1Alright, I have a bit of time before I go off to do my hw, and I decided to write this and add another drabble...hmm, I was working on Amorous Covenant, and I kind of was like in Chase/Reid mood...finally, I'm working on AC, so for those of you know who've read it, expect the next chapter soon, well, not too soon, cause of school...
Also, I'm thinking on AT, and I think I got a few drabbles in my head, that I just need to type up, so also expect stuff there...wow...I'm going all out, huh? Lol, anyways! Thankz for the reviews! Have really made my weekend! W00T!
Title: Maybe
Pairing: Chase.Reid
Warning: Umm...angst...
Summary: it was wrong to feel this way...but he was happiest when with him...
Maybe
The music swarmed around him, pushing against him, into him. The walls were pressing him together, suffocating him, surrounding him. The darkness was down on him, trapping him, blinding him, drowning him.
His breath came in short gasps, eyes tightly shut.
He hid his head in his knees, arms wrapped tightly around them. His back pressed against the wall as he huddled as much as he could for warmth.
There was nothing...he was nothing...
The whole school was silent...there was no one outside, walking...he was alone...utterly alone...
God, did it hurt...
He felt so many things...he wanted to claw his skin off, he wanted to rip his heart out...he just wanted release...
A choked sob escaped his lips, meshing with the surrounding music...unable to break the suffocating spell around him.
He could still feel it...feel him...on his skin...
His soft touches...his caresses...his breath upon his ear...his whole body tingle at the memory...but it was wrong...it was wrong to wish for such touches...it was wrong for him to miss him...
Everything had been too good...he had been too good...but he had been so caring...so warm...
His eyes had shined with tenderness...his mouth had quirked into a small smile...
But now...now it was all over...now...he had nothing...
It dawned on him...that he had never been happier than when he was with him...
He couldn't help but let out a bitter laugh...a laugh that bounced of the walls and back to him, taunting him...haunting him...
He had made him happier than anyone...Him, who had wanted him dead...Him, who would have killed him...Him, who died...
Tears streamed down his blue eyes...blond hair lying limp, without its usual splendor...
He was a pale color, eyes sunken in with dark circles around his eyes...he knew they worried about him...but they don't know...they can't know...they won't know...
He lowered his knees and arms. He leaned his head against the wall and laughed...he laughed until he couldn't breath anymore...
Maybe he should have killed him...then, he wouldn't be here suffering...
Maybe...he had been truthful...maybe he had cared...
Maybe...
He should go and ask him...
The End...
Yes, that was depressing...suicidal Reid...need to stop writing those...umm, anyways! Review and tell me what ya think, and thankz annekoril for your input on Chase! W00T! Hope you enjoy the rest of my writings! Or at least, most of em! Lol, and remember! Love you all!