Authors note: Sorry it took me so long to update. I have decided I will not update over weekends since I am so busy, but this is the next chapter after Kathy slaps Olivia, sorry I did not have Olivia kill her! lol EnJoy!!
~Bri~
After Kathy slaps her, Olivia quickly grabs Kathy's arm and pushes her into the wall.
"You are under arrest for assaulting a police officer." Olivia said in a stern voice, now pissed about Kathy slapping her.
Elliot quickly grabbed Olivia's arm before she could cuff Kathy.
"Olivia please, Kathy is just being herself. Please don't arrest her." Elliot pleaded with Olivia.
Olivia looked at Elliot's pleading eyes, and could not help but get lost in the deep soul his eyes withheld. She came back into reality and looked at Kathy pinned against the wall. Olivia shook her head, and let go of Kathy, quickly pushing past Elliot and going into the Precinct.
Kathy gains her composure and gives Elliot a slight smile.
"Well, that was very unprofessional of her." Kathy said, hoping Elliot would agree.
Elliot looked at her. "Kathy..." He began. Kathy cut him off. "That felt good to let her know how I felt, besides she deserved it." Kathy said as she began to relax.
Elliot, now pissed off, yelled at Kathy. "Quit acting like a fucking child!" With that, Elliot walked away from Kathy and went inside to check on Olivia.
Kathy stood in shock. Then turned and headed to her car.
Elliot ran into the precinct noticing that Olivia was not at her desk, he figured she would be in the locker room. Sure enough, when he got there Olivia was standing looking at her cheek in the mirror.
"Are you ok?" Elliot said walking over to Olivia as she made eye contact with him.
"Mmhmm." Was all the response Olivia gave him.
"I am so sorry for what Kathy did, she was just upset that I stayed at your place last night." He apologized, while watching Olivia continue to look at her red cheek in the mirror.
Olivia stepped away from the mirror looking directly at Elliot and smiled.
"No problem, its fine." She said then going to sit on the bench, which Elliot followed and sat next to her. " I would be upset to if I had such an handsome husband staying the night at another woman's home." She said then nudged him playfully, causing Elliot to smile and blush.
Olivia stopped smiling and looked at Elliot. "I want to apologize, for over reacting earlier. I was acting like such a child. I was just upset." She apologized.
"Thanks." Elliot responded. "So how did your lunch go with Mike?" Elliot asked, changing the subject.
Olivia smiled, thinking about how caring Mike was. "It was good, he is the one who helped me to realize that I was being immature." She giggled, thinking about how silly she had acted earlier that morning. "We are having lunch again tomorrow." She finished, looking at Elliot.
Elliot smiled. "That's good, I can tell that you like him." He said, getting slightly upset.
Olivia thought about it before responding. "Yes I do, but not in a romantic way. I don't know him well enough." Olivia confessed.
Elliot nodded his head in agreement, "Yea, I think it's a good idea to not get involved to quickly."
Olivia smiled at Elliot, and could not help the thoughts that formulated in her mind. She looked down at his muscular arms and tried to imagine what it would be like to have him wrap his arms around her waist and kiss her deeply. She looked up at his face and thought about him making love to her and taking away all of her confusion and pain that had been created from being heart broken by so many men.
Elliot could feel her staring and slightly laughed. "Enjoying the view." He said still not looking up, causing Olivia to blush realizing he noticed her staring at him.
"What view?" Olivia asked looked down at her hands, trying not to make eye contact.
Elliot watched her become nervous and grabbed her hand. "Why are you being so shy?" He asked her, forcing her to make eye contact.
Olivia opened her mouth but nothing came out, she was once again, taken back, due to the intense look, he was giving her, causing her to become weak. Luckily, for her, they heard someone coming, which caused Elliot to let her hands go and stand up. Munch walked in, eyeing both of them, grabbing something out of his locker and retreating to the office.
Olivia stood up relieved that Munch walked in. "I am going to have to remember to thank him later." Olivia thought to herself and walking out of the locker room, leaving Elliot alone to think.
Elliot watched his partner walk out of the locker room, and he could not understand why she would become so nervous and shy around him. It really was not normal for her. He sighed rubbing his face, then proceeding out to the office.
When he got out to the office, he didn't see Olivia, he looked at Fin who nodded towards the captain's office. Elliot looked and saw Olivia standing in Captains office, nodding her head. Elliot figured he just wanted to talk to her about her attitude earlier today, and went to sit down at his desk and began working on some paper work.
Soon Olivia came out as if nothing happened, and sat down at her desk.
"What was that about?" Elliot asked nodding towards the Capitan's office.
Olivia shook her head. "Nothing, he was asking about a case that's all." She said quickly, then starting some paper work.
Elliot smiled at how dedicated she was to her work and continued to do his own. They both sat in silence continuing their paper work, each one not able to concentrate.
Olivia finally couldn't stand the silence. "So what happened with you and Kathy?" She finally asked, leaning back in her seat.
Elliot stopped what he was writing, which was nothing but the same word repeatedly. He looked up at her and slightly smiled. Putting his pencil down and leaning back in his chair.
"Nothing, why do you ask?" He asked making eye contact with her.
"No reason, I saw you two arguing before I got slapped." Olivia said then slightly giggled at her last comment.
Elliot smiled, "Oh, well, nothing, just about me staying at your place last night, she went on this huge rant about how I was sleeping with you and…" He trailed off, looking past Olivia and seeing Mike walking up behind her, motioning for Elliot to not saying anything.
Elliot just leaned back over his desk and continued his work. Olivia gave him puzzled look, and just as she was about to say something, Mike tapped her on the shoulder.
Olivia turned around and smiled "Hey, what are you doing here?" She asked turning around fully in her chair to face him.
"Nothing just came to visit, you know I was on your side of town and decided to stop and say hey." Mike responded smiling at her.
"Oh ok, well say hey and leave." Olivia teased.
Mike grabbed his chest in shock. "Oh Well I never, I though we were better then that." He said acting hurt and shocked, but soon laughing it off.
Olivia laughed at him and shook her head at his behavior.
"Well I better go anyway and let you get back to work." Mike said then pulling Olivia up for a hug. Which she did give back in return. "I will see you tomorrow." Mike said then walking away.
Olivia sat back down, and looked over at Elliot who was now turning red. "Are you ok El?" Olivia asked concerned.
"Yea I am fine." Elliot said then getting up and going to the locker room, punching one of the lockers, trying to release his anger out on something that wont fight back.
"What the hell am I doing?" Elliot asked aloud to himself.
"Looks like your breaking city property." Munch said coming around the other side of the locker.
Elliot stood up and shook his head. "Oh, I didn't know anyone else was in here." Elliot confessed sitting back down on the bench.
"Well, of course you didn't, I was behind the locker." Munch said smartly. "But you do seem stressed, so what's the problem?" Munch said partly concerned but more nosy then anything.
Elliot laughed a little then stood up. "Nothing, I'm fine, just stressed."
Munch nodded his head. "Yes, having woman issues right?" He said in a matter of fact tone.
Elliot looked at him, "Sure." He said leaning against a wall.
"Kathy or Olivia?...hmm I am guessing its both. How about this as a solution, leave Kathy, ignore Olivia and just find some hooker to play with every once in a while." Munch said.
Elliot laughed. "Sure, I will surely do that." With that, Elliot walked back out into the office and sat at his desk, seeing Olivia continuing on her paper work. Which he sat down and joined her.
Later that night, Elliot was sitting in his car outside of his house. Contemplating on whether or not he wants to go into his home, knowing that he was going to have to fight his way to bed. He took a deep breath and got out of his car, walking up the driveway onto the porch and opened the door.
When he got inside, he didn't see Kathy anywhere, so he figured she was either hiding waiting to stab him, or asleep. He walked into his bedroom and found Kathy lying on the bed half-naked.
"Hey El." Kathy said in a seductive voice.
Elliot, for some reason was not fazed. "Hey Kathy." He really didn't have much to say since he was still upset from the way she acted earlier today towards Olivia.
Kathy stood up, as Elliot took his coat and shoes off. She went and stood in front of him, wrapping her arms around his neck, trying to get him to look at her. Elliot lightly pulled her arms from around him.
"What's wrong Elliot?" She asked innocently.
Elliot looked at her as if she was stupid. "Don't even act like you don't know what's wrong." Kathy rolled her eyes. "Are you still upset about that thing with Olivia?"
Elliot sighed and went into the living room and sat on the couch. Kathy followed him and straddled his lap. "I am sorry that it had to happen, but you have to understand Elliot." Kathy began.
"Understand what? The fact that you don't trust me and you have been acting like a child!" Elliot said raising his voice, and moving Kathy off his lap and standing up.
Kathy stood up, and tried to wrap her arms around him. "I'm sorry Elliot, I just don't want to lose you." She said lowly, trying to get Elliot to understand.
Elliot sighed and wrapped his arms around her waist. "I'm sorry I snapped at you, I know you don't want to lose me." He then bent down and kissed her softly. Laying her down on the couch and carefully laying on top of her, continuing to kiss her, while rubbing his hands on her body.
"El?" Kathy said when they paused to take a breath.
"Yes?" Elliot responded quietly. Still rubbing his hands over her waist.
"I want to have a baby." Kathy said. This caused Elliot to stop and sit up. "What's wrong?" Kathy asked , sitting up also.
"I don't think it's the right time for a baby." Elliot truthfully said.
"Why not?" Kathy asked confused.
Elliot looked at her then down at his hands. "Its not a good time to bring a baby into this world."
Kathy stood up, "Why not? We are financially secure, we are married, and why is it not a good time to have one?" She said trying to stay calm.
Elliot sat back and sighed. "Because Kat. We are always fighting, and the only time we are not fighting is only when we are fucking, besides, I don't want my child to see us fight and argue."
"Elliot! We are not always fighting, why are you being this way? You have wanted children since we got married." She pleaded with him.
"I know, but that was before we started arguing and fighting all the time, I am not going to let my child go through that. He said getting irritated.
"Fuck you Elliot! You are being selfish right now." Kathy steamed.
Elliot stood up now upset, "I am being selfish! You are being selfish, how the fuck am I being selfish when I am trying to protect my child from growing up in an unstable environment!" Elliot said loudly.
"Get out! I don't want to see you right now!" Kathy yelled.
Elliot grabbed his coat and shoes from the bedroom and left, he got into his car and drove to the one place he knew that would be quiet and calm. When her got there he pressed the buzzard.
"Who is it?" He heard Olivia's sleepy voice through the intercom.
"Its me Liv." Elliot said calmly.
She buzzed him up, and when he got to her apartment, she was standing in the doorway waiting. He went in and sat on the couch, Olivia sat next to him.
"Fighting again?" She said looking at the hurt in his eyes.
Elliot put his face in his hands and let the tears fall, "I don't know what to do. Kathy and me are just slowly falling apart. It was so wonderful in the beginning, then things changed. I don't know what to do." Elliot confessed.
Olivia rubbed his back to comfort him, she had never seen him like this, he is normally strong and unfazed by the fighting. "Elliot. You can't do anything but hope that Kathy and your marriage lasts. If you two truly love each other, then it will all work out in the end." Olivia assured him trying to calm him down.
Elliot looked at Olivia with tears in his eyes, "I don't think I want it to work out. I cant deal with her acting this way anymore." He said sitting back on the couch.
Olivia wiped the tears away from his eyes, and gave him a hug, "Don't worry El, everything will work out the way its suppose to." She assured him rubbing his back slowly.
Elliot moved back, and gave a weak smile. "I hope your right, I hope it does work out for us. There is no doubt in my mind that I love her." He said sitting back on the couch.
Olivia looked him the eyes. "Elliot? Do you know in your heart that you love her?" She asked looking for an answer.
Elliot looked at her, and tried to think. "I…I don't know." He confessed. He looked down at his hands. "I don't know if I know it my heart, sometimes I do, then she does something that causes me to second guess my feelings for her."
Olivia sighed, then sat back on the couch. Looking up at the ceiling. Elliot looked at her, watching how her hair framed her beautiful face, and the way her brow scrunched up when she was thinking hard. She had never seen him in this state and she was there for him, she cared about him and his feelings. She didn't judge him or his marriage, she was just his shoulder to cry on, and at that moment, he finally faced the fact, he was truly in love with Olivia Benson. He knew it in his mind and heart that she had taken Kathy's place many years ago. He tried to force his feelings away since he was married to Kathy. However, things became more and more difficult to love Kathy, as Olivia created her own and took Kathy's space in his heart.
Elliot and Kathy would have sex and he would imagine it was Olivia's smooth legs that were wrapped around his waist. He sat back and looked up at the ceiling also, trying to figure out what he is going to do about this predicament with Kathy. He doesn't want to hurt Kathy, but at the same time, he doesn't want to stay with a woman he doesn't love.
Olivia on the other hand, was staring at the ceiling thinking about her own love life problems. She liked Mike, but something told her that he wasn't the one she would be with forever. She looked over at Elliot, and saw him concentrating on something, she figured he was trying to think of a way to fix things with Kathy.
Olivia can't deny the fact that she was in love with Elliot. She had been in love with him for many years, she can actually recall the exact day she realized she loved him. She was having issues with a guy she had been dating for months, he put her through hell and left her on the side of the road one night, after an argument they had. She called Elliot and he dropped everything and came to get her. On the way back, he told her that he would be there for her no matter what happens and that he was glad she called him, he confessed that he cared about her more then just as a partner, but that she had become more then that in his life, and that he would risk his life to protect her. Right then and there, she felt what it was like to have a man care for her.
She fell in love with him that night while he was confessing his feelings, but couldn't tell him since he was happily married. She kept it in and occasionally would catch herself flirting with him and getting closer then she should, which she would quickly corrected herself. At times, she thought he was in love with her also, but he would bring up Kathy, which confirmed to her that he didn't feel the same. It broke her heart to see Elliot and Kathy together, kissing and holding hands.
She felt empty and lost, she began dating frantically thinking every man she met would be the one, trying to fill the hole she felt in her heart. Each time it would end in tragedy, but Elliot was always there to help her through it, which only made her love him more.
Elliot sat up which caused her to look at him. "You ok now?" she asked.
Elliot looked at her, and stood up, pulling her up with him. "Thank you for being here for me Olivia." He said, holding her hands.
She nodded. "Your welcome, you have always been there for me, so I will always be here for you. No matter what, I care about you Elliot." She said looking into his deep blue eyes, searching for the love she wished he felt for her.
Elliot, began walking to the guest room still holding onto Olivia's hand. When they reached her bedroom, he turned and put his arm around her waist pulling her close to his body.
She was shocked at first, but before she could say anything, Elliot pressed his lips against her, pressing his tongue against her lips asking for entrance, which she gave to him. He kissed her deep and passionate, something Olivia has never experienced, Elliot kissed her in a way that he has never kissed Kathy. Rubbing his hands up her back, feeling the smoothness that he had dreamt of feeling, many times before.
Elliot knew if they continued, that he wouldn't be able to let her go, so he broke the kiss, and smiled then let Olivia go and went into the guest room closing the door without a word, leaving Olivia in the hallway, wondering what the kiss they just shared meant.