I Regret Nothing

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KRISTEN

I stared at my husband in horror.

"When were you planning on telling me?" He asked, looking dead into my eyes.

"I-I'm sorry." I said, looking at my feet.

"NO! No, no! Don't be sorry!" He exclaimed, embracing me in a hug.

I started hitting his shoulders. "No, please. Don't." I said, shaking my head.

"Don't get your hopes up." I said, pulling him back to me.

He put his hands on the small of my back, and rubbed small circles on it.

Lily came into the room, and looked at us. I quickly pushed him off of me, out of reflex. I wiped away the tears that unknowingly escaped my eyes.

"Mommy, why are you crying?" My daughter asked.

"No reason baby. I promise." I smiled.

Two minutes later, the boys came running into the room. "Mommy! Daddy! Can we go to da toy stowe?" The asked, bouncing on their feet.

I laughed, and bent down. "What do you want from the toy store?"

"Toies." Adam said. I giggled, and got up. "Well then let's go to the toystore!" I smiled down at my three little miracles.

I walked with Lily into the Barbie section, and followed her as she put a princess Barbie in the cart, and made her way to the baby dolls. I couldn't tell you how many baby dolls she already had.

"Baby, don't you think that you have a lot of babies already? I don't know If another one is such a good idea." I teased.

"But mommy, I want one. Please?" She pouted.

I smiled, and bent down to her. "Which one do you like?" I asked. I always fell for those puppy dog eyes.

After she picked her peeing baby, we made our way to the GIJoe section, where I knew the boys would be. I laughed aloud when I saw my husband sitting with his knees to his chest as the boys played with talking GI Joe action figures.

Rob looked at me, and smiled. "Daddy, why are you on the floor?" Lily asked, walking over to him.

"My feet hurt buggie." He said, pulling her into his lap.

I walked over to the boys, and they looked up at me. "Mommy! Look!" They exclaimed, as they pointed to the big box next to them.

"What is that?" I asked.

"It's a awmy twuck." Liam said happily.

I nodded, and looked over to the price tag. 129.99. No way.

"Well, maybe Santa can bring that." I smiled, hoping they would agree.

"No, I don't want Santa to bring it. We want you to buy it." Adam smiled innocently.

I took a deep breath, and looked back at my husband who was grinning.

I shook my head at him, and looked back to the boys. "Are you going to get those?" I asked, gesturing to the dolls in their hands. I truly never understood the point of action figures.

The boys nodded, and I stood up. I walked back over to the cart. "Come on guys, time to go." I said, as Rob got up.

"No mommy!" Liam screeched.

I looked to my right, and smiled at all of the twilight posters, and things. We were those people on all of those things. But of course, our kids never wanted Twilight dolls.

I steered the cart away, picking Lily up, and putting her into the cart. Rob walked next to me, and we started walking. This often happened when we went to the toy store. We would start to walk away, and eventually the boys would freak, and come running.

After about a minute, I looked behind me, and almost fell over from laughter at the sight I saw. Both of my sons were trying to drag the giant box across the isle, to get to us.

Rob doubled over in laughter, and Lily giggled. I smirked, and stalked over to them.

"Guys, I thought I told you that Santa would bring this to you." I said. Rob and I had already gotten the boys this toy, and unless I wanted my three year old boys, and four year old daughter to know that Santa was nothing more than a fragment of their imagination, I had to discourage them.

"Buy mommy!" Adam's lip started quivering. Shit!

"How about we all go get some ice cream? And besides, Christmas is next week." I said happily.

Liam smiled, and removed his hand from the box. I could tell Adam was contemplating leaving the toy, and coming with us for ice cream.

"Okay, mommy." Adam nodded, wiping his little tears away.

"Okay, buddy." I smiled, picking him up into my arms. Liam had already been placed in the cart.

Once we got home, we put the kids down for their nap, and decided to go and take one ourselves.

Rob told me that I should save the pregnancy tests for Friday, because if I was pregnant, it probably wouldn't show yet.

I followed him up to the bedroom.

I walked into the closet, and changed into the Victoria's Secret new Garter I bought: ( www(dot)polypore(dot)com(slash)cgi(slash)app

I scrunched my scalp, lifting my roots, and slipped on my black leather pumps.

I walked out, and heard the water running.

I walked over to the dresser, and sat on top of it. I let my legs dangle, and I put my hands next to me, leaning against the mirror. I heard the sink shut off, and the doorknob turn. I watched him step out, going toward the closet, not noticing me.

"I'm really…really horny." I slurred.

He slowly turned around, and scanned me. I smirked, and tried not to flinch at the freezing cold glass against my nude bottom.

I stalked over to me, his lips forming an O.

He stood in between my legs, and put his hands on my waist.

"You don't know what you do to me." I said, before lifting me up, and groaning when he felt my bare ass cheeks against his hands.

He threw me on the bed, and kissed up my stomach, and gently pulled the bra off my breasts, and wrapped his lips around my erect nipple.

He moaned, and pulled the rest of the garter off, and pulled the towel he was wearing off of him.

"Oh, god baby I want you." I moaned.

He attacked my lips with his, and gently put the tip of his erection into me.

He pulled it out, teasing me.

I groaned, in disappointment.

He smirked, and spread my lips with his fingers, and forced all of himself into me

(Sorry I'm not really in the mood for a lemon :p)

I felt him, soft inside of me as his arms were wrapped lazily around me.

After we got up, and woke the kids from their naps, we got them dressed to go into the pool.

Liam and Adam trotted happily outside, after Rob. I giggled, and Lily went running after them.

I walked outside, taking the towel off of the counter. I had to say, for having three kids, I looked pretty damn good. I was finally able to fit into my leopard bikini from our honeymoon, and that…was rewarding.

I smiled at my husband, who was putting swimmies on the kids.

"Daddy, I don't wanna wear da swimmies." Adam protested.

Lily was running to the slide, her swimmies on, waiting patiently to go in.

"Adam, if you want to go into the pool, you need your swimmies." Rob told him.

After all the kids had their swimmies, we were ready to go into the pool. Rob got in first, ready by the slide to make sure all the kids got into the pool in one piece.

After they slid down, I went up to the diving board, and jumped into the 12 feet area. I made my way over to the kiddie area where the kids were happily jumping through the water spouts.

I sawn over to Rob, and got onto his shoulders.

I leaned down, and wrapped my arms around his neck.

"Look at what we created." I smiled.

I watched my kids play, and laugh, still amazed at how I had took part in creating them.

FRIDAY

"Rob…I don't want to take it." I told him, holding the test in my hands.

"Sweetheart, I don't care if your not pregnant, but don't you think that it would be good nice to know if you are?" He asked.

I had been throwing up constantly, and my hormones were raging. But that didn't mean I was pregnant. I could have menopause for god's sake.

I took a deep breath, and nodded. "Okay." I said.

1 MINUTE LATER

"Rob?" I asked.

"Yea, love?"

"I'm scared."

"Don't be."

"Okay."

"Rob?"

"Yea?"

"What about money?"

"We have enough, don't worry."

"Kay."

"Rob?"

"Hmm?"

"What about the kids? What if they don't want another baby in the house?""They'll love the baby, love." He said, frustrated.

"Rob?""Kristen. Stop it. It'll be okay, alright?" He said, stroking my hair.

"Okay." I sighed.

3 minutes later

I looked to my husband as the timer beeped. He had a big, goofy grin on his face.

"What is it?" I asked, impatiently.

"We're having a baby." He smiled.

Oh god.

I looked down, and my stomach turned into one huge knot.

"Love, what's wrong?" He asked, turning me around to face him.

"Rob…I can't carry a baby to term. The doctors said they would have to deliver him prematurely. 3 months premature. Survival rates for the baby are low, and I---I could die too." I said.

"Oh, love no. That isn't going to happen. I won't let anything happen to you, or the baby." He said. Trying to soothe me.

"Besides, the doctor also said that there's a chance that you can carry to term, and everything would be fine." He said.

I tried to force a smile, thinking maybe that would be the case.

"Babe, I swear, everything is going to be fine." He smiled.

TWO MONTHS LATER

"Shit." I whispered.

"What?" Rob asked.

"Damn paparazzi." I told him.

He shook his head. Our cover was officially blown.

"Screw them." I smiled.

He nodded, and I turned back to the strollers.

"I like this one." I pointed to the blue and yellow one that looked comfortable. It was deep, so the baby was secured. With a removable pillow. It was large enough for Lily, or the boys. The price was a little high, though.

"Love, don't you think two hundred for a stroller is a little crazy?" He asked.

"We're having a baby." I smiled.

He nodded, and went to go get someone to the get the stroller for us. I could get a lot of things I wanted while being pregnant.

We went to the doctor yesterday, and he told us that my uterus had stretched a few inches, making it a more likely chance that I could carry the baby for the full nine months.

"Sweetie, we just watched the wiggles this morning." I tired to reason with my daughter. "Please mommy?" She begged.

"Okay, alright, come on." I said, walking into my daughters bedroom.

After watching the wiggles, I decided that it was time to cook dinner.

"I have a surprise for you." Rob smiled at me as we washed the dishes. I dried my hands, and leaned against the counter.

"And what would that be?" I asked.

"You'll see." He smiled.

Once he finished cleaning, he walked to the bedroom, and pulled out the handkercheif from the dresser.

He tied it around my head, causing me to giggle.

"What---"

"Shhh…you'll find out. Be patient, love." I could hear the smile in his voice.

He lead me to a room, and finally took the blindfols off of me.

I looked around, and tears came to my eyes at what I saw. He finished the nursery. It was yellow, and bright.

"It's beautiful." I smiled at my husband.

"I figured that yellow can go both ways." He said, looking around at his work.

"It's perfect, thank you." I laughed, wrapping my arms around Rob's neck.

"It was nothing." He smiled.

"It better be a girl. I don't think I can take another boy." He sighed.

I laughed, and locked his lips with mine.

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