(I apologize if this is too sad! I'm reading this really sad FanFic, and my I think my boyfriend likes my best friend . . . so I'm like really depressed now. -tear- . I have tears pouring down my face, so if there's mistakes, that's why.)

APOV

It had been weeks since Bella left. I stared at the place where she sat when I told her my feelings. The tears I could never cry haunted me day and night. I wanted to cry, to find relief in this hell without Bella.

When Bella left I lost two things: my best friend and my will to live. Edward went after her two days later, when I had a vision that she was packing.

"Edward! Don't go!" I called to him, when he started packing.

"I wish I could blame someone, something, but I can't Alice. I wish I knew what to do, but I don't. I go where Bella goes, okay? I'm sorry." He stopped his vigorous packing for three seconds. He walked over to me and placed his hand on my cheek. "I love you, Alice. Goodbye."

I haven't seen him since. This family is falling apart, and it's all my fault. I'm so horrible. Maybe the Volturi should kill me.

I stared out the window.

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I sighed. That happened a few years ago. Ever since Edward left, Jasper and I divorced. Emmett and Rosalie moved away, and Esme pitied me. Carlisle couldn't fathom how one woman could love another, other than as a sister, mother, aunt, grandmother, those things. "It's not my fault, Carlisle!" I defended. "If it was up to me, Bella would be back here, and she would only be my best friend. She would be married to Edward, she would be one of us . . ." I could never finish, because he always left me in the room where we stood.

About two weeks after Bella and Edward left, I moved out.

"Alice, please," Esme begged. I shook my head.

"I'm sorry, Esme. The pain is too much." And with that, I left.

I was pulled out of my reveire by a familiar voice. Bella!

Of course, she would never recongnize me. I'd dyed my hair blonde, and had extensions. I still sparkled in the sun; that could never be changed.

What was Bella doing here? Why was she making out with -- oh, that's Edward. Didn't recongnize him. Looks like he cleaned up, too. I turned my head. It hurt too much to watch him my Bella. I heard Bella gasp for breath, and I had to turn, to see her heartbreakingly beautiful face.

"I take that as a yes?" Edward said. Bella nodded furiously. Edward pulled out a box, and placed something on her ring finger. A ring. Edward looked my way, and I ran, as fast as I could away form the pain.

That's what I've been doing since she left me, in the hallway. Running away from the pain.

"Alice!" I heard Bella calling me. I thought it was a halluctionation. I had those a lot. Bella would be sitting by me, and we were talking' she'd kiss me.

"Alice, please," she begged, lower. "I'm not a fantasy, I'm the real Bella. Please. Come back," he voice broke on the last word.

Next thing I knew, I was by Bella. She smiled sadly. "You came," she whispered.

"You should be talking-" I started to hiss.

"Please! Just listen. When you told me, I didn't know what to do," she hopped off of Edward's lap, motioned for him to stay, grabbed me by the elbow, and started to walk, "so I freaked. I was scared, Alice. I didn't know where, or how, but I had to get away from you. I had dreams about you, Alice.

"The night you told me, I went to Jake. I stayed in La Push for a day, then I came home and packed. Like I said, I didn't know where, but I was leaving.

"Charlie didn't know what to make of me, so he let me go.

"Edward was at my window, and he helped me make my choice. We left for Isle Esme. We were there for about two years, then we came back."

She paused. I desperatly wanted to hear her voice. I looked at her, reproachful.

"I'm sorry, Bella. I never should have told you."

"What? And you would be miserable with Jasper for all eternity?"

"It'd be better than this," I pointed out. Bella shook her head.

"No, Alice, it wouldn't. You would be miserable, Edward would know why, so he'd be depressed, so I'd be that way, and poor Jasper would dying form all the sadness."

At this, I had to laugh. I don't know how she managed to say all of that in one breath.

"Alice, listen. I have no heartbeat, I'm cold. Alice, I'm a vampire." I listened more carefully; no heartbeat. And she was . . . colder.

"Why?" I mused.

She smiled sheepishly. "Cat accident."

I shook my head. "Only you, Bella, only you," I giggled.

"Hey!" she punched me lightly.

We walked, together, going nowhere in particular.

She started humming a song. It was her lullaby. I almost cried at the pain it caused my heart.

"Alice, I need to say something."

I stopped walking, and faced her.

She smiled. "Edward already knows this, and he says as long as you share, he's okay."

She came up to me, I had to look up to see her beautiful amber eyes.

"By the way Alice, I'm not a vampire. Ha. It's this stuff that, well yeah. "

As she said this, she became warm, her eyes melted to chocolate, and I heard her heart. "And that wasn't Edward. I haven't seen him since that hunting trip. and I told him not to follow me. Alice, I love you. More than a sister."

Then, she kissed me.

(Do you love me? do you hate me? should this be the ending, or shold this be longer?)