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After Harry had regained his breath he grabbed Sirius knife from his trunk and made his way to Sirius room he had decided that tonight was going to be the last night that he suffered from these dreams he was going to end it all. He got to Sirius room and closed the door and sat right in the center holding a picture of Sirius in one hand and Sirius knife in his other. As Harry started to cry he said to the picture

"I love you Sirius I'll be seeing you soon"

And with that said Harry took the knife and dug it into his wrist and then switched hands and was about to plunge it deep into the other hand when the door creaked open and there stood Remus.

The sight that met Remus was of Harry sitting on the floor with blood pouring from one of his wrists with a picture of Sirius and Sirius' knife in his hands.

Remus rushed forward took the knife from Harry's hand and cast some high level healing spells that being a werewolf he knew. They would not heal the wounds completely because they were self-inflicted but they would heal them enough that it would stop most of the bleeding. By this time Harry had passed out from the blood loss so Remus cleaned up the blood placed Harry on the bed placed the picture beside him and drew up a chair to wait.

Harry slowly woke up noticing he was in Sirius room not remembering how he got there. He noticed a pain at his wrists so he looked down and noticed the partially healed wounds and everything came back to him he remembered his dream about Sirius, coming into Sirius's room, and slashing his wrists.

"Shit" he swore "why am I still alive" then he remembered. He got up and off the bed in the hopes that he could get back to his room without alerting Remus that he was up. But then he noticed that Remus was in the room with him and he swore again and ran out of the room to his room locking the door behind him. Remus rushed after him and asked Harry to open his door but he refused. Remus sighed and said

"Harry you need to open the door"

"No" Harry said

Remus sighed again and pointed his wand at the door and said

"Alohmora" (sp?)

He entered the room and saw Harry facing away from the door.

"We need to talk Harry" Remus said

"No we don't" said Harry

"Yes we do" Remus said

"There is nothing to talk about" Harry said

"Harry I need to know why you did that"

"Why I did that!" Harry yells and turns around and as Remus saw his face he saw that Harry's eyes were filled with tears that he refused to let fall in front of him. "Why I did that" Harry repeated quietly. "I did it because I deserve the pain I can't handle everything anymore."

"Why did you not come talk to me I could have helped you" Remus said

"It's all my fault Harry continued as if he had not heard Remus which he probably had not because his eyes were unfocused as if looking at something that Remus could not see.

"What is your fault Harry" Remus asked though he had a pretty good idea what.

"It's my fault Sirius died and Cedric and my mom and dad" Harry said and then he fainted.

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