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Shiver
Chapter 4 Hesitation
It was said that he who hesitates is lost. It wasn't always true. It was sometimes. But not always. He felt like a stupid, confused little boy. He always had been, always would be, no need for denying it when it was nothing but the truth. And the truth hurt. It always did.
Sometimes you search for answers and when you find them, you aren't sure that you ever should have been searching.
It was an endless chain of murder and pain. This world. The world. This absolutely horrible world. Perhaps, it would be better off to be destroyed; but there were innocent people.
Because everyday of his life he stood there, not making any moves, hardly even breathing, simply gauging reactions and observing habits. Noting everything unusual.
That's what it meant to be truly powerful. Knowing you enemies and know how to fight your battles. But it also took skill; that was the greatest factor; if you have no skill, you can't win and that destroys the point of even trying in the first place.
Everything was so surreal when you stood still and did nothing. But sometimes nothing was a lot. But that was in rare, rare cases. Assuming, you knew what that meant.
It was his fault; for not completing his goal yet, for not saving his clan, for not avenging his clan. It was his entire fault.
It was always his fault. His fault for the breaking up of Team 7. His fault for destroying the heart of Sakura –the pink haired girl- and wrecking a friendship with Naruto –Kyuubi- and betraying Kakashi –Copy-cat Ninja- and for leaving his village.
Everything always seemed to come straight back in a circle and point straight at him as if he were standing in a crowd of people wearing black and holding a bright neon sign saying 'point at me'.
It was not easy being a genius –or they thought genius, possibly coward- and trying to live up to expectations –expectations that were way too high- that he would never match up to.
He was the tragic hero. The lone survivor. The Uchiha. But he was one thing. Sasuke Uchiha. But that was all.
Just Sasuke.
The normal boy.
But, it was all a lie.
He was not just Sasuke.
He was not a normal boy.
It was not true.
And it was said that he who hesitates is lost.
And deep down, Sasuke knew that he hesitated way too much.