Phase Nine – The Pain

I love her, then why did she have to do this to me? Why was I waiting for her here anyway? When I fully know what she was going to say to me when she get back. Her scent was coming closer and closer, and it was making me sick to think that I still love her. I know that I've done her wrong by getting mad at her, but I was mad at Alice too. She had Jasper, why the hell did she go and seduce Bella for? And now Bella had fallen for her, and it looked like she had these feelings locked up inside of her for quite a long time. She was going to come back here, and she would look at me with pain and guilt in her eyes, the look that I had seen in Alice's vision. I didn't want to stay in this house and wait for her, just to see her look for the second time. But something made me stay, it was like a strong feeling that I had to wait here for her, to listen to what she had to say for the second time. I didn't want this to happen, any of this. Rejection wasn't something I'd use to, and not only that, but being left behind as I watched the love of my life went to someone else' arms, my sister's arms.

I was so lost in my own thought that I didn't hear her calling out for my name. I quickly turned my focus to her, and there she was, standing there with the same look that I had seen a short moment ago. Pain and guilt, I flinched at the sight.

"Bella…" I didn't bother trying to listen to my voice, although I could hear that my voice was full of sadness. I knew exactly what was going to happen.

"I…We…" She sighed and shook her head. Everyone was silent, both in verbal and mental, I was grateful for that. Then she began. "I know that you must have seen it coming Edward, and I don't want you to witness it for the second time, and so I'm just going to say this. I'm sorry, I still love you but it's not the same love as before. I truly am sorry. You can yell at me, curse at me, I don't mind any of that. I know that you're in pain, I know that I've hurt you, but I can't keep lying to you. I'm not asking for your forgiveness, I'm just asking for your understanding."

I understood what she was saying. I understood her perfectly. I just didn't want to accept it. I put my face in my hands, and let out a low moan of pain, sorrow, sadness, and everything else that resembled what I was feeling. Not even Jasper's ability could help me now.

"Son…" I heard Carlisle softly called out for my name, but I just shook my head. I didn't want his sympathy at the moment. How could he take this so easily? Esme too. Why weren't they at my side?

"I…need time…to think…" Then I heard Esme's voice, but only in my mind.

Take as much time as you want, Edward. But please, do come back to us. I only nodded at her, before I found myself running towards the woods and entered it in a split of a second. I had to get out of there. I had to sort out my feelings, my thoughts, everything. I couldn't take it anymore, and I needed to be alone without hearing anybody.

Rosalie's POV

Well, that served him right, for marrying someone that had fallen completely in love with another, and not to mention our sister. If I was him, I wouldn't even want to get involve with the human, but then again, I've grown fond of her over the past years. I began to see where she was seeing in life, and I began to feel like I could live my undead life to the fullest, with the man that I love physically and emotionally.

I turned to look at Emmett, he was so still. I glanced up at his eyes and I could see unshed tears. He was such a sensitive man, and I love him for that. I took his hand in mine, interlacing our fingers together and gave his hand a light squeeze. He turned and looked at me, then smiled his dimple smile. I smiled back then looked over to Bella. She was shaking, involuntarily, I could tell how hard it was to say all of that to her former lover, and present husband. Then again, I wasn't sure if they were going to divorce now or not, but if they did how would that going to help them with anything.

It was then I felt a light tug of my top, and I turned to look down at a sleepy Renesmee. She looked up at me with tired, confusing eyes, and all I could do was looked down at her with my warming smile.

"Time for bed, Renesmee?" I never did like to call her by her nickname. I was on the same page as Bella on Renesmee's nickname. I didn't want to call her anything that would resemble a sea monster, when Renesmee wasn't any monster.

"I'm not tired…yet…" She yawned and I chuckled at her. Then I felt a presence near me, Bella. I turned to look at her, her face was soft now and I guessed that it was because of Renesmee. She bent down to her daughter, and scooped her up into her arms before turning to us, to the rest of the family.

"I better take Renesmee home and get her to bed." As she started to walk away, Carlisle came beside and gently placed his hand on her forearm.

"Stay, she can sleep in Edward's room." I didn't think that Carlisle thought about what he had said just then, because Bella bit down her bottom lip after hearing his name.

"Or, Nessie can sleep in mine and Jasper's room." Alice suggested.

"Alright, let's just do that." Carlisle agreed, and Bella let out a relief sigh. I could see that she wasn't ready to go into Edward's room and relive the memory of them being together. I watched as Bella walked upstairs with Renesmee in hands, then a second passed and Alice joined them. They didn't utter a word, and when Bella and Alice were out of my sight, I could hear a silent sob. We all could hear a silent sob. It was from Bella, and if she was sobbing like that, then Renesmee must have fallen asleep already. I wondered who I should be sending my sympathy to; Bella or Edward. Sure, we were all in pain for their loss, but not as much as they would be for each other. Bella had lost and gained, while Edward had lost the meaning of his life. I hoped that they would get better, I know that Bella would with Alice here. But Edward, I wasn't too sure.