iDeveloped Actual Feelings for Him

Chapter 3: Going off Air

Author's Notes: I don't own iCarly, Drake and Josh, or Zoey 101. Sequel to iLove/iHate. Okay, now we switch back to iCarly. We're in Valerie's house after she's done with her webshow.

Valerie finished her webshow. She read through the comments on her site. Then, she deleted them and started deleting photos from her gallery.4

Then she deleted blog posts, and eventually deleted everything from her site.

Valerie then fell onto her bed and cried.

Her mom heard her, so she ran into her room.

"Honey," Valerie's mom said, sitting down beside her. "What's wrong?"

Valerie put her head in her hands. "I just can't believe I used him. He's the best thing that's ever happened to me. And I used him."

"Why'd you do it?" her mom asked.

"You really want to know?" she asked.

"Yes."

"Okay, I'll tell you what really happened."

"Alright," her mom said.

Valerie had just finished her date with Freddie.

She went to her house. This had been the greatest moment of her life.

"Mom," she said when she got all the way in the house. "I think he' s the one." She smiled.

Then she realized her mom was gone. " Mom?!!!"

Instead, Jonah was there on her table.

"Hi Valerie," he said.

"Jonah?" she was surprised. "What are you doing here?"

"Well, first your mom invited me over to talk, then she had to go to the grocery store, now I'm here waiting for her to get back."

"Why did she need to talk to you?"

"Umm… nevermind," Jonah said, not wanting Valerie to know about his secret crush on her. "So where have you been?"

"On a date with Freddie."

"You think he might be the one?"

"Yeah," Valerie said. "I plan to kiss him too."

"Really?" Jonah said, having a tiny hint of sadness in his voice.

"Yeah," Valerie said, not noticing his sadness.

"So, I hear you're thinking of doing a webshow," Jonah said.

"Yeah, and I'm going to make Freddie my technical producer."

"I can do the tech stuff too."

"Sorry Jonah."

"So when are you going to do it each week?" Jonah asked, curious.

"I don' t know yet," Valerie said.

"How about two days from now?"

"But that's when Freddie does iCarly, I couldn't do that."

"Too bad, that's the only day I can skip school to see it."

"I'm going to do it after school, not during. Besides, you shouldn't skip school," Valerie said. "It's ba-"

Suddenly, Jonah grabbed her and forced her into a kiss.

Valerie left her eyes open in shock. Then she used her hands to remove his lips from hers.

"What was that all about?!" Valerie asked.

"I have a cru-"

Valerie put her finger to his mouth and said "Shh. Want another one?"

"Wha-" Jonah asked.

Then she forced him into a kiss.

"No," she said after it was over. "This isn't right. I love Freddie."

"So, will you do the show tomorrow?"

"Bu-"

Jonah forced her into one last kiss.

"Okay."

"I regretted doing it, I also regretted kissing Jonah when I was in love with Freddie, but there was something about the kisses that sort of… I don't know… forced me to do it," Valerie said, still crying. "I can't explain it. And now, because of the bad things I did, I'm going off air."

"Honey, I'm sorry," Valerie's mom said.

"Can I stay home for a few days, mom?"

"Okay."

"Thank you." Valerie stayed on her bed the rest of the day, crying. Going off air was the hardest thing ever…