Disclaimer: I do NOT own Desperate Housewives or any of the characters. I do NOT own the songs I named the chapters after and I do NOT own the lyrics of the song that appears in this chapter either. No copyright infringement is intended.
A/N: This episode takes place during the 5-year gap, after latest chapter, I guess this is goodbye. It's kind of a songfic, I've used Katy Perry's Thinking of you for Bree's POV. Oh, and I'm sorry for being so mean to Orson.
Enjoy it!
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Mary Alice's voiceover
Some people say that the most beautiful thing in a man is the woman next to him. And no-one understood that better than Katherine Mayfair. As much as she liked her job, it had become a torment to go there every day to find Bree, the greatest love she had had in years, in the arms of a man. However, she would not let anyone see her tears.
Katherine had always been a hard-working woman. But now that she was back in her empty home, her job was the only thing she had. Therefore she was doing her best to concentrate in the tasks she was assigned – cooking, cleaning, improving the menu… Having something to do was the best way to keep her mind distracted. Nevertheless, even though on the outside she looked as strong as usual, she was still broken inside.
Some weeks had already passed since the day she had moved back to her place. As she had had to start working almost right away, during the day she was mostly fine, always having something to deal with. But everything was different in the evenings. Every day after work she had to go back to a big house where no-one was waiting for her. And it was painful. Sometimes she would clean the oven compulsively for the umpteenth time or find herself trying to get rid of the cobwebs at midnight. However, there were moments in which she just had no energy for that and would end up crying her heart out on the couch.
Moreover, Bree's increasing success did not help her at all. Not only because she was starting to feel ignored, but because she was getting jealous. It hurt her to see that, while she was the one who was doing most of the work, it was Bree who got all the attention. And even more than that, it felt awful to realize that she was becoming a boring loner while her best friend showed off her perfect little family and career. But the worst thing of all was that she could not even hate her for that…
'How's my little star this evening?' Orson asked tenderly as he got in bed next to his wife.
Bree smiled to him.
'It was quite a tiring day, but it was worth it. We're getting more and more calls every day. We're even going to be on the newspaper tomorrow!'
'That's exciting!' he touched her red hair and put his arm around her shoulders 'You're slowly becoming famous. We should celebrate it, don't you think?'
Bree responded with a flirtatious smile.
'Of course!'
Orson took her in her arms and began to kiss her neck.
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
It felt nice, but Bree could not help thinking of Katherine's kisses. They were much more delicate and sensual. Compared to her, Orson gave the impression of being rather clumsy.
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
But Katherine had only been an affair, and it was over. In fact, she had decided to end it herself. That was the best thing they could have done. But if that had been the right thing to do, why could she not get her off her mind?
'Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
For a second, she thought she had seen Katherine's face on the person who was lying on top of her at that moment, smiling to her.
'Is everything alright? You look pale' Orson asked.
'I'm fine' she faked a smile.
'Ok'
Orson went on kissing his way down Bree's body. It was not the first time they had had this intimacy since he had come back from jail, but it still felt strangely awkward. She remembered that she used to love it when he did that… but now she just did not feel anything.
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've found the best
You said there's
Tones of fish in the water
So the waters I will check
He was a very tender man, but he would never be like Katherine. She could also be sweet and romantic when she wanted to, but also wild and even violent. That was exactly what she liked so much about her. Every night with her was like a surprise. But why was she missing her so much? Why could not she concentrate on her husband's efforts to please her?
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
For some reason she could not understand herself, she had begun to feel strangely dirty whenever he penetrated her. Maybe it was just because of the thought that he had come from jail, but something at the back of her mind was telling her that it was the guilt. Not only was she feeling guilty for having betrayed him, but because she missed her best friend's touch.
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
Yes, deep down she wished she had not broken up with Katherine. But what else could she have done? She was not like that. What would everyone think if she had left her husband, who had gone to jail just because of her… for a woman? For God's sake, she was Bree Van De Kamp-Hodge, devoted wife and mother! She was no whore with some sexuality disorder and no values. She was a lady, a lady who had made a promise and was going to keep it, even if it hurt.
'Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Although she was not in the mood for that, she began to moan, pretending she was enjoying it, as she had been doing for weeks. What was going on with her? She used to like sex with Orson, he had always been the most careful and tender of all her lovers… where were all those feelings gone?
Lucky for her, Orson finished soon. He kissed her goodnight in a lovingly way.
'I love you, honey' he whispered before moving back to her side to fall asleep.
'Me too' Bree replied.
Oh won't you walk through
And burst in the door
And take me away
No more mistakes
'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay…
Stay…
A silent tear travelled down her cheek. She told herself that it might be hard to get over Katherine, but she would... whatever it may take.
Mary Alice's voiceover
Every step that we take can change everything and give our lives an unexpected turn. One day, we will look back to that point and wonder – what would have happened if I had taken the other road? Would it make a difference if I had followed my heart instead of my head? What would things be like right now if she was still by my side? Would everything be better? We'll never know, because life is unfair and we hardly ever get a second chance…
To be continued…