Sorry guys that it took so long to update. It probably wasn't worth the wait but I'll try to get the next one out a lot sooner I already have my idea just a matter of writing it. So on to the next song. This song is Unfaithful by Rhianna
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Shinichi felt sick. He knew what he was doing was wrong but he loves them both. Shinichi couldn't help but scoff. He knew even though it was the truth it was still a poor excuse. Shinichi sighed and went back to thinking. One of the reasons he loves Kaito was because he brings out Shinichi's wild side in a way. Shinichi just always felt free around him. He also got this rush around Kaito. Like wind blowing through him sweeping away the cobwebs.

The feeling was almost completely different then how he felt with Ran. Don't get him wrong he loves being with Ran it's just the feelings he gets with her is a whole different set of feelings. Ran was safe in a way but Kaito on the edge. Kinda safe but border line dangerous. But Ran was basically the life he'd always wanted. A good house wife,someone who would love him warts and all,great with kids,good cook. The list went on. Besides every one wants to marry their childhood friend. Right?Plus it was expected of him to marry Ran. Maybe that was another thing he loves about Kaito there was no expectations. There was no certain way to act besides being him self. He could always talk Sherlock Holmes with Kaito. Well it was more like a heated discussion about who's better Arisen Lupin or Sherlock Holmes. It was all in good fun. He loves having mental sparring with Kaito. He laughed at the thought of their verbal spars.

What little light of joy he had quickly slipped away at the thought of cheating on the two people he cared the most for. He knew what he was doing was wrong but he was at a loss of what to do. The most obvious choice was to break up with one of them but easier said then done. He didn't want to make the wrong choice. Someone might suggest telling the truth. The theory was that if this person knew you cheated on them and is willing to forgive you that they truly love you. That would work if they both didn't know already. He wasn't sure how they found out. He however was sure that they did know. Just one day they started giving him weird looks. Then he gave names to the looks. Ran's look was "Am-I-not-good-enough".Kaitlin's look was a lot harder to read because of that damn poker face. After a while it got a name to"I'm-disappointed".It made him feel worse he wasn't even the one to tell them. He felt sick any time he thought of the hell he's been putting them through. It almost seemed nicer to shot them then to watch them tear themselves up over the fact that he wasn't happy with just one of them. He shook his head as if to chase the thought away. He knew better than to think thoughts like that. They're what cause people to become murders. As Shinichi rolled over to fall into a restless sleep one last thought floated through his head. This had to end. He was just hurting the two people that he loves more than anything else and himself

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The internet hates me it screwed up and I lost half of this chapter and had to do most of it again. At least it's done now lets pray it doesn't do it again. This time I'll try to get the chapter out sooner. Don't forget to review
~Rose

p.s. thanks to StargateNerd and SetoJouFan for the review and the encouragement