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This is chapter is of what is happening to Edward. He doesn't meet Bella in this chapter. So sorry to all of you who had been hoping that would happen. No, it will be soon though, so don't worry. In this chapter, Carlisle convinces Edward to go visit the Volturi with them.

Chapter Five: Edward's POV

I sighed in exasperation. Carlisle was trying to convince me to go to Volterra to visit the Volturi with him. Apparently, they had turned "Vegetarian" and he was suspicious, hence, he wanted to pay them a little visit.

Well, who wouldn't be suspicious? The infamous Royals of the Vampire world, turning "Vegetarian"?

The whole family had decided to go except for me. I hardly joined in on any activities since that day we left Forks.

The day I lied to Bella to let her live.

The day I tore my heart out and left it there with her.

The day I left her.

Alone and defenseless with no one to protect her.

I didn't move for a single week when I heard the news of Bella.

She had DIED.

From a car crash.

How she could survive James, Victoria and Laurent and survive, but still manage to die from a car crash, I could not understand the irony of it.

Only Bella could mange to confuse me like that, only her.

"Please Edward, you have to get over her, she's dead Edward, DEAD, she won't come back. Let it go, Edward, let it go. " Carlisle said.

I flinched, everyone knew this was a touchy subject and never said anything about it. So why was my supposedly "Father" talking about it.

I couldn't help but let out a roar of pain as I charged outside. Letting my emotions take over me.

I cried, and when I mean cried, I really cried. I didn't know how. I only knew that my Bella was gone.

Removed from the face of Earth.

Gone.

How could she leave me? After what I had done for her. I gave her my heart. I left it with her. Now she's gone. I want to follow too. I want to be with her.

So I sat there and thought. If I wanted to be with her. There was only one way.

To leave the world of the Undead.

But the problem was, how?

The others would never lay a finger on me. Much less kill me. And I couldn't possibly kill myself without the help of others.

sigh

That's it! The Volturi! If I offend them, they might actually kill me, then I can leave this world.

I hurriedly made my way back to the house. Carlisle was on the couch.

As soon as he saw me, he jumped up.

"I'm sorry, Edward, I didn't mean it. It just... slipped out." Carlisle apologized.

I shook my head and said, "I think I'll take you on the offer to go to visit the Volturi. Let's go immediately."

Carlisle didn't hide the shock on his face.

He WANTS to go?! Willingly?! – Carlisle

Is he finally letting go? – Rosalie

What's with all the emotions? It's so confusing! – Jasper

Poor Edward, it must be hard for him. – Emmett

Edward's agreeing to go to Italy with us!? That's weird. – Alice

My poor Edward! - Esme

I could here the thoughts of the others upstairs.

Hmph. They should really learn to control their thoughts, at least around me.

Wait! I have to tell Alice not to see my future, or she'll know.

I went to the room where Alice was currently packing.

I cleared my throat before speaking.

"Alice, could you please not look into the future, at least for the trip?" I asked her.

She answered suspiciously, "Why shouldn't I?"

Shit! What reason? Think Edward think!!

"Um. Oh! The Volturi told Carlisle that they didn't want any fortune telling for the trip. They have a surprise." I answered, hoping that it sounded like the truth.

That's all? Oh, I wonder what the surprise is.

Alice didn't sound suspicious at all. Good.

I went to my wardrobe, and started packing; apparently we were going to leave tomorrow morning.

Wait for me Bella; I'll be with you soon. So Very Soon.