I must have been making a fool of myself all this time trying to flirt with Jacob. I had no clue how to flirt. And I have no clue how I did it the first time at the beach when I first met him.

I really wish he would drop the conversation. I wasn't sure how to put it, I wanted to try being with him, but even now before I tell him that, the few times I tried to flirt with him felt wrong. I kept hearing his voice and my own mind as well, telling me I was betraying him. And all those times I pushed away the thought.

Now as the conversation was going to bring up my flirting attempts, the back of mind was telling me this was wrong. And Edward's voice was slowly rising and so was his anger. I could already hear his voice appearing in my thoughts. It was faint but it was growing along with the conversation.

I pushed it away and tried to push on the embarrassing conversation. It would lead to me and Jacob being together sooner or later. And that would keep Jacob around me more. And that would keep the depressed lonely feeling away from me. Jacob was the cure.

"Speak what's on your mind Jake." I spoke trying to push on the conversation and push away his voice.

I could hear Edward growl in my thoughts at what I was doing.

Now I had a second reason why I wanted to be with Jacob. Because the more I pushed at it, the more I would hear Edward's voice. I had found a second way to hear his voice.

And like the addict I was, I would use this to hear his voice more.

"Well, Bella you know how I feel. You know that 's no secret. But are you trying to flirt with me? Have you been?" Jacob spoke, awakening me from my knew revelation and discovery.

I rolled my eyes at Jacob's question. "Yes, I have. I thought it was obvious. But then again maybe I'm just not the best at this." I said, ending with a nervous chuckle.

He stared at me in bewilderment. Then I saw a big smile appear on his face. Not just any smile, the smile that once belonged to my Jacob.

"Wow." he spoke at first. "Not that I don't approve of your knew behavior Bella but, what brung on all of this?"

"Remember when we were talking on the phone the other day? And I said I wanted to try getting over him again?"

"Yeah."

"And I believe I also said, 'I don't want to be stupid anymore, I want to move on.'" I said looking down nervously, a blush growing in my cheeks. Edwards growl grew louder in my head.

"Oh." he said understanding. "I thought when this finally happened, I would be ecstatic and flirt back with you but I guess I was too surprised and angry to realize it at first."

I picked up my head at that.

"You really believed that all that time I would really chose you at the end?" Not believing he was really that determined.

"I believed it would take a lot f work, but yeah I believed that."

"Thanks for believing in me." I said with a small smile. This felt better, but yet wrong.

"I always didn't believe it. And that's what made me mad of course. Thinking I should just give up because it really did seem like you would always love him most at the end." he said picking up his head to look at me as he cleaned his wrench with a towel and wiped his hands clean.

I looked away.

I still did love Edward more. There was no denying that. But I wasn't about to tell Jacob that. And I slowly started to realize I couldn't hear Edward. I suddenly started to think of what I could say next to provoke him and get him speaking again.

Then I realized what I was doing. Now I was only wanting to be with Jacob because it made Edward speak. I was now only doing this to feed my own addiction. This was not healthy for me, I was trying to get over him and be with Jacob and now it was turning to the only reason I wanted to be with Jacob was because I could hear him in my head again.

Once again Jacob spoke breaking through another one of my daze's.

"You still love him more don't you?"

I didn't turn back to look at him.

There was long silence as he stood there looking at me.

"Yes" I finally said in a whisper.

I was afraid of what Jacob would do next. I watched him from the corner of my eye.

"And if he would come back," Jacob spoke at last. He voice was low, it sounded shaky and restrained. He paused mid sentence, seeming not to have it in him to ask. But he surprised me by finishing the question. Good thing I had a good answer to that, an answer I was sure of.

"you would run straight to him, wouldn't you?" he said lifting his eyes to me.

I sighed. "we would never have to worry about that, because he would never come back." I said trying hard not to let my voice break at the end.

He was silent. They were both silent.

I listened to see if Edward would speak again.

After a moment of silence, I spoke.

"Do you think that, maybe with time, that…I would get over him?" I turned to Jacob hopefully.

"Completely, I mean?"

I already knew the answer to this. But I wanted him to believe I could. I needed him to believe it. I knew he did though.

"Yeah, with time. Alot of time." he stretched out the word. He looked out of the door and we both watched the horizon. I wondered what he was thinking. He seemed doubtful like something upset him nut I could still see burning hope in his eye.

"So well try." I simply stated.

"Yeah, well try. That's all I've been asking Bella, to give it a chance." he said.

"If you believe it, I believe it." And after that we stared out at the sunset from his garage in silence.

I would let him try and I would try my hardest too. But I awfully doubted I would ever get over Edward. And along the way while we tried, I would try to provoke him to speak. It would be my little game. It was like now I would be getting back at him for leaving. And when I hear his voice, it was like he was really jealous.

When Jacob and I went to the drive in movie together. I had fun with the voice.

I leaned closer into Jacob.

We had agreed to take it slowly and act like how we were before all of this. We still held hands and sat close to each other as always. But this time it wasn't just as close friends, it meant a little more. And at times I pushed it so I could hear Edward's voice.

As I leaned closer into him to try to hear the voice again, Jacob put his arm around me. And then my try was rewarded. I herd Edward growl. Then I leaned in closer as if we were going to kiss.

"Bella, Don't!"

What's wrong Edward? Jealous? I spoke back to the voice for the first time. I smiled at his discomfort. He was so cute when he was jealous.

Jake saw my smile and he took it as an invitation. He smiled too.

Edward didn't have to be a mind reader or be here to read Jacobs mind at this moment to know what he was thinking of doing next. He growled louder then before. I didn't have to be a mind reader either to understand. I smiled again at Edward's reaction. And it encouraged Jacob more.

"Stop it Bella." He hissed.

To bad if you don't like it, maybe you shouldn't have it left! I threw in his face, screaming at him at the top of my mental lungs, letting out my anger at last at him.

Jacob began to lean in closer to me.

"Please, Don't Bella!"

I leaned in closer to Jacob as well smiling, go get more of a reaction out of Edward.

If you don't like it, why don't you just come back and stop me yourself!

Silence.

My mind had not come up with a reason for him to return. And of course his voice was a daydream in my head, that I would let go to far. Of course Edward didn't care what I did, he would never be here jealous. What did I expect my mind and imagination to do next? Conjure up a life like illusion of Edward to appear beside me and pull me out of the car, away from Jacob as an answer to my challenge.

I wish, then at least would have an excuse. Now Jacob had gotten the wrong idea, and was expecting us to kiss and I just wasn't ready for that. I always let my daydreams go to far.

"Ugh, I'm going to go get some more popcorn." I quickly said as I leaned away from him and jumped out of the car, watching his surprised expression.

I walked away hastily, feeling guilty. I was using him, just so I could satisfy my addiction, this wasn't right.

See what you've done now! I blamed imaginary Edward.

"I'm not the one with the imaginary X-vampire boyfriend's voice in there head!" He shot back.

Oh shut up! I retorted.

"You know you really don't mean that. Why else would you be dating Jacob Black only to hear my voice?"

That's not true! I'm trying here! I lied to us both.

"Jacobs trying! Your not even trying to get over me Bella!"

How can I? When I start to try your jealous voice appears in my head!

"Yeah and your pushing at it to hear me."

What do you want from me? To try to get over you or not?

"I want what's best for you, but I don't want to lose you!"

Then why did you leave?!

Tears started going down my cheeks.

Your driving me insane here! Answer me!

More Silence.

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