"I'm sorry." She frowned but he was there to give her a kiss and let her know it was ok. They got into the car and she drove them home, always looking over at him to make sure he would be alright.
He jumped out of the car and disappeared once she parked. Since she knew why this time she didn't freak out and instead went inside to get cleaned up. The car was a mess and would worry about it later.
She grabbed some clothes and quickly entered the bathroom to strip off what she was wearing. The blood on them was too much of a reminder of something that could of been tragic. She turned on the shower making it as hot as she could stand before getting in.
The blood washed away from her skin and puddled into the bottom of the shower before running down the drain. She shut her eyes then to dip her head under and let the water run over the rest of her body.
The door to the bathroom opened and made her jump.
"It's just me." Edward spoke as he shut the door behind him. She opened the glass door to the shower to get a better look. He still had blood all over his face and clothes, but she could no long see the open wound and he didn't seem to be in pain. "Care if I join you?" She shook her head and watched him get undressed.
He got into the shower and pulled her to him even though he was dirty and she was clean. He placed a hand on her cheek and kissed her deeply needing the touch. Her eyes shut and she gripped him tightly as he took her breath away. She could only imagine what it would be like to never feel his lips against hers again. Never feel his touch or hear his voice.
"I'm so glad you're ok." Her voice was loving and she looked up at him.
"You don't have to worry about me." He smiled for her to lighten the mood. Trying to get the days events out of both their heads.
"I love you too much, kind of comes with the package." She smiled as well and kissed him again before moving so he could rinse off. She took the time to gently help wash him. Doing it because he could not reach in certain spots and because she cared.
He took the moment to take in just how much she really did care about him and what she would do for him. It just made him love her even more if that were possible. He could never leave her and never imagine himself alone or with someone else. He pressed her against the wall and kissed her again. Almost desperately just to imprint in his mind that moment was real.
She was taken off guard and gasped at the action as she slid her fingers into his hair gently and kissed him harder. He had to pull away.
"Ok, we aren't ever going to get clean if we keep this up." He laughed a little and fought with his inner desires and managed to finish the shower. Both of them getting clean and keeping their lust for each other to themselves for the time being.
He wrapped a towel around her once they were out of the shower and proceeded to dry himself before they got dressed. The bloody clothes were still laying on the floor and he picked them up to throw away.
He didn't think they would be able to get the stains out and offered to buy Bella some new clothes.
"Don't worry about it." She knew that he had money, but she didn't like him spending it on her.
"You are so stubborn. Thats what boyfriends do you know." He smiled and left the bathroom to toss the clothes.
She just smiled and shook her head as she went to their room. She picked her phone up off the floor where it had been left and sat down on the edge of the bed. Looking around the room she knew she was going to have to go back to the house and get her things. That is if she was to stay there permanently.
She kind of day dreamed for a moment of her and Edward having their own place away from all the bad memories this town had created for her.
She got up and went to see how much money she did have left from her savings that she had been spending on her own food to keep in the house. At this rate she was going to have to get a job or something. It did not cross her mind that Charlie's house and money would probably end up in her possession. Setting aside some money she planned to go shopping tomorrow and pick up a few things from the house.
Edward returned to the room and she walked over to him to get a better view at his face. "You sure you are going to be ok?"
He smiled and took her hand in his. "I promise." He brought it to his lips to kiss the back.
Her heart always melted when he did such sweet and simple things such as that. She tugged on him to follow her and stood them both in front of a mirror in the room.
He wasn't sure at first of her intentions until he saw it himself for the first time. She wasn't going crazy because clear as day his eyes were defiantly green. It was a sight he wasn't used to and it didn't feel real.
"I wonder what all this means." She looked up at him while he still stared in the mirror. It confused her just as much as she knew it did him. He still had his vampire speed and strength when this happened. He showed different emotions he wasn't capable of before and could some how be harmed easier now too. It also did not happen all the time. She had taken notice to when he was around others he was just like he had been the day they met.
"You've seemed to notice the changes more than me." Other than the obvious anyways. He still felt the same and at that moment from seeing his face he had that craving again to kill Mike. He just sighed and walked away from the mirror, it was too confusing for him to try and figure out right then.
She followed him over to the bed and watch him lay down on his back looking up at the ceiling. Quickly she joined him laying on her side and resting her head on his chest. She let her mind wander idly then as she layed there. The changes in him had been good in some ways, but after what happened today she kind of wanted things to go back to normal. At least when he couldn't be harmed as easily she never worried about his death. The fear she felt in the parking lot had returned and she gripped her fist into his shirt as she let it overwhelm her. Even with Charlie's death she couldn't ever remember being so afraid, being abused by him didn't even come close. When James had attacked her it still didn't feel as terrifying.
She shut her eyes trying to figure out how it was possible to love someone so much. The way a simple thought about him in any way could effect her emotions amazed her.
Edward wrapped his arm around her when she grabbed onto his shirt. He didn't understand her mood change, but lifted his head to make sure she was alright. She just sighed and placed a hand over her face when she felt his eyes on her. "Is this how you feel all the time?"
"How do you feel?" He gently removed her hand from her face so he could see her.
She didn't fight him and made eye contact. "Constantly fearing the worse for me? After everything I have been through and me just experiencing what I did I'm surprised you haven't gone mad. I can't get it out of my head and the gut sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach when thinking of how I could of lost you won't go away. It shouldn't be possible for one person to be able to withstand all these feelings and emotions."
He couldn't help but smile at her a little. He thought it was kind of cute in a weird way. "I think it might be easier for me since I have more control over things that could happen to you then you do for me. But yes I understand how you feel. Love is a lot more powerful then you realize. Guess thats why it took so long for me to find you. We were meant to be together."
"Is that why all these changes are happening to you? You think it was meant to be upon meeting me?" That thought intrigued her a little and she sat up to look at him better.
He really had not put much thought into it. "I guess anything is possible. I mean the fact Vampire exist and all is beyond what the normal would think to be real." It sparked an interest in his mind then as well.
The fact out of all the people he had come across in his existence she was the first mind he couldn't read.
That alone got him to thinking if something about them being together was changing things about him. He just could not point a finger as to how or why. Him also falling in love with a human wasn't something he would of ever expected. He shifted to lay on his side. "Even if I do change. You will still feel the same about me right?"
She silenced him then by covering his mouth and smiling a little. "Don't even think it. My feelings for you could only grow stronger. Even if you tried to eat me or something." She laughed only playing with him.
His eye brow raised at that. "Eat you how?" He grinned.
She swatted his arm. "I know you are a man and all but you don't have to have the mind of a 13 year old boy."
He growled and moved over top of her in a playful threatening stance. "I don't want to hear it. You love my mind." His head dipped to kiss the side of her neck then whisper in her ear. "The things I can do to you..."
Her skin crawled at his touch, it sending waves of excitement through her body. "And to think you were scared of hurting me the first time and now are a pro at teasing? How is that fair?" She stuck her bottom lip out as she pouted.
She asked for what he did next as he sucked her lip into his mouth softly nibbling. A small moan escaped her and her eyes rolled back as they closed. Enjoying yet another thrill he sent through her. He couldn't help but shift his hips against her slightly as he pulled away. "Well how the hell am I suppose to resist you?"
She grinned and pushed on his shoulders. "You just do."
He grabbed the back of the bed to keep her from moving him, even though he knew she wouldn't be able to it was still fun to pretend with her. "I don't want to."
"Too bad." She kept pushing just giving him a hard time.
He frowned still playing. "I'll just lay here on you then." He dropped his body on her carefully and snuggled under her chin. "This is better anyways."
She held him then, running her fingers through his hair perfectly content with that.
He shut his eyes and listened to her breathing and heart beat. Her warm skin against his chest was soothing. He laughed when he heard her stomach growl and looked up at her.
She smiled. "I know I know, but I'm tired of cereal."
"I told you I would buy you food." He kissed her chin.
"And I told you I wanted to pay for my own things." She grabbed his face in her hands to make him look at her.
"I'm taking you shopping tomorrow whether you like it or not and I'm paying for it." He pressed his lips against her to keep her silenced so she couldn't protest.
She huffed after kissing him, but didn't argue. She knew it wouldn't do any good.
After laying there for a while just randomly talking Bella ended up falling asleep. Edward lifted his head to chuckle softly when she just didn't talk anymore in the middle of their conversation. Her day had been rough so he understood her tiredness. He ended up shifting to lay beside her so she could be more comfortable.
The night was restless for her as she constantly shifted around in her sleep as countless nightmares haunted her. Even with Edward pressed against her body to calm her back to sleep she was still sweating and frightened of the images he couldn't see in her head.
Each nightmare related around the same things but each time something was different. She knew what had happened to Charlie based on what Edward told her, but never actually saw it like he had. She would of thought otherwise with the intense images her mind was able to create. Her mind still feeling guilty made her dream of different ways she would of endlessly failed at saving him, losing Edward in the process of a lot of the times. Her body shifted in the bed as she continued to add onto the stress even in her sleep.
Edward touched her gently as he watched her. He ran his hand down her side to calm her as he spoke softly into her ear. He knew from the look on her face and how she had been recently that her stress level was unhealthy. All he wanted was for her to be happy again without a worry in the world. He started to sing, never moving away from her ear in hopes it could bring her some sort of calm settling in that moment. Even in that short period of time if it was possible he could tear away her bad dreams and take her pain. He had never sang to her before, but he didn't wish to wake her either. He was kind of hoping she didn't wake up because he would of been embarrassed to have her hear him.
It was amazing how something so little and thoughtful could change someones mood. He wasn't able to read her mind but could tell from her breathing and the tension in her body fading that it had helped. He pressed himself up against her back and wrapped an arm around her waist as he got comfortable. He kissed her shoulder wanting to keep her in that current state since she seemed peaceful.
He stayed there with her in that position until she woke in the morning.
The light shinning in from the windows made her stretch as she started to wake up. Her eyes stayed closed and she smiled when she felt Edward behind her like that. "Mmm this is nice."
He smiled as well and traced his finger tips up and down her arm as he moved to try and get closer to her. "You're so beautiful." His hand now moved over her shoulder and down her back
Thats when she rolled over to face him and cuddled against his chest. "I'm glad you are here."
He held her tighter at that, kissing her forehead. "Always."
She yawned and kept her eyes shut. "I'm so tired."
"So go back to sleep." He stroked her hair.
"I won't get to enjoy you if I do that." She finally opened her eyes tiredly to look at him.
He just took the time to enjoy being with her as they layed there. He knew the night had been rough for her and the fact she was still tired was no surprise to him at all. School wasn't for another 3 hours so she had time to rest if needed. With the funeral being only a day away he hoped she kept herself under control and less stressed. She had said she wasn't going, but he figured when the time came around and with Renee hounding she would end up there anyways. The others in the Cullen family knew what happened to Charlie and he only expect Alice to go if any of them. Only for their own sake, making sure they weren't too noticed in Bella's life then.
Bella was out in no time again and he shifted gently to get up and let her sleep a little longer. He took that chance to go out and feed so his head would heal faster. For the first time as a vampire he felt really tired and it was becoming extremely hard to hunt. He stayed out there about 2 hours and finally made his way back to the house. Being full and not feeling as tired he went to their room to see if Bella was awake yet and ready for school.
She was awake but wasn't out of the bed. He smiled at her. "Being lazy?" She grinned and moved getting further under the covers.
He ripped them away and tossed them onto the floor. She huffed, but eventually dragged herself out of the bed to get dressed. Edward just laughed and watched her. She threw her clothes at him for laughing and it just made him laugh harder. "Don't make me come over there with you like that." He teased.
She turned her head and thrust her chest out as she pulled on her shoulder straps to her bra. "What you gonna do?"
He narrowed his eyes and stalked over to her. His approach was threatening but when he got to her he gently slid a hand up her back and into her hair kissing her softly. He savored every moment of her lips on him until she pulled away. She was taken off guard as she expected him to be rough with the way he walked over to her, but enjoyed that so much more.
Her hand found his hip and pulled him closer to her feeling his excitement. She soon found her way to his belt and started to unbuckle it. He stopped her and kissed her again before walking away. "We don't have time." He was trying to tease her, but was torturing himself as well.
She just stood there a moment and watched him. She could see his hard on clearly pressing against his jeans and since he was trying to tease her she figured he would just suffer as well, making it out like it was no big deal while she got dressed. "You going to walk through the house like that?"
"I guess I will have to." Damn his plans when they backfired. He growled and grabbed his things heading to the car.
She laughed and followed him.