Ah Hello!?-

Logan got into the elevator and pushed a button the doors slammed shut. It was louder for Rogue who looked like she had rigor mortis. His eye's landed on Rogue who was pale, frozen with tears streaming down her face.

"Kid you ok?" she didn't answer or move, her chest wasn't moving Logan was worried ether she was dead or good at playing possum. "Hey!" he snapped his fingers repeatedly across her face.

"Rogue you ok!?" Rogue it sounded so cold. Rogue. The same word brought her to mush was turned back into a shallow meaningless name

She stuttered at her one chance to find the love she was longer for, but didn't fall she shutdown out of fear at the most important question of her life. She knew what had happened and was determined to change the mistake she was petrified and couldn't speak her heart balled yes and mind cut her dreams down. Rogue officially had a inner conflict. She thought the worst of her life with the red eye beauty therefore opted out for a disfigured version of happiness. Her world became clear again her goal obsolete she knew that she was not a Rogue, not anymore she had evolved in woman into Marie.

Rogue flicked the button endlessly to go back down realizing it wouldn't work she clicked the emergency button and re-clicked the button to tar pit. Logan tried to intervene but her sudden obsession with going back down was over powering. Rogue wasn't having someone come in her way of happiness again; she stayed one step ahead of his pulls, tugs and grabs. Right now the door couldn't open fast enough for her; she leaped out of the elevator with a fresh mindset.

"Remy! Remy!" she cried loud looking around franticly "Remy I want you to stay!" she yelled for her life and loud as she possibly could to the closing jet door.

"Stay please!! Remy!" Rogue ran with all that was left in her to give. "Remy. I'm a Marie!" she shouted with each step. The hot air from wings blew at her "I'm a Marie!" sweat ran down her face, her ears popped, her mouth dry and her lungs were giving way still Rogue's body pressed forward she couldn't stop she kept going. She had to all that they had all that they've done couldn't be over he held too much value…

OOOOOOO

Simple Sound-

Four hours later and she woke up in the Med Bay. Noxious she managed to recognize where she was 'the Med Bay' Rogue was beginning to despise the place bad news always followed. She tried to get out the bed as fast as her body could move; thinking that the whole thing was a sick dream. Rogue was almost to the door when an arm gabbed her back, struggling against it se kicked and screamed.

"Rogue its over. He left"

"No! There's still time." She pressed trying to get to the door. The door was the only signal of hope left for Rogue, if she could make it there things would be different Remy and her would be together like that should have the whole time.

"Sweetly I'm sorry its done. Its over"

It's done simple and right to point, the words crushed onto Rogue's heart like a pile of bricks. Rogue collapsed into Ororo's arms crying. Her chest felt heavy she was hyperventilating. It took over twenty minutes of smoothing words and rocking her like an infant to get Rogue to calm her cries that could wake the dead.

"The screaming has stopped is it safe for me to enter" Rogue wiped her face trying to appear un-phased by Remy's departure.

"Yeah sure Hank" Rogue answered trying to be strong

"Oh good and your using words again, I'm glad to hear." He said entering with a less then pleased manner "Ororo would you mind giving us a minute?" Ororo got up off the floor and nodded in compliance it hurt her to see that Rogue was in so much pain. It tore her up thinking about Remy and his condition he might be in.

Rogue remained seated on the floor she had stopped crying but had yet to gain feeling in the rest of her body.

"Why am I here this time?"

"You passed out. Your blood pressure was at soaring heights." Rogue sighed not complying

"Did it all happen or was it a horrible dream….tell me it was dream Hank"

"It wasn't a dream Rogue and you need to stop living in one!"

"Excuse me?" Dr McCoy was usually a gentle soul; Rogue had never heard him use a tone like that with anyone.

"Rogue you passed out on the tar-mat! Must I remind you that you are with child? You can not be running like a loon into jet pacts at full blast….. Think of your child!"

"My child…." She hugged her tummy and her faced was full f resentment for acting so selfishly, there was more at stake then her feelings. "Is my baby alright?"

"Yes everything looks normal, but your blood pressure must remain low to insure a secure heart beat…. I can show print a picture if you like you will…"

"No. I don't want to see a picture…. Nothing, not until he knows not until he comes back."

"Rogue…"

"I said no Hank!" she crossed her arm in anger

"…..lay up her for me…" he patted the bed. She took her time getting up, blood flowed back in her lower body as her limbs went towork again. She finally made it after moving a snails pace. She laid back on the bed and Hank pulled up her shirt exposing her belly.

"Hank!"

"I'm checking something this is not a printer last I checked" he said dryly pouring a gel on her belly. The cold gel steeped in to her as he slowly ran the receiver over bloating stomach

"I know you feel alone right now Rogue, if you would only took the time you would see that you have a house full of supportive faces if you only let us be there… It's always darkest before the don remember that" He re-positioned himself and the machine flipping a switch he continued going over her belly "It may seem like a cloudy day but all you have to do is find a sliver lining…."

Thud, thump thud thump thud thump

Rogue turned to look at Hank "What is that sound?" she asked with aquiver in her voice

"What I hope will be your sliver lining"

Thud, thump thud thump thud thump

"Is it?"

"Yes and still beating strong"

"Sounds like its echoing" this made Hank chuckle, he was happy to her a spark of hope in her voice.

"That is does"

"I've never heard something so beautiful in my life" Thud, thump thud thump thud thump. Since she had been awake Rogue's mind shifted back to important issue releasing a weak lopsided smile at the sound of a heartbeat

Thud, thump thud thump thud thump

ooooOOO

Old Space New Dreams-

After her check up Rogue went to the Greenhouse. It was unclear her motives for going wither to be alone or close to him.

"Hey Ororo" Storm was watering her plants

"Hello Rogue"

"I wanted to say I'm sorry for the way I behaved today…" Rogue was unsure how to explain how she felt, her timid low vice reflected that.

"No need we all have our moments" Part of Ororo was upset with Rogue for what she did to her friend. Rogue was her friends too; it was hard for her to find that balance to care equally for them both. Her main concern for Remy was is he going to come back.

"I guess you want me to explain"

"If you feel it would help you. What happened. Happened. As long as you're ok I don't need to know unless you want to tell me."

"I don't know what happened" Rogue shifted around the room avoiding a straight forward conversation.

"Ok. I'm going to take a run it has been an intense day, would you like to join me" she said taking off her gloves and dusting the dirt off of herself

"No I think I going to stay here take it all in you know"

"Alright if you change your mind"

"Thanks" Ororo left the Greenhouse, the conversation was shape it lacked the support that Ororo would give and polite caring jesters from Rogue things were coming at odds for Rogue from every direction.

Sitting on the floor of the Greenhouse brought back memories; memories of warm food, good movies and blissful kisses. Not anymore the warm food was traded for a growling belly, no more kisses or touch, none that would satisfy her at lest. The screen that once broadcasted their movie was no more leaving an empty space much like Rogue. Rogue pulled out a blanket out of Ororo's trunk that sat on the floor next to her rocking chair. She wrapped it around her shivering body and watch as the darkness take over the sky like it did her sunny life.

It was ten o'clock when Rogue woke up from falling asleep on the ground. The time scared her she was late. She might have mess up once with Remy but it wasn't going to happen again, when he came back she would be ready. Ready to tell him the truth about everything her feeling, their baby, touch him again without fear everything would come to light. Rogue got up and jetted off to Sace Hotel.

oooooOO

Shots-

"London I don't see the trill" Remy said while he prepared for landing

OOOOOoo

Just Do It!-

"You have been sitting her for almost an hour it wasn't a hard question"

"I never thought about the real reason is all?"

"Why you want to touch you never thought about that"

"I think about touch all the time. I don't think about the reason."

"What is your first reason?"

"To be normal"

"Wrong"

"No I…"

"I'm a telepath Rogue and damn good one I know that's not the answer"

"The Professor wouldn't…"

"I'm not the Professor now am I?"

"Sure not"

"Why didn't you say it back when he said I love you we both know you wanted to but yet you chose to ignore that heart?"

"I didn't ignore I froze I was…. Scared that he would break my heart like Bobby"

"So you chose a loveless relationship with Bobby I must say I don't get you at all"

"It isn't that Bobby showed that he wanted to commit were…."

"Gambit has wide reputation of being a ladies man" Rogue looked puzzled "What I don't have to be a telepath to know the legend that is Remy LeBeau. I am female and I do live on this planet."

"Soon as you answer my question we can begin"

"I want control over my mutation so it doesn't control me so I can harbor the power so I can touch the man I love with passion so I can feel the soft skin of my…" she paused in her thought wishing she could suck them back in. It couldn't be redone Rogue yelled it with passion upset that she was being pushed.

"So you can touch the soft skin of your child? I knew the moment to stepped foot into my hotel room"

Rogue wasn't showing much, to keep it quite for now she bulked up her clothing and found an excuse for ever symptom.

"When you came in I felt multiple forms of mutant energy within you. I know that you people stuck in you head but come on" Rogue was not following "Your going to make me say it" she took a sigh "fine your breast are swollen your face has the undertone glow and you've used the washroom seven times in the last hour."

"….I answered your question"

"I know you have but I won't be able to get far"

"What?"

"Your mind has a way of putting blocks around certain memories or topics sometime the blocks expands far enough and lock out everything else. Right now your mind is blocked completely screaming for Remy….to tell him the truth"

"I'm conflicted I don't see the issue" the thoughts of when the two of them were together took hold of Rogue, she wondered were he was and if he was thinking of her too…

OOooO

Shots on Me-

It had been a couple hours since Remy landed, still ripped apart by Rogue smashing his heart to pieces he headed to a local pub. There he found two things a strong glass of whisky and Betsy. A drink and a pretty woman always went hand in hand for Remy, this time was different he wanted nothing to do with this woman or life. The more she chatted on about her life in London and the hard work she been doing adding her stressful life as a supermodel was undoing for Remy. He would admit that when he saw her, he thought she would be a nice way to get over a broken heart. Besides not being able to get himself to pull the deed off in combinations with Betsy partially throwing herself at him he couldn't still. Rogue was locked in heart for good as much as it burned he meant every single word. He wouldn't take it back even if he was being tortured.

It was official Remy LeBeau had fallen and was more then willing to pay the celibate fee that came along with it. Remy refused to accept her lack of reply; he wasn't going to let an ice box ruin his shot of happiness. Remy LeBeau was neither a man that back down nor a man that could settle. This was a minor set back nothing more.

"Remy? Remy" He snapped out of his thoughts hoping for a southern gem but only revising a cocky heartbreaker "You look tried let me take you to bed" her hand slithered along the inside of his jeans

"Sounds like a plan if you could point me towards the closest hotel…"

"Oh nonsense. Why stay in a hotel when I'm all alone in my mansion?"

"This is my solo mission I can sleep where I wish"

"Your mission I'm over seeing. I told Storm that I would keep a watchful eye on you. You wouldn't want her getting late night phone calls of you running off think of how disappointed she would be…."

'How dare that bitch pull Ororo emotions with me? She is a sneaky one'

"Your right petite, why not"

"Good I'm glad you see it my way my driver should be outside"

"Lets make something clear huh." He grabbed her arm as he walked passed him "Don't try to pull anything with me I'm not interested in what your selling. Don't come around me unless it's for business, I mean don't speak unless its for business not call nothing…better yet don't even breath around me unless its for business."

"Oh lighten up there's no shame in that fact that you think I'm sexy a lot of men do I was voted sexiest rising star this year you know" Remy rolled his eyes fixing his jacket how could someone be so condescending it made him miss humble Rogue more "You telling me you don't want any of this?" Betsy stroked her hand down and round her body Remy barely watching.

Their eyes reconnecting "Why would I want to have something that will cost me everything when all the other hommes get it for free huh?"

Betsy was less then impress with the lack of action in the back seat of her car. For that it made the car ride home boring for her, she promised herself the night wasn't going to end the same way….

OOOOOOOOO

Come on Do It!!-

"You're not conflicted you know what you want. Why you won't take it is the question"

"What would you like me to do he's gone… I don't even know when he will be back"

"I'm sorry here I was thinking that we were living the twenty- first century. Where technology is nothing out of the ordinary"

"I can't tell him over an e-mail or a text"

"Call him" she said in between sips of tea.

"This is more of a face to face issue….besides I don't even know if he brought his phone"

"Rogue your lovers name is Gambit he's going to have two things at all times a phone plus a desk of cards" She giggled a bit at her form of a joke realizing she was laughing alone she went serious again

"Its news Rogue that needs to be let out, you can't keep this bottled up it isn't helping your mind and I'm sure it couldn't be all that great for the baby…"

"Ah"

"Call him and then we can begin. Begin the road that will lead you to freedom to control… for Remy, for the baby, for you…the power" she pulled out a cell phone from her purse and stretched it Rogue "What is it that you want…."

Rogue only remembered the day Remy told her that. 'Chose what you want' he told her, truer words have never been spoken to her.

"Its ringing…"

"Oh good technology prevails again" she said dryly taking a sip of her tea

Rogue paced the room each ring bringing her closer to his voice his seductive tempting voice.

ooooO

Shower-

Rogue. The only thought in Remy's head was of her 'is she ok, did the ice prick harm her, was she feeling better. He thought about her yes, but his mind wondered if he would get the same result if he put his heart out there again. 'Is it worth another round'

Remy cleared his head in the shower; Betsy was in his room and thought of a great ideal to come in uninvited. She began to pry into his things modeling his duster. She found nothing really that could her in her seduction. She started to undress herself when an aerating buzz came from Remy's trench pocket.

One new voice message- paying no attention to who it was she cleared the screen, turned off the phone dropping it accidently behind the bed under old blankets and a trunk.

OOOOOO

What to Say-

"Remy ah it's Rogue…. I know it's stupid of me to think that you would have picked up but I had to try for my and our…for my health. Today someone asked me why I wanted to touch and I couldn't give them the surface answer…. The only answer I could come up with was so feel you against my skin. The night you held me in the Greenhouse… I never felt more peace…. It's because I was loved…. By you. I don't know why I didn't say it back Remy I don't… I was scared a moron I was what ever you want me to say I was, as along as you say it back to me this time….Remy LeBeau I love you…. I Do with my soul, my heart my mind…I love you and I do have an answer my answer it's yes…Yes! I want you to stay, stay for me, us. I wish I could tell you this in person but I can't wait any longer I stuttered at ever chance I got… I thought by doing what was expected of me, was the right path, I know now that you're my path our path….Remy I'm pregnant and we will wait a lifetime for you…"

OOOOoooOOOO

Days-

Nine days. Nine days of bed rest, of mending, hunger pains and morning sickness. As time heeled her body it also allowed her to sort out her thoughts. After pondering Rogue determined a few things; she was done with only half living. Not because she was alone Peter, Logan and Ororo always made time to visit. Visit wouldn't really be the word she refused to let anyone else in to see her. She had officially cut herself off from the mansion world. No one knew that she was pregnant for one they never saw her and could only base their facts off of her throwing up so they assumed that she was sick. Rumors rampaged the school about her getting her full powers back and was too embarrassed to show her face and others of Bobby and her finally breaking up. None of it even left a dent in Rogue's mind she no longer cared what the public thought, for her normal was overrated.

Her mind was packed with the important issues when she was with Hank it all about her pregnancy he was the only other person besides Jubilee who knew. After hearing the truth of her life she accepted Hanks advice and went on bed rest. For her child sake she practiced mediation and staying in control of her emotion constantly. At night she would sneak out to Sare Hotel to learn how to escape her mental boundaries. With the advice Rogue was given and technique she learned at night practice was key; seeing how Hank and Ororo knew of her returning powers she tested her strength on them never losing concentration always remaining dedicated. Any time Rogue felt as if she couldn't carry on she gained encouragement from her expanding belly. Rogue vowed that she was going to be able to touch baby freely one day. Each time she made advancements she would rub her stomach saying "Its all for you"

Days II-

Remy couldn't find his phone he swore that he had brought it with him to the house. He had no choice, he had to tear the room apart he needed it. The phone was his life line over the years all the clients and connections he made were stored in the phone. If Remy was going to make the trade tonight the phone was mandatory.

"Where is the damn thing?" he had successfully moved all the furniture. Leaving only the bed left to be searched on his knees he started to pry under the bed.

"Looking for something" Remy eyes ran from the floor up two pair of legs landing on Betsy's naked form.

ooooooooo

Don't Look Yet-

Rogue left her room at night. It was safest time for her, she wasn't a threat to anyone then plus her sleeping pattern was starting to turn. She headed down stairs around 2am for a night snack of ice cream.

Sitting at the counter with a large bowl of strawberry ice cream in hand she sat and ate away. In the middle of stuffing her face her cell phone buzzed Jubilee was calling;

"Hey"

"Hey yourself I haven't spoken to you in ages"

"And by ages you mean two days?'

"That's it? It feels like its been a life time?"

"Miss you too…Did I tell you that my true love is ice cream I can have it all the time" the phone was dead with an awkward silence from Jubilee, she one the one to lead the conversation instead Rogue chatted on about ice cream

Jubilee battled to tell her the truth, she couldn't hold secrets back "I have news Rogue… I saw Remy" Jubilee had to say it she didn't know how or why but she did it. A knife sliced into Rogue hearing his name in casual conversation.

"What?" Rogue attention cut back to her fallen spoon.

"I saw him at an underground trading station…. He winked at me. I know he hasn't called you guys with an update but I wanted you to know that he's ok"

"…"

"Alright did you hear me?"

"Yeah I heard what you said" Rogue was in an uncomfortable place that was true; she was determined not to let it consume her.

"There I said it whoa talk about weight lifted. Now you can focus on more important things like dumping Drake for good. Even if he has a ring"

"Jubilee…."

"Oh come on Rogue the man's a dick he almost hurt you. Plus hello you don't love him!"

"I can't let my child grow up fatherless"

"He wouldn't be much of one"

"Is it better to grow never knowing a father or to have one that's only half there"

"You can't lie either?"

"I haven't lied… I just haven't told any body…anything"

"Sounds like you don't plan to tell the truth?"

"I haven't spoken to Bobby anyways…. He has no ideal I'm pregnant. No one does"

"Ugh! If I were there none of this would be happening….face it Rogue I keep your nice booty in cheek its all about Remy"

She took up her bowl in one hand after getting clean spoon, she exited the kitchen a bit more relaxed hearing that a he was ok while talking to a best-friend. Behind Rogue hidden in the corner between the walls was Kitty covering her mouth with her shaking hands. Her eyes wide in disbelief about what she over heard.