JPOV
I was thinking, "I can take her to the beach and tell her how I feel." Edward nodded his head at me, and I knew this was my chance. "Hey Nessie, you wanna go to the beach with me today?" She had the biggest smile on her face as she said " I would love that Jake", and she took off running up the stairs. We were in my Rabbit on the way to First Beach. Nessie loved to play here as she was growing up and I thought this would be the best place to tell her how I feel. Hopefully she will agree and we can begin our relationship as a couple. My stomach was in knots. I don't know if I could take the rejection. We made it to First Beach and I got out of the car and went to open the door for her. I grabbed her hand to help her out of the car. We always hold hands, but to hold her hand was something new today. We walked over and placed a blanket down for us to sit on. We both sat there for a minute without saying a word. "Okay Jake don't chicken out! You can do this!" I still had her hand in mine and I was slowly rubbing it with my thumb. I lifted it up and placed a kiss on her hand. " Nessie we need to talk. For the past few months there is something I have been meaning to tell you but I haven't had the nerve to tell you. I am just so afraid that you would not want to be my friend after what I need to say." I could hear a slight intake of breath from her. I looked up into her eyes and she was crying. She said "No Jake I don't want to hear it," dropped my hand and started running down the beach. I sat there for a moment stunned "Way to go Jake. God I am such an Ass! She thinks I don't want to be around her anymore." I ran to catch up with her. I grabbed her hand and spun her around. I reached up and wiped the tears escaping from her eyes. She looked up at me and said " Jacob, you can't leave. Please don't go away." I made a low growl. I was more frustrated with myself, but I could not believe that she thought I would leave her. "Renesmee Cullen I am not going anywhere, just dry your eyes and let me say what needs to be said."
"Okay," she whimpered and we walked back to our blanket. I took a deep breath and sighed. "Here is my chance. Why am I so scared? I know she feels the same way. Edward told me. I have to hear it for myself." " Renesmee, for some time now I have been thinking about our friendship. I have to tell you that when I think about you, I see more than just a friend. I want more. Renesmee Carlie Cullen I love you. I have always loved you, and I will continue to love you for the rest of my existence. I know you may not feel the same, but I couldn't go another day without you knowing how I truly feel for you.
I looked into her beautiful brown eyes and another tear fell. "Nessie sweetie, it is okay if you do not feel the same way, but please say something." She was quiet for a moment and without hesitation she reached over and placed her cool lips on mine. It was like an electrical surge pulsing through my body. "Nessie is kissing me!" It was a very sweet kiss. She looked up and smiled and went right back to her lips. I used my tongue to gain access to her mouth, I had not had enough. This time the kiss was fierce, like she needed it and I wanted her lips on mine. She moved her hands into my hair, and I pressed her closer to me. We both came up gasping for air. She placed one more sweet kiss on my lips and said, "Jacob if you only knew how long I have wanted to hear those words. Jacob I love you too, and I never want us to be apart."
Nessie closed her eyes and placed her hand on my cheek. She was showing me her dream. We were on an island and we were making love. This image gave me so much joy. She continued to kiss me while showing me her dream. We were exploring each others bodies, each touch, every sound, it felt so real. When she removed her hand we were both lying on the blanket. I continued to kiss her, down her jaw to her neck."Does she even know how she is turning me on?" I kissed down a little further into her cleavage and then it hit me. I am not ready for this. We just told each other how much we loved one another, but I am not ready to take it further. I pulled her away from me."Nessie we have to stop." Why Jacob? I need you." Sweetheart, I love you, and I want this as much as you do, but I am going to respect you. I would love to just take it slow if that is okay." She sighed a little but with a smile she said . I know that is the right thing to do. As long as I am with you Jacob Black, I don't care."