Chapter 23- Missing You
Missing you has placed the only ounce of regret in my mind. When you think you're missing me, I'm missing you harder. For every tear you shed, I shed a thousand. For every night you spend awake thinking of me, I spend an eternity thinking of you. The only difference is I know I'll see you again someday and you believe I'm gone forever.
Missing you has been harder than anything I did in my life. I spend most of my time with you, you just don't realize it. Maybe if you looked for it you'd see the twinkle of my eye in a strangers passing gaze. Maybe you'd feel the brush of my lips in the light touch of the wind. Maybe if you looked for me you'd understand you're not alone; I miss you too. I always have and always will.
Missing you has carved a permanent hole in my heart. I long to have your lips caressing mine in their sweet embrace. I long to sense your warmth enclosing me in its blanket. But most of all I long to feel your love; to know its still there. Through the years I've been away, I'm afraid that love has faded.
Missing you has changed who I am. As my image diminishes in your mind I hope you realize it hurts me more than it hurts you. I still see you everyday, although I'm starting to cope with separation. I wish you could see how much your presence has affected my soul, but I suppose you'll have to wait until you join me. As dreadful as it is, I am looking forward to that day. I would love to tell you to move on, but I'm afraid of pushing you farther away. I would love to tell you to forget, but I'm afraid you actually would. I would love to tell you everything, but I'm afraid of what you'd think.
Missing you has become my security blanket, my comfort, my light and my protection. Like you were in my life, missing you here has become my everything.
A/N: And so it has come to an end. Although about halfway through the story I was completely done with it and hated everything about it, I've grown to love it. Yes, the middle had some quite pathetic chapters but I think as a whole it was a not awful story. :P I apologize for the ending but from my first chapter I couldn't see it ending any other way. It just seemed right… I would appreciate any reviews. What you thought of the end, my characters or basically anything at all is greatly welcomed. Thanks to everyone who stuck with the story. Keep reading, keep writing and keep reviewing!!