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CHAPTER ELEVEN

~Home~

Three weeks later

"Hey, Katie - wake up," I heard a voice whisper next to me.

"No!" I moaned and turned around in the bed, hoping that the person would go away and leave me alone.

Cold hands swept around me and picked me up. "Do you want me to carry you down for breakfast?" the person chuckled.

I thought about it. With a giggle I murmured; "Yes." I would eat and then go back to sleep again.

I got carried downstairs, and yet it felt like I was still lying in the bed. When I opened my eyes, I saw Jasper's face and giggled. "What are you doing?"

"Giving you something to eat so you won't pass out in school."

"School?" I cried out and was at once awake, trying to convince myself that he had said something else. I pulled away, and he sat me down on the floor.

"Oops, didn't tell you that yesterday?" he shook his head, starting over. "Well... it was Carlisle's idea really. We think it's best you finish school."

"I still have to finish school?! Get tortured for another year and then start college?! Even after all I've been through?!" I groaned and shook my head.

"It can't be that bad," Jasper insisted.

"It. Is. Bad." I hissed. "Horrible, actually. It is school. As in; homework, tests, more homework. And I haven't lived for like two hundred years so I don't know anything! And it must be in the middle of the semester by now! How am I supposed to catch up?"

"I'll be there," Jasper confessed in a light tone. "I'll help you with that stuff!"

"The only things you can do to help me in school is to do my homework and my tests or bribe the teacher - take a pick... well, you could always hack yourself into the school's system and change my grades so I would get like, A+"

He laughed. "I'm sure you are not completely brain dead."

In response, I stared at him. Maybe I was not totally brain dead but there was no way for me to impress him with my grades. I could maybe surprise or shock him with my awful grades...

He turned around and went into the kitchen. "You want coffee?"

"Warm chocolate, please." I murmured following him - I decided that I would not let this ruin my good mood.

"For breakfast?

I giggled. "I think I saw some ice-cream in the fridge."

I thought he would have paused and stared at me for mentioning ice-cream as breakfast, but then remembered; he didn't usually eat breakfast, so he pulled out the ice-cream and put some in a bowl.

"Thanks." I said, hiding my huge grin as he passed me the bowl and the cup, and giggled once again. Living here wasn't good for my health.

I sat down at the table and Jasper sat down next to me. "You are quite weird in the morning," he chuckled.

"I know." I sighted, it was seven o'clock on the morning. No wonder I was weird.

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I insisted on being difficult so through the whole way to school, I said nothing. I even tried not breathing - that concerned him - but stopped as I understood that he wouldn't turn the car around and drive back.

We got to borrow Alice porche and therefore when we drove in on the school's property, we were in center. We jumped out of it and Jasper turned to me. "Wait here, and I'll just go and get our schedule."

"Okay," I mumbled and looked at him. "Can I have the keys?" I tried, with the keys I could drive home... Home. I had thought of it as home. Was it really my home now? I suddenly realized that I had not given dad a thought since maybe two weeks time. Was it my home? Were they my new family?

"Katie!" Jasper said accusingly.

"... sure, sure. Go." I sighted and tried to ignore the people staring.

For a fraction of time he looked worried and gave me a hug - in front of everybody! - "Are you okey?" he asked.

"I guess I am," I mumbled into his shirt, tempted to say that I felt ill. But it would not be nice - he would probably freak out and not let me out for a year. He had been cool these weeks and actually let me go anywhere I'd like. It was nice, mostly I had not gone anywhere. We had been at the cinema once, looking at some weird movie. I think it had been a horror movie but it hadn't frightened me at all. It had actually bored me and my thoughts had wandered away to my siblings.

"You're sure? Because you look a little pale."

"It's first day in school..." I nervously and took a deep breath. "I'll handle it."

He turned around slowly, he's eyes not leaving mine until he had turned completely. Then he walked in human phase down the stone path.

I leaned at Alice Porsche very lightly, not doing any marks. I looked around at the people around me. A guy in my age caught my eye. "Hi," he said and nodded once to me. "Nice ride," he said as he walked closer.

I shook my head. "It's not mine."

"You're the new girl, aren't you?"

"Yes," I confirmed. True, very true. I had not gone in school on surely five months. Half a year maybe. -- I wondered when they had talked about this. When they had decided that I would continue and gotten in contact with the school.

"I'm Jeremy - you're... Kate?"

"Katie," I corrected him.

"Ah, I should have rembered; our principle like had this big speech about you. Almost thirty minutes. We missed class a lot. It was great."

Fear. Panic. More fear. "Thirty minutes?! Speech?! About me?!" I cried out, my eyes growing big.

"Well, don't be surprised. There are never new students here... never. Everybody here, has known each other since first grade at least." He told me.

"I am going to die!" I whispered.

He flashed me a smile and I noticed his teeth was perfectly white. Though Jasper's teeth was still moreperfect! "Sooo... you've just moved here?"

I guess so... "I came here for like a month ago," I told him. "School... well it hasn't been an option until now."

"You like it here in Forks?"

"Yes... yes I do." I said, meaning every word - as long as my friends was here, I would always like Forks.

He grinned. "You like the rain?"

I smiled back to him. "Yepp, actually I do like the rain - very... calming."

"Not many can say the same," he said and laughed. "I think I have to go to class, but I'll see you later? At lunch maybe?"

"Sure," I mumbled and he waved at me once and then turned around, starting to walk.

"I think I'll crush his scull!" I heard Jasper growl behind me. "I- I want to..." he stopped in the middle of the sentence.

"Jasper, take a deep bre- no, don't do that. You should stop breathing," I said quickly, turning around suddenly remembering he was a vampire.

"He..." he gave me a look a strange look and then turned to Jeremy again. "If only you could understand."

"What?"

"You should have felt the feelings he had towards you... I think I'll..." he stopped himself and made a face, showing that he was clearly disgusted by the boy.

"Then make me understand. Tell me." I begged - knowing at once how it had been for him when I didn't tell him about my dream.

He looked away from Jeremy and looked me in the eye's. "You don't want to know." He muttered and I sighted.

"Mood swings," I muttered.

He shook his head and hissed; "This has nothing to do with my mood swings. It has to do with the fact that he's an idiot with... horrible and gross feelings!"

I understood that it was time to let it go, so I didn't ask about it again and I felt relief as he calmed down. Jasper seemed to have gotten different classes than me and wanted to change but it seemed like you could not change classes until lunch time so Jasper asked me if I wanted to ditch class - which I naturally wanted, but knew it would not give my teachers a great first impression.

"But, Jasper, it's the first day!" I said and he stared at me.

He gave me a strange look and then started laughing. "I thought you didn't want to go to school - have you suddenly changed your mind? What do you like with this boring building? Wait, maybe you've seen a boy you think is handsome... but please don't tell me it's that Jeremy guy." He teased, though at Jeremy's name his voice grew stiff.

"Jasper!!! Please, I only want my teachers to think I'm normal. If I'm going to get F I want them to see that I try, at least!"

"No guy?" he teased once more.

I rolled my eyes. "For being like two hundred years, you are very childish!"

"I'm not two hundred years, I have only been in this world in one hundred and sixty-three years."

"Only? I'm only eighteen," I snorted. "Let's go inside."

He seemed to have trouble leaving me in class, though he left as I wondered what could happen in a classroom; even though I saw in his eyes that he could think of lots of things happening in a classroom. But then he finally left me to meet my nightmare -- History.

And it got worse. Mrs. Wood wanted me to present myself for the class.

It was more of a - Blush "Hi." Quiet. Staring. Quiet. "I'm... Katie." Blush even deeper. Quiet. Staring. Quiet. Staring. Quiet.

"Thank you Miss. Brown, you can sit down now." I heard Mrs. Wood say.

But where? Every chair was taken. Then I saw that little place, between a little girl with brown long hair and a boy with black short hair. "Um... hello, is this place taken?" I whispered as I had struggledtrough the room. The little girl shook her hair quickly, her eyes growing big as if I had done something illegal. "Thanks." I said as I sat down and put my things in order.

Mrs. Wood started talking about "history" though, to be honest, I didn't listen. I was too busy ignoring everyones stare. Being "the new girl" was worse than I thought it would be.

The lesson quickly finished and as soon as I walked out of the classroom, everybody surrounded me. "Hey, Katie!" "New girl, what are you doing later?" "I'm Jennifer, want to hang out?"

Suddenly someone pulled me out of the crowd and I hugged Jasper as I saw his face. "Thank you, you're seriously my hero!" I murmured.

"Yes, because they are soo dangerous!"

I giggled. "They could have eaten me alive."

"That's not funny." He said, though I saw in his eyes that he was holding back a smile. "You are probably safer in that crowd, than with me."

"I think not!" I said and pulled away, grinning.

His grip around my arm grew harder and he pulled me closer. "Katie," he hissed, coldly. "I can kill you any second... every time your skin touches mine I think of killing you. But the worst part is that sometimes it feels like you want to die. Like you are pushing the line because you want it to break."

"Let. Me. Go." I hissed back and he did. As fast as I could I ran into the bathroom, splashing water in my face. I don't want to die! I don't want to die! But what do I want? Fuck how wrong this was. I watched my face in the mirror and saw Bella's beautiful face in front of me. Suddenly I realized how ugly I really was. Well I was ugly compared to them. Even though I knew vampires were beautiful to "hipnotize" their pray. How could I even be seen with Jasper here? Ok, the good thing would be, if they though that he was my boyfriend and would be like "Oh my god, she's cool. She's dating gorgeous, talented and smart Jasper Cullen!" Though it would be kind of embarrassing to ebarrassing to stand next to him. It would be like the beauty and the beast.

True, so true.

"You're ok?" I turned around and faced a blond girl. Cute, sure. But compared to the Cullens - she was nothing. And if she was nothing, what do you think I am?

"I'm fine... just," I made a face. "I really don't fit in anywhere here... I'm, you surely know... Katie."

She smiled to me, her face full with sympathy. "Yes. I know. I'm Claire."

There was an awkward moment when we were both quiet. "So... you're living with The Cullens, huh? Cool."

I nodded. "Yes... cool."

"Are... you and Jasper -" she smiled to me and giggled, I fought to keep my face blank. "-together?"

"Nope, it's nothing like that."

"Well, didn't he jump back in school for you?"

"Huh?"

"Yes, he went here before - when my sister was still here. Anyway, they said that he jumped back in school because he stopped paying attention to school and instead started with girls and stuff. Though none of the Cullens has ever had a grade less than A+ so I don't think he's bad in school. But maybe you are the "girls" with no grades involved, and he just wanted to go in the same class as you!"

"Jasper? Here before?" I asked, not even bothering to cover my shock.

"Yes, two years ago." She said. "You didn't know? When did you come here, really?"

"Like a month ago, I'm not really sure - I'm not counting," I told her. "Though we have grown quite a fond of each other, or it can be just me."

"So, to the most basic question a person can ask a new person. Do you like it here?" she asked and laughed.

"Yes, it's pretty nice here." I said and joined her. It felt soo good to laugh.

The bell ringed. "Maybe we should get to class?" I asked. Maybe I should apologize to Jasper? For just storming away. He was really not the only one with mood swings. We were very... similar, you may say.

"Sure," she mumbled and shrugged. "What do you have?"

I looked at my schedule. "I have... English."

"Oh, I have math," she looked sad for a moment but then flashed me another white teethed smile. "See you later? Right. At lunch."

"Yes," I said with a big smile.

As soon as I left the girl's bathroom, I saw Jasper standing at the other side of the room, leaning on the wall. I sighted, but went up to him. "Sorry -" I mumbled quietly.

"- mood swings," both of us said in a choire and we burst into laughter.

"I'm really sorry, I shouldn't have... I don't know, ran away like that," I apologized.

"You have the right to. I won't stop you from running away for me, every moment I'm prepared for it... well not prepared, though." He said, his voice dark. "I think that you will in every second we're togehter. Maybe it's because of what Edward told me, when he was with Bella... all he could think of was - now she will start screaming and run away - or - after this she will surely leave me, I am what I am and she will never accept it - But after a while, he understood that she would not." He put his hand on my chin, took a deep breath and closed his eyes. As he opened them, they were black. He turned his head around, not looking at me.

"Jasper?" I murmured and was going to place my hand on his shoulder. "How are you feeling?" I guess I already knew what was going on. He was hungry - fighting the temptation to kill me and eat me here in school, probably trying to think of all those people and what horror they would go through when they find me emptied, cold with no blood inside of me. Somehow I didn't care, it didn't matter - all that mattered was Jasper and I, together.

"Don't" he shot back, and flinched away by my touch. "I'm not safe right now, I've taken this too far - I should go home, I can call Edward to pick you up... or maybe Bella, any of them are safer than I am safer than I'll ever be!"

"You'll stay!" I quickly decided. "Jasper, you won't kill me. I know you won't. Just believe in yourself."

He sighted and his shoulder started to shake. "I... I can't do anything. I am useless. A monster," he sobbed. I just felt so helpless standing next to him, I wanted to make him stop crying, make him happy.

"I though vampire's couldn't cry," I said - trying to make him think of something else.

He glanced at me swiftly. "We can cry, of course, though without the tears," he told me. He flashed me a quick smile and if I had not been able to see his eyes, I would have thought he was okay. Though his eyes were somewhere between black and gold. Shiny brown, full with sadness.

"Why do you care about me?" I asked him. "Why? I am nothing special. I'm just a normal girl... What could I possibly do for you?"

He took my hand. "You don't understand, do you? You are my friend, you make me happy. I never thought it was possible for me to have a human friend, but you have proved me wrong. You are so strong, so good, so true! That you even want to be my friend... it means more to me than I can explain. Leaving you... well, it's not an option anymore. I need you, just as much as you need air." He was stealing my sentence- I was the one needing him as much as I need air.

"Thank you," I whispered took his hand. I could not look at him because of the tears in my eyes. "Well, I suppose we can go through this together with our... mood swings."

"Yes," he laughed .

"Jasper," I said, suddenly remembering my conversation with Claire. "You haven't told me that you've gone in this school before," I said but he kept his face blank. "Ok Jasper, how will you get people that you haven't changed since you first came here. Like five years ago!"

"Katie, when we went here. Me and my family... nobody really saw us except for Bella. We were just there, beautiful and scary. People stayed away from us." He said and let his hand lightly brush over my cheek.

I was quiet, staring into his eyes and suddenly got impulse to kiss him. I was happy he could not

"Shall we go to class?" he asked me, his voice lighter.

I sighted, but nodded. "I hate school - life is so unfair, and cruel!"

"I know, I know," he mumbled, his eyes now in a pure topaz color. His hand took mine and he pulled me away to my classroom. Yes, if somebody would know, he would.

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"How was first day in school?" Esme asked me.

"Let's just say, I'm going to kill Carlisle as soon as I see him - screw him being the leader in this coven, and screw him being good - somehow I'm going to kill him. How can you get such an cruel idea if you are not fully evil. I'll tell you, maybe I'm not strong, but when I've decided to do something, I do it!"

"Sweetheart, what happened?" Esme asked ignoring my 'killing Carlisle' part, handing me a plate with some pancakes. She knew well, I was hungry.

"Boring, lonely, embarrassing... and yes, boring, lonely and embarrassing," I said as I sat down and started eating.

"But Jasper was with you," Rosalie said. She seemed to have changed her mind about me. She was quite nice to me now actually.

"Not when we had class, he wasn't. We got different schedules and you couldn't change classes until lunch, and when it finally was lunch - they couldn't change immediately because they needed his guardians signature, Jasper tried to make them understand that you, would not say no - but there seemed to be no way out of it..." I snorted, making a face.

"It's fine, Katie. Tomorrow, everything will be right. And remember, it's school - it is supposed to be boring. But you will at least have Jasper with you," Rosalie comforted me. "And it's not long until graduation!"

"Just because you're a vampire - you all see time so differently. I'm serious, it's like half a year until graduation! It's nothing important anyway - after that, it's college! I will never finish school, they will kick me out because of my grades, the weird part; I would be happy if they did."

"Yes, we see time differently. Yet it goes so much faster for you humans, you sleep the time away!" she snorted. "And it's less than half a year until graduation, it's four months and twenty-eight days."

I stared at her, my eyes growing big. "Okay, that's creepy!"

Jacob stumbled into the room, looking like he was about to cry. "Hey, I know I said that I would have Nessie later... but I can't. Well, I have to take my sisters shopping, you see - dad don't trust them enough to leave them in the city with his credit card, I don't blame him, so he is sending me with them as a spy." He sounded the world was going under.

"Get a hold of yourself," Rosalie hissed as she disappeared out of the room. They didn't like each other, Jasper told me that they never had.

"Hey, Jacob - I can go with your sisters if you'd like!" I said quickly. Shopping without Alice - what a pleasure. Not that I didn't like it in one way; I mean, all those clothes afterwards. But it just hurt in your feet after walking around in dressing rooms for what seemed to be like a forever. "Then you can stay here, with Renesmee. It's okay, I will look after them. I won't let them buy anything too expensive, and I won't let them buy too much stuff."

Jacob was over at once. Hugging me I think, though it felt more like he was trying to crush me. "Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! You're the best, Katie!"

"Jacob. I. Can't. Breathe!" I managed to whisper.

At once Jasper was in the room rescuing me, pushing Jacob away. Jacob was too happy to care about revenge. "You're sure? Really, you would do that for me? You have no idea how great that would be!"

Jasper looked like he was about to say no, but sighted and gave in. "I guess you can... but you'll have to call me every ten minutes. I don't like you running around in a big city without any protection."

"Jasper..." I warned, noticing a box in his hand.

"It's carrying this with you, or not going." Jasper said strictly - and stupid as he was, he threw me the box.

I was about to miss it, but threw myself after it in the air, trying to catch it so it would not break - I did catch it. Fortunately, Jasper and Esme caught me. "Katie, why did you do that? It's a phone!" Jasper said shortly, though I could see that he was about to laugh. I must have looked very stupid.

I ignored Jasper and looked at my phone. A quite small model, in a light blue color. I wanted to protest taking it, but could not. It was perfect, just for me. "Jasper, I love you! You seriously shouldn't have done this! It's beautiful!" I said and hugged him.

He caughed so I would understand that it was time for me to step away, if I didn't want to become a happy meal - he hadn't been away hunting on a while. "I thought you would like it!" he said and smiled. "See, I can actually find things for you. Don't be so nervous. You will have to take it with you everywhere. Or I'll get worried."

"Like I will ever be able to put it away!" I said, once again having my big eyes on it.

"My phone number is the first one," Jasper told me.

I laughed. "This is unbelieveble. It must have cost a fortune."

"Can't you ever stop worry about money? Oh yes, I'll give you some so you can shop a little too," Jasper said and pulled his wallet up.

"No - Jasper no! Not after this phone!" I cried out, but I was already holding a credit card in my hand.

"Well I don't have to worry about sending my credit card with you - you'll hardly shop anything. Please, Katie, buy something you like. You deserve it."

I had more than I deserved. This phone, these friends. Them letting me live here. And Jasper - the person I would never deserve in the way I wanted him, I didn't even deserve him now as my best friend.

I hope you like this chapter. I think it was quite funny, though it was a little hard to write (as you know I haven't updated on a while). But now after, it's quite funny to read.

I'm sooo sorry that I haven't been writing on some time. It has been hard in school and... well I have been very tired. Sick for days. I actually almost fainted while I was riding my bike to school last week... well, so I'm sorry.

My sisters necklace arrived Thursday -- it's really cute, Jasper stone! She's going to love it! Plus, my parents left this Friday to "Africa" somewhere. They needed some time, just them. So now it's just me, my brother and my sister here at home. It's pretty cool.

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