Chapter 4:

"I thought that boys meant trouble" I said to my sister, noticing that she was staring at the boy who was sitting next to Kyle. She seemed like if she was in a different world, staring at him, and I'm sure she didn't even hear me. And my suspicions were confirmed, when she didn't even answer me. And then she talks about me… "Ri!" I yelled, pulling her arm. She jumped in the chair.

"What's wrong? What happened?" she asked, quickly, without giving me time to answer her. I took a deep breath.

"You talk about me, about how I didn't stop staring at Kyle, but now it's you who can't stop staring at the boy who's sitting next to him… I thought that boys meant trouble…" I mumbled, so that only she could hear me. She stared at me, surprised.

"I wasn't staring at him! I was just looking at you, and seeing you staring at Kyle, and, you know, I'm not happy about that. The boy has a girlfriend, and you know how boys are! They're all jerks, with no more to do that breaking girls' hearts!" she mumbled, and even it was just in a low voice, I saw that Kyle and his friend were now staring at us. Could it be that they heard what she had said? I hope not…

"Fine. Whatever. I'll have a little walk" I told her, getting up.

"Ems, wait… Don't go. I didn't want to hurt your feelings…" she said, getting up too.

"You didn't. Stay here, and finish your breakfast. I'm going to our room, and then I'll have a little walk" I told her, and then I left. She sighed and then she sat down again, and I went to the room.

I entered to the room, and then I started walking from one place to another. I just thought about Kyle's green eyes… Damn, what the hell was going on with me? I've never felt like this before… Everytime I look at him, my heart starts bumping in my chest in a way I had never felt before… But he has a girlfriend, right? He was never going to look at me, when he had by his side a prettier, older and more experient girl. But, hey, who cares? I don't! I don't like him! I don't even know him! Damn, but he's just so perfect…

"Ems, may I come in?" I heard Hayley's voice.

"Yes, come in", I said, sitting in the bed. She entered and smiled, getting closer to me.

"Is everything all right between you and your sister?" she asked, sitting next to me. I sighed. I didn't want to have that conversation right now.

"Yes, everything's all right" I lied. She stared at me, raising an eyebrow.

"I wasn't born yesterday, you know?" she said. I sighed.

"She's overprotective… And she doesn't want me to get close to any boy… In fact, she doesn't let anyone get closer to me" I confessed, sighing.

"That's because she loves you and she doesn't want you to suffer…" she said. I knew that it was true, but sometimes it drives me insane.

"I know… But, sometimes, that's really… You know..." I said, sighing. Hayley smiled.

"Yes, I know. It's like Kyle…" she said. Great, here we go again. Kyle… Kyle… Kyle… Could that be that now only Kyle existed? Damn, how irritating! If I kill him, will anyone notice? No… I could beat him! Yes, that would be great! I could pretend that he was the other irritating bitch who was with him, and I would beat him!! "…Ems?" Hayley called me. I realized I was rambling, and I shook my head, to forget about those thoughts.

"What about Kyle? He's your brother, right?" I asked, trying to pretend that I hadn't any clue about what she was talking about. She laughed.

"Yes, he's my brother. And don't say it like that, 'cause I'm sure you know he's my brother, or do you really think I didn't notice the way you looked at him?" she said. I was taken by surprise.

"No!! I didn't look to him! I don't even know your brother!" I defended myself. She laughed.

"I saw you staring at him, Emily… I'm not blind…" she said. I blushed.

"No, I didn't look to him" I lied again. She sighed.

"Fine. You can keep lying to yourself. But there's one thing I'm sure…" she said.

"And what would that be?" I asked, in fear.

"That my brother would be much better with you then with Gwen" she said. I sighed. What the hell…? Was this a conspiracy against me? I already said I don't like him! I don't even know him!! Control yourself, Emily… Behave!

"Why are you saying that?" I asked, trying to calm down.

"'Cause Gwen has never had a serious relationship… She's very… Hum… Let's say…" she started, struggling to find the right words. She sighed. "She always cheated on her boyfriends. In fact, she cheated on the last one with Kyle. Kyle isn't a bad person, you know… He just fell in love with her… And she destroyed my brother, and she has turned him into a bad boy. Let's say that he didn't make an effort either to not be like that. Actually, he was always like that, very rebel, and he doesn't care about rules… But he was still holding on. After he started going out with Gwen, he got worse. She encourages him to break the rules. And he likes that. Actually, he just need someone calm, like you, that would love him for what he's really like, you know what I mean?" Hayley said. I was staring at her, surprised by her words. Why was she saying me those things? I mean, I don't like Kyle! I don't know him, so, I can't love him… Can I?

"Why are you saying that to me? You don't know how I am… Maybe I'm even worse than her…" I said with a tone of challenge in my voice. However, Hayley laughed. "What? I'm serious! I could be a lot worse than her…"

"You're not! I was always very good at knowing people. You seem to be a nice person, and I know you are. You look too innocent to cause troubles" she said, laughing. I sighed.

"I look too innocent?" I asked, defeated.

"Yes, you do" she said, still laughing. I sighed again.

"You couldn't stop staring at Jason too…" I started. She stopped laughing and looked me with a serious face.

"Jason is my brother's best friend…" she started. I rolled my eyes.

"That doesn't mean that you can't like him… I know, I saw the way you looked at him… You like him, don't you?" I asked, already knowing the answer.

"No! He's my brother's best friend, I don't like him…" she denied. I sighed.

"For how long?" I asked. She sighed and looked to the ground.

"A while… He and Kyle are always together… They're best friends, almost like brothers… Jason would never look at me that way…" she said. I knew what she was trying to say, but I didn't agree… Jason seemed nice, and I saw him looking at her too… He looked at her with love, and it wasn't a brotherly kind of love… It was so much more than that… And don't try to convince me that I'm wrong! I know, 'cause I saw it! I was always very good seeing this kind of things. I realized I needed to do something to put them together… But… What?

"Hayley, are you there?" I heard a boy's voice, and I looked to Hayley. She seemed surprised, and she was blushing, what made me laugh.

"It's him, right?" I mumbled. She shook her head, saying 'yes'.

"Yes, it's him…" she said. I smiled.

"Come in!" I said. He opened the door, and I took my guitar and left to the door.

"Ems, where are you going?" she asked, getting up, frightened.

"I'll have a walk. You two need to talk" I said, leaving the room. I looked back and I saw that Hayley was very blushed, and he didn't even sat down.

"Your brother asked me to call you…" I heard him saying and I sighed. I thought that was a good moment so they could finally work out the things. But, apparently, I was wrong.

I walked for a while. I wanted to find a quiet place, where I could think. Where it would be just me and my guitar. I walked so much that I ended up in a little woods, and I started to hear the sound of water… That's weird… I walked during a while, and I ended up in a clearing, and, in front of me, was a cascade. I was amazed. It was beautiful… I never thought that could exist anything like that, so beautiful… I sat down next to a tree, and I started singing something I've never had sung

"I know we don't belong… Everyone says it's wrong. We come from different ways, so I tried to erase everything that I felt… That I felt. But then you kissed me and suddenly I don't care anymore. Something in me tells me you're the one I'm looking for. But then you kissed me and suddenly I don't care anymore. Something in me tells me you're the one I'm looking for… From the kiss… From the kiss…" I sang. But, suddenly, I stopped. What was I doing? What the hell…?

"Don't stop… Your voice is beautiful" I heard a boy's voice, getting closer to me. I felt I was blushing, and I got up, quickly, without looking at him. I tried to run, but he grabbed my arm, stopping me. I felt something strange, when he touched me, and I looked to him… My God, what's happening? He was there… And he was looking at me with those green and beautiful eyes… I noticed that he was as surprised as me, when he saw it was me, but then he showed me his wonderful smile. I started to feel my heart bumping faster and faster in my chest, but I couldn't understand what was happening. Then, frightened, I pushed him to the floor, and I started to run. "Don't go, please!" he begged, getting up. But I was still running, and I just stopped when I arrived to my room… Without my guitar.