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Shiver
Chapter 13 Waiting
"Everything you want is out there waiting for you to ask. Everything you want also wants you. But you have to take action to get it."
Sasuke Uchiha was aware of the fact that he was waiting. He was not aware of what it was that he was waiting for.
He wondered everyday, why he couldn't, -wouldn't- forget. He never knew what he was doing since he had learned the truth.
He had no idea what he was supposed to do. He was still waiting for something. He did know that when he figured out what it was he was waiting for; he would know immediately that was what he had been waiting for.
It was weird. Knowing that he waiting for something that was unknown. It actually made Sasuke feel nervous and he turned his neck from side to side in anxiety every time he thought about it.
He felt kind of awkward just standing there and wondering, not making any mentionable moves that would actually make a difference to anybody. He had thought about this often. He had always wondered what he would do after he killed Itachi all the time.
And after he had found out the truth, he had cried. He had cried for the first time since he had grieved after the death of his parents. They hadn't even gotten a funeral and it made him clench his fists knowing that someone like Itachi was not even getting a funeral and was not going to be missed by as many people as he should be. Life was so unfair.
He hated how his life was now. He had another goal –for revenge, surprise, surprise- to destroy the elders of Konoha but he couldn't do that yet. Which left him back at the start; he was still waiting for something that was still completely unknown to him. He hated mysteries.
It felt like his life was stopped or in super slow motion. It had lost its sense of reality, its intenseness. It felt so boring now, so dead. And Sasuke had no idea how to bring it back to life. He still had yet to figure what to do with his life. Other than his goals, of course. But yet again, he could not accomplish his goals yet.
If he could, he wouldn't be waiting. He would be out accomplishing his goals. And vaguely he knew that his life was nothing but a huge chain of hatred. And he was okay with that.
And some time later he realized that he could do something. He could do something about this stupor that his life had landed itself in.
Sasuke stood up and stretched his arms, feeling them crack satisfyingly.
Sasuke knew that his time of waiting was over.