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Shiver
Chapter 15 Shaking
"Cruelty and fear shake hands together."
Uchiha Sasuke was shaking. Well, more specifically, his hands were shaking.
They always shook. Every time he heard certain names, certain events. They shook. He didn't know why, he didn't know how, they just shook. They just shook.
He wasn't afraid……
He wasn't.
And he knows this. [or thinks he does]
They didn't simply just quiver lightly, they shook, violently. And he had no idea why. It had started a few years back. When he was eight years old actually. They started shaking. They just did.
It made people stare at him with concern written all over their faces and it made Sasuke clench his shaking hands and wish that they would just go away and leave him alone. It never worked though. They always stayed. Stayed and asked him if he was alright, stayed and asked him to get home, or, on a rare occasion, if he had a home.
That made him angry. Not angry at the person who asked him but anger at himself, anger at the person who caused it. But that had recently changed. He didn't get angry at the person who caused it, not anymore. But the people would still not leave him alone, no matter how much he told them to leave, that he was fine, that he would go home but he knew he wouldn't. He just told them so that they could get on with their own goddamn lives.
You think it could be simple. But no, apparently not. They had to know why they were shaking and how they were shaking.
It doesn't matter. [so he hopes]
But it does matter.
It does.
Things did matter. He knew certain things mattered but had no idea really how much damage a few things left untamed could do. Just give it a year or two, minute or two, week or two, day or two, month or two, and you find it warped, twisted into something that you had no idea could even possibly happen.
Things like that just made life seem so much scarier. It was the little things that tore down the great things.
Itachi had been great. Amazing. Strong. [Even the strongest will fall]
The Uchiha clan was powerful. [How the strong have fallen.]
And that made the world seem a lot more complicated. So complicated that Sasuke placed his hands behind his head and weaved them together through his dark hair. It was so stupid. He had heard rumors that he had become like Itachi.
He was not Itachi. [Itachi was too good to be Sasuke]
He was not.
But he was. [They were both the same]
That was the true reason he was shaking.