Sorry I haven't updated in a while, its' really bad of me: (

SORRY

I'm just having like writers block…my brain wants to die a tad.

BELLA POV

Jacob started trembling next to me, anger coursing through him. He's going to phase my brain pointed out the obvious, calm him down! I touched him arm closest to me and rubbed my hand up and down it, "Jake, come on, it's ok. It's ok. Calm down." The trembling slowed down a bit, but I could still see the anger in his eyes when I stop in front of him, "It's ok, we can go home or to the beach for the picnic, it doesn't matter." He looked at me and shook his head, as if to snap himself out of his trance.

He bent down to my height and touched his lips to mine softly. I grabbed him by the nape of his neck and brought him closer to me, I almost forgot Edward was in the meadow with us…until i wasn't kissing Jacob anymore, just air. I looked around, trying to locate him.

"You don't touch her!" Edward screamed at Jacob, obviously pissed Jake had kissed me.

"She's my fucking wife! I can do what I want with her!" Jake yelled back, shaking again at Edward outburst. Edward growled in response and sprinted at Jacob, missing him only slightly as he phased into a huge russet wolf.

They were in a stare off when I decided to intervene, "Stop! Stop right now!"

They both turned to look at me, clear realization sinking into their features. "Bella, it's ok, I'll take you back to Charlie's." Edward's velvety voice whispered in my ear suddenly, I struggled to stop my knee's buckling underneath me. I hadn't heard his voice in so long. "Charlie's dead Edward. I live with Jacob, were married. I'm pretty sure you would know that by now." I said, staring him down, but his smoldering topaz eyes bored into me and it didn't come out as angry as I'd hoped.

"I guessed it was just another rumor, it is a small town." He smiles, what I suppose was supposed to be sweetly, but just seemed creepy.

"Let's go Jake." I turned around and Jake was standing next to me, in all his glory, his clothes shredded from when he phased. Neither of them said anything as I grabbed jakes hand and dragged him out of the clearing and back to the car.

He drove in silence, staring at the road with complete anger; I was surprised he wasn't trembling.

JACOB POV

We got in the car and I sped off. I was so angry that he was running my day with Bella. I had imagined having a beautiful picnic as the sun went down…and possibly a little sundown sex…But no, Edward has, and probably always will. I bet he wants her back, he can't handle that she's actually happy without him.

"What are you thinking…?" Bella's voice rung into the silence, she sounded worried.

"About how your day was ruined by that blood sucking leech, he always has to ruin everything I have with you!" My voice got louder as a ranted about my anger.

"Hon calm down, he didn't ruin it, its fine. We can go to the beach or something." She tried to soothe me.

"Fine." I said, still quite angry at Edward, even though she said it didn't ruin it, I still think it did. She was probably protecting him…

The silence left me to think the most pessimistic thoughts. She loves him still, but she's married to me, it can't be true. She did it to make him jealous, she has my children. She's going to leave you for him; she has too much with me to do that. She can just drop everything for him, she doesn't love you, the children were an accident and the marriage was to make Edward want her again. My brain battled out these thoughts as I drove to the beach on the reservation.

"Are you ok?" Bella broke the silence again.

"Do you love him still?" I blurted out.

"Stop the car." I looked at her incredulously, but skidded to a halt.

She got out of the car and walked in the direction of the house, I drove up to her side, "What are you doing?"

"Walking home."

"I can drive you…"

"No."

"Bells don't do this."

"Do what? At least I don't think my husband loves someone else, even though I've been married to him for years." She is right.

"I'm sorry, please just get back in the car…we can talk at home?" I pleaded with her.

"Fine." She answered sternly as I halted next to her and she got in, slamming the door harder than it needed to be.

BELLAPOV

I can't believe he thought I still loved Edward Cullen. After sixteen years of being married, I thought I had convinced him , the fact that he still thought I loved someone else made me furious, made me feel like he doesn't trust me. We have 2 kids and he thinks I love another man, does he think im a user? A player? Thinking about the subject made me even angrier, this was going to turn into a fight when we got home, I just knew it.

He drove the car faster than he was before, he was still naked. I can't believe we thought about going to a public beach with him being naked… He pulled up our driveway and I got out of the car fast, and walked up to the front door.

"Bella wait, we need to talk about this." Jacob pleaded after me.

"Im having a shower to relax and think about it, then I will come downstairs." I said with finality and went inside and up the stairs to the bathroom to have a shower.

I slid off my clothes when the door was locked, so he wouldn't come in. I stepped in the shower and let the hard blasts of water calm my tensing muscles. I turned my back from side to side; the blasts were like a massage, very relaxing. I reached up to the shelf and grabbed my rose scented shampoo; I'd stopped using my strawberry one after Edward left. Once I squirted the thick pink goo onto my hand I rubbed it into my hair, letting the shower fill with the calming scent of roses.

Once the suds had washed out of my hair and I had conditioned it so it was smooth and silky, I wrapped myself in a big fluffy towel and walked into my room slowly, encase he was in there. He was of course.

"Bella…Im sorry, I am. I was angry…I wasn't thinking straight." He whispered to me, while looking at the floor in shame.

"Jake…you hurt me, made me feel like you thought I was a player or a whore…of course I love you!" I tried to whisper back at him, but it came back a tad louder.

"I love you" He said as he walked towards me to hold me.

"Me too…unless you do that again, I might have to rethink it." I laughed.

I stood up on my tip toes and kissed him long and hard, he licked my lips, begging for entrance. I opened my mouth for him, our tongues battling for dominance. I pushed him back and him knee's hit the end of the bed, this caused him to fall on his back in front of me. I let my towel drop to the floor and he moved up the bed, until his head was on the pillow. I moved up him and straddled him; he was trying to get the jeans he had chucked on when we got home off now. I unzipped them and his erection sprung free of its prison.

I bent my head down and took him in my mouth, bobbing up and down on him and grazing him with my teeth occasionally, this gained me many appreciative groans and moans.

"Bella…..ungh… i…cum…mmmm" He managed to whisper out to me, I pulled myself up and sat up straight.

"What…what…?" Jacob asked confused.

"Punishment, you weren't getting off that easily." I smiled mischievously and walked into the cupboard to put some clothes on.

I heard the door open and close, "Mum, we're home!" Emma yelled up at us.

As I walked out to exit the bedroom Jacob peeked in from the bathroom "I'll see you at dinner…I'm….going to have a shower, seeing as you didn't finish what you started." He closed the door and I heard the shower start to run. I left the room giggling.

EDWARDPOV

She's here, with the mutt. Bella's here. I haven't seen her in…too long. She was beautiful. She and Jacob stormed off after our confrontation. Jacob was…naked… that is something I did not need to see. She had children…she could never have children with me…well I got what I wanted, she's happy with someone with a soul, she has children and she's going to grow old and grey with the love of her life…

I turned around and sat down in my previous spot…the spot where I and Bella first came to the meadow and lay together… I closed my eyes and wished that I hadn't been selfish and thought I could get along fine without her in my life… I miss her…I want her back…I have to try. I will not give up on her.

I wasn't really happy with this chapter…but it is longer than most of them… so it's a treat for me being mean and not updating.

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