Disclaimer: If I were Regina

A/N: A few thoughts on what would happen if Edward left again based off of The Sword and the Pen by Regina Spektor.

What if? What if? What it?

What if he left again?

It was the perpetual question in her mind. It haunted her dreams.

What if indeed.

She stopped questioning and instead searched for the answer. As she was searching she heard the rumble of a motorcycle as it pulled into her driveway.

Jacob, she thought.

She hadn't factored him into the equation, but soon did so as one of her best friends took his own sweet time coming in from the rain.

I'd float. Jacob would never let me drown.

And she was right; Jacob would always come to the rescue where Bella was concerned. But Bella forgot that Jacob isn't his own man. Luckily Jacob hadn't.

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I wish. I wish. I wish.

The words were forever floating around his head to the point where wish didn't even seem like a real word anymore. Especially because his wishes never came true, but still, here he was outside Bella's house wishing that the bloodsuckers had never came back, or even better, that they had left again. Maybe then Bella would lose her love for the unnatural creatures. Then Bella would willingly come back into his arms. But what if…

It always loomed in the back of his mind even though all he saw, even when he closed his eyes, was Bella, there was always the doubt that maybe someday there would be a new girl to fill his line of sight, and where would that leave Bella?

Alone, and broken.

And Jacob hated the thought of breaking Bella.

The bloodsucker still should leave, Jacob thought, just in case the mind-reader was around.

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I don't care

He had to remind himself of that while listening in on Jacob('s thoughts) and Bella's interaction.

But he did care, immensely. Mainly because of what that puppy was thinking.

What if I did leave again? He thought, but it only took him a second to come to his conclusion.

I don't want to live without her.

He had already known that of course. (After all, the guy did nearly commit suicide for the fact that he couldn't exist without her.) But he just needed to check to make sure his need outweighed what he wanted for Bella.

I wish she could have a normal life with a husband and children. If only there was a way to give Bella real children, He thought.

Poor Edward, if only he knew he could have his cake and eat it too.