Chapter Thirteen: Putting Edward On The Hook!
(Edward's POV poor sad distraught Edward.....)
Everyone was as shocked as I was. "Edward, What happened?!?" Esme asked. "I Have no Idea, I came into the room and when I spoke, Jasper felt Bella become full of rage! You saw her, I was afraid of her! I thought she was going to attack! Then Jasper thought about when he met their plane and mentioned me. She reacted the same then too!" I fell to my knees "Carlisle what have I done? Have I lost her? Have I ruined the only thing I ever had that gave me pure joy? Tell me you all spoke to her for a while is she hostile now?!?"
"Actually, I thought she seemed pretty happy...." Emmett said quietly. Rose elbowed him then threw in her two cents "Well, what did you expect? You tell her you don't want anything to do with her, make her best friend in the world besides her mother Alice move away from her, and you take her one true love and spit on it and tell her she means less than nothing to you that you will leave her as if you never existed! Did you think you could hurt her like that and she would be the president of your fan club dumbass?" Everyone gasped at the vitriol in her rebuke, but I knew from decades of hearing her thoughts she was just being honest. She rarely censored herself and she was right.
"No, Rosalie is right. I thought I was doing what was best for her. But I wasn't. I was acting out of some stupid sense of guilt. I never respected her choice, like I somehow decided for her who she would fall in love with. As if she didn't choose to love me." I buried my head in my hands and sobbed. After several minutes of grief Carlisle knelt beside me and put his hand on my shoulder. "It will work out somehow my son. You have to have faith." I looked up at him then at my family "You have to help me. I need to win her heart back. I need to show her I love her and pray that she will someday be able to love me again!" Esme looked at everyone then at me "Of course we will help you win her back Edward, you two are too perfect together for it not to work out!"
I stood up then and brushed myself off. I resolved to show her I loved her. And how sorry I was for failing her. I had to hold out hope for us. I couldn't go on without that hope!