Sober

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KRISTEN

I got up, and walked into the bathroom. I was filled with the all too familiar feeling in the pit of my stomach. I started breathing heavily, and quickly shouted. "Rob." before bending down over the toilet.

I was never one to handle vomiting very well. I got all shaky, and would start crying. I just hated being sick, and I knew that this morning sickness was worse than I had with Lily.

I moaned when Rob walked into the bathroom, and pulled my hair into a ponytail.

He bent down behind me, and embraced me into his arms. He kissed my hair, letting me know it was all going to be okay.

I wanted this. I really did. I wanted another baby with Rob. But I just didn't know how long I would last. Maybe it scared me that this time I wasn't doing this alone. Maybe I wanted to do this alone? No. That wasn't an option. I wasn't going to kick my husband out of my life because I was too scared to be pregnant.

I started to gag, and reached for the toilet, and fell violently sick. Moaning and groaning before I started to cry. My throat felt sore, and raw. It had a sour feeling, and a tart taste in my mouth. I just sat there as I reached up to flush, then let my hand fall hard against the ring.

I leaned back into his chest, and breathed heavily, waiting for the next wave of nausea to make itself known. I felt him get up, and I took his hand, searching for some kind of comfort.

"Don't leave me."

"Sweetheart, I'm just going to get you some ginger-ale. I'll be right back, I swear."

I sank to the tile floor after he left, not wanting him to see how much I was really hurting. I put my hand on my stomach, and sobbed into my kneecaps, bracing myself for the next wave of sickness.

ROB

I sat on the sofa in the living room, holding Lily as she watched intently at the television screen.

I heard the doorbell ring, and got up, and put Lily back down on the couch. She watched me as I walked to the door. I opened it up, and saw a beaming Kellan at my doorstep.

"Hey man!" He said, taking me into a manly embrace.

"Hey." I said, hitting his back.

I looked over to Lily who was looking at Kellan like he was some kind of squash baby food.

I laughed quietly as I let go, and led him to the couch.

"What's up man?" I asked, running my hand through Lily's bronze hair.

"Nikki and I are together." He beamed.

"Whoa, man, that's great!" I said as I gripped his shoulder.

I remembered how I used to date Nikki, and flinched how messed up it really sounded. Nikki was Kristen's best friend, and now she's dating her co-star like Kristen and I were.

"Don't get her pregnant." I warned.

He chuckled, and shook his head. "Not until we're married."

I laughed, and turned back to him. "Congratulations man."

"Thanks. So how's Kristen?"

I smiled, and picked up Lily. Kellan took her from my arms, still pleading his eyes to mine wanting to know the news about the honeymoon.

"Well…we're moving soon…the house is just to small. The honeymoon was great, and she's pregnant." I said, smiling.

He nodded, then doubled, and looked back at me. "She's pregnant? Again?"

"Who's pregnant again?" I looked up at my beautiful wife, who was coming down the stairs. She hugged Kellan, and said cooed to Lily.

Kellan looked at me, warily. "You are." He said, looking at Kristen. Her eyes bore into mine, and I could tell she was peeved.

"You told him!?"

"Yea…it's not like he's going to tell anyone, right?" I asked.

Kellan nodded. "Absolutely. Scouts honor." He said sarcastically.

I chuckled, and Kristen just starred at him. "You better not."

I watched her hips sway as she walked out of the entry.

Kellan chuckled, and turned back to me.

"Uh, I actually have something to talk to you about." I didn't want to tell Kristen yet, so I thought I would confide in my best friend.

"Yea, man…shoot."

"Well…I got this scrip to this movie called Remember Me, and it's all the way in New York. Across the country."

"Oh, come on dude, we both know that's not the reason you don't want to do it."

"What are you talking about?"

"Your scared you'll feel the same way about your new costar as you did about Kristen."

I looked at Lily, and ran through my mind that my wife was pregnant. I wasn't there for most of her last pregnancy, and that ripped me apart already. I wasn't going to leave her again.

"Kellan…I'll never feel the same way about anyone as I do about Kristen."

Kellan looked down to Lily. "Yea, I sure hope so. But man, I mean Kris is pregnant. Your gonna miss most of her pregnancy. I mean…this movie sounds pretty intense and long, man that could last like six, seven months."

I looked down to my daughter, before getting up. "Thanks man. But I need to talk to her."

I said goodbye to Kellan, and put Lily in her playpen. I walked into the kitchen, where Kristen was busy cutting pea pods.

(Please Listen to 'Never Say Never' by The Fray)

"Hey sweetheart." I said as I wrapped my arms around her waist.

She turned around, and kissed me. "Hey." She whispered.

"Kristen…I have to tell you something."

"Your not leaving me." She said, worry in her eyes.

"I wouldn't dream of such a thing." I sat down on one of the kitchen table chairs, and pulled her onto my lap.

"I got a script. For a movie."

Here eyes grew wide, and I could tell she was upset.

"T--that's great. I--I'm happy for you."

"I'm not doing it." I said flatly.

"What?"

"Well, I'm not leaving you half way across the country, and I'll be damned if I'm going to miss anything this baby does. I'm not missing what you do through, I'm not missing being able to see my child grow inside of you. I'm not going to miss one more thing." I said as I kissed her

She pulled me into her as she forced her tongue into my mouth. I shoved my tongue against hers, tangoing.

She pulled away, and brought her lips to my ear.

"Thank you." She said breathlessly.

"Your welcome." I smiled.

"Make love to me." She breathed.

I picked her up, and brought her upstairs to the bedroom.

KRISTEN

I've been lying here for 2 hours. Rob and I made love 2 hours ago. I was pressed up tightly against his chest, his arms wrapped around me. I was merely three inches from his face. I looked at him. At how his cheekbones were sculpted. How his nose had a perfect bump in the bridge. All I wanted to do was grab him by the reins and ride him.

I closed my eyes, and relaxed into his touch.

I thought about my life. I have a daughter. I had a baby. Now I'm having another one.

I got married. To the one man that I never thought I would. Before all of this, I would have looked at the person in my shoes like they were crazy, but it didn't matter. So I was only nineteen years old. I would be twenty in the fall.

Flashback

We were shooting the scene of Edward and Bella's reunion in Italy today.

To say the least, I was not in the mood. I groaned, and pushed the alarm clock off the side table onto the floor, and then heard his hearty chuckle seconds later. "Just because you shut off the clock doesn't mean you can shut off time. Now come on love, get up."

He was hovering over me, and I knew that if I didn't get up within the time span of about ten seconds, he would have me gasping for air.

I shot my eyes open, and raised my eyebrows at him. "Happy now?"

"Ecstatic."

End of flashback

(Please play 'Before It's Too Late' by The Goo Goo Dolls)

ROB

Kristen was still sleeping, so I took this as an opportunity to call Phil and tell him that I wasn't going to cast in Remember Me. I was so glad and proud that I wasn't going to leave Kristen yet again to go through a pregnancy by herself. Now, there was nothing keeping me from being there every second of every day.

"Phil Leokah speaking."

"Hey Phil, it's Rob. How are you?"

"I'm good, I'm good, hey, I heard Kristen's pregnant again, congrats man."

"Yea, actually, that's why I won't be doing Remember Me."

"Whoa, man…I think you should reconsider, I mean…this could be a big thing dude. Oh, and I hear the leading lady is hot, and single!""I'm married you idiot. Bottom line…I'm not doing it. If you have a problem, deal with it on your own time. Bye Phil."

I shut the phone, and laughed to myself. The guy really was a douche.

I walked upstairs, able to hear Lily's quiet baby wails from downstairs.

I walked into the nursery, finding my daughter with her face fresh with tears. I picked her up, and brought her to the changing table.

I undid her onesie, and changed her diaper, disposing of the old one. I brought her downstairs, and set her down in her clamp onto the table chair, and went to the cabinet to get a jar of baby food. I grabbed the closest one I could find.

"Well baby doll, looks like daddy's in a green mod today." I said to her as I twisted the cap off of the string bean baby food jar.

I scooped some out, and held it at her mouth until she opened it enough for me to get the spoon fully into her small mouth.

She didn't protest, and just took the food when it came. I knew that string bean baby food was her least favorite of the bunch, which came to my surprise that she didn't put up a fuss.

I heard quiet footsteps coming from down the corridor. "Is that mommy?" I asked my daughter.

I looked to the archway and found my gorgeous wife standing there in a pair of big yoga pants and a white tank top. Her hair was dripping wet. She was running a towel through it. She set down the towel, and sat at the chair across from me. "She doesn't like string bean"

"Well, she does now." I smiled.

"Hmm." She giggled, and played with Lily's hair.

Lily gurgled, and took her sippy cup in her small hands. She sucked down hard on the spout, and I could hear her small gulps.

I moved my hand to her small bulgy baby belly, and trickled it with my fingers.

"So, what do we have planned for today?" I asked Kristen

She looked at me, with a blank expression on her face.

"What's wrong?"

"He's coming back."

That was all I needed to hear. I flew up from my seat. "Rob! Don't."

"You think I'm going to let him come anywhere near the two of you? Kristen…he's a fucking psychopath!"Lily started screaming and crying, but above all of that, I heard the doorbell ring.