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Hi I'm back and I bring the new chapter. But I desperately want y'all to realize that I have pretty much finished this baby and it's rounds out to 50 or so chapters so we've got a long way to go. And please don't hate me for this one...trust me have I ever steered you wrong before??? Huh??? Yeah I thought so...Enjoy.

Chapter21: Edward loses Izzy forever

"Son I'm really happy you and Izzy have worked things out," Carlisle said as his hand tightened on my shoulder. I looked up into his face and found that he was brimming with pride.

"So am I Carlisle." I smiled back at him. Rose huffed and tossed the deer that she had been feeding on down. She gave us both a pointed look.

"Oh for God sake! He didn't do anything, it was all Izzy," she hissed.

"Oh go burn your bra Rose," I snarled.

"Edward," Carlisle warned as he moved off to dispose of the carcass.

"What? She started it," I snapped. I knew I sounded like a child, but all in all we were just having fun.

"Well I'm ending it," Esme stated as she stepped in between Rosalie and me. She looked at Carlisle and snarled at him. Carlisle looked up in shock.

"What did I do?" Carlisle said. Rose and I snickered. Carlisle had been in the bad books more times than Emmett and that was saying something. Esme started to storm off towards the house, and we quickly followed her. From ahead of us we heard Esme mutter "unruly children" and "cant control." Carlisle shook his head.

I wonder if she's going through menopause.

I choked on my laugh and looked at Carlisle.

Well explain her behaviour then. He thought smirking. I shook my head and took off. Just as we rounded the house I saw Alice and Jasper sitting on ground while Emmett was standing stiffly in the middle of the drive. I looked over at Rose who shrugged her shoulders. Just then Izzy zoomed in from the highway, and, for a moment, I thought she was going to crash straight into Emmett. But she pulled into a front end wheelie, leaned out precariously, and planted a kiss on Emmett's nose. He let out a chuckle as the bike hit the ground with a thump. Jasper and Alice let out cheers.

Carlisle and Esme looked worried, their eyes darting from me to Izzy.

Oh, they think I'm going to lose it.

I chuckled and went over to where Izzy was explaining the finer details to Jasper.

"Just don't lean out to far, and you'll be fine," she said. She looked Jazz up and down before bursting into giggles. "What am I saying? You're a vampire. I should be worried about the dirt you collide into."

Jazz grinned and went over to wear he parked his bike.

"Okay sweetheart, let's try this motorcycle kiss."

Alice squealed and pushed Emmett out of the way, twirling lightly on her toes. Izzy rolled her eyes at me before revving the engine and doing a donut.

"Alice you have to be still."

Alice grinned and tried to keep still but she was too excited. She ended up looking like she was having a seizure. I looked over at Iz who was still sitting on her bike slowly revving the engine and grinning at me.

"Get over here and give your man a kiss," I demanded. She shook her head giggling. I growled at her.

"Woman, here. Now."

She laughed as gunned the engine again and balanced on the bike. She peeled around and skidded close to Emmett picking up her helmet and sliding it over her head. Then she chuckled.

"You'll have to catch me first," she whispered and shot off wiggling that tight ass behind her. I was about to run after her when Carlisle stopped me.

"She's going on the highway I think you had better find something a little less conspicuous."

I looked around and then ran into the garage, grabbing the keys to one of Izzy's other bikes.

"Uh I don't think so man. The Y2K is like a really fast bike," Emmett warned me.

"Well then it better be fast enough to catch up to Izzy then, huh?"

I laughed and jumped into the seat. I adjusted myself as Emmett chuckled at me. The seat was tiny but not uncomfortable. Though it was further away from the handlebars then Izzy's other bikes, I guessed that was for aerodynamics. I gunned the engine secretly thanking myself that I had a learnt to ride motorbikes in the early 70's. As I peeled out Jasper raced in and we saluted each other before I turned onto the highway.

Izzy had a definite head start, but her scent was strong. She was heading toward Mt. Rainer National Park, and I sped off after her. It didn't take long before I saw her. She looked behind her shoulder and let out a giggle.

"Well, well, well, Edward Cullen on a death trap," she teased as she took the first turn into the national park. Even though her face was hidden by the helmet, and she was 100 feet ahead of me, I still heard her crystal clear.

"Still want that kiss lover?" she taunted and shot off. I looked down at the Speedo and realized I was going 80mph. Izzy was going faster. I sped up after her and watched in amazement as she took the next turn with ease. She let out a chuckle.

"Shut your mouth Cullen; you'll catch flies."

As she straightened up, I saw it before she did. A jack rabbit darted across the road before stopping dead on Izzy's path. My stomach plummeted as I heard her gasp. Everything happened in slow motion. Even if I tried I wouldn't have gotten to her in time.

Nonononnononononnononononnononono

I felt a sick sense of pride when she didn't swerve pulling on the brake slowly. The rabbit disappeared under her front wheel a mass of fur and bones flinging out at all directions. The front wheel tilted fiercely, and I watched as the bike hitched flinging Izzy over the top of the bars.

"Oh shit," she murmured tucking herself into a ball trying desperately to protect her head. I looked away when I heard the sickening crash of her connecting with the tree.

"IZZY!" I yelled as I took the turn and jumped off the Y2K letting it spin off into the forest. I had my phone to my ear before I got to her.

"Carlisle, Izzy's had an accident. I need you here NOW!" I yelled before flinging my self down at Izzy side.

"Izzy? Izzy baby? Talk to me honey."

She groaned. I let out a large breath and started to assess her injuries. Her helmet was cracked down the middle from the impact of the tree, and it fell into two pieces when I touched it. I tossed them away angrily and probed her skull. My hands froze when I didn't find hard bone but mush. I let out a sob, and Izzy's brown eyes flicked open.

"Edward," she murmured.

"Yes Izzy. I'm here baby."

"Go fuck up that tree for me."

I smiled. "Of course honey."

"Edward…I don't…I.."

"What baby? Tell me."

She didn't answer me because her eyes rolled up into her head, and she started to fit. I held her as still as I could, silently screaming for Carlisle to hurry up. As if he heard me he materialized beside me his eyes full of emotion.

"Oh my God Izzy," he murmured. I looked over my shoulder to see Emmett jump out of his Jeep. I shook my head.

"Emmett there's blood."

"I don't care she's my sister. I won't leave her," he said striding over to us. He stopped when he saw her crumpled frame.

"Oh fuck. Iz?"

"Edward we need to get her to the hospital," Carlisle murmured as he probed her side noticing the broken ribs. I nodded and picked her up as carefully as I could laying her in the back of Emmett's jeep.

"Izzy stay with me please," I murmured into her ear. Emmett kept glancing back at me from the passenger seat his expression torn between worry and fear.

Edward her injuries are extreme.

"I know," I murmured answering Carlisle. He was trying to concentrate on what could help her, but I also knew the underlining fear that was accompanying those thoughts. As a doctor it was what he was programmed to do.

Be prepared son.

I didn't answer. I only just got Izzy back. It wasn't fair that she should be taken away from me so soon.

I watched as Izzy choked on blood. Her left lung was collapsed, pierced by one of her ribs. I could hear the gurgling of blood filling her, and I screamed at Carlisle.

"We're here Edward. We're here."

Things seem to rush around me my mind only focused on Izzy. Her breathing was laboured her face was devoid of all color. I choked as they took her from me and placed her on the gurney. Someone placed a neck brace around her and they wheeled her off. I raked my hands through my hair and then pulled viscously on the ends and moaned. Emmett pulled me to the side.

"She's strong, man."

"She's dying Emmett," I muttered turning away from him to look at Carlisle. He was having a fight with a bald man in a doctors coat.

"Fine," Carlisle spat before stalking away from him.

"They won't let me operate. I've worked the last 36 hours. They deem it too dangerous. If only they knew," Carlisle explained staring at the double doors they had rushed Izzy through. I sighed and let my shoulders drop. Just then the rest of my family rushed into the room looking frantic, and Emmett quickly filled them in on what had happened. I watched as Rose collapsed, and Alice went to her side trying to help her up.

"Not Izzy," Rose whispered. "She's my sister Alice."

Alice nodded and then sat down with her. They both hugged each other and sobbed into each others arms. Jasper stared down at them and then walked over to Esme. He put his arm around her and started sending out calming waves. Esme's thoughts were disturbing to say the least. She was wondering how I would kill myself when Izzy died and then wondering if she would go the same way. Her golden eyes snapped to mine.

"I'm sorry Edward. I can't lose another child."

"And I can not loose a mate and a mother," I countered. Her face dropped, and she finally let her shoulders heave as she sobbed. From her thoughts she began to think of her other children and how it would hurt them. And Carlisle.

"I'm so sorry Edward. This is all my fault."

I shook my head. "No, it's not your fault Carlisle."

"No it's mine," Emmett whispered.

"How?" I snapped angry at everyone for blaming themselves.

"If I didn't bring her home she wouldn't be here."

I snorted as I turned and stared at the doors where Izzy disappeared behind. I had taken enough blame in my long life. I wanted to be free of it but Fate seemed to be a cruel bitch and once again surrounded me with it. Only this time it wasn't my own.

"Emmett honey," Esme enveloped him in a hug.

"It's no one's fault Emmett. Things happen that are just out of our control," I murmured as I took a seat in the waiting room. I could feel everyone's eyes on me, but I ignored them concentrating on my hands.

And it's not yours either Edward.

I nodded. For once I agreed with Esme's silent thought.

Bang

Bang

Bang

"Emmett please stop that," Esme called. Emmett looked at the wall and noticed an indent of his head. He ducked his head sheepishly. Rose held her arms out and motioned for him to come to her. He practically sprinted to her side, and his big frame collapsed next to where she was sitting. He placed his head in her lap and sobbed. Rose glanced up at me her expression full of pain as she moved her fingers through his curls.

"There, there, baby. She'll be alright. She's Izzy."

Emmett snaked his hands around her legs and stared out into space. I sighed and looked at Alice. She was folded up in Jasper's embrace sobbing quietly. Jasper had his eyes closed, and he kept chanting.

I'll be your secret keeper, I'll be your secret keeper.

Seven hours. Seven hours they had been operating on her. Seven hours of staring at lime green walls and wondering whether I would be alone in this world once again.

Carlisle had gone to check on progress having the authority to at least see her through the viewing room. I had never envied my father more. Suddenly the doors opened and Carlisle strode through.

Edward…

I moaned and everyone was suddenly standing looking from Carlisle to me in horror.

"Carlisle what's going on?" Alice asked timidly.

"They managed to stop the internal bleeding, but she went into cardiac arrest twice. They revived her but…"

Carlisle's eyes flicked to me. I had already seen what had happened, made my own diagnosis from the findings, and I knew the outcome. I nodded slightly, and Carlisle took a deep breath before continuing.

"She's gone into coma. Her body has shut down due to the extreme damage that has been inflicted on her brain."

He stopped and turned slightly. Esme put her hand on his pleading with him silently.

"She won't live through the week."

Everyone gasped. Rose pushed her fist into her mouth stifling her scream. She bit down hard, and I knew it would scar. Alice looked at me determination hard on her face.

"You need to change her."

I stopped and stared at her. It was logical yes but was it right? This was something I had fought with internally for the past couple of weeks. After having Izzy in ways I could never have imagined, I couldn't picture her not standing by my side. My old self battled fiercely wanting to keep her safe, but I knew Izzy was now not the insecure breakable human I once protected. And this was what she had always wanted, wasn't it?

"You have to Edward. We can't loose her again. I won't let you dictate for this family not when she means so much to all of us. You need to change her."

I glanced up at the rest of my family. Hope ballooned on Esme and Rosalie's face while Carlisle looked thoughtful. Jasper and Emmett however exchanged a look that was cross between guilt and determination.

"I want to Alice. You can not believe how much I want to."

"NO!"

Alice and I both stared up as Emmett and Jasper stepped forth simultaneously. I frowned.

"You don't want Izzy to be a part of this family."

Emmett looked sheepishly at Jasper.

"Look I love Izzy more than anything, and, yes, I want her to be with us forever. But, think about this rationally man. She's been admitted into a human hospital. Brain damaged. Not expected to live. Do you think it sounds wise to turn her here and watch as she writhes and screams in pain when she's supposed to be brain dead? Too much attention."

"Attention," Jasper continued " is something we don't need. Think about it; the name Cullen coming up with a girl that miraculously survives a fatal accident."

"Then we take her."

Carlisle shook his head at Alice. "You can't. She won't survive without the machines.

"No you don't understand Carlisle. We take her."

Jasper sighed. "And what then Alice? A missing person tied in with the name Cullen? Just think of what that would mean for us? If the Volturi got a hold of this and undoubtedly it will get back to them."

Alice turned to stare daggers at her husband. "How?"

"You don't think they just let us run free here. We're a big coven with a lot of powers not to mention the whole newborn thing would have peaked their interest. We cannot let that kind of attention be drawn to us. I'm sorry."

Alice huffed throwing her hands up in the air. "Then you think of something. One way or another I am not losing my sister."

Not again.

I pulled Alice into my arms as she succumbed to her guilt and sadness. Jasper looked on forlorn while Emmett sucked in some air and puffed out his chest.

"Hey we have a week to think of something don't we?"

Carlisle nodded, but we both knew that short of a miracle nothing was going to save Izzy.