This chapter needs a mature rating. So just a warning. Its also very long. Instead of splitting them up I just felt nice lol Enjoy!

Chapter 15 Release Your Inhibitions

Dylan took a breath and walked down the hallway to Susan's office. He wasn't looking forward to it because he knew the week before was suppose to be Brenda and his private session but him and Brenda never went. After she had gotten there then the talk they had, Dylan didn't want to ruin it even though they had broken up. He wasn't interested in sharing Brenda with anyone especially because he hadn't seen her in a couple weeks and even before that he wasn't himself. He knocked gently as he stood in front of the door and waited for her to allow him in.

"Come in." Susan called out.

Dylan slowly opened the door and walked in, "Hey." he said softly.

"Hello, I missed you last week, I thought we had a appointment?" Susan looked up from the mess on her desk.

"I know…I'm sorry. Bren got here and we just lost track of time. I hadn't seen her for a while." Dylan sat down and started picking at the side of his thumb.

"Ok well are you actually going to talk today?" Susan moved to her seat in front of Dylan and crossed her legs.

Dylan shrugged, "What do you want to know?"

"Everything…who's Bren?"

Dylan sighed, "Brenda is my ex girlfriend."

"Ex?"

"Yeah well, another reason we didn't come see you." Dylan looked down.

"How long were you guys together?" Susan was going to take whatever he was going to give her.

"Off and on for eight years, together for five of them." Dylan said it almost proudly.

"Wow, why did you break up?"

"She said we were too dependent on each other. She wanted to find herself and she wanted me to concentrate on myself."

"Sounds like a smart girl."

Dylan nodded. He looked down thinking about her, he had tried calling her since Stacey so rudely gave Brenda the wrong idea but she didn't answer or David would say she wasn't there.

"Are you sad about breaking up?"

"You're pretty smart, is that how you got your degree?" Dylan got defensive because she had found his weakness.

Susan raised her eyebrows and tilted her head, "Let's talk about you…your family."

Dylan sighed, "Why don't we talk about how the hell I can get out of here early, what do I have to do, cause I will do it." Dylan leaned forward placing his elbows on his knees.

Susan took a deep breath, she hadn't given a bad report yet to the courts. There was something about him that interested her and she couldn't pin point it. Susan gave in, "I probably could get you out in 60 days instead of 90 if you actually talk to me. I mean everything. We have to try to work through some of these issues and then I will see if I can get you out."

"Deal." Dylan held out his hand and smirked.

"Ok so tell me about your family."

"My dad is dead, my mom lives in Hawaii. She left when I was six."

"Do you still talk to her?"

Dylan nodded, "I have pretty much been on my own since I was 13. My dad was never around, he paid my mom to get out of both of our lives and I didn't see her until I was 17 years old."

"You hadn't seen your mom from age 6 to 17? That's tough."

Dylan shrugged, "We had our issues but we have been trying ever since."

"How did your dad die?" Susan was fascinated, he was like a therapists dream.

"I saw him blow up…in a car…by a bomb." Dylan sighed, "My father wasn't the most respected business man in Los Angeles, the bad guys caught up with him. The truth of it all though was he was actually helping the FBI and they got him anyway."

"How old were you?"

"18."

Susan sat quietly, she took a deep breath.

Dylan began, "You know I should just get it out now, my father was in prison, my mother is a quack, my mother came back then left again, my father got blown up, my wife got shot down and my baby died 6 months ago." Dylan stared at her straight faced. "And you want me to tell you why I do drugs, well there you go, my life sucks, I'm poison, everything I touch dies."

Susan shook her head, "That's not true, what about Brenda?"

"What about Brenda?" Dylan raised his voice.

"Well…she isn't dead."

"No…almost, but I don't have her either."

"Just because you guys broke up doesn't mean you won't be together again, after treatment after you get out."

Dylan shrugged and looked down.

"How did you meet Brenda?" Susan knew this was where she needed to start. He got uncomfortable when talking about her, he was almost ok with talking about his crappy life and parents but bringing up Brenda set him off and Susan wanted to know why.

Dylan smiled slightly, "I met Bren my sophomore year in high school. Her and our friend came up to me at my locker and asked if I preferred long hair or short hair or blonde or brunettes, I don't remember really but I remembered her. I was friends with her brother, I had heard about her or of her but saw her for the first time then. She was pretty, sweet looking. I am not really sure why but I was drawn to her, she definitely wasn't from Beverly Hills and not really my type, but that's why I liked her. After staring at each other, I went on my way. We had an instant chemistry. After flirting with each other we went on a date. It actually was by accident; it was supposed to be a group date kind of thing but Brandon got sick so it was just the two of us."

Dylan shook his head, "I have been with a lot of girls, more than I would even care to count but I knew she wasn't like that. Anyway, I fell in love with her. She was so much different than me. Good family, good values, pure, innocent, she almost had a perfection to her that I had never seen before. The love grew and fast. We were crazy…madly in love. Brenda and her brother Brandon were my saviors back then. They helped me, kept me clean, let me into their family. They made me feel like for once I wasn't a piece of shit. Brenda believed in me and saw me for what other people didn't. I was a hard ass and a loner but she saw past that. I opened up with her and let go."

"Sounds like it was great."

"It was but like anything that goes up, it comes down. Brenda's father hated me. After they had tried so hard to make me feel like I was part of the family, in the circle of trust. He always knew how to pull me down. Brenda's dad was…the ideal father, except maybe too pushy. He saw me as a threat, a guy who was taking his little girl away. He knew I wasn't good enough for her and he made sure I knew it."

"Were you? A threat? Were you good enough for her?" Susan listened intently.

Dylan smirked, "I didn't see it then, but now looking back I definitely was a threat. I had never been in love like that before, she was my first love and I was hers. Was I good enough? No…I am still not. Everything her father thought I would do, I did."

Susan looked at her clock, "I apologize, we will pick up with this tomorrow. Thank you Dylan for opening up to me."

Dylan took a deep breath and nodded.

"Aright see you tomorrow, same time." Dylan nodded and got up. He made his way down the hallway and spotted Stacey. He stopped short and ducked into a door. He took a deep breath and shook his head. Oh man Dylan, you are losing it, ducking from someone who just wants to have sex with you. What is wrong with you? He thought as he waited for her to walk past.

**

Brenda brought her dress up to the counter and handed it to Kelly. "Another new dress, what's the occasion?" Kelly smiled as she began to ring her up.

Brenda thought about it and took a deep breath, "I have a date."

"A date…with who?" Kelly looked curiously at her. Gina and Donna overheard and walked over quickly. The leaned forward a little and waited for her to tell them.

Brenda shook her head and smiled, "David."

"David?" Kelly repeated.

"Oh nice, good for you." Gina gently and playfully punched her upper arm.

"Brenda…David? Come one, are you doing this just to get back at Dylan?" Kelly said showing negativity.

"No…I like him and he asked and I think it will be fun." Brenda tried to justify her date even though she didn't really feel like she needed to.

"Well I think it's cute." Donna said with a smile.

Kelly rolled her eyes, "I think you are moving too fast. I mean you and Dylan have been broken up for what…a week?"

"Two but last time I checked that wasn't your business either." Brenda signed her name on her credit card receipt and grabbed the bag. "Bye Don…Gina, I will tell you how my date with David goes." Brenda looked at Kelly before she turned around and left.

"Kelly, are you always this mean to her?" Gina said as Donna walked away.

"Gina…you know nothing about Brenda and me, so why don't you mind your own business, I have known her a lot longer than you. I'm just being honest with her."

Gina smirked, "I know you stole her boyfriend in high school, fooled around with him while she was in Paris. Maybe you should be honest with yourself and let Brenda be happy." Gina walked away.

Kelly stood there stunned. She shook her head and went back to work.

**

Brenda made her way into David's house and saw Brandon reading the newspaper at the kitchen table.

"Hey Bran, is David here?" Brenda said walking up to him and setting down her bag.

"No, he said he would be back later, he had to stop by the club and do a few errands." Brandon looked up and noticed her bag.

"A new dress…for your big date?" Brandon said with smart ass grin .

"Yes…want to see?"

"Not really." Brandon looked back down at the paper.

"Brandon…what is your problem? why are you here? To judge me? To give me crap about moving on?" Brenda was over it.

Brandon took a deep breath and looked at her, "Bren, I just think this David thing is weird. I mean you have known each other for a long time and now all of a sudden you are making out with him and dating him. I think you are rushing into it and…what about Dylan? He needs you, he is in rehab trying to clean up and you are dating his friend, its wrong."

Brenda crossed her arms, "Wow…you and Kelly belong together." She tried to compose herself so she wasn't going off on him even though she wanted to.

"What?" Brandon made a face and didn't understand what Kelly had to do with this conversation.

"Never mind…I just think you are being judgmental and you have no idea what went on with Dylan and I. We decided to move on, to break up and believe me Dylan has moved on."

"How can he move on he is in there all alone. He needs you."

"Brandon…Dylan is screwing a girl in rehab, for the last 3 years I have been taking care of him. I am concentrating on me…and if you don't understand that…that's fine, but don't judge me and keep your opinions to yourself. I'm not rushing into anything, I like David, he's sweet to me and I'm going to go out and have a good time. I'm sorry if you don't approve but you're not my father." Brenda picked up her bag taking into her bedroom and slamming the door.

Brandon shook his head, "Even if I was you wouldn't listen to me anyway." Brandon said under his breath.

**

Brenda glanced at herself up and down one last time in the full length mirror she had in her bedroom. She gave herself a small pep talk in her head as she applied some lipstick. You are going to go out with David and have a good time. You will look at this date as just that, no pressure, no sex, just a night out. Even though Kelly and Brandon are know it alls, they are right, you live together and sex will make it more complicated. Brenda nodded a little in agreement with herself. She made her way out of her bedroom and met David and Brandon in the living room.

"Ready?" David said with a smile as he got up.

"Yep." Brenda smiled as she grabbed her purse.

"You crazy kids have a good time now, but not too much fun." Brandon was being such an ass.

Brenda blinked a couple times and tilted her head, "Are you going to be here when we get back?" Brenda wasn't going to start anything with him. She was in a good mood and she wasn't going to let him spoil the first date she has had with someone other than Dylan in many many years.

"Probably not, I told Steve I would meet up with him at the After Dark, get some drinks, hang out." Brandon looked at his watch realizing he should probably get ready.

Brenda nervously looked at David and then at Brandon, "Wait your not going to be here? You shouldn't drink too much you wont be able to drive." Brenda had no idea where she was going with this but was sure she wanted him to be home when they got home. It wasn't that she didn't trust David, she didn't trust herself at this point and it wasn't like she could kiss him goodnight and end the date. He lived there.

"Don't worry about me, if I drink too much I will just take a cab or stay with Steve…I don't have a car anyway."

"Brandon that isn't very responsible, now I'm going to worry about you." Brenda tried to play I off.

Brandon smirked and rolled his eyes, "I'll be fine, I'm a big boy Bren." Brandon shook his head and headed into the bathroom.

"Come on…we have reservations." David said not really paying attention to what they were just arguing about.

Brenda smiled and took a deep breath. She felt David gently place his hand on the small of her back and lead her outside. As David drove to the restaurant she kept glancing over at him. Why was she thinking the things she was thinking? Why was it getting so hard to resist him? Brenda was pretty sure it was because they had gotten closer. She looked away trying to get the thoughts out of her head as she felt David place his hand on her knee. She looked over at him and met his stare.

"Everything ok? You seem quiet." David said sweetly.

Brenda shook her head, "I'm fine." She waited for David to remove his hand but he didn't. Instead he pulled in to a cozy little restaurant in Santa Monica overlooking the water. He parked and looked over at her.

"I'm sorry David, I'm kind of nervous, I don't know why." Brenda opened up to him.

David shrugged sweetly, "I don't know why either, you know me, it isn't like it's a blind date or anything. Relax, we will have fun. No pressure."

Brenda nodded slowly looking at him. She subtly smiled and tilted her head.

"You look beautiful by the way, I didn't want to say anything back at the house with Brandon there but you do."

"Thanks…you don't look half bad yourself." Brenda shyly smiled and looked down.

"Well…thanks." David laughed slightly and took the keys out of the ignition. He began to open his door but Brenda stopped him.

As he turned to face her he felt her lips against his. He kissed her back roughly as he felt her tongue meet with his. He breathed out loudly as they broke apart.

"Sorry…I have wanted to do that for two days." Brenda sighed feeling better as she opened up her door and stepped out. She peaked her head in, "Ready?" she said with a smile.

David took a deep breath taking a second to compose himself, "Yeah." He breathed out as he got out of the car.

**

Brandon made his way into the After Dark and spotted Steve right away. He walked over taking a seat next to him and Janet. "What's up buddy?"

"Nothing much brother." Steve said as he gave him a low five.

Janet rolled her eyes and smiled, "Something's never change."

"So what are we drinking tonight?" Steve said as he waved down a server.

The server walked over leaning down so she could hear their order. Both boys ordered a beer and Janet ordered a red wine. Brandon looked up and saw Kelly and Matt walk in. They made eye contact with each other; they both gave each other soft smiles as Kelly led Matt over to their table.

"Hi." Kelly said softly looking down at them.

"Hey Kel…Matt." Brandon said nicely.

"You want something Kelly?" Matt asked sweetly.

"Yeah…red wine." Kelly smiled at him and sat down next to Brandon while Matt went to the bar.

"So…are you leaving in a couple days?" Kelly asked as she looked into his eyes.

"No…actually my boss wants me to stay here for another week, there is a Democratic convention down town and he wants me to cover it. I lucked out." Brandon shrugged playfully.

"Come on Steve…dance with me." Janet said as she stood up and pulled at his hand.

Kelly and Brandon watched them leave and looked at each other. Kelly looked away uncomfortably and noticed Matt still trying to get Noah's attention at the bar.

"How are you doing Kel?" Brandon said softly.

Kelly swallowed hard and nodded, "I'm good…really good." Her tone didn't sound so sure. "How's work?"

"Really good actually." Brandon nodded looking down. "You look good." He looked over at her again.

Kelly relaxed a bit and looked over at him, "You do too."

"Look Kel…I meant to call you…" Brandon looked down.

"Its ok…it was probably better…you know to move on with our lives." Kelly bit her lip eyeing Matt again, noticing him bringing the drinks over.

Brandon nodded slowly not noticing Matt on his way, he looked at her like he used to with love and just asked, "Are you happy?"

Kelly saw the familiar look and then looked as Matt came over, "Thanks." Kelly smiled looking at Matt taking her glass of wine from him.

Brandon took a deep breath seeing Matt sit next to her. Brandon flagged over the server and ordered two shots. Brandon wasn't a big drinker but this was going to be a long night.

**

Brenda sipped her wine as she felt David's eyes on her. She gave him a look and sighed. She moved her foot under the table and gently nudged his. David smiled as he gave into the game of footsies under the table. Brenda looked down as she played with her food and looked up again only bringing her eyes to him.

"Do you think we are crazy?" Brenda said softly.

David shook his head, "Why…because we like each other?"

Brenda shrugged pressing her lips together spreading her lipstick around, "Maybe." The waiter came and took Brenda's plate away and set down a chocolate dessert in the middle of the table. Brenda leaned up on her elbows and looked at it. "Are you trying to kill me? That looks almost sinful."

David smirked, "Want a bite?"

Brenda nodded and leaned a bit closer. David took a small bite onto the fork and fed it to her. Brenda closed her eyes for a moment savoring the richness of the chocolate.

"Good right?" David watched her as she opened her eyes and looked into his.

Brenda nodded and looked down, "Yeah…it's more than good." She spoke softly.

Brenda held back everything she had to not pounce across the table and tackle him. This wasn't even her she didn't know where this "man" mentality was even coming from.

"Bren…can I be completely honest with you."

Brenda nodded slowly.

"You are incredibly sexy."

Brenda smiled and looked down shyly, "You are too."

The waiter brought David the check and David threw some money in it and looked back up at her.

"Want to get out of here?" David tilted his head and Brenda knew exactly what he was asking.

YESSS, she thought but didn't say it, "David. Brandon is staying there." Brenda shook her head and tried to make sense of it in her own head.

"Ok…no pressure, I told you." David was so sweet she couldn't even take it. She thought about Dylan and Stacey. She had been so good not to even think about him. "Ready?" David said with a soft smile. Brenda nodded getting up from the table. David met her and wrapped his arm around her. She looked up at him and kissed him gently as the walked out of the restaurant.

The drive home was quiet, Brenda prayed and hoped Brandon was there, anything to make the sexual tension between them less. The two got out of the car and walked hand and hand up to the front porch. David unlocked the front door, leaning into her kissing her as he pushed the door open. Brenda and David looked around the dark house and it was apparent Brandon was not home. Brenda walked in taking a deep breath and kicked off her shoes and placed her purse down. David moved toward the kitchen and placed his keys on the table.

"Want some wine or something?" David asked as he grabbed a bottle in his counter top wine rack.

Brenda walked slowly over to him, "Sure." She smiled uncomfortably and nodded.

David opened up the drawer taking out a wine opener and Brenda reached to grab two glasses out of the cupboard. As they turned they ran into each other causing Brenda to drop the wine glasses to the floor as they shattered.

Brenda shook her head and smiled, "Sorry."

David smiled back as they both knelt down to pick up the broken glass.

"Be careful." David said as he started to grab the bigger pieces.

Brenda slowly looked up at him. He smelled good and he was inches from her face. David got up and threw the glass into the trash can. Brenda stood up as well and leaned over him to throw her handful away also. David leaned in and smelled her neck as she leaned across him. David didn't hold back anymore as he grabbed her around the waist and pulled her into him roughly. Brenda breathed out as she went along, wrapping her arms tightly around his neck. They kissed hard and rough as they moved across the kitchen, Brenda's butt hit the kitchen table knocking whatever that was on it to the floor. Brenda pressed herself against him pushing him toward the hallway. With their eyes closed kissing and beginning to undress themselves David hit the refrigerator instead. Two boxes of cereal fell to the floor. They smiled mid kiss as Brenda ran her hands across his chest pushing his shirt down his arms. Brenda went in again kissing him hard as he moved her against the wall. The force of Brenda against the wall knocked the picture to the floor. Brenda let out a moan as he moved down her neck, pushing her straps down from her dress. He pushed down her dress as it hit the floor. She reached down unbuttoning his pants as she pushed them down as well. Brenda lifted her leg around his hip as David placed his hand on it holding it up. David pressed his body against hers as he kissed her hard bending a little at the knees to push her harder against the wall. David quickly reached behind her and lifted her at the butt against him. He gently lifted her off the ground taking her to the doorway of his bedroom before losing his balance again as Brenda hit the door. It made a loud noise and the two stopped kissing for a moment to catch their breath as they laughed out loud.

"Well there's one way to go about it." David joked. "You sure you want to do this?" David wanted to make sure she was okay with it even though her actions told him she was.

Brenda without answering kissed him again hard as David still holding her up moved her to the bed. They kissed and caressed each other as the last of the undergarments were thrown across the room.

"David." Brenda breathed out, David looked up from kissing down her chest and made eye contact with her, "Do you have protection?" she whispered.

David nodded as he leaned down kissing her softly, without looking he opened his nightstand drawer taking out a condom.

Brenda and David found themselves having sex, not making love, all their sexual tension being released made it rough, hot and sweaty. They loudly enjoyed each other, changing positions. It lasted a while and when they were finished David moved to the side of her as the both lay on their backs catching their breath.

"Wow." Brenda said out of breath.

"Uh…yeah wow, where the hell did you learn how to do that? Never mind don't tell me." David was pretty much speechless.

As they looked at the ceiling they began to laugh not really believing what had just happened. They both looked over at each other and smiled.

"If I smoked this would be a good time to do so." Brenda joked as she turned to her side to face him. She reached down grabbing the covers that had at sometime got kicked down.

"Did we just have the hottest sex imaginable or did I just dream that?" he said as he turned to face her also.

"Considering I cant feel my legs, I think it happened." Brenda smiled shyly not feeling 100% comfortable laying in bed with David naked.

David looked at her moving a piece of hair that was stuck to her side of her face with sweat, he smiled sweetly at her. He didn't want her to feel like it was just sex. He wanted her to know he was possibly in love with her. He moved slowly closer to her and gently pecked her softly. Brenda brought her hand to the side of his face as she closed her eyes. David brought his arm under her as he moved to his back and pulled her close to him. They closed their eyes and drifted off. Brenda felt warm, very satisfied and safe and so did David.

Is it hot in here or is it just me? Ok so shoot me, I wanted a hot scene with them and I did it. So sue me. Also I am not sure if anyone caught the restaurant scene and how it was a little similar the K/D scene in Rebel without a cause. It was done on purpose and will make a bit more sense later, and if it doesn't I will explain my reasoning. So are people mad? What are you thinking? Press that green button below and tell me all about it.