WARNINGS: coarse language

All too quickly 'Anti Pop' had ended too, marking another milestone towards the end of another amazing Live show by the GazettE. While the stage had blacked-out again, the girls all made really loud 'aww' sounds, even though it wasn't really heard over the applause. They were upset because they preferred to watch the band getting ready for the next song, but sometimes that night it seemed the lighting crew loved to keep the fans in suspense. And the fact there were extended breaks between songs meant the fans could spend a longer length of time watching the concert, so no one complained – maybe it was the band's idea? The girls squinted and strained their eyes to try and see onto the stage but it was just too dark, and the only lighting once again was the foot-lights around the seating area … so it was pointless. While the audience was fidgeting and calling out to their favourite band member, the girls turned around to talk to Mariko and Yuki again. Kikyo was the one to speak first to Yuki.

"Hey, how many Live gigs have you been to? This is obviously not your first if you're that good at making cosplay costume! My friends and I were at the Nameless Liberty Finale but we weren't this close … more like back before the middle of the floor".

Yuki laughed and nodded.

"Mariko and I have been to a few Live's, yeah. I got to see them in Sapporo during their Nameless Liberty Tour because I was visiting my cousin. Unfortunately Mariko wasn't in Sapporo with me, but my cousin came to see the concert instead. It was so cold waiting outside, but during the show Kai got up and apologised for us having to wait in the snow".

The girls once again made 'aww' sounds – that was sweet of Kai. Then Mariko spoke.

"I wish I could have seen the Sapporo Live but at least we both got to see the Finale in Budoukan. We were actually up on the balconies to the left a little …"

She turned around and gestured to the spot that was roughly where they had been – it was easy to show considering the interior of Yoshiatsu was similar to Budoukan.

"So we got quite a good view of the whole stage, but sadly we were a bit too far away to see their faces".

Mariko pouted a little and Yuki laughed before patting her back softly. Ai, Kikyo, Megumi and Kira laughed too while Mika also pat Mariko on the shoulder – they pretty much knew how Mariko and Yuki felt because they too had been far from the stage. Fans had to be lucky to get front-row seats in time before the tickets sold out … so the seven of them had to be really lucky this night, and they weren't going to forget it. Suddenly they perked up when the rest of the audience began to stir and the stage lit-up. Aoi was again standing with his arms wrapped around his acoustic guitar – that meant another slow song. Ruki was gripping the mic with both hands on its stand, his head slightly bowed like in the start of 'Reila'. He simply lifted his eyes to the vast hall in front of him before lowering his head again, and Kai started off the opening of 'Hanakotoba' before Aoi followed soon after. The fans cheered excitedly but quieted down again to hear the song.

After the solemness of 'Saraba' and the hype of 'Anti Pop', a song such as 'Hanakotoba' was a soft break in the music that the fans could just stand and listen to. Ruki kept his hands cupped over the mic for the first verse before he pulled it off the stand and moved sideways to stand beside it, so he could see out over the audience. He could just see a small group of fans near the middle of the floor that swayed briefly from side-to-side … until he again found himself looking at his dream girl. He noticed she was softly singing along and leaning with her arms stretched out over the railing. Two friends on her left had their arms linked while two on the other side were bobbing their heads along to the music, one with a hand on dream girl's shoulder. Now was as good a time as any … and what he was about to do was not part of their concert planning.

Ruki walked away from his platform, towards the edge of the stage near that girl. Aoi, Reita, Kai and Uruha watching him and wondered what the hell he was doing but they just kept playing, trying not to show how confused they were. Ruki then kneeled down right on the stage edge to keep singing, and Mika snapped out of her daze to look at him wide-eyed. Just as he began the chorus, he reached out and gestured with one finger for her to approach him. He was taking a big risk in doing this because some of the fans might have rushed forward in excitement, when all he wanted was for this one girl to approach him. Kikyo and Megumi were so excited and shocked at the same time that they practically forced Mika to duck underneath the railing. Mika spun around to stare in panic at her friends before slowly turning back to look up at Ruki – she felt her face growing hot when she realised how close she was to him.

Ruki held his hand out for hers, and after a moment frozen on the spot, she stepped forward and hesitantly gave it to him. Poor Mika could feel the icy stares from Ruki-fans on her back but she dared not turn around. She had Ruki of the GazettE singing to her and holding her hand … there was no way she was going to miss a second of it. Mika noticed how hot his hands were as he gently closed his fingers over her small hand and remained there while he kept singing to her. And she could so clearly see how damp him face was from being covered in sweat – those stage lights must be pretty strong to leave him and the other guys looking like that. Strangely, Mika felt like Ruki was tightening his grip on her hand, like he was not going to let go. She dropped her gaze from his face to look at their clasped hands and, lifting her eyes again to stare at him, she found herself gripping his hand tighter too, without realising what she was doing.

For most of the song Ruki never once let go of her hand or moved from where he kneeled. And by the time the song was almost over, both of them had even changed from holding hands to tangling fingers together like they were a couple in love. No offence to Ruki, but when he had moved his hand to tangle his fingers in with hers, she then had to move forward a little more. As a result she was actually feeling a tiny bit deaf because his voice was a lot stronger up close, and coupled with the loudspeakers, her ears were getting a real bashing. Finally as Ruki was finishing the last little verse, he slowly let her hand go and stood up to back away. Mika stared at him for a moment longer before realising she had to go back to her seat, and she did just that; ducking back under the railing to stand between Kikyo and Megumi. Aoi and Kai were the last two to be playing before the music faded away, the light slowly dimming with them before finally going out. The audience broke into clapping and screaming before Mika felt her shoulder being tapped – it was Mariko.

"Oh my gosh, I can't tell you how lucky you are! Most girls go to so many concerts just dying for their favourite guy to sing or play for them!"

Mika laughed anxiously, relieved that Mariko wasn't jealous but nervous about what other fans would be thinking right now. Mariko clapped her hands excitedly.

"I wish I was in your place just now! And you've probably made every Ruki-fan in this hall jealous, but don't worry about them. He never sings to a particular person in the audience so you should feel really special!"

Mika was listening to Mariko with a little smile on her face – she was also pretty sure Ai, Kikyo, Megumi, Kira and Yuki were talking excitedly to her but she couldn't hear them … she was too out of it to notice. That short moment of standing so close to Ruki and holding his hand was the only thing she could think of. Maybe Mariko was right – Ruki really didn't sing to anyone in particular from the audience. Usually because as soon as he were to jump down or even get close to the stage edge, he could possibly get pounced on by overly excited fans. Mika could just see Megumi, Ai, Kira and Kikyo all nodded enthusiastically at her when she looked around at her friends – they knew how much she liked Ruki so they believed Mika should feel special too. They had a feeling Mika would be taking about that little event for weeks to come.

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During another short break between songs, the atmosphere of the hall was a combination of anxiousness and adrenaline as they waited for the band to keep playing. These extended pauses between each song were almost excruciating, like it was their intention to make the fans want more and more and never be satisfied. This was exactly how the girls felt; they were starting to fidget too because they just wanted to see their favourite guy. Mariko and Yuki as per normal would chat to the girls in between songs when there was enough time; at least they still had the dim floor lights so they could just see each other. Once or twice, while she was talking to Mariko and Yuki, Mika could swear a few fans here and there were either giving her 'the look' or visibly whispering to each other out of jealousy. Mika puffed out her cheeks in annoyance – were they still pissed off about what happened a moment ago? What was their problem?

All he did was sing to her, it could happen to anybody … but perhaps the fact it was Ruki they were jealous about had something to do with it. The fact he singled Mika out and not them. Finally she just decided to ignore them and enjoy the rest of the concert – after all, it just seemed to be her lucky day, what with getting a bit of attention from Ruki. Mika felt a bit down that once the concert was over she would never experience it again but she'd never forget it, and she'd never throw away the flower he'd given her. It was kind of silly to say but even if Ruki was only doing things different for a change, all of these little bits of attention he was showing her … almost felt like it had real meaning. The flower simply felt like a random occurrence, but all through the concert, he just seemed to be seeking her out every other time … and then when he held her hand tightly … was it stupid to think he meant to do it?

Meanwhile up on the stage, each of the guys was taking a moment to cool off again. Aoi was leaning on his mic-stand with both arms crossed over the top. Reita was now dabbing a towel over his forehead and even trying to get it under his noseband, which was hard to do seeing there wasn't much room to get the towel under it. Kai was pulling the back of his shirt out so the breeze from the electric fan would cool his back; he was also laughing and having a joke about it with one of the staff next to him. Uruha was crouching down in front of his own fan with his eyes closed – he couldn't wait to change before the encore. Ruki had propped himself against Kai's platform with a water bottle stuck in his mouth and just staring into the blackness before his feet. After briefly meditating he stood up and set the bottle down on the step before carefully, making sure he didn't fall on anything, walking over to Uruha to signal for the next song. The guitarist stood up and got himself ready because he was to start off first – 'Anata no Tame no Kono Inochi'.

Through the darkness that still covered the stage, Uruha had barely begun to play those first few chords of the song and Ruki had only just sung the opening line, and the fans were already cheering. By the time Aoi, Reita and Kai had joined in too, the stage lit up again in a blaze of bright lights. Ruki was also surprisingly doing his little dance from the beginning of the video clip. The fans couldn't help but laugh because in his 'Regret' costume it looked really odd; the way he swung his arms back-and-forth, up-and-down was almost comical. They were used to his black costume with the white shredded lengths of material tied around his arms and legs. But regardless of how he looked, Ruki seemed to having fun with it and he got right back into singing again. To any who listened carefully, his voice had developed so much since that song had been release … he was actually having trouble adjusting his voice to the music.

The girls were all thinking the same thing – here was one song that hadn't been performed in a very long time. The last major event that it was played at would have been the Heisei Banka Final, the bands second big concert. A real turning point for the band at that time and also a big turning point for the guys dress-sense … especially Ruki. The girls hadn't been interested in the GazettE until after that concert and since then they had grown more and more fond of these five talented guys. It was a real surprise to see them now compared to then, and it was barely two years ago. Everything from their style in costume to their development in music had changed dramatically for the better, and the fans continued to love them more and more because of it. But it was still great to hear 'Anata no Tame' again, even if it was already an out-dated song.

Aoi, Reita and Uruha didn't waste time in jumping out from their places to line up along the stage edge again. Reita and Ruki stood either side of his platform while Aoi and Uruha ran out onto the walkways to play for the fans on the balcony. During the first chorus both guitarists ran back to take up their places either side of Ruki's platform so Reita and Ruki could run out onto the walkways too. To fans delight, Ruki began to climb onto the railing while he sang, giving fans the impression he was climbing up to them. But he only stood up on the bars and pointed out over the floor, earning screams of waving hands from the fans below and in the balcony. Even Reita couldn't help showing off too; he stepped up onto the lowest bar on the railing and then jumped backwards off it as he kept playing. Even Kai was having a bit of fun after playing a mellow song like 'Hanakotoba' – 'Anata no Tame' was more fast-paced so he could really let go.

Fans on the balcony near him cheered excitedly before he ran back to the main stage. During all of the choruses fans waved their arms in circular motions in the air and through verses they simply waved hands in random motions to the beat. The girls were actually doing their own thing for a change instead of going with the crowd, only swaying their hands from side-to-side out in front of themselves. They also sang a bit harder than any other songs they'd sung along to that night because they'd missed this particular one, and would probably never hear it Live again. Finally as the last chorus finished and Ruki was just singing the last two lines, Aoi, Reita and Uruha ran back to their places as the music was ending. After the last spoken line by Ruki, Uruha screeched out the last few chords on his guitar and they continued to echo on and on without ceasing … he seemed to be extending that last chord on purpose, as his fingers seemed to be rubbing the strings against the fingerboard.

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The fans all had their arms stretched up into the air while they clapped, cheered and whistled as the last chord gradually faded out. They had expected the stage to blackout or turn dim again after the song but it stayed lit-up in a flare of bright beams. This meant that something was going to happen; either another speech or the band was about to play another hyped song. The fans watched the stage eagerly, still with the hands waving and clapping in the air, as each of the guys seemed to hunch over strangely. Kai was bent over his drums, head bowed. Reita was in his playing stance, holding his bass at the ready and also with his head bowed. Aoi and Uruha were the same as Reita – in playing stance, guitars ready, heads down. Ruki was leaning down over his platform, one hand placed on it and hanging his head. Neither of them was making a sound; only the fans could be heard cheering.

Even though they were screaming loudly well after the song finished, the guys did not move – the fans began to wonder what was going on and why weren't they moving. The only movement on stage was their hair as strands fluttered around their faces from the breeze of the electric fans at their feet. And the only sound from the stage was the low humming of the bass and guitar amps, but the cheering only drowned it out. Now some of the fans were beginning to quiet down because they couldn't understand why the band was only standing there – even the girls had stopped applauding too because of the same reason. Finally the crowd worked up into a chant and clap – "Gazetto, Gazetto" – in hopes that it would stir the band. Eventually Ruki slowly lifted the mic to his mouth and paused for a moment, though he didn't stand up straight but kept his hunched position. Fans noticed him move and they stopped chanting to wait for him to speak.

"Ano …"

His voice was barely audible in that word; he sounded tired. The audience didn't make a sound.

"… we are almost at an end … it has been a long, busy last few weeks for us …"

Fans clapped appreciatively, to show they loved that night's concert even though the band was tired. Suddenly Ruki stood up straight and jumped up onto his platform, throwing back his head to shout with all his strength into the mic.

"Let's fucking take this out!"

Just as the audience cheered with all of their strength, Kai clashed the cymbals on his drums a few times before Aoi, Reita and Uruha jumped in with the beginning of 'Discharge'. Ruki went off on his own and kept up with the head banging as the fans followed him … it wad a spectacular sight the way his dreadlocks flew with each throw of the head. Even the girls joined in – though the first time they heard 'Discharge' they thought it might have been a bit too heavy for them, especially when there was a lot of head banging involved. But it quickly grew on them, and as the band had always said about the song, it was a great way to unwind and let go. Just as Ruki stopped leading the fans and there was that little break at the start when it was just the music, he stood up tall on his platform and raised one arm over his head. He gave an all might scream to the mic then and anyone sensitive to high-pitched sounds, especially those closest to the stage, instantly felt chills up their spines.

And with that Ruki led the band and the fans into another round of head banging, this time being the circular motion. The girls had to make sure they were all going the same way because there wasn't a lot of space between them – at least they could lean over the railing where there was enough room. After the band finished leading the fans and concentrated on playing Aoi, Reita and Uruha moved away from their corners again where they could stretch out along the stage and Ruki began shouting indistinguishable dialogue into his mic. Of course being no set lyrics to the song 'Discharge' so he could say just about anything he felt like. As he'd mentioned before it started, the last few weeks had been hard for the band, so the whole hall could hear the occasional 'fuck' and 'shit' in there somewhere.

The other guys even pitched in with the chorus – if it can be called that – with shouting 'Follow this shit!' Each time it was shouted, the fans jumped and punched their fists into the air, also screaming at the top of their lungs even though it was barely heard over the noise the GazettE were making. As this song was also coming to an end and the music seemed to slow down, giving fans the impression it was finished, Ruki raised his arm and shouted 'Last one!' before jumping right into the last round of head banging. The music immediately picked up again and the guys followed their singer; even the fans didn't waste time joining in too as they started again. Eventually the song came to its real end and all that was left of it were off-key and scratchy chords coming from Aoi and Uruha's guitars. Reita was roughly plucking random strings on his bass and Kai bashed his cymbals in no particular order just to make a bit more noise. Combined with the screams of cheering from fans, there was so much noise in the hall that it seemed to vibrate around the walls.

The girls couldn't help but clap their hands to their ears to try and block some of the noise out – in looking around they could just see a couple of fans a few rows back who were doing the same. This was of course the first time they'd been so close to the stage so it was possible that had something to do with how loud it was. As they looked back at the stage they could see each of the guys starting to organise themselves to leave the stage – so the main part of the concert was over already? Through the cheers that did not cease, the fans watched each member eagerly. Reita took off his bass and set it in its cradle against the back wall. Aoi and Uruha took off their guitars and fumbled to hang them on their mic-stands before following Reita off left side stage. Ruki jammed the mic back into its stand before striding after them, holding an up-side-down middle finger to the audience. Kai now stood up and walked around his drums to descend the platform, and he too followed the others off stage, not once looking at the audience.

The fans and the girls noticed how exhausted the guys were and they couldn't be blamed, the concert had gone off from the very start. The hard rock songs would get everyone hyped up, then the band would play softer songs to calm everyone down, and then just when you think it couldn't get anymore relaxed, they'd pump out another hard song. So the GazettE had just played 'Discharge' before leaving the stage … that meant it wasn't over yet. Not even Ruki would just walk out without saying a word. There was going to be an encore that was certain, because the stage was still fully lit-up, their instruments hadn't been touched and no staff members had come on to the stage. The band had only been off stage for maybe fifteen seconds and the fans were now beginning to chant 'Encore, Encore!' Megumi and Mika were the first to join in with clapping and chanting, and then Ai, Kira and Kikyo followed. It wouldn't be long before the GazettE would come back out, refreshed and ready to finish the show properly.

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Once each of the guys had safely made it off stage, with Kai being the last to join them, a staff member then led them away to the side-stage exit. During the short walk back to the dressing room neither of the guys said anything to each other, only keeping to themselves while each got their breath back. A couple of other staff run up behind the band and handed out fresh clean towels to the guys, which they took gratefully with a nod but nothing else. Neither of them just could not speak at that moment, especially Kai – his arms, legs and neck was starting to ache from drumming so hard. Aoi, Reita and Uruha were drenched through and their shirts clung like shrink-wrap to their bodies – Aoi couldn't wait to take off the soaked black singlet he'd been wearing under the silver jacket he'd removed earlier. Ruki's hair had to be fixed before the encore because during 'Discharge' a couple of dreads had come loose and they hung limply framing his face.

Even though the backstage was a little below ground level, as the guys came into their dressing room they could still hear the encore chanting very clearly. It was in sync all the way, which for the guys meant that the fans genuinely wanted an encore. Ruki proceeded to quickly change out of his black jacket and the white shirt followed. Aoi pulled the singlet over his head and lazily dropped it onto a chair that had his silver jacket lying across the back of it. Kai un-buttoned his sleeveless white shirt, threw it over the back of another chair and reached for his 'One Night Stand' gig t-shirt. Reita wriggled out of his white vest and then pulled the patchy grey shirt over his head, but being careful not to mess his expertly styled hair. Uruha was standing in a daze behind another chair, his white vest in both hands, half naked and staring up at the ceiling – he was listening to the chanting.

"Well … at least we know they want an encore. It'd be cruel not to now, seeing we didn't address them before leaving the stage".

He stopped listening and dropped the vest onto the chair as he grabbed his own gig t-shirt.

"You put together a great set-list, Kai. It left the fans not knowing what was going to happen next".

Kai laughed shortly, still out of breath, and nodded a thankyou as he yanked the t-shirt over his head and pushed his arms through the sleeves.

"Now you know why I was switching songs around all the time. I spent hours listening to combinations of songs. In the end I just chose a few from each of our CD's so far, then mixed them around to get the right flow. It has worked out pretty well, I think".

During Uruha and Kai's conversation, another staff member rushed in with a heated pad and made Kai sit down before laying it carefully over the drummer's shoulders before leaving again. Kai's face contorted into a pained expression at the heat but tried to ignore it as he kept talking to Uruha. The guitarist had finally realised he was still half naked and proceeded to put his own gig shirt on. Aoi had already changed and was sitting in the corner of the room, leaning over his knees with elbows resting on them, mentally physicing himself up. Reita was doing the same before he had to sit down and let one of the make-up girls touch-up any smudges in his make-up. Ruki remained relatively quiet as he went about changing into his gig t-shirt with a light black jacket over it. He then set himself into an empty chair so the other make-up girl could fix his hair.

Within a couple of minutes both girls were done, so they left the room to leave the guys alone. With this Ruki turned his chair around so it faced one of the brightly lit mirrors, rested his elbows on the desk and cupped both hands over the top half of his face, covering forehead and eyes, like he was thinking. Reita watched Ruki in the mirror for a moment before he turned and shoved Ruki's shoulder, seeing he was close enough. Kai, Uruha and Aoi looked up when Ruki barked an annoyed 'Hey!' at Reita. The guys had never seen Ruki so mood-swingy before – his stage performance was normal, except the odd occasion he'd do something they hadn't planned like singing to a girl in the front row, and now in the dressing room he was rather jumpy and seemed distracted. Something was definitely different about him. Ruki frowned at Reita as the bassist turned his chair towards him and leaned forward.

"Alright, what is with you tonight? What was all that out there, are you trying to stuff up the show?"

Reita raised an arm and gestured towards the door, meaning the stage. Ruki scoffed and shook his head before slouching in his chair and leering at the mirror – he couldn't be bothered hearing about this now, the show wasn't a flop after all. Reita went on.

"First you give your jacket flower to a random girl outside when we arrive, then you start talking shit about dreamy-love out there, next you suddenly forget to talk until Kai saves your ass …"

Reita starts counting off things on his fingers and Ruki just discretely rolls his eyes – the forgetting to talk is nothing new because he sometimes got nervous when talking to the fans, big deal.

"Then you keep going over to some girl in the front row, so let me guess … it's the girl you gave the flower to? You even got her to approach you, take her hand and bloody sing to her? What the hell are you doing?"

"Alright, alright, alright, shut it!"

Ruki shouted over Reita's increasingly booming voice as he waved a hand in Reita's face. Aoi stood up to address Ruki as well.

"Yeah, I noticed all that too … it was hard not to. I even recognise three of the girls beside her. They were working at the store I went into this afternoon to ask for directions. So when you did all this stuff I almost lost concentration. What brought all this on, are you sick or something?"

"Guys enough! I'm not sick, you know me better than that! I mean, how can you explain things that people do, seriously? Even I don't understand what I'm doing …"

Ruki spun his chair around to face the other guys, shrugging and shaking his head as he said the last sentence.

"It's just … I thought that the girl I gave my flower to, I'd never see her again … fair enough … but when I saw her in the front row with it pinned to her hair … I don't know, I just wanted to communicate with her somehow".

Ruki had a dejected expression as he leaned forward on his knees and cupped both hands over his nose and mouth. Reita, Kai, Uruha and Aoi looked around at each other, speechless … so this whole thing was about a single fan who had caught their singers attention, so he'd been trying to communicate with her all night in front of the whole hall? Now they really did think he was loosing it. Reita leant forward on his knees too.

"Man … what are you doing that for? No offence, but when I got close enough to see her, she looks about twelve … what are the fans going to thi-"

"Oh look, don't give me that crap, I know damn well what I'm doing! And before you interrupt me again, I know she's not a minor, so why should I care what our fans think? Come on, I love our fans deeply but my mind is made up, Rei …"

"…uh, made up on what?"

Reita asked nervously.

"I want to meet her. Tonight at the after party".

It was then that Kai stepped in, wincing a little from the aches as he stood up and looked anxious at Ruki.

"Wait Ruki, you can't just invite fans backstage, it doesn't work like that! We've never invited fans backstage before, and for good reason. And how are you going to explain this girl showing up to the after party?! You won't pull this off, our manager will kill y-"

"Come on, Kai, please trust me on this! I have to meet her, and if I don't do it tonight then I will never get this chance again … Look, this is all my idea anyway, so if our manager asks, just tell him the truth".

"Truth about what?"

A familiar voice came from the door to their dressing room. The guys turned to see their manager standing against the doorframe. He was not normally a fashionable man but tonight he was in black dress pants, white business shirt, short black hair combed back with gel and thin-framed glasses. They all froze for a fraction of a second before Kai smiled, trying to look and sound convincing as he thought of the first thing that came to mind.

"That we're all dying to get back out on stage".

"That's what I like to hear, because I was just coming in to see if you're ready. Staff, stage and fans are waiting for you so lets get going".

And with that he smiled with a nod before backing out of the room and walking off down the hall. All of the guys seemed to hold their breath the whole time he was there … and it felt likes a lifetime. Kai seemed to relax a little as he sighed silently and looked at the floor before glancing around to his band mates – they all thought he'd heard their conversation. Then Kai and Ruki locked gazes, coming to a silent understanding that Ruki would be doing all the explaining if he managed to bring this girl backstage. Finally, Ruki stood up and he walked out followed by Uruha, Kai, Aoi and Reita. Again neither of them spoke as they walked once more up the hallway to reach the side-stage door where a staff member let them through, also taking the heated pad from Kai. The stage was still partially lit since they left, and the fans were still chanting for an encore.

From where the guys were standing behind the thick black curtain again, they could just hear a loop track of 'The End' playing again. Though some fans still chanted 'Encore, encore', others could be heard shouting in time with the music – it was in surprising unison; an audience much more in-tune with the music than any other audience before. Aoi, Reita and Uruha, who were behind Ruki and Kai, were focusing on punching out the last three songs to make the ending show a good one. Kai was also trying to focus but he was still anxious about what Ruki wanted to do and how he was going to do it. Ruki already had an idea on how to get his mystery girl backstage but it'd require the help of a staff member after the concert ended … then he remembered that four other friends appeared to be with her and suddenly he began to feel nervous. How was he going to get five girls backstage now?

NOTES:
1) Ruki sings to Mika: As we all know, he doesn't really do this kind of thing but it was essential to the story
2) 'Discharge': I really like this track, because even though it's just making alot of noise, I really think this is the one song that everyone can relate to (the GazettE and fans alike). Everyone has bad days, and this is the perfect song to vent frustration as Uruha once said. And seeing there are no real lyrics to it, Discharge just focuses on the music. This is only my opinion of course
3) Ruki's mood-swings: I'm sure most of us have seen him looking cranky sometimes (even the other guys) and it just goes to show they're all human too. Personally I think the guys look hot in photoshoots when they look moody, but I still like to see them all smiling
4) Bringing fans backstage: Again we all know the guys don't do this but for the sake of the story I did it this way

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