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Becs POV
I got to Chicago and Phil met me. He grabbed my bags and we went to the house. We didn't talk, touch, or even turn on the radio on the way home. I knew something was definitely going to change; I hated this.
We got home and he took my bags to our room. I walked up there and he was sitting on the bed.
"What's wrong?" I asked him and he looked at me. I knew he hadn't slept well, but I didn't know what was causing us to have so many problems. I just wanted it fixed because I hated the tension.
"We need to talk." He said and I nodded. I was leaning against the door frame with my arms crossed over my chest. He was sitting on the edge of the bed and he had his fist closed. I knew this wasn't going to be good, but it needed to be done.
"Um... Becs…I cheated on you." he mumbled. I just looked at him and was a little shocked. I now had two options: I could pay innocent a get pissy or I could admit that I had cheated as well.
"Me too…" I said and he looked at me with anger written all over his face.
"You what?!" he screamed. I seriously didn't know why he was so pissed since he had done it as well.
"Why are you pissed, you did it too?" I asked him.
"Well, I am the guy, I am supposed to." He said and I just looked at him with a blank stare. He really did say something so stupid.
"Let me guess, you slept with Allison?" I asked and he nodded.
"And you slept with John?" he asked me and I nodded.
"So what now? We have a wedding coming up, we have told everyone, and we both slept with our ex's, what should we do about it?" he asked me.
"Well, did you feel anything for her?" I asked him and he looked at me.
"Yeah, I did, I realized that I loved you. I felt guilt, pain, regret, and every other horrible emotion that I could. Let me guess you didn't feel anything, right?" he asked me. I was annoyed because he was being so defensive. I just looked at him and I was trying to figure out how stupid he could be.
"I forgot sleeping around runs in your family." He said and I just glared at him. I knew he was referring to my mom, my dad, and Randy.
"Yeah, well, at least we aren't always drunk." I said and walked into the bathroom and shut the door. I knew I shouldn't have said it and I regretted it before I said it. I just leaned against the door and listened to hit stomp around. We were both pissed at ourselves and taking it out on each other.
I jumped when he started banging on the door and I leaned against the counter. I sighed and I just wanted this to stop. I loved him and I didn't want him to be hurt. I knew I had hurt him, but right now we were both fighting for something. I was fighting for him and I didn't know what he was fighting for. I realized that I did love him because it hurt so bad to hurt him.
"What are you fighting for?" I yelled at him and I heard him stop.
"Cause you cheated on me!" he yelled back.
"No, Phil, I am fighting to keep us, what are you fighting for?" I asked him.
"I want there to be an us, but it looks like you will just follow in your family's footsteps." He said.
"Then what do you want me to do Phil? Leave you, never speak to you again, fall off the face of the earth, die, I mean what do you want?" I asked him.
"You wouldn't die. Becs, I don't want this anymore; I can't fight anymore. I quit." He said back sarcastically.
"So you don't care?" I asked him.
"No, Becs, I don't care. I DON'T CAER AABOUT YOU!" he said and I knew he meant it.
I was so annoyed that I felt like proving him wrong, besides if I was dead I wouldn't have to deal with him, right? I would have to hurt John, Randy wouldn't have to worry about me, he could find someone who wouldn't cheat on him, Dad could really forget about me, and I would have any problems. The idea was making sense.
I looked around and found something heavy enough to break the mirror. I had heard about it form when I was in nursing school and I knew how to make it quick.
"Bye, Phil." I called to him and I heard him move closer to the door.
I threw it at the mirror and it shattered it, but it didn't break it lose. I punched into the mirror and the glass broke away around my hand. I picked up a good size piece as Phil was trying to get into the bathroom.
"Becs, no, don't do anything stupid." He said.
"I already did, I loved you." I told him. I figured that he didn't want to fight for us anymore, so I gave up.
"No, Becs, I love you. I can't lose you; I won't." he said and I pressed the glass to my skin. I knew there was no going back and I knew that he was just saying it to get me to stop. I had officially lost my mind and given up.
"Phil?" I called and he stopped moving.
"Yeah, baby?" he called and I could hear concern in his voice.
"Tell Randy to have a good life." I told him.
Phil POV
I was facing my worst fear. Becs and I had a fight, but now she wanted to end it all. She just didn't care anymore, because I had been stupid. I didn't care that she cheated; I still loved her. I knew that she had broken the mirror and now that she was serious.
"No, Becs!" I yelled and I was not going to just let her kill herself.
I kicked in the door and she had cut her palm. I grabbed her and pulled her out of the bathroom. I threw the glass in there and I just held her. She was crying and I was crying; I had been stupid and it almost cost me.
"I am so sorry; I didn't mean any of what I said. You are my world and I love you." I whispered to her as I held her. We were sitting in the floor, blood was everywhere, but I didn't care because I still had Becs.
"I never meant any of it; I can't quit on you. I love you and I won't give up. I don't care that we both messed up, because at the end of the day I still want you." I told her and she just looked at me.
"I'm sorry." She whispered.
"Baby, it's not your fault. I should have never taken my feelings out on you. You are nothing like your family, you are not going to make their mistakes, you are beautiful, and you are my world." I told her.
"I am sorry that I said anything about your family." She said and I just hugged her tighter.
"I just want to forget today, move on, and plan our wedding." I told her and she just looked at me.
"You mean it?" she asked me.
"Yes, Becs, I do. I don't care that we both messed up because we are both still here together. We both admitted it and we are going to fix it." I told her and she gave me a small smile.
"Come on." I told her and I picked her up like she was little child.
I carried her to the kitchen and sat her on the counter. I ran some water and she let me clean her palm. She had cut it pretty bad and I knew that I had pushed her to a place where I didn't want her to be.
I bandaged it up like she told me to and I carried her into the living room. I sat on the couch with her in my lap. I didn't want to let go of her, since I realized that she really could leave me in a heartbeat.
I just held her as she laid on me and fell asleep. I watched her every second and eventually fell asleep holding her. I had a tight grip and I didn't want to let her go.
Becs POV
I woke up and I was asleep on Phil. I just looked at him and he was so cute sleeping. I knew I did love him and I slept with John because I was lonely. I knew that it was a mistake and I didn't want to lose Phil.
I gently slipped out of his arms and went to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror and realized that love does make you really stupid. I had tried to kill myself over Phil. I knew I loved him, but I never thought a guy would drive me to do something so crazy.
I was in the kitchen when Phil came in there and I realized we were both still covered in blood. I just hugged him as he kissed me gently.
"I am so sorry, Becs." He whispered.
"Me too." I said.
I wrapped my arms around him as we began to kiss. I wanted him to make me forget John, forget earlier, and remember how much we loved each other. I continued to kiss him and pull him closer. He must have felt the same way as me because he picked me up and I wrapped my legs around him.
He carried us back upstairs and into our bedroom. He softly lowered us onto the bed and never once broke our kiss. He placed chaste kissed all over me and he shed me of my shirt, jeans, and anything else covering me. I sat up and helped him get rid of his clothes and he grabbed a condom. We didn't care if we rushed because we could go slow later.
He inserted a finger and my hips shot off the bed as he smirked at me. He reached down and took a nipple in his mouth as he rolled the condom on.
"Becs?" he said my eyes shot open and stared back into his.
"I can't go slow." He said as he pulled my hips to the edge of the bed.
He grabbed my hips and slammed into me. He pulled me a little more off the bed and slammed into me. I wrapped my legs around his waist and pulled him deeper. He groaned at the contact between us and I was arching my back from the pleasure.
"I love you." he moaned as he speed up even more.
"I love you, please make me forget." I begged him and he started to slam in so hard that I could feel the pain all over my body. I didn't care because the pleasure was out weighting the pain. I was seeing stars and I knew that he was feeling the same way. I was so close and I knew that he couldn't be far behind.
"Phil… please." I begged him and he slammed in faster and harder. I dug my nails into his arms, I arched my back, and screamed at the feeling. I felt him slam into me one more time before he slumped over on me.
He pulled out a second later and laid me on the bed. He disappeared into the bathroom and lay down with me a second later. I just cuddled up to him and held on to him. I didn't want to lose him, because I did love him.
"Hey, let's get changed and I want to take you somewhere tonight." He told me and I nodded.
Phil POV
I was glad I had her back; I wasn't going to lose her again. We took a long shower and changed. I wanted to take her to a restaurant that a friend of mine owned. I wanted her to meet them and I wanted her to know that she was my world now.
A/N: Please review. Thanks for the reviews so far! Don't get mad at this chapter, there are still more turns in the story. :)