Previously….

I was in a daze of thoughts when Nick said, "Miley?"

I turned only to see his face inching closer too mine, his lips aimed for my own. I might be a spy but one thing I was never taught was how to act when a guy looks like he's about to kiss you.

If I would of waited a tenth of a second longer it would have been to late but my brain started working normally just in time. His lips were so close to mine that my breath hitched, the world slowed down just for us it seemed. I've been all over the world and in every different setting there is but right now, here, I don't think I've ever felt so out of my element.

I was going to let it happen, I was going to let this boy that I just met do this to me but then the words of Agent Keller brought my mind to a screeching halt. I must warn you don't be come any closer then friends, Liz, you are our best agent and we would hate to loose you and the most frightening, Do you know what you have two strikes left before you're off this case for good!

I snapped my head to the side and all I could say was, "no, no, no," I sounded like a broken record and Nick's face was the epitome of sadness, hurt, and confusion. But I just kept shaking my head side to side and repeating the single word, one meaning, "no"

I took a small step to my right to adjust my body so I wasn't so close with Nick. My heart honestly might of broken when he said, "Miley, what's wrong I thought you wanted this too" but I was a spy and things like that would only ever scratch the surface of my warm blood surrounded heart.

I was still confused and fuzzy about what just happened and the fact that I saw my whole job as a spy and my life, which were basically the same thing flash before my eyes had me on the edge. All I could muster, as a response was a week heartbroken sounded, "I can't do this" I moved farther to the right and took a step but felt a strong arm restrain me, nick's arm.

"Miley," but I didn't let him continue, he already got into my head and I wasn't raising it getting any worse.

I pulled my arm away, it happened a little bit harsher then I intended but I had no time to contemplate that so I took a-hold of my taken arm and let out a quiet muffled "sorry," then I proceeded to move to the boards that allowed our entrance on to the roof away from there resting spot placing them out of there element like I just was, and I didn't look back. Not as I climbed down the slot, not when my feet with the ground, I couldn't look back. I refused.

I walked straight into my room, shut the door and lied on my bed trying to figure out the nights past events. I almost ruined my self. I almost let a guy ruin me. And I couldn't help but think that I ruined him.

I heard steps a little while after I reached my door. Nick was back inside and making his way over to his room. I noted that his steps sounded slow, unrushed, like he was thinking the same things I was. I normally would of just read him but I felt like it would be too wrong. Sure I was used to doing all of the wrong illegal things for all of the right reasons but the one thing they don't tell you in movies is the fact that spies aren't just the people who are under-cover, doing back flips, and defusing nuclear weapons. Spies were also the world best liars. To be a spy you had to be able to lie threw your teeth and be completely ok with it. But there was something about this moment, this situation that told me that the right thing was to work this mater out being a 16 year old girl, not one of the worlds top spies. This, this was a mater of the heart and not a mater of anything else.

I fell asleep last night lying on my back watching the ceiling. I was exhausted when my alarm clock decided that it was time to scream in my ear. I dredged this day, the awkwardness, the avoiding, and the protecting. I decided that I was going to do my very best with trying to push last night out of my head, I needed to concentrate. This was my job. My life. And these were the people I was assigned to, they were in danger and it needed to be focused on them not my non-existent love life.

I trotted downstairs with a fake good mood plastered on and a big smile to match. I could fool anyone, but as I said that's what life as a spy was like, constant danger and lying.

I approached the kitchen and the voices of the three Gray sons filled my ears. I could hear Frankie snoring upstairs so that was one question that I wouldn't have to ask. I walked threw the threshold that separated the kitchen from the living room and sneezed to make my presence known. The sneeze was fake but it was convincing and it worked. Suddenly three light brown eyes met my own blue ones. And three talking mouths shut.

I gave a smile (fake) and said, "good morning guys,"

"Umm…good morning Miley," Kevin was obviously confused as to why I seemed happy, seemed normal.

"What were you talking about?" I asked

"Nothing, nothing at all" Joe answered me before I could finish asking my question.

"Umm ok?" I said and a question more then a statement, I needed to figure out this, so I did what any 16 year old would do, read minds.

Kevin was by far the easiest to read, like a book that turned the page for you I was able to figure out Kevin's thoughts. (A/N: italics are the thoughts that she is reading) wait shouldn't she be sad, angry, I don't know at least showing some emotion that signifies the fact that my little brother almost kissed her last night!!! Gosh I wish I understood her more, I'm so confused

I felt somewhat bad about reading what Kevin thought. Did I really have an effect like that on this family? I don't even know anymore.

Then I read Joe's thoughts, he was a bit harder then Kevin because of his jumpy thought process. One second he's be contemplating life and the next he'd be thinking about Barney. But any way I read his thoughts, wow is she just going to pretend that everything that Nick just told Kevin and I didn't happen? I guess it makes sense if I was he but well I don't know.

Wow Joe is defiantly smarter then I gave him credit for, it sounded like he got me, and he got the reasons why I was ignoring last night. At least now I know what their conversation was about.

I restrained myself from reading Nick's thoughts because, well he made me feel, and that scared me. He made me want to let people in, but that was absurd, I was a spy, I'd live my whole life as a spy, and I die a spy as well. I didn't need a guy in that picture.

The day moved on incredibly slow, class after class, my only thoughts were consumed of things that had to do with Nick. Each lock of his hair, each trait he possessed was burned into my mind. I'd never get rid of them, but the part that scared me was that, I didn't want to get rid of them.

At lunch I was planning on sitting by myself but of course that didn't work out. After I bought my lunch I found a pair of waving hands belonging to Lily, Nick's friend from the other day.

I may be a spy but one thing I'm not is intentionally rude. So I had no choice but to walk over the table of Nick and am friends, Lily, Oliver, Cody, Demi, and Alex. Joe was they're too of course but my focused was aimed at any one but the Grays.

"Hey Guys," I said as I approached the table.

"Hey Mi" they all said something of that sort.

"Are you ok after yesterday with Amber?" Lily asked

"Yeah" was not all I said, I could of added more but I didn't want to nor did I have to, so I didn't.

Lily just nodded her head and the rest of the table, not including any one with the last name Gray went on talking. I only said something when someone asked me a question, otherwise I was pretty quiet.

Lunch was over and I threw away the trash form my tray and dropped off the red try in the cart. I walked next to Demi as we all made our way back to the main school to get ready for class, then something happened that I honestly say I didn't see coming.

The sirens rang threw my ears and the words LOCKDOWN flashed threw my head. The school was on lock down, and something was not right.

A/N: ok I cant put into words how sorry I am. I feel like a huge jerk for not posting all week. I had a major French test and then today I had a HUGE Science test. I've also had essays due threw out the week so things have been crazy. right now I'm on the plane going to visit my grandparents and I've spent almost 3 hours writing this chapter. I covered so much and had so much emotion in it. so what do you think about it? also the Grammys, how do you think everyone did, I think Miley and Taylor were amazing! also Blink 182 is getting back together!!! yay!!!!!