Hey guys- srry for the lack in updating! Ive super busy- and i just havent been able to update recently. Hope you like this chapter!
Disclaimers: I dont own Naruto- but I do own Kameera, Rara, Kira, Calael, and Rin. Oh- and most of the plot. Also, I dont own the songs in this chapter.
Songs (as seen in order):
Losing Grip - Avril Lavinge
Leave- Get out – JoJo
The Art of Letting Go – Mikaila
Falling Inside the Black – Skillet
Keep Holding On – Avril Lavinge
I could tell that Kakashi was worried about me. After all- it had been a good three years since I had last saw Deidara. Thankfully, I was a good actor- and I could falsely lead someone with how I felt. I smiled and was cheerful on the outside- but I was dying on the inside. But someone like me- someone who lived to keep their home safe from criminals- couldn't have a relationship- a loving, romantic life- with a criminal that wanted to harm her home. I had to keep telling myself that over and over- try to make myself believe that.
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Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby?
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real..
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say...
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Grinnin' with a lost stare,
That's when I decided...
Why should I care?
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When we had gotten back to Konoha, Kakashi had been put into the hospital. He had over-used his Mangekyo Sharigan, and could barely move. Tsunade was now doing something- I could tell, but I didn't know what. Naruto claims to have been attacked by some guy- but come on, someone from the village attack another from the village. Okay, so that might happen- but its not that likely. Some how- for some reason- my thoughts all seem to travel back to Deidara, and sometimes, they'd go past Deidara- to someone I hadn't seen in three years- Kabuto.
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And tell me how we're gonna be together always,
Hope ya know that when it's late at night,
I hold on to my pillow tight,
And think of how you promised me forever
(I never thought that anyone)
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Sighing, I came to a stop at the bridge and over looked the water. My life had been so messed up- and filled with… drama, could you say? Drama and sorrow.
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Tonight I'm so alone
This sorrow takes a hold
Don't leave me here so cold
(Never want to be so cold)
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Continuing walking around the village- I found myself in the cemetery. Looking around, I saw a monument and walked up to it. It was the Third hokage's. The man who had always been there for me- he had been the one to find my home- the people I call family. I never want to loose any one else again- im sick and tired of it.
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Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
how do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
learning the art of letting go.
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Sighing, I stood up, brushing my fingertips softly against the marble.
"You miss him- don't you?" The voice startled me- and I turned quickly to find Asuma behind me. "Sorry," he apologized.
"It's alright- and yes, I miss him very much," I nodded.
"You have every right to- you were like… a granddaughter to him," Asuma told me, and I looked up at him.
"Really?"
"Yes," Asuma nodded, and his eyes became soft," because I had claimed you as a daughter in my eyes when I first saw you." My eyes widened, and brimmed with tears. He had never told me this- and it made me so… happy. I hugged him tightly, and he returned the hug.
"You have no idea how scared I was when you ran off three years ago after he died," Asuma told me," I felt as though I was losing everything. Like my world was crumbling before my eyes."
"I'm so sorry Asuma sensei," I told him, truthfully," I just couldn't handle all that was going on right then…"
"You have no reason to explain anything," Asuma told me, whipping away my tears.
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You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in
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"Kameera!" I heard Sakura's strained and desperate call. Looking around- I saw her and Naruto, but they weren't alone- plus Naruto looked like he was ready to kill the other guy he was with. Walking up to them, I smiled at the scene- it was kind of hard not to.
"Yes?" I said, looking at Sakura.
"This is Naruto and my new team while Kakashi is in the hospital," she told me, the strained cheerfulness evident to me- plus I could feel it radiating off of her. Oh how sometimes I wish I wasn't an empath.
"It's nice to meet the both of you," I smiled.
"Its nice to meet you as well- Kakashi told me a little about you when I saw him earlier," the older man said, smiling.
"That is Captain Yamato," Sakura informed me, and then with strain she said," And this is Sai."
"…Hello…um…," Sai said, as he thought of something to add- but came up empty. Sakura and Naruto seemed surprised about something- but I couldn't figure out what- but that didn't really matter.
"Well- we'll be going on a mission soon- so, we'll have to talk another time," Sakura said.
"Alright- I'll see you around I guess," I told her smiling," Nice meeting you again- Captain Yamato- Sai – see ya, Naruto." Walking away, I couldn't help but glance back- to my surprise, Sai was watching me. When our eyes met- I could have sworn I felt a spark of what used to be there when I had been with Kabuto or Deidara. Could it be that now was the right time to have fallen for someone - someone actually from Konoha?
{Elsewhere in Konoha- normal POV}
"Hey Neji," Rara smiled, walking up to him. He was standing in a clearing- and had just gotten through practicing his Byakugan.
"Rara," Neji smiled, bowing his head respectfully," How may I help you?"
"I saw you practicing and began wondering if maybe I could help…" Rara said- thinking of something. She hadn't thought that- but her feet had taken her to him without her realizing it. She was just so attracted to Neji, she couldn't help it.
"Of course- I could always use some help with training- training with others is more of a challenge then being alone," Neji replied.
"What would you like me to do?" Rara asked him, ready to do anything to help.
"Hide anywhere you would like in the bushes- we can do a hide-and-seek kind of thing with the Byakugan," Neji suggested.
"Alright!" Rara smiled. While Neji closed his eyes, Rara went and hid in some bushes and made sure not to move. Creating a couple shadow clones- they all scattered to different positions.
"Ready!" one called out- and Neji opened his eyes.
"This will be interesting," Neji said to himself, slightly smiling. His Byakugan had picked up every single shadow clone plus the real one- but which one was the real one? He jumped around, finding and destroying each shadow clone- and saw that only one was left. Disappearing- he traveled around and came to a stop behind her.
"You really know how to make things interesting," he said, and watched as Rara slightly jumped, looking behind her.
"Dang you're quick," Rara told him, the edge of her lip rising slightly.
"I could have gone quicker- but I like being around you," Neji said, and Rara slightly blushed. Neji walked up to her, and softly put his hand on her cheek. Then, slowly he lowered his head- and kissed her.
{Elsewhere in Konoha – Kameera's POV}
I walked around, kind of feeling a little lost- and I thought things through. What exactly- I don't quite know myself. Here I was, 17, and still trying to figure out the aspects of my life. Recently, I had found out that Sandaime had thought of me as his grandchild- and Asuma sensei thought of me as his child. I was thrilled beyond comprehension- and I loved knowing that people cared about me- more then I knew. All I had really known was heartbreak and I was getting tired of that. Now- I think that I might be falling in love with another person- someone I don't really even know. Walking up to the front gate, I stopped at the desk.
"Traffic report for Lady Tsunade please," I said, and they nodded, handing me some sheets of paper.
"Boo." I jumped, and reached instinctively for my kunai. "Chill! Someone sure is jumpy."
"Sorry- but don't creep up on me like that Rin," I said, and then we smiled," Welcome back. It's about time. I was thinking of sending you all your stuff." We began walking through the village.
"Haha- I just… wanted to make sure everything was fine before I come back," Rin said, choosing words carefully.
"More like you wanted to make sure that someone was fine before you came back- tell me, how is Kankuro doing?"
"He's better- especially now since Gaara is alright," Rin smiled.
"That's good- and how was dinner with him?" I asked casually.
"Real amazing- the Hidden Sand Village's restaurants are amazing-"Rin began, and then blushed a deep shade of red.
"Sounds like you had fun while making sure everything was okay," I smiled.
"Oh hush- it not like- I mean sure we- but we cant-"Rin said, trying to say something.
"It's complicated," we said in unison, and she looked over at me.
"I know the feeling," I admitted, and we sat down on the bridge," First it was with Kabuto… and then Deidara… I thought it was all perfect- but then I realized, I could never truly be with either of them- they are from different places- and they are completely different from me. But you and Kankuro- you two are perfect. Just give it time- you'll find a way to make things work." I hope, I thought to myself.
"Yeah right," Rin said, and then saw my papers," Shouldn't you get those to the Hokage?"
"Shoot! Yes- thanks; see ya!" I took off running over the rooftops with the papers in hand, not aware that a certain ninja was watching me from a distance.