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Chapter 19

It's not your Fault

Collin POV

I felt the marks, scars that I made, on her back. I tried not to think about how they got there but I couldn't help it.

"Collin," she whispered.

We were back in the clearing Emlie was brighter then a lighthouse and she was so confused. I didn't want to hurt her so I phased back

"Collin are you crazy phased back NOW," Edward growled as he fought off some newborn. I just kept walking towards Emlie turned around and saw me, I could tell she was being told something but what I didn't know, she tried to stop herself but she couldn't fight it. Then I saw three newborns come out of nowhere and one was going for Emlie, I shook so hard I phased in seconds, he bit her and by then I was behind him to claw his head off but as my paw came down he moved making me hurt, I froze everything stop, I swore no one was breathing. I phased back and stared at Emlie's back, she had gruesome claw mark on her back it started at her shoulder and stopped at her waist. I looked down at my hand I had her blood, my little Emlie's blood on my hand, then I was flying towards the trees and iron grip was around my throat, I looked down to see Rose.

"YOU FUCKING MUTT," she growled. I wanted to say sorry but it was no use

"I SHOULD RIP YOUR HEAD OFF," her grip tightening and cutting the air from my lungs. I didn't try to fighter because she was right she should rip my head off for what I did to Emlie. I deserved to die and if anyone did it, it is should be Rose.

"Rosalie," Bella tried to reason, "Let him go. She needs you right now,"

"Not until he pays for what he did," she hissed not releasing me. I started seeing spots but I said nothing, I couldn't. Seth and Quil were right behind Rose growling

"ROSE let him GO," he shouted

"I promise you if she doesn't survive I will break the treat, and you, for her you understand me," she hissed in my ear. I vaguely nodded my head and then air rushed into my lungs. I dropped to my knees and stared at the little body covered in bloody.

"I'm sorry," I whispered over and over again. I stayed there while they, Rose, Em, Edward, and Carlisle, took her away while the rest burned the bodies. I didn't move away from where Rose had left me. I just stared after her, I wanted to go see if she was ok but I couldn't bring myself to move. Sam phased back and tried to get me up but I wouldn't move.

"Collin you didn't do it on purpose," Sam said. I know he was right but I just stood there still and I felt a nudge but I didn't move then thrown onto some ones back. I wouldn't say I black out but I sure as hell didn't remember anything. Everything was a blur or it just went black. I know everyone was there but I didn't acknowledge them. I don't know how long I was like that but it made things difficult for the pack, with me having to stay in La Push and run patrol and me still having nightmares and thinking about Emlie the while time.

About three months later I was able to cross the line but I still wouldn't get near the house then about a couple of more later I decide, more like Jake did because he didn't want to hear Emlie complaining about seeing me, to run patrol around the house. I saw her for the first time when I was coming back to switch places with Embry, she ran to me so fast she knocked me over and hugged, a little too tight she had newborn strength and everyone else's powers but she was still so little, Rose came over and tried to pull her off of me but she wouldn't budge.

"Mama stop I want to be with Collin," she said. Rose gave me a hard stare but I couldn't say anything I was still in wolf form. I nudged her with my nose to get her into my vision.

Emlie listen to your mother she is only doing this to help and I promise I will talk to you soon

Promise

Promise, I'll be here the whole night

She seemed satisfied with the answer so when Rose took her away she didn't say a word, but I saw Rose wince a couple of times. After the longest time we never spoke verbally she preferred to speak to me with her powers because then Rose couldn't hear. At first I was just talking to myself but when ever Rose left to hunt she would sit in my lap and talk her head off about school or what new trick she could do with her powers and how many times she beat Emmett wrestling. She loved it and I loved her.

"Collin," she pulled me out of my thought, " it's not your fault." She squeezed my face if anything you saved my family and me and that meant that you had to do it and I know it wasn't on purpose so I'm not mad at you

But your mother is

Well I'm not my mother now am I she laughed god I missed at laugh

No I shook my head no your not

Good now can we get pass this or are you going to be this way forever

I knew it did me no good to fight with her one because I would never win and two because I know she was right but I still felt responsible.

Well you're NOT

You're anger

Stop it and I won't be

Ok fine I'll stop

Good she looked outside you better get home it's getting dark

We got up and cleaned up the lunch we had.

"Wait," she squealed, " remember I can't walk you have to take me down stairs,"

Fine but you carry the tray. She shrugged and hopped on and then she started nibbling my ear as we went down stairs. She jumped off and took the things to the kitchen and then I greeted everyone, even Rose,

"Hey guys," I said

"Hello Collin," Carlisle and Esme said

"What's up man," Emmett voiced boomed while he played Halo 3 with Jasper and Jake

"Ooohhh," Nessie said at something that was going on.

Rose threw me a hard look but Emlie took my attention from it.

So call me when you get home and tell your mom I said hello and that I will try to come by sometime next week ok.

I nodded gave her a quick kiss and then left.

Rose POV

"I can't believe you are letting her do this," I yelled at Emmett he got up from his game and walked towards me.

"I'm doing anything," he said

"Yes you are you are siding,"

"No, I'm not,"

"Yes you are,"

"How,"

"Well you let them be up there alone,"

"You agreed to those terms as well,"

"Well you're her father aren't you suppose to not allow that,"

"And you her mother shouldn't you be able to talk to he able it," he replied

"I told you, pay up" I heard someone say. I stared at Emmett

"Look I know you don't like this but you can't keep her away from him no matter how hard you try. Do you think Collin likes seeing her hurt?" he asked

I shook my head, I know the boy did everything to keep her happy but everyone could see that he blamed himself a helluva a lot more then I did and that as saying something.

"Rose," Carlisle interjected, " I know you want to keep her safe but the only way you will feel better about this is to go and talk to her not sit here and argue with us about it and Emmett's right no matter how far we move she will find away to be with him and you would have done the same if you were in her shoes,"

I hated it when he was right but I had to admit I would have done the same thing.

"That's a first," Edward said

"Shut up,"

Emmett's arms tightened around me and I leaned into him.

"Grandpa you ready to lose," Emlie said coming back down stair.

"I haven't lost a game yet," he said setting up the chessboard

"Oh you will today I have been practicing,"

"Cheater," Edward coughed

"Oh this is coming from the person who got thrown 4 miles right yeah ok," she smirked

Her and Edward fought, mostly because she wanted to shut him up and because of Emmett, and she kicked him so hard I swore I hear his jaw break he lied and said he didn't and that it was a lucky shot but we all saw him rub his jaw.

"I hope you don't plan on it,"

"Never in a million years,"

"Hey Mama Hi Daddy," she beamed and kissed us both

Can we talk later she asked. I nodded.

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