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Chapter 19!

Thank you so much to everyone for such wonderful reviews! Yay I'm doing good! And to answer the question that Megagenie asked about why I didn't use the Holoform is because that is used too much...why not make it interesting and kiss the robot?

This chapter may contain some strong language and some very sad moments...but you all finally get to see what is up with Tai.

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Onward!

Chapter 19

God, why do you hate me?

Have you ever woken up one morning feeling on top of the world?

Where you felt, for the first time in a long time, everything was alright?

No? Well, that sucks than.

Because that was how Tai was feeling when she woke up from her first incredibly peaceful sleep in over a decade. She woke up feeling very warm and yet comfortable. She blinked her eyes, her vision still slightly blurry from sleep and looked around, almost forgetting where she was.

Oh yeah...that's right...She thought to herself. I pretty much said and/or agreed to be Jazz's girlfriend...human lover...intergalactic sweetheart...so does that make him my boyfriend? Botfriend...Cybertron hunk of love...I'll just go with my Jazzman...yeah, Jazzman...Whoa, I was just doing an internal monologue and I didn't even know...Cool...

She was pulled out of her thoughts by Jazz coming back online.

'Huh...Oh, hey there sweet thing...' He smiled, sitting up carefully with her still against his chest.

Tai smiled up at him and placed her head under his much larger metal chin, her own chest pressed to his.

Feeling love.

Comfort.

Security.

Pain...wait a second?! Pain wasn't a good feeling. But that is what she felt...searing pain in the middle of her chest. It felt like her heart was on fire. She couldn't be having a heart attack...she was way too young.
She didn't want to worry Jazz but she guessed her increased breathing and her red cheeks gave it away.

'Tai-dye..!!? What's wrong?' He asked in fear, holding closer.

'Get...Rat...Ratch...' She choked out, trying to blink away the surrounding darkness that was starting to blur her vision.

Before losing consciousness, she whimpered out. 'Blurr...'

Blurr was almost to the base when he felt something...or rather heard something.

'Blurr...'

It was whimper...a pain filled whimper that of a young girl. His spark plummeted when he recognized the voice. Tai.

What was wrong with her?

Rob had already been taken away from him, he'd be damned if Tai was next.

He floored it, becoming a blur to other drivers.

'Ratch! Optimus!' Jazz yelled as he headed toward the recreational hall, nearly colliding with the twins.

'Jazz? What's wrong?' Optimus, who had been talking to Epps and Lennox who had just arrived with Ironhide a few minutes before, asked. Jazz was hardly ever this panicked and afraid, so it couldn't be good.

'It's Tai...somethin's wrong wit' her!'

That had everyone's attention in less than a minute.

'What do you mean?' Ratchet asked in alarm. 'Where is she?'

'Uhh...well ya see...' Jazz looked incredibly sheepish. 'My..room...'

'Excuse me?' Optimus asked, raising an optic ridge. The twins however started sniggering. 'Even human girls...wow...' They were immediately hushed by the looks of death shot in their direction by Ironhide and the raised wrench by Ratchet.

'No no no no!' He quickly exclaimed. 'We were jus' talkin'...than she fainted or something...'

Before anyone could respond, Sam bolted out down the hallway, ignoring everyone calling his name. 'No no no...don't do this Tai...' He pushed open the heavy metal door and somehow managed to climb up onto the berth.

There was Tai on her side; though unconscious she had her eyebrows furrowed in a look of intense pain, her face shiny with perspiration, her cheeks flushed, and her breathing ragged.
'Tai!' He kneeled by her and lifted up her limp form up onto his lap. 'Wake up! Come on, please...wake up...' He slapped her face gently, hoping that would work. It did nothing.

'Ratchet!'

The medic flew in with everyone else behind him. 'You have to help her.' Sam whispered, clutching his surrogate sister tighter in his arms.

'Give her to me.' Ratchet ordered. He gently scooped up the small human in his large hands and held her protectively against his chest.

'Out of my way...Now!' He snapped, running to his Med-bay.

Pain.

That's all she felt was raw, white-hot pain. She opened her eyes and she seemed to be standing in a room full of bright white light. What was going on?

Where was she? Where was Jazz? Blurr? Sam? Optimus?

She blinked and tried to shield her eyes from the light. 'Why does this keep happening?' She asked out loud. 'Why can't something just be good for once? I'm a nice enough person!'
Falling to her knees, she started pounding at the ground with her fists...screaming in rage and pain. 'FUCK!' She screamed loudly into the infinite light. 'Why can't anything just make fucking sense?'

It was quiet for a few minutes, the only sound was Tai's heavy breathing. She hated this place...

'Hey Daddy...' She looked up sharply at the sound of a little girl's voice.

'Hello?' She called hopefully.

'Hey my little duckling.' She froze in her tracks, her breaths hitching slightly in sadness and joy.

'Dad?' She whispered in disbelief.

She blinked her eyes and the next thing she knew, she was in a very familiar room. It was their old kitchen. And sitting at the table was her father.

'Where are you scampering off too?' She watched with a heavy heart when she looked upon her younger self, looking so happy and innocent.

'I gonna go exploring!' Her younger self exclaimed, jumping up and down.

'You want Blurr to go with you?'

'No..it okay...I be back in bit!' So with that, she ran out the back door with their old dog, an English Mastiff named Tigger. Tai watched her younger self leave and than turned back to her father. There he was just as she remembered him, the loving sweet father who would do anything to make his daughter happy. 'Dad...can you hear me?' She reached forward to touch him but her hand went right through him.

'Wha...Dad?!' Great, another It's a Wonderful life thing going on. Even though her thoughts were completely sarcastic, her heart felt like it was just torn out of her chest.

She glanced out the small kitchen window and saw her younger self with Blurr, who was kneeling down to talk to her smiled as the giant robot gently stroked her head with his large finger, before her younger self scampered off into the field by their house.

With one last look at her Dad, she went outside to follow her younger self. She figured that was what she was supposed to do.

What could possibly happen?

In Ratchet's medbay.

It took a long time, but Ratchet finally got Tai stabilized enough to where she was slightly comfortable but by the flushed look on her face and her wrinkled forehead, she was still in pain.

'How is she?' Optimus asked, his voice tinged with worry.

'I'm not really sure.' Ratchet checked the monitor that seemed to have an outline of Tai's body. 'Every symptom clearly stated a heart attack but her heart rate is perfectly normal, her blood pressure is normal...but her brain activity is sky rocketing.'

Optimus looked down at the small human girl on the examining table. She looked so helpless and fragile...so very unTatyana like...

Without a second thought, he gently lifted up her tiny hand with his pointer finger and held it carefully. He couldn't help but smile at the color of her nails, which seemed to change every week. This week they were red and blue. With his other hand, he gently stroked her tiny, limp hand...much like a father would to their ailing child. A quiet whimper escaped her throat as her hand tightened on his finger.

'Oh Tatyana...' He sighed sadly. 'Why must you suffer so much?'

Outside in the main room.


'Sam, you wearing a hole in the floor...' Glen said, trying to lighten the mood. Ratchet had kicked everyone else out, so that meant all they had to do was wait.

Which sucked.

Sam had been pacing for the last twenty minutes, his mind whirling with terrible thoughts about Tai and what was wrong with her.

'I don't understand...she was fine...' He whispered, his voice choked as he tried to hold back tears. Mikaela stood up from where she was comforting Psyche and hugged her distraught boyfriend.

'She is fine...Ratchet is the best of the best...literally the best in the universe...' She whispered, stroking the base of his neck. 'He'll figure out what's wrong.'

'Yeah kid...' Sideswipe said in an unusually soft tone. 'If anyone can, it's the Hatchet.'

Jazz was no better than Sam...He sat away from everyone else with his clawed servos folded up, his head resting on them. He had never felt so scared in his long life...besides his team, he had come to really care for Tai...in fact, he loved her. With his entire spark.

The silence of the room was shattered by the sound of screeching tires. Everyone turned to see a bright blue Charger came flying in, before transforming into the familiar form of Blurr.

'Blurr?' Ironhide exclaimed, getting up from the bot couch. 'Where've you been?'

'Whereisshe?!' Blurr asked in a panicked tone. 'Where'sTai?'

'She's in the...' Ironhide paused, not knowing how to break it to the distraught speedster. 'She's in the medbay...she's sick...'

Without another word, Blurr tore off at lightening speed toward the med bay, not caring about flying wrenches that were bound to head his way.

'Wait!' Tai yelled to her younger self as she scampered across the field, Tigger galloping behind her. 'God dammit, Wait...!'

Of course her yells continued to be ignored. She was so busy in her own thoughts she ran right through her kid self as she skidded to a halt.'What the fragton?' She muttered when she saw her kid self looking up at the sky. She looked up just in time to see a bright light and something falling toward the ground.

'Whoa...a shooting star!' Young Tai squealed excitedly. 'I call it!' She giggled at Tigger . 'C'mon Tig...we needs to make a wish while it's still good..!'

The mastiff barked as if agreeing, so without any hesitation, they both took off in the direction of the smoke.

'I remember this....' Present Tai muttered, shuffling forward slowly and peered over her younger self's shoulder and into the crater.

Her eyes widened at what she saw.

It was a ball of metal with very familiar looking symbols all over it, but it was tiny...about the size of a kickball.

'Wow!' Little Tai gasped. 'What that?'

knowing her younger self couldn't see or hear her, Tai slid down the hill of dirt toward the ball of metal.

It was definitely cybertronian metal as she examined it. Just as she was about to touch it, it started folding in on itself. Small little arms, legs, and a small little head appeared a few seconds later. It was about the size of a small five year old kid. In fact, she compared the size of this baby autobot to her five year old self...same exact size.

It looked gravely injured...a few sparks erupted from its chest while bright blue energon was leaking from it's mouth.

'Poor thing.' She said in a soft voice as it clicked and warbled.

She looked up as she heard herself gasp. 'You okay?' She called in a high voice. 'You need bandaid? My Daddy has glow in the dark ones!'

'I remember...I fell...' Tai muttered. With a scream, her younger self tumbled down the crater side before landing hard on her front.

'Owie...' She whimpered, pushing herself up. Her five year old self was covered with scrapes and dirt as she stared at the small metal being. 'Whoa...' The little being opened it's eyes and looked at the little human girl in curiosity. 'Uhh...Hello, my name is Tayana Topaz Witwicky...who you?'

The little metal being let out a coughing noise, more of that bright blue liquid spurting out of its tiny mouth before letting out a small whimper.

'You hurted...' She gasped, kneeling down next to it. 'No mount of band-aids or kisses can make this betterer...' She than gasped excitedly. 'I get Blurr! He know what to do!'

The little being squeaked and clicked in what sounded like..'No..wait, I have a better idea...' type way. Since Blurr had taught Tai the ways of youngling clicking, she understood everything. 'What?'

The little bot reached up towards her with a spindly hand as if asking her to hold it. With a look of apprehension, little Tai took it in hers carefully.

What happened next was shocking.

There was a bright blue flash as little light particles surrounded both of the small kids. She vaguely heard her younger self scream in pain as the metal youngling suddenly turned into some sort of liquid and slithered up her younger self's arm, and than entering her mouth. Her younger self's eyes widened before she fell backwards, as she choked and twitched violently.

Tai started gasping and shaking as she backed away. 'I don't remember this! What the fuck is this shit!?'

A few minutes later, there was an explosion of light before the dust settled and she saw her kid self floating up the crater and settle next to the mastiff, who than ran off to get Rob or Blurr or both...

Before Tai could react next, she felt that same hot pain in her chest...before she sank into the comfort of unconsciousness.

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