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Closer – Part 6

BPOV

Cold is what I felt, the cold icy hands around my arms holding me up for support as I stood in my bedroom. Alice looked me in the eyes, assessing me. She some how managed to get me back into my room without a sound, just like Edward did earlier.

Just like Edward

Edward

The name caused confliction in my mind every time I thought about him.

I took a deep breath in and let it go before she placed me on my bed. My tiredness was taking over my body and I could barely concentrate on what she was saying.

"Shh, Bella your ok, don't worry." Her whispers were soft and sweet but did nothing to shake me from my state. Her cold hands ran across my face wiping. Moving my hand up to where hers left. I felt my skin cold and damp, tears.

I hadn't even noticed I had been crying. All I can remember was the look on his face, the kill in his eyes. I heard my breath stagger as my body began to shut down against my processing mind. One was going to lose, it had to, either that or I think I just may die from either exhaustion or hysteria.

"What happened, Alice?" I asked her, whispering.

"You know what happened, Bella." She whispered out, her voice almost short with me.

"He wanted to kill me?" I didn't really know if it was a question or a statement.

"Bella, listen, you did nothing wrong and nether did he. He just…he just. Bella, he's not human, were not human, there is risks with being near us, near Edward. He's older but all this change, it's still new to him. He didn't think about accidents. Not like that at least."

I could only nod at her. I knew she was right. He cared about me. I was positive. I think…

But why did I have to cause a scene like that. Looking down I see the clean fresh support on my arm knowing of the thick dressing below it that Carlisle put on me at his house. I just can't really remember him doing it though. My mind is still lost on everything that happened after Edward…

"Alice…Will…will he come after me?" My internal fear of the look he wore couldn't even override the need to see him again. I just didn't know if he did weather or not it would be to finish me off.

"No! No, your safe, don't worry. He was calm when you left, normal." A tiny humourless laugh coming from her at her word choice.

"Normal." The word on the tip of my tongue some how shook me up. Edward wasn't normal, this whole situation wasn't normal, how I felt about him was anything but normal. This was my warnings coming to life and I had them all, all the warnings he could give and I didn't back down. I knew that something could happen to me but I wouldn't be without him. He tried to protect me, he was honest and now here was I not knowing how he felt. That some where he would be berating himself over it.

"Alice I need to see him." I told her firmly.

She shook her head, instantly refusing me, not even a second of thought to it.

"Please." I begged.

"No you need to let him come to you when he's ready. You can't push him right now, next time you might not be so lucky." Lucky – I felt anything but. I needed to see him, tell him I was fine, to see he was fine.

"You need to give him time." Her words were firm and a warning.

"He's struggling, so that's why you should give him more time, if he sees you so soon he might push you away further. Let me talk to him first ok?"

Another nod, I yawned as I did so, my eyes watering slightly at the sheer tiredness I felt.

Her cold hand was placed on my back as she pulled me in close, hugging me. "I will go talk to him. You get sleep, it's just before five." Glancing at the clock reading it, I have just over an hour before I wake.

"I'll see you soon." She promises with a nod and then she's gone. I slipped off my sweats and trainers and crawl into the cold bedding relishing the feeling, imagining its Edwards cold arms around me before they had warmed up.

*****

A heavy knock at my bedroom door made me bolt up right before turning to the clock noticing it say seven thirty.

"Bells?" Charlie's voice calls from the other side before he walks in. "You feeling alright?"

Shaking my head I try to think of some excuse, anything except that I had been out all night with a vampire in a meadow, before he took me home to meet the rest of his vampire family, before he tried to kill me with the smallest scent of blood from my opening wound that I got after falling off of my secret motorbike that Jake is helping me to hide from you. Oh hell. He would think I was crazy. I may actually be crazy. I think I am crazy.

"Bells." He called on me brining me back to reality, but more like normality.

"I'm just not feeling to great to day dad." I croak out in my best sick voice. Though my tiredness was enough to make me feel like hell.

"Ok well just stay at home and get some sleep." Sleep is exactly what I need… and Edward… "Just call me if you need anything and I will be home right away, ok?"

I give him another silent nod in the hope to get him out quicker if I ask nothing else of him.

"Ok we'll just you rest." Before he's closed the door my head is back down on the pillow and I feel myself drift of into sleep again.

*****

EPOV

What about Bella?

Alice's words continued in my head as I swept through my room, collecting the few possessions I needed to take with me.

"Edward." Her voice shouted out from behind me almost startling me with her tone.

"Alice, don't start. I don't need this, you seen it, you seen what I should have done to her." I tried to let her see reason, she was the only one with the image of Bella's should have been fate; she had kept it back from me, knowing I never wanted to see her like that.

"Her fate will always be what it's meant to be." She argued.

"Your wrong, I refuse for it to be like that." I said firmly as I placed blank journals into my back pack knowing the words I needed to get out of me.

"No your wrong, Edward. Listen we moved here for you, we did all this change for you, to risk exposing us for you. I encouraged them all because I seen it and I knew it was the way it was supposed to be. Don't walk away from her after you have come all this way. Don't tell me I'm wrong, I'm right on this one." Her foot stomped defiantly against the flooring. She wasn't about to back down from this anytime soon.

Walking up to her I placed my hands on her arms, holding her still knowing she was ready for another outburst. Her mind was swarming with words of anguish at my actions.

"Do me a favour, please." Her eyes met mine with a pleading tone begging her. "Look after her for me. She needs someone to look out for her. Just keep an eye on her, make sure she doesn't get herself into any danger."

"You do it, you want her safe you do it." She shouted back at me.

I dropped my head at her determination. "I'll kill her, I almost killed her last night-"

"You never-" Her raised voice started.

"Stop it please. Just stop." I walked up to the bored up window, my brute strength looking right back down at me. "I did this Alice, I lost control for one split second and this is what happened." I said pointing to the board in place of the glass wall.

"You didn't mean it, it was an accident." Her topaz eyes pleaded with me but they already knew my decision.

"Yes but not one I can risk with Bella and last night was as dangerous it can get for her. I still remember her looking at me, unable to move from below you scared and all I kept on trying tot do was to get at her." The image of my inner monster scaring her will scar me for eternity. The fear I installed in her, in my beautiful Bella. Well, no longer mine. She belongs to whoever's heart she captures next, it won't take long. I know the mind of the boys at that school; they all wanted to be with her.

"Your leaving." Her words were a whisper and she knew she had lost.

"Tell her I'm sorry. I can't be this around her and I can't be anyone else either. Just please promise me you will keep an eye on her."

"Your not gone yet Edward, and your future keeps changing, I'm not giving up yet." Her smile was one of pain and determination as she walked away from me.

Her future doesn't change Edward, you can't stop it now. Her thoughts told me as she continued out the door before flashing the Image of Bella as one of us, as a Vampire. I would do everything I can to make sure Alice is wrong on this one.

*****

Alice had been gone half an hour as I sat on my couch thinking of the image She had given me, I was sure I could change it but leaving meant I might not be able to stop it but staying could mean I could end up causing her change myself. I could never be expected to allow this. My family already knew the battle I had with myself, they couldn't expect me to agree to my loves same fate. I would change it. It would not happen.

As expected I was waiting on someone else to challenge me, they had been arguing downstairs on who should try next. The lucky contestant was Emmett.

"Don't even try. nothing you can say will change my mind." I told him before he even walked into my room.

Nice talking to you too. He told me.

"Em there is really no point, I'm too dangerous to be around her, I don't want this but this is the way it has to be to keep her safe." I told him what he already knew.

"Ok but what about us?" he asked, after them trying to help me so much. I would always be incredibly thankful for the help they gave me.

"I know you moved and you risked yourselves for me and now I'm just walking away but I thank you for letting me try, even against Roses wishes." I thanked him before turning back to my bag placing my identification and money in the bottom of the bag.

"You think that matters to me, I don't care about that, I just want my brother back with his family, where you're meant to be. I'm being selfish here but I'm asking you to stay, for me for Alice, for us all. We will stick by you and we will help you, we will even help you with Bella, even Rose." I raised an eyebrow at the mention of Rose helping, she was the only one that had been against it and her position never really changed.

"Just don't leave us again." His words knocked the wind out of me. I never thought for one moment that they would feel that I was leaving them; I thought they would understand better than this.

"I'm the one that has to be selfish here Emmett. I need to go or I might kill her. I can't trust myself or put her at risk. You wouldn't understand."

His booming voice turning aggressive "Listen, don't tell me what I do and don't understand. I know that you are leaving us even when were begging you not to. You are killing Esme right now. I know that you love this girl even if you don't admit it because that's just the way it works for us. If it was Rose I would give anything to be near her, even if it was at a distance, to see her, to know myself she was alright, not pass the buck on to Alice while I run away feeling sorry for myself because it got hard, shit Edward, it's all hard. But the thing is she will become one of us even if your not here, Alice-"

"Alice knows nothing." I cut in hearing enough about Alice's image of Bella like on of us. She had always seen it, even in Alaska but I refused to acknowledge her words and she kept the images back knowing that it would have almost certainly stopped me from looking for her.

"Alice knows, she knows this wont change for anything. And when Bella changes, when she's in pain, when she's confused, and lost in her new form you will be hiding, leaving her heartbroken when you could stop it all right now."

His words were harsh but one thing I knew, I wasn't going to have any involvement of them stealing her soul. If my family were so convinced that her change was going to happen, that they would be involved, then they were not my family if they helped her change.

*****

Alice was back, she pulled at my bag emptying the contents across the room, trying to stop me, or at least slow me down.

"Stop acting like a child." I told her off.

"You stop acting like a child, Edward. Emmett is right, you're not just leaving her, your leaving us all. When do I get to see you again?"

"You know where I will be, you can see me anytime you want." I told her truthfully, I would love to be with them but it wasn't them I had to think about right now.

"So you go to Alaska, then what?" She asks as if she doesn't already know.

"You tell me, you're the one that knows the Future." I tell her.

"I don't know your future, it keeps changing, that's how I need you to stay here. But why Alaska?" she asks again.

"What do you mean, why Alaska?"

"Are you going to see Tanya?" She thinks this is about Tanya, Tanya who has feelings for me but that's was all, Tanya was nothing to me except a friend.

"I'll see her but I'm not going to see her." I said honestly.

"Hmm, so it's not about Tanya, so why Alaska?" She asks once again. Her questioning was annoying and she refuses to let me see what she was getting at, even as I try hard to push through her thoughts.

She rolls her eyes at me and shakes her head, her pixie locks sway with the movement. "Don't bother pushing for it, this is my game were playing Edward." She smirks at me, infuriating me further.

"I'm not playing any games with you Alice. Leave me alone to pack and leave my possessions alone." I tell her firmly as I speed over the other side of the room retrieving my identification only to return to my back pack to find it missing more items. "Alice." I shout at her, her games have reached far beyond playful. "I said stop it."

She smirks once again and I remember the invaded privacy I have with my family around me. "My game, answer my question." She demanded. "Why Alaska?"

"Because I need help, I need support and you are all staying here because you think it's the right thing."

"What do you need support for?" her questions are silly and her child like features are enhanced by her childish attitude.

"You know what I need support for, I need them to help me stay a vegetarian." I let out with a sigh.

Her smile widens at my answer. "So still staying veggie?" she nods. "Not fancying a nice long drink of warm human blood, the taste pulsating out of there body." A dreamy smile plays on her face.

"Alice are you trying to get me to kill a human?" I ask astonished at her callous words.

"We'll you turned Vegetarian for Bella because you had to be with her now you your not with her, why not go back for some human." She shrugged so flippantly at her comment when I knew somewhere in her mind she would be fighting disgust at the thought of me doing so.

"We'll let's just say perhaps it was time to change my ways."

Alice's words were right though, I became a vegetarian so I could be close to Bella, if I drink human blood I become weak again and I know I can't go near her or I really would end up killing her this time. The thoughts are there in my head, directing me between right and wrong but I know I will still choose Alaska for support. This is my new life, Bella may have been the reason for change but I wasn't going to let the monster inside me escape because I became weak or that it would be easier. No human life would be taken by me again and that included Bella's.

*****

BPOV

"Bella, Bella, wake up." The cold hands grip my shoulder as I squint looking at Alice's face glancing at the clock that now reads three o'clock.

"Oh no, I can't believe I slept so long." I jump up reaching for last nights discarded sweats.

"Bella can we talk?" Alice asked.

"Alice, thank you so much for last night, I only just met you and you were so good to me. But I really need to see Edward. Did you cut school?" I ask in a semi-rant as I pull on my trainers.

"Bella, wait, I need to tell you something." Her voice was urgent and she pulled on the trainer in my hand, there was no fight, I knew who would win that one.

"Ok, go." I encouraged her, I knew she said to give Edward some time, so I had, he had all night and day to think about last night. I had to see him, tell him I was fine, tell him it didn't matter, tell him that I would put up with 'as bad as it gets' to be with him, tell him that I love him.

I needed to feel him closer; I needed his lips on mine like the night in the alleyway, desperate and wanting.

Alice was still sat there, nothing leaving her mouth. "Alice." I reminded her.

"He's gone." She whispered out so quiet I could barely hear her. But I still had to ask.

"What?" I asked, hoping I heard wrong.

"He's gone, Bella." She spoke loud and clear this time, no confusion in her words.

"Gone, gone where?" I asked in the hope that he was gone to the mall, gone to the library, gone somewhere I could go and see him, somewhere near me.

"He's left, he went this morning." She told me.

"Wait, what? When? And your only telling me now?" the tone was sharp but it wasn't as sharp as the knife she just plunged into my heart.

"He left, about four hours ago, he's gone and I don't know if he's coming back. It's all so uncertain." She said cryptically.

"What's uncertain? Did he say where he was going or not Alice?" I bit at her.

"His future, it's changing all the time, but yours isn't."

"What are you talking about Alice? Where is he?" I demanded. It took all my will to ask her and not break down and cry. How could he leave me already, we didn't even have a day, why bother coming back just to rip it rite back out of my hands again?

"He went to Alaska to live with friends in another coven. He can't face seeing you, he said to tell you he was sorry but he can't do it, that he's not strong enough."

Alice looked sad, you could see the pain in her face, her brother was gone and it was because of me. Why did our worlds have to be polls apart? I needed him back here; I needed to tell him how much I needed him. Before I knew it I was pulling onto Alice's purse, she stood there frozen, oblivious to what I was looking for.

"What is it Bella?"

"I need your phone, I need to call him, I need to speak to him. Is he alright?"

Her heavy hands prized apart my grip, "You need to let him be Bella, give him some time, I told you, you needed to wait for him to come to you."

"I thought you meant a few hours. How long will he be?" I asked in the hope of a couple of days at the most.

"He might not come back Bella, like I said he said that he was sorry. I think he was final in his words. I'm sorry." Her gentle tone did nothing for the impact her words had.

Before I knew it I was crying, tears streaming down my face and I was unable to stop.

She held me like a child, holding on tight letting me know she wasn't letting go as the tears kept coming out. "But I need him." I whispered out between sobs.

She nodded knowingly at me, "I know you do, you both need each other."

"Will you help me get him back?" I pleaded with her, struggling for the air in my lungs.

"I can't, he told me to keep an eye on you, make sure you are safe. I'm here for you but Edward can't come back, not until he decided too do it for himself."

What if he never comes back? What if he finds someone else? He won't want me then.

The questions, the scenarios, the pain, it was all getting too much for me to handle. I needed sleep again, I just didn't know if I wanted to wake up again.

"Alice I need to sleep." I told her, wanting her away, to let me cry the rest of my tears alone.

She nodded told me she would see me later and then she was gone.

I felt my lids droop, stinging from the tears, raw with rubbing. I just wanted to sleep and to dream of Edward again, like how I did to see his face with the look of joy and wonder, not the look of the beast.

My body relaxed, slipping into sleep when a knock on my bedroom door startled me.

"Dad?" I called out confused knowing he would be working.

"It's me Bella, Jake, can I come in?" the familiar voice of my best friend on the other side.

"Just a sec." I told him as I wiped at my face trying to hide the tears but I knew it would be obvious, it would be to Jake at least. "Ok, come in." I said adjusting myself against my headboard.

His warm smile shone as he came through my door, his long, almost black locks hanging down, he always looked nice like that.

"So your dad called and said you weren't feeling too great and told me to go check on you, he has to work late, something came up at work he said." Jake shrugged as he looked around my room. He was use to it, Charlie didn't mind Jake coming up to my room the odd time, he knew there was nothing going on, as much as he wished there was.

"I'm just feeling a bit off." I smiled up at him. His eyes searching mine, my body.

"You sure Bella? You don't look your normal self?" he shifted to sit on the edge on my bed beside me.

"That's because I'm not feeling well." I tried to smile and shrug at his words pretending that he didn't see through me.

"Come on, Bells, this is me." His crooked smile eased me, letting me know that I could say anything I needed but for some reason I couldn't tell him, I couldn't tell anyone. His large manly hands gripped mine, the heat of him radiating.

"I think, you're the one that's sick. Your hands are even warmer than usual." I looked at his t-shirt covered torso with the howling wind blowing outside as he just shrugged.

"Maybe you just need to be warmed up?" he raised an eye brow and the thought of his heat being more pleasurable than the cold electric touch of Edward was too much to take. Jake could never compare against Edward, I already knew that.

I smiled up at him and Nodded "Maybe I do." I slid across my bed allowing him to lie down beside me before he wrapped his arms around me. The warmth was the exact opposite of what I wanted, what I really needed but I took it. I needed my friend.

His fingers combed through my hair relaxing me as I pulled my face into his chest taking all the comfort I could.

"So you going to tell me?" he asked, knowing like he always does. I didn't want to tell him, what would I tell him?

"I don't want to." I whispered out into his chest, muffling the sound with the toned chest below the surface of the t-shirt.

"Do you think that's going to help anything." His eyes looked down to me, wanting me to tell him the truth. "If its Newton, like I said I will beat him up."

A small laugh came from me as I looked up at him, "Its nothing to do with him but the first problem I get from him I'll call you."

"Is it…is it another guy?" he asked. You could see the change in his eyes at the mention of someone else.

The flash of Edward trying to lunge forward at me haunted my mind again, I closed my eyes, hoping to stop the driving tears but it was no use. Jake knew not to press any further. He pulled me into him even closer and his warmth wrapped around me as the tears made there way out of my closed eyes.

"You know, he's not worth it. If he doesn't treat you right he doesn't deserve you." He whispered in my ear as the tears came spilling out with gusto as my body shivered from the pain my heart was feeling.

There was no more words as I let the tears continue and drifted back to sleep in Jacobs arms keeping me warm and close to him.

*****

The grasp of a cold hand snapped me back up as I felt a firm shake wake me up from my slumber, all I've done is sleep and I still feel drained.

"Wow, who's the midget?" I hear Jacobs voice call. Snapping my head up I see Alice look down on me with my arms wrapped up in Jacob as he wipes at his eyes. Obviously I wasn't the only one to fall asleep.

"Alice?" I call her name adjusting myself from Jakes grasp trying to focus on her.

"You know her?" Jacob butted in.

"Your dad let me in; I said I had some homework for you." Alice stood with her arms crossed sizing up Jacob. The scary thought was that she could take him on. "Who's this?" her voice pitched high with a look of disgust on her face.

"Alice, this isn't what it looks like." I pleaded for her to see what was going on, my friend comforting me.

She shook her head, "I'm sorry Bella, I should have known. I know you're upset."

"You know who did this to her?" Jacob asked looking at Alice surprised talking about the tears I cried into his chest for the good part of an hour.

"Yes, my brother did." She informed him. "How are you doing Bella?" her twinkling voice soothed me but the look of horror never washed off of Jakes face.

"Your brother." His voice rose higher. "Tell me where he is, I'm going to kick his ass." Jake suddenly jumped from the bed and was in Alice's face.

"Jake, calm down. You're not kicking anyone's ass. Besides he already left." I suddenly felt claustrophobic in my room with the two set of eyes on me.

"What did he do to you Bella? Did…did he hurt you, did he try anything…?" Jake asked.

"What do you take him for?" Alice shrieked "He would never try anything like that so do not start." She fired back at him, defending Edward.

"Keep your voices down or Charlie will be up any moment." I warned feeling confused with the two of them in my mind.

"Sorry but some guy leaves you in tears and then he just leaves town. Scum." Jacob spits the last work at Alice.

"Don't you speak about Edward like that." I cringe away at the mention of the name, my heart breaking that little bit more as Alice fights his corner.

"Oh Edward is it? Where the hell did you come from exactly, I have never even heard of you." Jake sized up Alice

"Jake." My head falls into my hands. The stress of them fighting is getting to me and I can't even try to stop it.

Ignoring my call he continues at Alice. "You can tell him to get back her and be a man and face me."

Alice walks up closer to him pointing his finger into his chest. "You think because your two foot taller than me you can push me about."

"Please guys stop." I ask but they dont even notice me.

"You're just a big ogre who quite frankly could do with a good shower, you stink." Alice chips in for good measure.

"Alice, stop." I call again.

"Sorry munchkin, you're the one that smells funny." His brow cocks up eyeing her up looking over her in distaste.

"Stop being children." I tell them as I step in between them.

Alice looks over me and then to Jacob. Her nose comes up to me, smelling me. What the hell has gotten into these two?

"You smell like him, you stink Bella." Alice tells me before taking a step back.

My face drops in shock at her words, who is she to tell me that. I look at Jacob wondering if I smell. I'm stuck between feeling like I'm a little kid having a fall out over a silly toy and that the adult in me is thinking that perhaps my missed shower had more impact that I realized.

"Ok stop, were not children-"

"Will people stop calling me that." Alice huffs.

Shaking my head. "None of you smell."

"He does.", "She does." I get at the same time.

"Oh really Alice, what does he smell like?" I ask her.

Her features look concentrated as she thinks of what he smells like then her eyes light up. "You smell like dog…"

"Ok Alice, get out, stop this." I demand and Jakes face turns into a smirk.

"No I know, what you are." Her face has changed and the honesty is striking in her eyes.

She reaches out for Jacob, her cold hand reaching out for his, as soon as the two connect Jake pulls back in shock at the coldness.

Alice stood there looking shocked. "You're boiling, I know what you are. You're a werewolf."

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